NICOLE
`I DON`T FUCK clients`It was all coming together and I felt like a homewrecker lusting over a married man.“Damn it, Nance! Can`t. I got a client. What do you mean Sy has a fever? Fine, I`m on my way over”That statement ran in my head for more minutes than I could count.Hot muscular grumpy Cannon had a wife and a kid. A kid who had a fever and we were rushing to get to. I didn`t think that a man like him had a family.He didn`t look like the type of man to settle down and as soon as I thought about it, I felt like whipping myself for having a thing for him. Though I couldn`t call it a thing, it was more of a sexual fantasy of having him on top of me, his crude words making me come, his guttural voice making my core drip and his dick.Oh God, that big dick doing sinful very sinful things to me.“You, okay?”He asked and I stayed mute nodding my head. I hated that look of concern in his eyes. No man looked at me like that, like he wanted to worship my body, punish me and somehow at the same time show me what love is.“I’m going to need words, princess”“I’m fine”, I fought the urge to bark at him.I fought the urge to ask him why he didn`t tell me he had a wife. I fought the urge to ask him why he spanked me when he had a wife and a son waiting for him God knew where.Though, knowing he had a wife wouldn`t have stopped me because Cannon had a way of making ladies swoon over him. Of making ladies drop their panties to the floor just for him to have a taste of them. And I , being among the women`s population wanted nothing more than to spread my legs for him.“You don`t sound fine to me”, he spoke, eyes on the road barely giving me a glance.My heart sunk.My pussy wept.“You didn`t tell me you had a wife and son”It was more of an accusation than a statement. It was more of me trying to get an answer from him that would ease whatever it was I was feeling and justify the fact that I wasn`t lusting over a man who was married.“I didn`t think I owed you a God damn explanation about my personal life”, he retorted piercing my curiosity with the sharpest arrow in his quiver.The ball was in his court and he straight away made it known that he didn`t give a shit about it. He didn`t give a shit about me.“I want Jason back”, I said because I was tired of Cannon. Tired of being this needy.“He`s on another mission”, he said dryly.“Then I want to go home”“That isn`t an option either”Jesus Christ, I hated him and his stupid escalade that smelled like him. Pure masculine scent of sandalwood, musk and spice.“You can`t just expect me to stay with you and follow you everywhere you go as if am your fucking golden retriever”“I never said you are a dog”“What`s really happening? I can`t leave your house, we live somewhere off grid and now you are driving us to who knows where to who knows who”“Everything I do is for your security so sit back like a good kid and trust me”Trust him?“I barely know you enough to trust you! For all I know you could be a regular man under the pretense of being a bodyguard”“Ask?”“What?”“You don`t trust me. Ask what you don`t trust about me”He was being serious even though he didn`t look me in the eye and tell me that. He was being serious.“But I also get to ask questions”, he interrupted sharply.“Who`s Nance and Sy?”Part of me prayed that they were his family, maybe then this forbidden lust going on in my body would dissipate. The other part of me prayed they were his friends, that he wasn`t married, that he didn`t have a girlfriend.“Sister and nephew”Relief coursed through my veins like a cooling ointment. I tried to evade looking at his powerful jaw and at his arm muscles that flexed underneath that shirt.Nance was his sister! He wasn`t married. He didn`t have a son! He was- no, I couldn`t just assume that, I had to ask.“You have a girlfriend?”He stayed quiet nearly dwindling my hopes.“Don`t have time for drama”So no to the question. He didn`t have a girlfriend and he didn`t plan on having one either. That might of sort of crushed me a bit.What was I expecting? A damn Navy in love with one woman? That was impossible.“Why? Why can`t I go back home or have my phone? Why has my dad not called to ask about me?”Not that he regularly called to check up on me. His main concerns were where I was and whether I was upholding the Montenegro name.“He got involved in some bad shit with some bad people and now, they want to kidnap you and use you for leverage against your dad”“They what? Why didn`t you tell me sooner?”“When could I have told you? When you smacked me with a pan or when you locked yourself in my room for eight God damn hours?”He had counted? Oh god, he had counted how many hours I was in that room being mad at him?“I`m sorry about the pan and everything else thereafter but I really need to talk to my dad. I need to find out whether he`s okay”“He can`t talk but I assure you he`s fine”For the first time in forever I saw his genuineness in his beautiful dark eyes. No one had tried to comfort me not even my so-called friends Jill and Becky. Frankly the only reason they were with me was because I got them access to elite clubs and gave them a pass every time the cops stopped them for DUI.“Okay”I muttered my eyes glancing outside the windows of his heavily tinted Escalade. I didn`t even want to ask but I knew this thing could handle a bomb ambush. I once asked my former bodyguard, Jason about the bomb thing and he replied it with, `You have a wild imagination, when you are drunk miss`.“My turn”, he said his voice husky.“Why were you mad?”The thing with Cannon, he could be mysterious when he wanted to and talkative when he felt the need to. Right now? He was damn well being mysterious. Trying to bring up the very sore subject that not only made my clit throb but also my mind replay his hand on my ass spanking me till I cried shrilly like I hadn`t before.“Y-You rejected me”As humiliating as it was for me to say that out loud.“I didn`t do shit”“Yeah, well where I come from, spanking a woman`s ass and leaving her high and dry counts as rejecting her”, I said dryly.Then the weirdest thing happened. He laughed. A low satisfying heavy laughter that had my insides turning into mush and my heart overwhelmed. I did that. I made him laugh.“Yeah, laugh it all. No one ever wants to fuck the rich spoilt brat"His smile faded and he growled nearly making me squirm in my seat.“You are not a brat"“Everyone else thinks so”And I made no effort to correct them because many are the times, I was caught acting like a pampered spoilt princess by the sneaky paparazzi.“I don`t think so”, he said, hands on the steering wheel looking like the big Commando he was.“Then why did you not fuck me?”I was bold and once I uttered that statement there was no going back. I wasn`t buying the whole I didn`t fuck clients shit. Cannon didn`t look like a man who followed orders from anyone or followed any code of conduct. He did things his way and how he fucking wanted them.“I`m not your boy toy but your bodyguard. Fucking wasn`t listed when I got hired to protect you”God, I wanted to punch him. I wanted to kick him. I wanted to cuss out loud. I didn`t have dignity. I, the Nicole Montenegro didn`t have a shred of dignity inside me.“I`m giving you consent”It came out as a whisper in the wind and the air had never felt so dense like it did now.“Get in the back”, he ordered and my eyes widened in alarm.“Get in the fucking back, Nicole!”His voice harder than it had ever been, I unbuckled my seatbelt and he stopped the car by the side of the road, getting out of the escalade and coming to my side of the door to open it for me.His face unsmiling, I swallowed a huge lump of saliva getting out of the car and going to the back door, huddling myself inside the rear seat. Not understanding what was happening, Cannon got inside with me.“I don`t understand what`s- ““Let`s fucking do this”And before I could object to anything, his hand snuck inside the baggy sweatpants I wore and I shuddered with lust.CANNONCOME THE FUCK ON. She really thought I didn`t want to fuck her? That was the one thing going in my fucking mind since I saw her naked.And spoilt? Not gonna lie, I thought she was spoilt the very first time I saw her but that changed the minute she tried to bribe me with money and sex with a slightly unsure look on her.Spoilt princesses didn't bribe someone with sex with an unsure face. I had a fucked a few to know the difference between lying and trying to sound tough and she was the lot that was trying to survive by putting up a wall of bad decisions and a trail of bad shit like being naked in a music festival for attention. Plus I doubt she had money to bribe me perse. Her dad was the one funding this whole bullshit babysitting, so money was a no.But sex? I was tempted. So fucking tempted.Guns and sex were my life and I was fucking satisfied but here I was years later, worshipping a pussy like it was the only shit and anchor holding me together.I didn`t think.With her, t
NICOLE“I know that face. He said something mean to you, didn`t he?”“He can be an ass but Callan`s a good man”“Being in the marines made him like that. Once he returned, he didn`t trust anybody and he didn`t let anyone except me get to see the real him”“Whatever he did or said to you, I apologize for it”“You seem like a good girl, Nicole not what those journalists published about you. You don`t look like a junkie to me? Heck, you`ve only said good things about me and my house since you got here”“I saw how you two were looking at each other. I don`t even want to ask why you have his clothes on you but if something`s going on, give him time. Don`t give up on him”Nancy had said all that to me before a stray bullet hit her from the back and she collapsed right in front of me. I had never been so scared and petrified in my whole entire life like at that very moment. Then all hell broke loose when two men appeared behind me gagging me before I could scream and warn Cannon, we had comp
CANNONFUCKIN HELL. I was going to find those motherfuckers and I would kill them.“You’ll have to stay with Noah for a little while”, I touched the kid who hadn’t stopped crying since his mother got pulled up in an ambulance.“I want to go with you, Uncle Cal”And my heart weighed like a fucking stone in my body. I had brought my shit to my sister’s porch and they were fucking paying the price. I shouldn’t have brought her here; I shouldn’t have fucking let my guard down and mixed my work with my personal life.I still had Nance`s blood on my hands and although I hadn’t cried like my nephew, my hands shook. Other people`s blood I could handle but not my sister’s. “Hey, I’ll come back for you, okay? Once I find the men that did this to your mom, I’ll come for you. We like Uncle Noah, right? He’ll protect you till mom gets better”And the kid let go of my leg as Gunner lifted him off the ground taking him in his hands. Tipping his chin at me he took Sy in his car and I fucking let a g
NICOLE“UNCLE GIOVANNI?” The need to run to him was great but my legs remain rooted. The man in front of me wasn’t the same man who’d come to our living room with a bunch of goodies for me and called me his sweet little niece.No, he wasn’t.The man in front of me was something far darker. His eyes glided down my cleavage and remained there the corners of his mouth stretching to a smirk. I stood there feeling as intimidated and as naked as ever. His hooded eyes had this gaze that made me swallow an invisible lump with fear.“You even more beautiful than I remember”, he commented standing up from the overpriced couch, his eyes never leaving mine for a second. The man who’d hit me earlier took a few steps back leaving me under the scrutiny of my supposed not blood related uncle who eyed me like a butcher in a slaughter house.“Uncle Giovanni—I-I don’t understand what’s happening but please let me go. Daddy will apologize for whatever he’s done” Because suddenly everything was clicking
CANNONKILL HIM FOR A SECOND TIME.I felt like killing that piece of shit for a second time as I glanced at her sleeping in my bed like a fucking princess and not the spoilt brat I knew of.I had fucked up the mission but I didn’t give a shit because Giovanni Vincenzo was six feet under. Taking down the sixteen guards at his compound was like a piece of fucking cake.Giovanni was a fool by hiring rookies who couldn’t hold their damn rifles well. Once I got a clear shot, I had shot him. I didn’t give a fuck if Flames wanted to be the one to end the damn bastard’s life or not.The minute I saw his dirty as fuck hands on her, my anger flared and I did the one thing I had come to do in his compound. Shoot his ass.My phone rang and I hesitantly picked it up leaving the bedroom.“What?”“How’s she?”Bad. Worse. Still unconscious.“Fucker didn’t do much damage to her”, I said scrubbing a hand over my face.“Got some bad news, Cannon”When was there not bad news?“One guard escaped. Berkely i
NICOLEMADE THE MISTAKE OF TOUCHIN YOU.Whatever guilt that had eaten me for the past few minutes dissipated into thin air as I glanced at the man in front of me.His gaze unwavering, his dark eyes closed in on me, I felt weak and intimidated. He was mere inches from me and I could smell his aftershave as well as his scent of musk and exotic spice and sex.Oh God, he oozed pleasure, passion, lust...whatever women felt when they spasmed under a man’s touch.I hated him for killing someone for me and I hated myself for bringing a man like him into my life. He didn’t need to be caught with the likes of men like Giovanni and he didn’t need my shit into his life.I was mad that our time together was coming to an end because believe it or not staying with him and challenging him had done me some good. He listened to me when I spoke, he gave me the attention I needed and maybe just maybe, that’s why I was acting like this.He saved me and right now, right here he had declared he didn’t like a
CANNONI’VE NEVER fingered myself. The fuck?She was a fucking virgin? It didn’t take a genius to figure out she was. For the first time since she stood in front of me, I freaking got tongue-tied. Nicole Montenegro, a virgin?I didn’t know whether to back off or to do what my dick was telling me to and fuck her real good. Except, I didn’t fuck virgins. I didn’t do the whole blood thing or assuring a female that it was going to be okay when it wasn’t going to.But fucking through a tight pussy messed with my head. I wanted to be the first one for her as messed up and as crazy as that seemed.“Callan. We don’t have to- ““Anyone ever been inside you?”Her languid eyes gazed at me and she nodded in denial, her cheeks beetroot red and fuck, that was hot.“No”Great. Fucking great because I felt privileged to be the first man to be inside her.“Why?”Her lips quavering with embarrassment, I placed my finger under her chin leveling my eyes with hers.“You saving it for someone special?”I a
NICOLE“TAKE A BREATH”, he instructed and I took one long inhale as the sharp pain that had appeared out of nowhere got replaced by something entirely unquenchable.Our eyes locked, he shoved deeper. His thick finger started moving inside of me and I moaned loudly like I hadn’t before.“You fucking like that?” he growled and I moved against his finger like a runner in her first fucking million-dollar marathon.My clit throbbed and Cannon was there to make sure I ripped apart in his arms till I was one hot mess. I felt myself about to erupt, I felt his finger drive me to the edge, I was about to-“Don’t”, he warned and I bit my lip in frustration knowing what he meant.“You fucking come when I tell you to come and it sure as hell isn’t now”, he growled before his lips once more left hot kisses against my neck.He bit me, he sucked my skin like it was this sweet nectar he couldn’t get enough of and every time I felt like convulsing and spasming under his touch. When his hot mouth took on
CASSANDRA BATESTHREE WEEKS OF INCONSISTENT NAGGING.I was so mad at him, I wanted to kick him in the shins for everything. But hurting him was hurting myself too and I wasn’t prepared for that.The first week Kade had made it clear no woman of his was staying in a walk-in closet carrying his kid and so he’d rented a luxurious penthouse for me.I took it under the one condition I would be paying rent monthly. That was my first mistake, assuming he would even take my money after the lustful and apologetic look he gave me when he left me in my new apartment.The second week was even more stressful. With him showing up at my apartment door with breakfast and baby necessities I didn’t require yet.The third week…Icarus woke up and I had been beyond thrilled knowing I hadn’t somewhat killed him. I visited him everyday and everyday Kade Hawkins was there, waiting for me with a grin and donuts and healthy drinks I hadn’t asked for and I rejected them.Rejected him. Not missing the pained ex
LUCIA AMATOTHEY said when your turn to die came, you could feel it in your bones. Feel it in the way you faded into nothingness not knowing what was beyond death.When that bullet had hit me, somehow that feeling had latched onto me. The feeling of welcoming death and saying goodbye to everything.Yet when I opened my eyes, light stinging my eyes with a vengeance, the last person I expected to see was the love of my life glancing down at me like an answered prayer.“Hey, princess” The smile he wore was enough to tell me everything was okay. I wasn’t dead. We weren’t separated, everything was going to be okay yet…My hand searched for my tummy, the IV needle injected to my hand hurting far worse than a bee sting.“Hey, hey, he’s fine. The baby’s fine”I didn’t realize there were tears in my eyes up until he said that.And when the first tear fell down my cheeks and the rest came crushing like hail, my throat throbbed as I whispered “Sorry” over and over again.I jumped in front of hi
KADE HAWKINS/ CONNORTHERE WAS only so much shit a man like me could take before he went berserk.I was on the verge of losing the one man who I would call my brother. The one man who was more of family to me than anyone else in this shitty world.On the same fucking day, the woman I would have gone to war for dumped my sorry ass. Regretfully telling me she was done with me…for good.And that shit, her tears, her words ate me up, nothing bloody made sense anymore.“She needs a minute”, my brother from another father quipped beside me not knowing the hell I was going through, the sting that was Cassie’s words and the gnawing fact that I had hurt her and I hadn’t apologized to her yet.“She’s done with me”, I muttered and we stood in foreboding silence looking at the theatre doors where Ice’s surgery was still going on.“Good because her handing your ass is your wake-up call to chase after her and earn her forgiveness”, Jr continued, I still couldn’t understand why they all stayed.Jaso
CASSANDRA BATESEVERYTHING HURT.Physically, emotionally, mentally, I wasn’t doing okay even as the doc assessed me for the hundredth time in the night.Seating at the edge of the bed, trying to piece everything together, I was on the verge of insanity and knowing that Icarus was somewhere in this massive hospital trying to hold onto dear life because of me devastated the hell out of me.The doc offered me a wan smile, all I could do was pretend that I wasn’t going mad when the truth of the matter was, I was. Indeed, going mad.“Everything looks fine, Ms. Bates given your um…earlier predicament. A few scratches here and there, nothing major enough to affect the baby. I would recommend a few ointments for the-“I had already tuned him out the minute I heard a word I didn’t think would ever be directed at me.Reality came crushing in and with it so was confusion and happiness and anxiety and everything a person like me who’d just been kidnapped and slapped with a dose of heartbreak coul
ICARUS ‘ICE’ HAWKINSEIGHT YEARS AGO, I WAS THE SAME fucking schmuck working for Lucas Hawkins. A scrawny kid with a maid for a mother, no father, no money, no fucking worth to anybody.And hell, I would have been the same loser all my life after mumsy died of typhoid or some shit of the sort had it not been for HIM.KADE FUCKING HAWKINS. MY GODDAMN SAVIOR. My partner in crime. My brother.The same boss’ son who thought we were equals. The same kid who had everything I never had and hated it.Money. A powerful father. Power. He had it all and the fucking kid hated every inch of it.I envied him. All my eighteen years of being his best friend and I envied everything he had. But apart from envy? I looked up to him. He might have been a sour pussy, hell a pain in the ass but the kid had his heart in the right place, had that urge to do what needed to be done to get ahead in life and I respected that because I wanted it too.And when the kid got his first dose of power, I straight up jump
CASSANDRA BATES“W-WHAT?”A pulsating headache threatened to split my head apart as I winced.I moved my hand…at least tried to anyway because my hand felt numb. Both my hands felt numb and any tiny movement made something rattle against my body.Prior memories of what happened came to my mind all at once upping the headache even further.I was crying, damn it after what had happened with Lucia, Kade and Jace, I had ended up like some hobo on the street crying then…then…My eyes shot open and like someone had knocked my head with a bat, everything came back biting me in the ass.The unwelcomed light ate my eyes without mercy but that’s not what made my heart pulsate madly in my chest.It was everything in my surroundings, it was in the way, my hands, my legs…I was tied up!I was tied up!What was this place…how…oh God what was…I sat in the middle of the largest warehouse I’d ever seen and I would have been at ease if there were other thigs in here but no…it was me alone in a creepy p
JACE `JR` ASHER/ TRIGGERLEFT, RIGHT, FRONT, THE beeping machines haunted me. I hadn’t slept a fucking wink not that it had mattered because the fucking doctors took their time in there.Four hours and counting, they’d completed the surgery but none of them geeky fucks had showed their asses to explain what was going on.How was she?How was my kid?“How are you holding up?” Ontario shot me a passive look and I shot him an equally tired one.Everyone was here but, in all honesty, I felt alone. I felt helpless and most of all I felt like someone had gutted me and yanked my entrails from my body.The chief, Flames, had brought every goddamn man in B&A to console my ass but he’d avoided me entirely and I had a good hunch it was because of the one man no one talked about.My bloody fucking asshole of a brother.The one who’d escaped his grave and unleashed hell on me.I didn’t answer. Ontario lay his arm across my shoulder.“You should have never fallen in love, buddy. Christ, you look wo
CONNOR/ KADE HAWKINSTHE WINSTON BLUE DIAMOND ring THE SIZE OF MY HEAD stared back at me and I could only stare back at it nursing a whole lot of emotions that wracked and unnerved me.I breathed but I wasn’t really breathing.I tried to think but every ticking moment went to what happened yesterday.Stupid. Fucking stupid.Why hadn’t I realized, why hadn’t I—Jr was alive! They all were and I hadn’t searched enough, hadn’t spent every last dime of daddy’s money to look for them.I had been stunned the minute the forty something year old man stared at me like he knew me while ironically aiming a rifle in my damn face.Then as if all the memories that had been caged in a tight little box had been unleashed, I remembered him.Remembered him with my father.Remembered him carrying me in his shoulders telling me…telling me to call him Uncle Jay.And that’s what I remembered; he was Uncle Jay. The cool uncle. The one who pissed my fath—Callan most of the times.And the man who peeked at me
JACE ‘JR’ ASHER/TRIGGER“J-Jace, THE BABY”“T-the baby”Her blood oozed from that spot on her chest I was trying so hard to apply fucking pressure on.Her eyes were dimming and there was nothing I could do as I held her, my hands trying their best to incorporate every single fucking thing I had learnt from B&A about handling a situation like this.“Stay with me, princess. Okay? S-stay with me”My voice croaked; my heart pumped so hard I could hear the blood thrum in my ears with an uproar.She was making it. She was going to make it. The baby was going to make it.She had to. They fucking had to.My hands were bloody, covered with her life, covered with my mistakes, when she opened her lips to speak, I saw life ebb out of her the same way my mother and father’s screams had assaulted my ears as fire took them away from me.“Luce? Lucia? Come on, baby. Don’t, don’t do this. Don’t—”And when my eyes couldn’t see shit, every noise I had tuned out since Lucia’s body went limp in my arms ca