NICOLE
“I know that face. He said something mean to you, didn`t he?”“He can be an ass but Callan`s a good man”“Being in the marines made him like that. Once he returned, he didn`t trust anybody and he didn`t let anyone except me get to see the real him”“Whatever he did or said to you, I apologize for it”“You seem like a good girl, Nicole not what those journalists published about you. You don`t look like a junkie to me? Heck, you`ve only said good things about me and my house since you got here”“I saw how you two were looking at each other. I don`t even want to ask why you have his clothes on you but if something`s going on, give him time. Don`t give up on him”Nancy had said all that to me before a stray bullet hit her from the back and she collapsed right in front of me. I had never been so scared and petrified in my whole entire life like at that very moment. Then all hell broke loose when two men appeared behind me gagging me before I could scream and warn Cannon, we had company.Dread ate my bones and reality set in. Cannon said there were bad men after me. Bad men who somehow had a squabble with my father. I tried moving, tried kicking my legs to freedom but before I knew it, I was being huddled inside a car and it took off without as much as a glance back.“Stop it!” one of the men with a clean buzz cut, bloodshot eyes and a scowl on his face shot.But I wasn`t going to stop, panic and fear had clawed it`s waY inside of me that the only thing my brain urged me to do was to take out the two men seated next to me no matter how futile it was.Elbowing the buzz-cut seated next to me, he groaned screaming something about his bloody nose. The other man on the right side tried to strangle me but my free hands did what any woman in my situation would.I tried to gorge his eyes out with my nails. My little stunt was short-lived the minute the dark-haired man caught my hands in his huge hand using the other as a closed fist and connecting it with my jaw.Pain coursed through my face and my eyes betrayed me. Everything fucking turned black.Opening my eyes with a groan, my jaw tinged with soreness and my fear kicked in tenfold. I couldn`t see shit and that elevated my fear to another notch.Confused and muzzy, I tried making out where I was only to see nothing but black. I tried moving my hands but the sound of chains and the feel of metallic cuffs sinking to my skin confirmed what I thought. That not only had they gagged me but they chained me like a dog.Bitter bile rose up my gut and I felt nauseated by everything. I could still remember Nance falling to the ground like a shriveled weed. I could still remember how weak and helpless I felt seeing blood ooze out of her as if they had just ripped an artery from her heart.I could still remember the men I was with in the car and I could still remember one of the said men`s fist colliding with my cheek.Inhaling a strained breath, my ears paid attention to the birds cawing as if they`d seen a dead carcass or as if they were waiting for a dead body to be thrown to them.The smell of the salty sea lingered in my nostrils as well as the sound of waves hitting the shore. My legs touched the soft exterior underneath me as I realized I was on top of a bed by the sea somewhere and I didn`t know what was frightening.Being on a bed or being by the sea.Who`s to say I wasn’t on a boat about to be sunk into the sea. Who`s to say I wasn`t on someone`s bed while he imagined doing horrid terrible things to me.I thought of Cannon as my solace even though he made it clear he wasn`t interested in me, he was my bodyguard and I was pretty sure he knew where I was being held at.But would he come to find me?His sister got shot because of me. Because I couldn`t stay still back at his house and wait for him to check on his nephew.And Nance, God with all that blood she had lost I-I didn`t think she could survive that and I cried for her.I cried for Cannon because all this shit was happening because of me. I brought my shit to him. I brought my shit to his sister`s house.Suddenly, light filtered through my blindfolds and I grew aware that someone was in the room. Someone closely calculating what he would do to me and al the air I held up in my lungs collapsed.“Get up!”Someone barked.The blindfold got yanked away from my eyes and the light bit my eyes without mercy. The man who`d hit me earlier stood in front of me, a rifle in hand. He still had red marks across his face from where I had scratched him and make no mistake, his eyes told me that he would avenge that little incident come what may.“Did I stutter? Get the fuck up!” his deep voice roared and I swallowed saliva moving closer to the edge of the bed.Removing the gag from my mouth, his callous hand sunk in my right forearm and I bit my lip taking in the pain.“I didn`t—I didn`t do anything… you don`t have to do this. Please let me go. Please-I won`t tell anyone. I promise I won’t tell anyone”But my pleas fell into deaf ears as he pulled me down the hallway adorned with expensive paintings and ceramic vases.“Is this about money? I-my father has money. He’ll pay you whatever amount you want”That was my last attempt at trying to negotiate but the heavily tattooed man couldn’t give a shit as he pulled me towards the light at the end of the hallway.This was it.This was me being taken to the slaughter house for my father’s sins.This was me meeting my maker in a few seconds.My captor led me to a large living room and in the central part of it was a black leather couch with a man clad in a custom-tailored suit seating on it.Barely containing my relief, I opened my mouth,“Uncle Giovanni?”CANNONFUCKIN HELL. I was going to find those motherfuckers and I would kill them.“You’ll have to stay with Noah for a little while”, I touched the kid who hadn’t stopped crying since his mother got pulled up in an ambulance.“I want to go with you, Uncle Cal”And my heart weighed like a fucking stone in my body. I had brought my shit to my sister’s porch and they were fucking paying the price. I shouldn’t have brought her here; I shouldn’t have fucking let my guard down and mixed my work with my personal life.I still had Nance`s blood on my hands and although I hadn’t cried like my nephew, my hands shook. Other people`s blood I could handle but not my sister’s. “Hey, I’ll come back for you, okay? Once I find the men that did this to your mom, I’ll come for you. We like Uncle Noah, right? He’ll protect you till mom gets better”And the kid let go of my leg as Gunner lifted him off the ground taking him in his hands. Tipping his chin at me he took Sy in his car and I fucking let a g
NICOLE“UNCLE GIOVANNI?” The need to run to him was great but my legs remain rooted. The man in front of me wasn’t the same man who’d come to our living room with a bunch of goodies for me and called me his sweet little niece.No, he wasn’t.The man in front of me was something far darker. His eyes glided down my cleavage and remained there the corners of his mouth stretching to a smirk. I stood there feeling as intimidated and as naked as ever. His hooded eyes had this gaze that made me swallow an invisible lump with fear.“You even more beautiful than I remember”, he commented standing up from the overpriced couch, his eyes never leaving mine for a second. The man who’d hit me earlier took a few steps back leaving me under the scrutiny of my supposed not blood related uncle who eyed me like a butcher in a slaughter house.“Uncle Giovanni—I-I don’t understand what’s happening but please let me go. Daddy will apologize for whatever he’s done” Because suddenly everything was clicking
CANNONKILL HIM FOR A SECOND TIME.I felt like killing that piece of shit for a second time as I glanced at her sleeping in my bed like a fucking princess and not the spoilt brat I knew of.I had fucked up the mission but I didn’t give a shit because Giovanni Vincenzo was six feet under. Taking down the sixteen guards at his compound was like a piece of fucking cake.Giovanni was a fool by hiring rookies who couldn’t hold their damn rifles well. Once I got a clear shot, I had shot him. I didn’t give a fuck if Flames wanted to be the one to end the damn bastard’s life or not.The minute I saw his dirty as fuck hands on her, my anger flared and I did the one thing I had come to do in his compound. Shoot his ass.My phone rang and I hesitantly picked it up leaving the bedroom.“What?”“How’s she?”Bad. Worse. Still unconscious.“Fucker didn’t do much damage to her”, I said scrubbing a hand over my face.“Got some bad news, Cannon”When was there not bad news?“One guard escaped. Berkely i
NICOLEMADE THE MISTAKE OF TOUCHIN YOU.Whatever guilt that had eaten me for the past few minutes dissipated into thin air as I glanced at the man in front of me.His gaze unwavering, his dark eyes closed in on me, I felt weak and intimidated. He was mere inches from me and I could smell his aftershave as well as his scent of musk and exotic spice and sex.Oh God, he oozed pleasure, passion, lust...whatever women felt when they spasmed under a man’s touch.I hated him for killing someone for me and I hated myself for bringing a man like him into my life. He didn’t need to be caught with the likes of men like Giovanni and he didn’t need my shit into his life.I was mad that our time together was coming to an end because believe it or not staying with him and challenging him had done me some good. He listened to me when I spoke, he gave me the attention I needed and maybe just maybe, that’s why I was acting like this.He saved me and right now, right here he had declared he didn’t like a
CANNONI’VE NEVER fingered myself. The fuck?She was a fucking virgin? It didn’t take a genius to figure out she was. For the first time since she stood in front of me, I freaking got tongue-tied. Nicole Montenegro, a virgin?I didn’t know whether to back off or to do what my dick was telling me to and fuck her real good. Except, I didn’t fuck virgins. I didn’t do the whole blood thing or assuring a female that it was going to be okay when it wasn’t going to.But fucking through a tight pussy messed with my head. I wanted to be the first one for her as messed up and as crazy as that seemed.“Callan. We don’t have to- ““Anyone ever been inside you?”Her languid eyes gazed at me and she nodded in denial, her cheeks beetroot red and fuck, that was hot.“No”Great. Fucking great because I felt privileged to be the first man to be inside her.“Why?”Her lips quavering with embarrassment, I placed my finger under her chin leveling my eyes with hers.“You saving it for someone special?”I a
NICOLE“TAKE A BREATH”, he instructed and I took one long inhale as the sharp pain that had appeared out of nowhere got replaced by something entirely unquenchable.Our eyes locked, he shoved deeper. His thick finger started moving inside of me and I moaned loudly like I hadn’t before.“You fucking like that?” he growled and I moved against his finger like a runner in her first fucking million-dollar marathon.My clit throbbed and Cannon was there to make sure I ripped apart in his arms till I was one hot mess. I felt myself about to erupt, I felt his finger drive me to the edge, I was about to-“Don’t”, he warned and I bit my lip in frustration knowing what he meant.“You fucking come when I tell you to come and it sure as hell isn’t now”, he growled before his lips once more left hot kisses against my neck.He bit me, he sucked my skin like it was this sweet nectar he couldn’t get enough of and every time I felt like convulsing and spasming under his touch. When his hot mouth took on
CANNONMOTHERFUCKING FUCK.Fucking temptation is what she was.I never fucking kissed chicks or came in them or rode them bare for that matter.But fucking it all to hell, I had become a man unrecognizable to myself and God damn it, I didn’t regret shit.I wanted to come inside her all-day hell all night or forever for fucking sake. Her head cocked to the side, her innocent eyes took their fill of me and it ate up my six. I smashed my lips with hers, my dick growing painfully hard inside her again.I wanted to fuck her. I wanted to fucking dominate this little body of hers to oblivion.I had had a taste and as perverse as I was, I wanted to fuck her again.Women were my freaking kryptonite long before my asshole of a father taught me what being a man meant. I fucked women and I fucked them hard. I made them submit to me and I lay out all my frustrations in fucking and in giving them mind blowing orgasms but with Nicole?Shit with Nicole? It wasn’t about me cooling off but about me sho
NICOLEI’M SORRY NIX.My body stilled and bitter tears fell down my cheeks in streams. I clutched Luke’s shirt tightly wailing, shrieking, letting out all the pain I felt jabbed in my heart.He was gone, just like that.I was an orphan. I was alone. Mom was gone because of me and dad? The stinging feeling inside my heart told me that I was the cause of dad’s death. He was dead. Lifeless. Soulless. And he had left me behind.“I-I want to see…him”, I struggled to say raising my eyes to the man who had once offered me comfort and love before he broke my heart into a million pieces.His eyes a perfect mix of hazel and green, his hair more lush and brown giving him a pretty boy look, he nodded as if understanding what I was going through. As if just for once he wanted to be with me and actually missed me!His hands cradled my wet cheeks and I snorted feeling a whole barrel of emotions choke my throat. I couldn’t fucking breath.His touch against my skin, we held eyes and he smiled at me so
CASSANDRA BATESTHREE WEEKS OF INCONSISTENT NAGGING.I was so mad at him, I wanted to kick him in the shins for everything. But hurting him was hurting myself too and I wasn’t prepared for that.The first week Kade had made it clear no woman of his was staying in a walk-in closet carrying his kid and so he’d rented a luxurious penthouse for me.I took it under the one condition I would be paying rent monthly. That was my first mistake, assuming he would even take my money after the lustful and apologetic look he gave me when he left me in my new apartment.The second week was even more stressful. With him showing up at my apartment door with breakfast and baby necessities I didn’t require yet.The third week…Icarus woke up and I had been beyond thrilled knowing I hadn’t somewhat killed him. I visited him everyday and everyday Kade Hawkins was there, waiting for me with a grin and donuts and healthy drinks I hadn’t asked for and I rejected them.Rejected him. Not missing the pained ex
LUCIA AMATOTHEY said when your turn to die came, you could feel it in your bones. Feel it in the way you faded into nothingness not knowing what was beyond death.When that bullet had hit me, somehow that feeling had latched onto me. The feeling of welcoming death and saying goodbye to everything.Yet when I opened my eyes, light stinging my eyes with a vengeance, the last person I expected to see was the love of my life glancing down at me like an answered prayer.“Hey, princess” The smile he wore was enough to tell me everything was okay. I wasn’t dead. We weren’t separated, everything was going to be okay yet…My hand searched for my tummy, the IV needle injected to my hand hurting far worse than a bee sting.“Hey, hey, he’s fine. The baby’s fine”I didn’t realize there were tears in my eyes up until he said that.And when the first tear fell down my cheeks and the rest came crushing like hail, my throat throbbed as I whispered “Sorry” over and over again.I jumped in front of hi
KADE HAWKINS/ CONNORTHERE WAS only so much shit a man like me could take before he went berserk.I was on the verge of losing the one man who I would call my brother. The one man who was more of family to me than anyone else in this shitty world.On the same fucking day, the woman I would have gone to war for dumped my sorry ass. Regretfully telling me she was done with me…for good.And that shit, her tears, her words ate me up, nothing bloody made sense anymore.“She needs a minute”, my brother from another father quipped beside me not knowing the hell I was going through, the sting that was Cassie’s words and the gnawing fact that I had hurt her and I hadn’t apologized to her yet.“She’s done with me”, I muttered and we stood in foreboding silence looking at the theatre doors where Ice’s surgery was still going on.“Good because her handing your ass is your wake-up call to chase after her and earn her forgiveness”, Jr continued, I still couldn’t understand why they all stayed.Jaso
CASSANDRA BATESEVERYTHING HURT.Physically, emotionally, mentally, I wasn’t doing okay even as the doc assessed me for the hundredth time in the night.Seating at the edge of the bed, trying to piece everything together, I was on the verge of insanity and knowing that Icarus was somewhere in this massive hospital trying to hold onto dear life because of me devastated the hell out of me.The doc offered me a wan smile, all I could do was pretend that I wasn’t going mad when the truth of the matter was, I was. Indeed, going mad.“Everything looks fine, Ms. Bates given your um…earlier predicament. A few scratches here and there, nothing major enough to affect the baby. I would recommend a few ointments for the-“I had already tuned him out the minute I heard a word I didn’t think would ever be directed at me.Reality came crushing in and with it so was confusion and happiness and anxiety and everything a person like me who’d just been kidnapped and slapped with a dose of heartbreak coul
ICARUS ‘ICE’ HAWKINSEIGHT YEARS AGO, I WAS THE SAME fucking schmuck working for Lucas Hawkins. A scrawny kid with a maid for a mother, no father, no money, no fucking worth to anybody.And hell, I would have been the same loser all my life after mumsy died of typhoid or some shit of the sort had it not been for HIM.KADE FUCKING HAWKINS. MY GODDAMN SAVIOR. My partner in crime. My brother.The same boss’ son who thought we were equals. The same kid who had everything I never had and hated it.Money. A powerful father. Power. He had it all and the fucking kid hated every inch of it.I envied him. All my eighteen years of being his best friend and I envied everything he had. But apart from envy? I looked up to him. He might have been a sour pussy, hell a pain in the ass but the kid had his heart in the right place, had that urge to do what needed to be done to get ahead in life and I respected that because I wanted it too.And when the kid got his first dose of power, I straight up jump
CASSANDRA BATES“W-WHAT?”A pulsating headache threatened to split my head apart as I winced.I moved my hand…at least tried to anyway because my hand felt numb. Both my hands felt numb and any tiny movement made something rattle against my body.Prior memories of what happened came to my mind all at once upping the headache even further.I was crying, damn it after what had happened with Lucia, Kade and Jace, I had ended up like some hobo on the street crying then…then…My eyes shot open and like someone had knocked my head with a bat, everything came back biting me in the ass.The unwelcomed light ate my eyes without mercy but that’s not what made my heart pulsate madly in my chest.It was everything in my surroundings, it was in the way, my hands, my legs…I was tied up!I was tied up!What was this place…how…oh God what was…I sat in the middle of the largest warehouse I’d ever seen and I would have been at ease if there were other thigs in here but no…it was me alone in a creepy p
JACE `JR` ASHER/ TRIGGERLEFT, RIGHT, FRONT, THE beeping machines haunted me. I hadn’t slept a fucking wink not that it had mattered because the fucking doctors took their time in there.Four hours and counting, they’d completed the surgery but none of them geeky fucks had showed their asses to explain what was going on.How was she?How was my kid?“How are you holding up?” Ontario shot me a passive look and I shot him an equally tired one.Everyone was here but, in all honesty, I felt alone. I felt helpless and most of all I felt like someone had gutted me and yanked my entrails from my body.The chief, Flames, had brought every goddamn man in B&A to console my ass but he’d avoided me entirely and I had a good hunch it was because of the one man no one talked about.My bloody fucking asshole of a brother.The one who’d escaped his grave and unleashed hell on me.I didn’t answer. Ontario lay his arm across my shoulder.“You should have never fallen in love, buddy. Christ, you look wo
CONNOR/ KADE HAWKINSTHE WINSTON BLUE DIAMOND ring THE SIZE OF MY HEAD stared back at me and I could only stare back at it nursing a whole lot of emotions that wracked and unnerved me.I breathed but I wasn’t really breathing.I tried to think but every ticking moment went to what happened yesterday.Stupid. Fucking stupid.Why hadn’t I realized, why hadn’t I—Jr was alive! They all were and I hadn’t searched enough, hadn’t spent every last dime of daddy’s money to look for them.I had been stunned the minute the forty something year old man stared at me like he knew me while ironically aiming a rifle in my damn face.Then as if all the memories that had been caged in a tight little box had been unleashed, I remembered him.Remembered him with my father.Remembered him carrying me in his shoulders telling me…telling me to call him Uncle Jay.And that’s what I remembered; he was Uncle Jay. The cool uncle. The one who pissed my fath—Callan most of the times.And the man who peeked at me
JACE ‘JR’ ASHER/TRIGGER“J-Jace, THE BABY”“T-the baby”Her blood oozed from that spot on her chest I was trying so hard to apply fucking pressure on.Her eyes were dimming and there was nothing I could do as I held her, my hands trying their best to incorporate every single fucking thing I had learnt from B&A about handling a situation like this.“Stay with me, princess. Okay? S-stay with me”My voice croaked; my heart pumped so hard I could hear the blood thrum in my ears with an uproar.She was making it. She was going to make it. The baby was going to make it.She had to. They fucking had to.My hands were bloody, covered with her life, covered with my mistakes, when she opened her lips to speak, I saw life ebb out of her the same way my mother and father’s screams had assaulted my ears as fire took them away from me.“Luce? Lucia? Come on, baby. Don’t, don’t do this. Don’t—”And when my eyes couldn’t see shit, every noise I had tuned out since Lucia’s body went limp in my arms ca