"I'll do whatever you want, I'll marry you if you promise to help my husband" " Help him pay off his loans so he can live a good life" Those were my words, as I divorced my one true love, I broke his heart , I stood before him, spunning lies, of how I couldn't stay, that my heart belonged to another, and he was nothing to me. He wouldn't let me go, if I didn't take it on me to hurt him with those words. I did it all for him. I married someone else but for his sake. It was a deal, a contract, and I had to give in just for his sake. Years later, he returns, Now the town's most successful billonaire, he isn't the same man I know, he desires revenge and he's back as my new neighbor. Doing everything to get my attention. He wants to break me, he wants to hurt me. If only he knew the real reason why I left. If he knew about the contract, the secrets, the deal. He doesn't care about my marriage status. He's desperate, as his eyes searches mine, his hands holding me in place possessively. "Why did you leave me?
Lihat lebih banyak"How could you? My hands trembled, my eyes burned, I felt the lump on my throat, as I swallowed.
I held in the salty taste, maintaining my composure, when all I wanted to do right now, was break apart.
Fuck, I love her, the thought alone was breaking me, it was killing me, I was going to go mad, Imagining a life without her was terrible.
I felt like a drug addict, I could already feel the symptoms of staying away from the one person who meant everything to me
" What do you mean? Tell me it's not true" I struggled with myself, not willing to accept the truth.
"There must be a way out" I continued
"There's none" her face did not reveal any emotions.
" I'm sorry that it had to end this way, but I can't continue, not with you"
Her words broke the last straw of whatever hope I was clinging unto.
" Fuck you Lyssa"
"I'm really sorry, but you have to let me go" her eyes were dark.
"I want to be with Jedd"
I clenched my fist, my body vibrating and heating up.
I was mad at myself, mad at the world, mad at tess.
I felt useless.
Why did she stay with me knowing I had nothing,
Why did I believe our love was true!?
It was tho, not until Jedd crashed into our lives.
Jedd was wealthy, and he could give her everything
I was livid with rage thinking about it all, I wanted to burst, wanted to get rid of this burning sensation.
Instead I stared at her, doing nothing but watch.
"I'm really sorry Rev" every time she apologized felt like a knife cutting through my heart.
"I really can't live without you" I looked down.
"Don't leave me" the anger, the pain, and yet I was pleading.
She was the colors in my life, she was my will to live.
She was leaving me to marry someone else.
I could not stand it, I couldn't do anything.
I could only fall to her feet, if only it'd make her change her mind.
I could not imagine her with someone.
She turned, her jaw set.
Then it dawned on me.
She had made her choice.
It was all a lie, Everytime she told me she loved me, Everytime she told me she wanted me.
Memories of us together hurt, I wanted to tear them off my head.
To get rid of her from my heart.
I did nothing but watch her go, my world crumbling.
It's been three weeks since she left, I stood scrolling at pictures of her and Jedd.
Their wedding photo shoot.
She looked good, radiant, than she'd ever been with me.
This was for good, at least she was happy.
Yet the torment I felt, the jealousy induced raged as I saw jedd's hands placed over her waist hit me hard.
She was mine, if only I was wealthy, if I was like Jedd a well known CEO , I would have kept her.
She would have been with me.
I promised myself right from the moment she left that I'd be famous.
I'd be a billonaire, I'll make both she and Jedd pay.
For every hurt, for everything they put me through.
Jedd reminded me of everything I wanted to be, that I couldn't be.
He reminded me too much of my own flaws.
Allyssa
I felt terrible, I could still remember holding back the tears as I stood before him asking for a divorce.
The way I'd pretended to be strong, the way I acted like he meant nothing,that our love was nothing.
This was not what I wanted, but what I had to do.
I kept the photos aside.
Photos of I and Jedd together.
I still could not take away the sight of his face, the way he begged, his eyes filled with pain.
"Mummy"
I looked up to see Essy, her cheerful smile was infectious.
She dashed towards me, wrapping her arms around me.
"How was school? I asked.
" Not so fun, but good " she smiled as I stroked her hair.
" This " she took the photo shoot smiling sweetly.
" This is so pretty, my mom and Dad are very cute" she smiles
" You're cute too" I pressed a kiss on her nose..
" I'm so lucky to have you"
" You're the sweetest little thing" I held her close.
" We're lucky to have each other" I replied as she kissed my cheek.
I was lucky to have her, to have all this.
Yet the ache remained, hidden and locked.
Rev Montago was my first love, and the thing with first love was that you didn't forget them easily.
They were a part of you, locked in hidden corners of your heart.
Jedd made his way to me, his eyes sparkling.
" Thank you Lyssa"
I could see from his eyes how grateful he was.
" Thank you for being with me" he continued
"words can't really express how grateful..."
" It's okay Jedd" I stopped him
" It really is"
" Uggh you both have to look at me" Essy half yelled.
Jedd smiled.
My eyes focused on Essy, her dance moves.
The way she flowed, she was free, her hands and body swaying in perfect rhythm.
She was smiling.
It was a happy moment, I was happy.
I wished her to be happy always.
That she would not get into a situation where she had to choose over her happiness like I did.
I didn't regret it tho, it was because of the choice I made that I found her.
It was because of it that Rev would live a good life.
I didn't mind if it did not include me, the only thing that mattered was that he could live well.
He could get everything he wanted.
He could get the right opportunity, he could pay off his debt.
It was the only condition I'd given.
I signed the contract, it could benefit us both.
I could be useful to Jedd, and he in turn could help Rev.
Lyssa."Can you help me? Jedd asked." Is there something you need help with?"A photoshoot""Uhm..""The both of us, I really need help with this" " Please " he added." It's really important "I nod," Let's do it then "I replied.The magazine shooting was much more intense than I thought it could be.It required that we stayed close to each other.It was much closer than I would have wanted but I did it anyways.It was just to help Jedd.The pictures were beautiful, but the positions felt very intimate.It had bothered me when Jedd slipped his arms around my waist or when he touched me.Jedd was professional and this was buisness, a contract, and a magazine shoot.This was me helping out, I had no choice.But still I thought of Rev seeing the pictures.I waved out the thought.There was no way he could see it."Thank you" Jedd came in, his eyes on me."The pictures are preety and perfect" his eyes sparkled."Thank you for everything Lyssa""It's okay Jedd" I smiled at him, my mind
REVI Picked up the phone, it was juls."How are you doing? She asked" I'm good, how are you? How's mom?"We're fine, everything is great?" I hope you're still not hung about that woman?"Of course not" I replied, I was gradually moving on."Good, I saw her and Jedd at Lauren's event"Those words pricked me.So much for moving on, I still could not admit that I thought about her randomly, and it still hurts."Are you still there? Julie asked." Of course Juls "I replied." What did you say to her?I already knew she wasn't going to leave so quietly."I said what I had to" she said and I sighed."Don't tell me you still care about that woman"I rubbed my head."No"" Anyways I'll call you later, I've something to catch up on "After the call, all I could think of was Jedd and Lyssa, and it ruined my mood.I'd still not forgotten my plans for revenge, I could make them both pay.I concentrated on work, but I couldn't anymore, I sighed.It's been two months.Walking to the bar across th
I arrived at the mansion in Los Angeles.Mr Montago had properties in like ten different countries.The mansion had everything, it didn't lack in terms of luxury.An elderly woman stayed in the mansion.She was instructed by my father to take up on my needs.I was stunned by the glamour of the rooms, the king sized bed, the designs, and everything.My first mansion could have more than this,"Is there anything you want? the chef interrupted my thoughts." No, I'm good"I repliedShe smiled." Call on me,when you need anything" she said and I nodded, knowing fully well that the only thing I needed at this point, was to work hard and achieve my goals.I've received details of the company, and I could meet them the next day.Any goal, any dream could be achievable,it just needed me to work hard, it needed my determination.And I could definitely give my all.In one of the rooms, I sat thinking of the best way to draft my presentation.What change did I want to impact, what could possibly
Lyssa.Rin walked in, a warm smile on her face."Could we go out? Like old times?" No" I replied, I definitely was not in the mood to do so." You know Rev's left? She asked"Yes" I replied"And see the way it's made you" she grinned."Did he tell you of his plans? She asked"Yes he did" "And I replied like it didn't matter, like I didn't care, when all I wanted was to stop him, to tell him not to leave, I only stood there saying nothing, saying words that made no sense to me, when I could scream of my love for him, of the things I could sacrifice just for my love for him.I swallowed the words."You didn't try stop him ? Rin asked." Why would I?"Stop acting like you don't care"Of course, she was right." Who knows? He might come back with someone new? I met Rin's eyes, and she laughed." Just saying" she teased, and I looked away.It was possible, that he'd forget me, I could not even imagine it.The thought of him with another woman."At least, everything is going smoothly, m
REVThe elderly man with a huge smile standing in front of me, was the man I just texted.This man was my father, it was him, and I couldn't even doubt it.His face reminded me so much of Julie, I could even see part of me, this was exactly how my nose was curved, his full lips, he was definitely my father."Son, good to have you" his eyes danced all over me in delight."I know you have lots of questions, come with me first"I followed him, I indeed had lots of questions. The only way I could get answers was to do exactly as he said, and I did Just that.The mansion was huge and everything about it screamed of wealth, including the help's who were in neat uniforms.The cars, the men who followed him, and everything, including The high ceilings, adorned with intricate moldings and glittering chandeliers, seemed to stretch up to the sky. The walls, painted a soft, creamy white, were lined with floor-to-ceiling windows that allowed the warm sunlight to pour in.Everything was perfect.A
While on the plane, I could only think of Lyssa.I had not said goodbye.I didn't want to, seeing her again could break my last resolve.I would want to keep staying, even if it meant torture.I still could not get her off my head, not while the two couples on the other seat were so lovey dovey It reminded me of her, of what we used to be, of what we've becomed.I looked away from them, and closed my eyes.My mom didn't know of this trip, neither did julie.I didn't tell them in details, only that I was leaving time for a while.I had to meet him first, fuck.I had to know how he felt comfortable, leaving his family to perish.My thoughts did not linger much on his.The next minute, they were on Lyssa'sI was once again, reminiscing old memories."Are you angry? She asked peering at my face" No" I replied."Tell me what I did wrong""The guy who dropped you off" I said and she smiled "It was nothing, I missed the bus, and he wanted to help""Are you jealous?" No I'm not"" I shoul
I struggled with myself, I should not care, but deep down I didn't want him to go.I wanted to see him, even if we were no longer together.How could my heart take it if he left?Still I could not let him know it my true feelings, I knew he wanted me to stop him.To say something, he was waiting for a signal, a hope.If I dashed his hope, he could finally believe that we meant nothing to each other.He could be free to carry on his life, I would no longer be an obstruction on his path.Rev needed to be free, he needed to dream, and I felt it could not be achieved if I stayed."You should go, it would be for the best" I said, and his eyes clouded, my heart shattered too...What I wanted was for him to stay, if he left, how many years would he choose to stay away?.My heart would ache everything, I would miss him, yearn for him, but I cjosed to shut him off."You didn't ask why" his eyes narrowed."I don't need to know why, it's your choice, and it's for the best" I swallowed."I haven'
I stayed up late, my mind wandering on the text,I was definitely going to go see him.I wanted to know the reasons why he'd left, and also Why he'd stayed away from us, all those years.I'd received another text the moment that Julie left.A message from my father, urging me to come to California, and that he could further all expenses and that it was very urgent.I needed answers, and for that I was going to leave.The building was already almost completed, I could Leave anytime I wanted to.But first I needed time again with my wife, I wanted to hear her, maybe see her one more time before leaving.Finally accepting that it was over between us, that we were done for good, and that there was nothing left to look back to.I wondered what mom could think of this?She's always be anxious whenever we mentioned our Dad, to her he never existed, and she made sure both I and Julie knew that the only one that existed for both of us was her.I could not tell her about this, most importantly
I closed the windows, blocking away those memories.How long Could I bear this torture?This was how it felt when you could not be close to someone you love.We were so close, yet so faraway.I've convinced myself repeatedly, that this was the right decision.I could live with Rev's hate, I could live with the torment, but I could not live without him.And so whatever it took, I was willing to pay that price.Even if I wasn't part of his future happiness, I could be happy that I was part of what made it possible.REV.The windows closed, and I breathed in.Images of her beautiful face still in my head.The building construction was moving on fast, and in three weeks time, the house would be ready.And I could be out of here, but I could not approach her till the last day I could spend hereI could look for her, and pour out my feelings, regardless of if Jedd was there or not.She was my wife, and I still yearned for her no matter the pains, she has put me through.I Still believe that
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