I WAS about to answer him, when my phone rang. Tunatawag si Yandrich.
"Mommy, what time are you going home?" His sleepy voice makes me smile. I looked at Desmond to excuse myself. He just nodded. "I'm almost done here, love. I'll be there" Sabi ko, hindi na ako lumingon kay Desmond kahit ramdam ko ang titig niya sa akin. "Okay, Mommy. Ingat ka po, I love you!" He excitedly said. "I love you too, love. see you!" As I ended the call, inayos ko na ang mga gamit ko na nakakalat sa mesa. Desmond also help me but he's not talking. He looked pissed and annoyed. "I'm sorry about that." I said as soon as I finished to keep my things. "Anyway thank you for your offer but, may magsusundo sa akin. I'm leaving." Sabi ko sa kanya at umambang tatayo na ng bigla siyang nag salita. "Mukha nga." pabulong niyang sabi and tsked. He looks annoyed as I look at him. Why? "Ha?" Patay-malisya kong sabi kahit narinig ko naman ang sinabi niya. "I ask if ang boyfriend mo ba ang susundo sayo?" So that's the reason why he's annoyed? Akala niya ay boyfriend ko ang kausap ko kanina sa telepeno. Pero bakit naman siya maiinis? Hanggang ngayon ang hirap niya pa ring basahin. "Bye, Mr. Velasquez. Our company is looking forward on working with you." He didn't look at me but nodded his head. Napailing na lang ako sa inasta niya. Pakiramdam ko tulos nagseselos siya. "Stop it, Yvonne. Stop being delulu." pagsesermon ko sa sarili ko. NANG MAKALABAS ako sa restaurant ay bumungad sa akin ang malaking ngiti ni Nick sa hindi kalayuan. I smiled and waved at him. "Hi, beautiful." Sabi ni Nick ng marating ko ang kinaroroon niya. He took my stuff and opened the door for me. "Hi, thank you. Sa pagsundo kanina ko pa gustong umuwi." He told me na dadaanan niya ako since along the way naman daw siya. "Why?How did it go?" Inabot ni Nick sa akin ang mga gamit ko ng makapasok at makaupo ako sa loob ng sasakyan. I looked at him and was about to talk when a baritone voice of a familiar man echoed on my ears. "It's nice seeing you again, Ms. Ramirez." Desmond said while looking intensely kay Nick na napalingon rin dito. I don't know but he sounds annoying. Imaasar niya ba si Nick? "Desmond" Sabi ni Nick at tinitigan ito ng masama. "Nicklaus" Desmond smirked and look at me and smiled na para bang mas iniinis niya si Nick. I don't know why he's doing this but Nick look annoyed and Desmond's enjoying his reaction. Desmond knows Nick since magkaibigan sila noon, but for unknown reasons they got into a fight and never reconcile again. Nick closed the car's door at hinarap si Desmond. I can smell trouble. "I didn't know you're Ms. Ramirez's boyfriend." Sa kinauupuan ko ay tanaw ko ang nakakunot na noo ni Nick. Gusto kung lumabas pero nahaharangan ni Nick ang pinto. Para bang ayaw niya akong palabasin kaya nakadungaw na lang ako sakanila sa bintana. "Why should you know?" Nagulat ako ng hindi itinanggi ni Nick ang sinabi ni Desmond. I know he has a feelings for me but... I don't want people to think differently. Alam kong concerned lang siya sa akin pero kapang hindi siya tumanggi ay baka iba ang isipin ng iba. I don't want to burden him anymore. "Tell Yandrich I said hi." Desmond said to me ignoring Nick and waived his hands to bid goodbye. "What!? You know my son?" Nick blurted, nagulat ako sa sinabi ni Nick paano kung may makarinig na ibang tao ang tungkol sa anak ko. I don't want to drag him into this mess. So I tried to open the car but it was locked already, Nick locked it. "Let's go, Nick. Please?" I begged and pulled the hem his shirt ng akmang magsasalita pa ito. He was so annoyed with Desmond. Desmond left with his luxury car, at si Nick namab ay umikot papunta sa Driver seat. I know for sure that we'll fight over this. He still doesn't know that I know what happened after I left to Desmond. "He's your client? You're ex-husband is your client? He even knows Yandrich." Agad na sabi nito ng makapasok sa sasakyan. Malakas niya ring isinara ang pintuan ng sasakyan and grip the steering wheel rightly. "Yes." I simply replied. I tired to calm him down by holding and squeezing his hands but he looked at me angrily dahil sa sinabi ko that Desmon and I saw eadh other a lots of time and he knows ny son. "He can't remember me anyway. He won't suspect that Yandrich is his" wala sa sariling sabi ko ang looked at the window. "You knew?" I nodded at him. Of course his shock kasi hindi niya akalain na alam ko na ang nagyari. "How? When?" Gulong-gulong tanong niya. "Ally told me." I simply said. Napakunot ang noo niya. "Is that the reason why you approach him?" May halong pang-iinsulto niyang sabi. "Why? Gusto mo bang maalala ka niya ulit?" Halos pasigaw na sabi ni Nick na ikinagulat ko. Why is he acting this way? "He can't remember you now, but it doesn't mean that theres no possibility that he will soon enough." Hinampas niya ang steering wheel kaya naman halos mapalukso ako sa gulat. He's never been like this. "What if you trigger his memory? Paano si Yandrich? Paano ka!?" Pagpapatuloy niya pa. "Akala mo ba hindi ko na isip yan, Nick!?" I shouted back ta him. He doesn't know how it pains me everytime I saw Desmond. Bumabalik lahat ang sakit at sakripisyo ko tuwing nakikita ko siya. "Even though he remembers you, you know that he will always choose Samantha!" He was blinded by his anger. Parang hindi niya naririnig ang explanation ko. "Umaasa ka pa rin ba na magiging kayo? Dahil lang sa kinakausap kaniya ngayon?" "He just talked to you because he can't remember you." tuloy-tuloy niyang sabi. "STOP THE CAR! BABA AKO!" Sigaw ko kaya naman ay natauhan siya. He stopped the car and finally looked at me. "I'm sorry. I'm just worried about you and Yandrich." "Desmond won't do anything good for the two of you." " I know that! Kaya nga pilit akong lumalayo sa kanya, but I don't know why I keep seeing him." I shouted at him. Wala siyang ideya kung gaano ko gustong layuan ang lalaki na yun. Alam kong concerned lang si Nick sa amin pero ying isisi sa akin ang mga nagyayari ay mali. Sobrang mali. Para bang ang sinasabi ko ay pinagsisiksikan ko ang sarili ko kay Desmond. Of all people he should know how much I hate that ex-husband of mine. "I don't have an idea na hindi si Mr. Montez ang client ko!" Sigaw ko pa, dahil inis na inis ako sa mga sinasabi niya. Ni hindi niya man lang ako pinakingggan. "You don't know how much I want to run as I saw him sit in front of me earlier." Nanggigilid na ang mga luha sa mga mata ko dahil sa inis kay Desmond and Nick. "Let's just go, Yandrich is waiting for me." Sabi ko kay Nick na agd din namang mainigat na pinaandar ang kotse. Buong biyahe ay tahimik kami, he looked so pissed, I'm pissed at him too. "Ms. Ramirez may naghahanap po sa iyo." Bilang sabi ng guard kasunod nito ang lalaking pamilyar ang hubog ng katawan "Sino po, Manong?" "Desmond Velasquez daw po, kliyente niyo." Tinigan ko ang lalaking kasunod ng guard na may bitbit na pagkain. "Desmond..."AS DESMOND entered the room, halos lahat ng mata ng mga kasama ko ay nakatingin sa kanya. Some of the trainees giggled and whispered about how good looking he is. He's wearing a white polo shirt na nakabukas ang dalawang butones and the sleeves are folded hanggang sa kanyang siko. Napailing na lang ako at tinignan siya. He's looking directly at me na para bang ako lang ang tao sa opisina. Pero ang lubos na agaw pansin sa kanya ay ang pink na paper bag na may logo ng paborito ko na cafe. Hindi bagay sa suot niya. "Hungry?" Ani nito ng makadating sa tabale ko at itinaas ang paper bag na dala niya. Labis ang pagtataka ko kung bakit sa paborito kong cafe siya bumili. Baka coincidence lang. "Hi, I'm here to discuss the final design. Are you free?" Napalingon ako sa mga ka officemate ko na nagbubulungan, paniguradong tatanungin nila ako kung sino ang lalaking nasa harapan ko ngayon. "Okay..." Bago ko pa man matapos ang sasabihin ko ay lumaput sa amin ang boss ko para batiin si Des
AFTER our lunch break, ay agad kaming bumalik dahil may naghihintay pa sa aking trabaho. Kung hindi nga lang ako nainis sa sagutan ng dalawa kanina ay natapos ko na sana ang trabaho ko. "Nick, can we talk after work? I'll finish it right away so we could talk" Tumingin ako kay Desmond para ipahayag na ito nagtrabahong tinutukoy ko. He's my client so he's a priority. "Okay, I'll wait for you." He just smiled and kissed my forehead na ikinagulat ko. I know he's sweet but we're in public at baka ma misinterpret ng iba. It may be normal to us but to other people? They might give meaning to it. Buti na lang ay kilala naman halos ng ka officemate ko na kaibigan ko lang si Nick After Nick left ay nakabusangot pa rin nag mukha ni Desmond. Para itong batang inagawan ng candy. What's his problem? Napailing na lang ako. "Let's go to the meeting room." Pag aaya ko dito para naman may privacy kaming mag-usap. I looked at him before speaking but he still look mad for some reason. Mayb
MAAGA akong gumising dahil medyo malayo ang lakad ko ngayon, its 2 hours drive from our house. When I arrived Desmond was already there leanint on the hood of his car, behind him is the house they plan to renovate. "Good Morning. Breakfast?" He said and offered me a paper bag of a known fast food chain. His favorite. Ano ba Yvonne stops going back to the past where he can't even remember you exist. "Good Morning. I already ate." I said politely at pinagmasdan ang kabuohan ng bahay. It's old but still beautiful. Vintage. His grandparents house na ayaw nilang patirahan sa amin noong mag-asawa pa kami. How funny. "Can you join me? It's lonely to eat alone." He insisted. He's still leaning on his car biting on his burger. Honestly I haven't eaten pero nakakahiya naman na humingi ako diba? I walked towards him and took the paper bag in his hands. Doon ko lang na realize na dalawa pala ang binili, so he bought this for me? Or maybe he's expecting someone, at ako yung unang dumating
“Congratulations Mrs. Velasquez, you're 8 weeks pregnant!” Tila tumigil ang mundo ko sa mga katagang binigkas ng OB ko. I have a hunch na baka buntis ako, but now that I heard it hindi ko alam kung anong mararamdaman ko. I’m happy, and afraid at the same time. I’m gonna be a mother! Magkaka-anak na kami ni Desmond. I can’t wait to see his reaction. “COME home early tonight, Desmond. We’ll have dinner together.” I was planning to tell him on our special day about our soon-to-be baby. “Okay.” Sagot ni Desmond sa kabilang linya. Ilang linggo na rin simula ng malaman ko na buntis ako. Hindi naman naging mahirap ang pagpipigil kong sabihin kay Desmond kasi may business trip siya ng mga nakaraang linggo at sakto uuwi na siya ngayon. Tonight, on the last minute of our wedding anniversary, I'll tell him about my pregnancy. FOR the nth time I look at the clock,It’s already 9PM pero wala pa rin siya. I tried calling him but he never answered. I’m getting worried so I called Enzo, on
SUMALUBONG sa amin ang familiar simoy ng hangin, it’s been 5 long years since I left this country. When I left we ended our relationship that day, inilan ko na ang oras ko sa anak ko. Buti na lang kahit hindi ako maswerte sa pag-ibig ay maswerte ako sa kaibigan. Nick and Ally didn't left me, since the day Desmond left me for her ay hindi ako iniwan ng mga kaibigan ko.A small hand pulled the hem of my shirt so I bent down so that I could face him. Ang laki na ng anak ko, at sa paglaki niya ay mas lalo niyang nagiging kamukha ang kanyang ama.“Mommy, Will I see daddy?.” Malumanay na tawag sa akin ng 4 years old kong anak. “Yes baby, you will see him in a bit.” I smiled and kissed his cheeks.“I’m almost there.” Ani ng lalaking kausap ko sa telepono.“I can’t wait to see you two. I missed you” May bahid na sayang sambit niya.“Okay, see you” I’m really thankful to have him with us, he never gave up on me during those tough times and because of him I was able to raise Yandrich well. “
HINDI ako makagalaw sa kinatatayuan ko ng magtama ang mata namin. Bakit siya nandito? I look at them again na papalapit na sa akin. I don't know what to do. But I need to keep my self composed ayaw kong isipin nila na apektado pa rin ako sa nangyari noon, limang taon ng nakalipas. I want them to see that I don't fear them aymore, that I moved on. Desmond was with Samatha na parang ahas kung makahawak sa braso ni Desmond. Kasama rin niya ang kanyang ina na lumilisik ang mga matang tinitignan ako. I look at them confidently, taas noo ko silang sinalubong. Hindi na ako magpapa apekto sa kanila, I won't let them ruin me again. "Good Evening, Mrs. Velasquez. Long time no see." sabi ko at nakibeso rito. "You... What are you doing here?" bulong nito. I just smiled at her brightly. Halata sa mata nito ang pagkagulat dahil sa inakto ko hindi rin ito nakapagsalita ulit agad. Kaya naman binati ko na rin si Desmond at Samantha. Marahil ay akala nito ay iiwasan ko sila, too bad I'm no the same
AS I ARRIVED on our house bumungad sa akin ang anak kong naalimpungatan ata, dahil kinukusot pa nito ang kanyang mata. Halatang kakagising lang. He looks so cute on his blue shark pajamas. Nawala lahat ang pagod ko ng makita ko siya. He was really a godsent to me. "Mommy..." He said and yawned. "I was looking for you. Why are you matagal?" his sleepy voice make him even more cuter kaya naman hindi ko na napigila ang saili ko na pangigilan siya. I can't believe na galing siya sa akin. He wasn't planned but my son is the most wonderful thing happened to me despite of all that happened. "Nightmares?" Tumango siya kaya naman binuhat ko na siya papunta sa kwarto niya. "Kanina ka po niya ma'am hinahanap, naka idlip lang po kakahintay. Kaso ayaw ka naman po niyang tawagan, baka daw po busy kayo" malumanay na sabi ni Jorgie, she's Yandrich baby sitter. "I'm sorry, baby. Mommy was so busy earlier." I kissed his head at hinaplos ang likod niya. "It's okay,mommy. I understand." Halos pabul
"AN ACCIDENT?" I don't know what to say and react sa lahat ng nalaman ko kaya pala he told me at the exhibit nait was the first time he saw me because he couldn't remember me. Desmond got into an accident and forgot about me. I don't know what to feel. I feel numb."He got into a car accident. It is said that he forgot the recent years of his memories that day." Allyson said and looked directly into my eyes. Reading my emotions kung magpapatuloy ba siya. "Their family didn't elaborate on the information about what happened, but the only thing I know is that he doesn't remember that two years you two are married." She continued. "I don't know if I will be happy or what." I awkwardly laugh. "If he forgot about me then I don't have to worry anymore about Yandrich." But there is something inside me telling me something different. "But, why didn't you tell me?" Wala sa wisyo kong tanong. I'm buried on my thoughts and feelings. Naguguluhan ako sa nararamdaman ko."We don't want to stre