NICOLE
MY HEAD HURT as I tried opening my heavy eyelids. The light coming from the light white curtains nearly blinded me as I hugged the comforter tighter. Only, my comforter wasn`t grey but white, it didn`t smell of musk or spice but lavender. I sat up regretting that very decision when my right hand hurt.My eyes popped out of their sockets as I stared at the metallic cuffs cuffing me to the king-sized bed. This was definitely not my room and I was definitely not in my bed.Yesterday`s nightly escapades came to mind and I groaned at the headache that came along with it. I was drunk, I was dancing…I was naked.“No, no!” I cried pushing the covers from my body with my left hand.I had clothes on! Shit, Nix! Shit! Shit!I really did it this time. Scared out of my wits, I pressed my legs together a surge of relief washing over me that I didn`t feel sore or penetrated. I believe the correct word was, raped.Wriggling my wrists against the bed, I tried yanking the cuffs but God knew, I was too thin to pull them off. I can`t remember the last time I visited the gym. Hell, I can`t remember the last time I ate a proper meal that wasn`t salad or some shit my dad told my trainer to give me.“Hello? Is someone there? Help!”And the door I hadn`t noticed existed, creaked open. I retreated to the headboard preparing myself for any psycho that stormed through that door.Instead of a psycho, someone else walked in. Instead of the usual junkies that surrounded me, someone else walked in.Holy.Cow.He was fucking hot and huge like a freaking beast with unbelievably huge muscles. My eyes glided over his naked chest. Chiseled abs, a heavy contoured V-line, a screen-worthy jawline and black hair with a neat buzz-cut that screamed military.Not even the numerous boyfriends my dad had set me up with over the past years could compare to his looks. Hell, they didn`t come close to the goliath of a man eyeing me like a cockroach invading his personal bubble.He tipped his chin like some sort of greeting.He freaking tipped his chin at me and everything from yesterday came washing in like a tsunami.“What you did was dumb”“Not asshole, not motherfucker, not dumb but Cannon”Fuck! The dumb as fuck bodyguard from yesterday.“Get me out of here”, I lashed and he leaned against the door frame a surly leer dominating his face.Fucking asshole.“NO”, he said and I scoffed unbelievably and my nerves shot at once at his low guttural intimidating voice.“I’m your boss and I’m telling you to uncuff me. Do you know who I am?”“Nicole Brie Montenegro. Daughter of Luis Montenegro, Mayor of Key West. 24 years old. Quit business school. Started wasting away her life by partying as early as this year. Friends with Sasha Byers and a few junkies I’m too lazy to mention and now? You are currently trending for putting your naked ass out there for the world to see. Did I miss anything? If I did, feel free to add some more”Tongue-tied. I was at a loss of words feeling so naked and bare to him. Feeling his scrutinous eyes undressing every wall I had built up since my mother`s death.I hated this new bodyguard. I hated my father for assigning the man standing in front of me.And I especially hated the fact that his penetrating gaze sent shivers between my legs. That his voice which was less baritone and more vibration sent me swooning over how good it would feel to have his hands all over my body.Dear god! This was a first. I never thought about sex. Heck, I never had sex. One because I was scared and two because I wanted to do it with the right guy.But all that didn`t matter, I danced naked yesterday around a bunch of people who probably knew me. My ass was trending around on social media and I could only imagine my daddy`s reaction to it. Might as well as said, I broke my virginity. My eyes lingered at my clothes, my mouth forming an O. Did he?“I didn`t fuck you”, he said sternly and my nose flared at his crudeness.‘But you saw me naked”, I finished the statement my eyes betrayingly falling at his V-line. If he removed that short, how big would he be?Jesus Christ, this wasn`t me.“Relax princess. I didn`t see anything I haven`t seen before”And whatever crush I had for my bodyguard trampled on the ground. He was letting me know that whatever thoughts I had about him wouldn`t happen because he had seen naked women his entire life. At least not in this lifetime and that hurt me for some reason.No one wanted the little mayor`s daughter because she was a fucking nut. That was what the tabloids said and this was Miami. People believed the internet more than they did reality.I wasn`t a spoilt ass. Yesterday was a mistake. The party at South Beach was a mistake where my then boyfriend injected some shit in my drink.“Get me out of these cuffs”, I glanced at him pulling the fakest puppy dog eyes I could on him. They worked on my previous bodyguards, who`s to say the man in front of me wasn`t as dumb as the rest of them meat heads from B & A.“Depends”Asshole. “On what?”“Your attitude”Was he serious right now? My attitude was fine, his however needed a change.“Fine. I`ll change my attitude”, I lied. I would run away from him, the very first thing he uncuffed me. My dad was wrong if he thought I would easily comply to his wishes of being watched 24\7.“Words won`t get your hand out of those cuffs”“What do you want? Money? Sex?” I shrieked feeling myself lose the little sanity I was holding.Eyes blazing, it took two strides for him to get to the bed. Six and a half feet of muscled gladiator stood in front of me and I regretted the words that came out of my mouth. The shorts he had worn did nothing to hide the big cock he was sporting on. My breathing became rugged and I forgot about the cuffs.My blood rushed down, my pussy clenching in a way that screamed need. A need that wanted to be devoured, to be conquered. A need that made my clit throb and ache for touch. I had never been thirsty and hungry like I was now. Not for food but for something else.He bent over.My throat parched like I was in the freaking Sahara Desert.He strode on top of the bed,I vibrated between my legs.His penetrating stare landed on me.My breath hitched and I bit my lips nervously like a six-year-old.My heart palpitated sending shivers that made me feel cold all of a sudden. When he took my hand in his, I could feel my core start to slowly detonate like a bomb.Then in a flash he unlocked my cuff and did the last thing I expected.He tucked a strand of my hair behind my ear, his breath fanning my ear and his voice left his mouth,“I don`t need you or your money and two, I don`t fuck clients”CANNONFUUCK! I lied. I fucked clients and I fucked them hard.But she wasn`t a regular client. She was spoilt, she got on my nerves for the short span of time we were together and worse, she was the fucking mayor`s daughter. Fucking her would only land me in hot soup and the type of shit they wrote on tabloids.I sauntered in the kitchen taking a bottle of water to calm my thirst and my hard as fuck cock. Not only was her insanely thin body a fucking turn-on, her attitude drove me bonkers. That smart mouth of hers made me think stupid shit like kissing her. Shit I didn`t think about when I drove my cock inside a woman.And when she stared at me as if she was begging to get fucked, I almost lost all the scruples our boss and ex-military Berkely had instilled in us.“Don`t even think about it, Cannon”, I scolded feeling my dick harden at the sight of those doe hazel eyes peering at me as if I was some sort of hero or a prince.I was far from being a hero. A hero didn`t kill for pleasure
NICOLEMy face morphed into shock. I was running. I was fucking running from a man who was two times my size and probably faster.They probably ran miles and miles during training in the army and to him I must have been a measly insect trying to think I could outrun him. The shock got eaten by the fear and that`s what it took for me to assure myself that I could do this.I was no Hollywood stuntman or woman for that matter, but I could jump over the small gate. I was small and light weighed all I had to do was keep up the pace.Arms pumping, the balls of my bare feet keeping me balanced, adrenaline pumping me through me like a fix, I ran. But the constant awareness that he was right behind me gnawed on me like a hopper on sweet grass. Panic surged through me; I could hear his heavy padded feet slam the grass without mercy.Trying to up my confidence I glanced over my shoulder and instead of seeing him behind him, the fucker ran next to me.Eyes up ahead, his breathing smooth, his musc
CANNONEIGHT HOURS.She was in there for eight God damn hours and that made me angsty and angry as ever. She didn`t get the right to be mad, I did. I was the fucking moron running after her. I was the fucking moron worrying over her safety. Worrying over her stubbornness getting both of us killed.I spanked her but I didn`t fuck her and that like every woman I had denied the chance to suck me off, made her mad. I regretted it though; God knew I wanted to do more than slap that ass.It took every bit of restraint not to sink my cock inside that wet pussy of hers. God damn it! I hated how my cock twitched for her, how my body reacted to her as if she was some special woman.I never did special. I never believed in that love shit because it didn`t exist. There was no special pussy that would change me or my ways. I knew myself and I took glory in who I was. All women were the same and all pussies were the same.If she wanted to starve herself then she might as well have because I didn`t
NICOLE`I DON`T FUCK clients`It was all coming together and I felt like a homewrecker lusting over a married man.“Damn it, Nance! Can`t. I got a client. What do you mean Sy has a fever? Fine, I`m on my way over”That statement ran in my head for more minutes than I could count.Hot muscular grumpy Cannon had a wife and a kid. A kid who had a fever and we were rushing to get to. I didn`t think that a man like him had a family.He didn`t look like the type of man to settle down and as soon as I thought about it, I felt like whipping myself for having a thing for him. Though I couldn`t call it a thing, it was more of a sexual fantasy of having him on top of me, his crude words making me come, his guttural voice making my core drip and his dick.Oh God, that big dick doing sinful very sinful things to me.“You, okay?”He asked and I stayed mute nodding my head. I hated that look of concern in his eyes. No man looked at me like that, like he wanted to worship my body, punish me and someho
CANNONCOME THE FUCK ON. She really thought I didn`t want to fuck her? That was the one thing going in my fucking mind since I saw her naked.And spoilt? Not gonna lie, I thought she was spoilt the very first time I saw her but that changed the minute she tried to bribe me with money and sex with a slightly unsure look on her.Spoilt princesses didn't bribe someone with sex with an unsure face. I had a fucked a few to know the difference between lying and trying to sound tough and she was the lot that was trying to survive by putting up a wall of bad decisions and a trail of bad shit like being naked in a music festival for attention. Plus I doubt she had money to bribe me perse. Her dad was the one funding this whole bullshit babysitting, so money was a no.But sex? I was tempted. So fucking tempted.Guns and sex were my life and I was fucking satisfied but here I was years later, worshipping a pussy like it was the only shit and anchor holding me together.I didn`t think.With her, t
NICOLE“I know that face. He said something mean to you, didn`t he?”“He can be an ass but Callan`s a good man”“Being in the marines made him like that. Once he returned, he didn`t trust anybody and he didn`t let anyone except me get to see the real him”“Whatever he did or said to you, I apologize for it”“You seem like a good girl, Nicole not what those journalists published about you. You don`t look like a junkie to me? Heck, you`ve only said good things about me and my house since you got here”“I saw how you two were looking at each other. I don`t even want to ask why you have his clothes on you but if something`s going on, give him time. Don`t give up on him”Nancy had said all that to me before a stray bullet hit her from the back and she collapsed right in front of me. I had never been so scared and petrified in my whole entire life like at that very moment. Then all hell broke loose when two men appeared behind me gagging me before I could scream and warn Cannon, we had comp
CANNONFUCKIN HELL. I was going to find those motherfuckers and I would kill them.“You’ll have to stay with Noah for a little while”, I touched the kid who hadn’t stopped crying since his mother got pulled up in an ambulance.“I want to go with you, Uncle Cal”And my heart weighed like a fucking stone in my body. I had brought my shit to my sister’s porch and they were fucking paying the price. I shouldn’t have brought her here; I shouldn’t have fucking let my guard down and mixed my work with my personal life.I still had Nance`s blood on my hands and although I hadn’t cried like my nephew, my hands shook. Other people`s blood I could handle but not my sister’s. “Hey, I’ll come back for you, okay? Once I find the men that did this to your mom, I’ll come for you. We like Uncle Noah, right? He’ll protect you till mom gets better”And the kid let go of my leg as Gunner lifted him off the ground taking him in his hands. Tipping his chin at me he took Sy in his car and I fucking let a g
NICOLE“UNCLE GIOVANNI?” The need to run to him was great but my legs remain rooted. The man in front of me wasn’t the same man who’d come to our living room with a bunch of goodies for me and called me his sweet little niece.No, he wasn’t.The man in front of me was something far darker. His eyes glided down my cleavage and remained there the corners of his mouth stretching to a smirk. I stood there feeling as intimidated and as naked as ever. His hooded eyes had this gaze that made me swallow an invisible lump with fear.“You even more beautiful than I remember”, he commented standing up from the overpriced couch, his eyes never leaving mine for a second. The man who’d hit me earlier took a few steps back leaving me under the scrutiny of my supposed not blood related uncle who eyed me like a butcher in a slaughter house.“Uncle Giovanni—I-I don’t understand what’s happening but please let me go. Daddy will apologize for whatever he’s done” Because suddenly everything was clicking
CASSANDRA BATESTHREE WEEKS OF INCONSISTENT NAGGING.I was so mad at him, I wanted to kick him in the shins for everything. But hurting him was hurting myself too and I wasn’t prepared for that.The first week Kade had made it clear no woman of his was staying in a walk-in closet carrying his kid and so he’d rented a luxurious penthouse for me.I took it under the one condition I would be paying rent monthly. That was my first mistake, assuming he would even take my money after the lustful and apologetic look he gave me when he left me in my new apartment.The second week was even more stressful. With him showing up at my apartment door with breakfast and baby necessities I didn’t require yet.The third week…Icarus woke up and I had been beyond thrilled knowing I hadn’t somewhat killed him. I visited him everyday and everyday Kade Hawkins was there, waiting for me with a grin and donuts and healthy drinks I hadn’t asked for and I rejected them.Rejected him. Not missing the pained ex
LUCIA AMATOTHEY said when your turn to die came, you could feel it in your bones. Feel it in the way you faded into nothingness not knowing what was beyond death.When that bullet had hit me, somehow that feeling had latched onto me. The feeling of welcoming death and saying goodbye to everything.Yet when I opened my eyes, light stinging my eyes with a vengeance, the last person I expected to see was the love of my life glancing down at me like an answered prayer.“Hey, princess” The smile he wore was enough to tell me everything was okay. I wasn’t dead. We weren’t separated, everything was going to be okay yet…My hand searched for my tummy, the IV needle injected to my hand hurting far worse than a bee sting.“Hey, hey, he’s fine. The baby’s fine”I didn’t realize there were tears in my eyes up until he said that.And when the first tear fell down my cheeks and the rest came crushing like hail, my throat throbbed as I whispered “Sorry” over and over again.I jumped in front of hi
KADE HAWKINS/ CONNORTHERE WAS only so much shit a man like me could take before he went berserk.I was on the verge of losing the one man who I would call my brother. The one man who was more of family to me than anyone else in this shitty world.On the same fucking day, the woman I would have gone to war for dumped my sorry ass. Regretfully telling me she was done with me…for good.And that shit, her tears, her words ate me up, nothing bloody made sense anymore.“She needs a minute”, my brother from another father quipped beside me not knowing the hell I was going through, the sting that was Cassie’s words and the gnawing fact that I had hurt her and I hadn’t apologized to her yet.“She’s done with me”, I muttered and we stood in foreboding silence looking at the theatre doors where Ice’s surgery was still going on.“Good because her handing your ass is your wake-up call to chase after her and earn her forgiveness”, Jr continued, I still couldn’t understand why they all stayed.Jaso
CASSANDRA BATESEVERYTHING HURT.Physically, emotionally, mentally, I wasn’t doing okay even as the doc assessed me for the hundredth time in the night.Seating at the edge of the bed, trying to piece everything together, I was on the verge of insanity and knowing that Icarus was somewhere in this massive hospital trying to hold onto dear life because of me devastated the hell out of me.The doc offered me a wan smile, all I could do was pretend that I wasn’t going mad when the truth of the matter was, I was. Indeed, going mad.“Everything looks fine, Ms. Bates given your um…earlier predicament. A few scratches here and there, nothing major enough to affect the baby. I would recommend a few ointments for the-“I had already tuned him out the minute I heard a word I didn’t think would ever be directed at me.Reality came crushing in and with it so was confusion and happiness and anxiety and everything a person like me who’d just been kidnapped and slapped with a dose of heartbreak coul
ICARUS ‘ICE’ HAWKINSEIGHT YEARS AGO, I WAS THE SAME fucking schmuck working for Lucas Hawkins. A scrawny kid with a maid for a mother, no father, no money, no fucking worth to anybody.And hell, I would have been the same loser all my life after mumsy died of typhoid or some shit of the sort had it not been for HIM.KADE FUCKING HAWKINS. MY GODDAMN SAVIOR. My partner in crime. My brother.The same boss’ son who thought we were equals. The same kid who had everything I never had and hated it.Money. A powerful father. Power. He had it all and the fucking kid hated every inch of it.I envied him. All my eighteen years of being his best friend and I envied everything he had. But apart from envy? I looked up to him. He might have been a sour pussy, hell a pain in the ass but the kid had his heart in the right place, had that urge to do what needed to be done to get ahead in life and I respected that because I wanted it too.And when the kid got his first dose of power, I straight up jump
CASSANDRA BATES“W-WHAT?”A pulsating headache threatened to split my head apart as I winced.I moved my hand…at least tried to anyway because my hand felt numb. Both my hands felt numb and any tiny movement made something rattle against my body.Prior memories of what happened came to my mind all at once upping the headache even further.I was crying, damn it after what had happened with Lucia, Kade and Jace, I had ended up like some hobo on the street crying then…then…My eyes shot open and like someone had knocked my head with a bat, everything came back biting me in the ass.The unwelcomed light ate my eyes without mercy but that’s not what made my heart pulsate madly in my chest.It was everything in my surroundings, it was in the way, my hands, my legs…I was tied up!I was tied up!What was this place…how…oh God what was…I sat in the middle of the largest warehouse I’d ever seen and I would have been at ease if there were other thigs in here but no…it was me alone in a creepy p
JACE `JR` ASHER/ TRIGGERLEFT, RIGHT, FRONT, THE beeping machines haunted me. I hadn’t slept a fucking wink not that it had mattered because the fucking doctors took their time in there.Four hours and counting, they’d completed the surgery but none of them geeky fucks had showed their asses to explain what was going on.How was she?How was my kid?“How are you holding up?” Ontario shot me a passive look and I shot him an equally tired one.Everyone was here but, in all honesty, I felt alone. I felt helpless and most of all I felt like someone had gutted me and yanked my entrails from my body.The chief, Flames, had brought every goddamn man in B&A to console my ass but he’d avoided me entirely and I had a good hunch it was because of the one man no one talked about.My bloody fucking asshole of a brother.The one who’d escaped his grave and unleashed hell on me.I didn’t answer. Ontario lay his arm across my shoulder.“You should have never fallen in love, buddy. Christ, you look wo
CONNOR/ KADE HAWKINSTHE WINSTON BLUE DIAMOND ring THE SIZE OF MY HEAD stared back at me and I could only stare back at it nursing a whole lot of emotions that wracked and unnerved me.I breathed but I wasn’t really breathing.I tried to think but every ticking moment went to what happened yesterday.Stupid. Fucking stupid.Why hadn’t I realized, why hadn’t I—Jr was alive! They all were and I hadn’t searched enough, hadn’t spent every last dime of daddy’s money to look for them.I had been stunned the minute the forty something year old man stared at me like he knew me while ironically aiming a rifle in my damn face.Then as if all the memories that had been caged in a tight little box had been unleashed, I remembered him.Remembered him with my father.Remembered him carrying me in his shoulders telling me…telling me to call him Uncle Jay.And that’s what I remembered; he was Uncle Jay. The cool uncle. The one who pissed my fath—Callan most of the times.And the man who peeked at me
JACE ‘JR’ ASHER/TRIGGER“J-Jace, THE BABY”“T-the baby”Her blood oozed from that spot on her chest I was trying so hard to apply fucking pressure on.Her eyes were dimming and there was nothing I could do as I held her, my hands trying their best to incorporate every single fucking thing I had learnt from B&A about handling a situation like this.“Stay with me, princess. Okay? S-stay with me”My voice croaked; my heart pumped so hard I could hear the blood thrum in my ears with an uproar.She was making it. She was going to make it. The baby was going to make it.She had to. They fucking had to.My hands were bloody, covered with her life, covered with my mistakes, when she opened her lips to speak, I saw life ebb out of her the same way my mother and father’s screams had assaulted my ears as fire took them away from me.“Luce? Lucia? Come on, baby. Don’t, don’t do this. Don’t—”And when my eyes couldn’t see shit, every noise I had tuned out since Lucia’s body went limp in my arms ca