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48 I Choose The Harder Way
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Trained Not To Love You 49 Queries
CamilaI would be lying if I said I wasn't nervous about Madam being in the house. The mere thought of her presence filled me with dread.I kept wondering how long she would stay and what might happen during that time. Had I not woken up early and gone downstairs to check on Katya, I wouldn't have known she was at the door.Relief washed over me because if she had called one of the workers from the servant quarters to let her in, she might have found me in her son's bed. The mere thought of her reaction sent chills down my spine. I wasn't fooled by her kindness; I knew it was all for Katya. To her, I was still just a Belvarian slave.Interacting with Ronan around his mother was incredibly difficult. I was grateful when he allowed me to leave.As soon as I entered my room, I exhaled deeply, my heart pounding in my chest. The realization that she was here made everything feel more intense and frightening.I tried to gather enough courage before heading to the kitchen, determined to help
Last Updated : 2024-08-06Trained Not To Love You 50 Grandma ad Her Katya
CamilaI remained in the living room, watching Madam Melania play with Katya. I silently prayed she wouldn't ask me any more questions. My duty was to care for Katya, not to spy on her son. I wish I could tell her that, but it would be a risk I couldn't afford to take. These chains that bound me were tighter and stronger than they ever felt. Though invisible, they held me completely, with no chance of ease or release."She is pretty, but I noticed her eyes are getting lighter. It doesn't seem like a cause for alarm. I'm sure it is nothing," Madame Melania said, her attention fully on Katya. Who wouldn't be captivated by my little girl? My little angel was a bundle of joy, spreading smiles to everyone she met.As Madam Melania spoke, I wanted to excuse myself to call the cleaners. "Where are you going?" she asked, her tone sharp."To call the cleaners and find out why they haven't arrived, madam," I replied as respectfully as possible."Why did Ronan lay off all his workers? He has a co
Last Updated : 2024-08-06Trained Not To Love You 51 Unexpected Guests and Trouble
CamilaIt seemed Ronan called the cleaners regardless because they arrived an hour after he left. I found myself oscillating between supervising them and caring for Katya.Fortunately, I didn't have to do much for Katya because Madam Melania was completely hands-on, making my work a bit easier.Kenneth also helped, and he rolled his eyes every time Madam called me, which made us laugh in the kitchen before I answered.He didn't take the letdown to heart. In fact, he took it well, keeping his word and not making things awkward between us. However, I remained cautious around him. He was Jorvikian, after all, and I needed to protect Ronan and Katya from everyone.Sometime after noon, we received guests. I was surprised to see Mira and Leah Semenov. The moment they saw me, their faces contorted with anger.Leah had swollen eyes and was wiping away tears with a tissue while Mira consoled her. Katya was playing on the floor, and Madam Melania sat, listening intently to whatever Leah was sayi
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CamilaMadam Melania eventually turned her attention back to Leah."Ronan will be head of state one day. As his wife, you must put aside your pettiness and whatnot. If Camila and Katya are an issue, Sergey and I will take them back once he agrees to the union. But I will tell you this: you must learn to see things clearly and stop listening to bad advice. If not, you will lose out completely. He is already on his way up without this union. It will just take longer, and we want to maintain our friendship with your family. Otherwise, what you did is unforgivable," Madam Melania said, her words sharp and to the point.I couldn't believe what I was hearing. Leah was planning to return to Ronan's life? Wasn't she getting married? My heart began to pound in my chest, the fear of her returning filling me with dread. I knew he cared about her, and the thought of her coming back into his life made my heart ache."So, are you still warming the Colonel's bed here?" Mira asked me suddenly, her voi
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CamilaRonan had told me he wouldn't be out long, unlike yesterday when he had returned late. Even though it was still early, the tension in the living room made it feel like an eternity. I anxiously waited, my heart pounding, not knowing what to expect.When Ronan finally came home, he was taken aback by the sight of the people gathered in our living room.I could see it in his eyes, and when he asked what was going on, no one dared to breathe for a second. I quickly wiped away my tears, but I could tell he noticed."Welcome home, sir," I greeted him hurriedly, rushing to help with his bag."What is going on here?" he asked, brushing past me without accepting my help."They came to see me," Madame explained."In my home? What did I say about the Semenovs, Mom?" Ronan said sternly, his eyes locking on Leah, who was now standing with tears in her eyes."I'm sorry, Ronan. I want to talk," she pleaded, her voice trembling."There is nothing to discuss. Kindly leave my house," he said firm
Last Updated : 2024-08-07Trained Not To Love You 54 Hatred and Mistrust
CamilaMelania continued to look at me with disdain."By the time I am through with you, you will tell me the truth. All the while, Sergey and I were worried Ronan got drunk and took advantage of you, hence the pity. That was why we let you birth Katya and raise her. Had we known you and your mother orchestrated this entire thing, I would have handed you to the authorities after you gave birth," she said, grabbing my hair in her fist. I didn't scream out because Katya was already crying. Tears streamed down my face."You belong to Sergey and me, and I will take you back to the estate. Ronan can get a new nanny for his daughter. With you out of the way, he can think straight," she said, and I could hear the rage in her voice. She believed them.She sounded like someone who was deeply betrayed. I could understand her feelings, but my mother and I weren't the ones who drugged Ronan. I was content with my quiet life."What are you doing?" Ronan said, rushing down the stairs in his vest and
Last Updated : 2024-08-08Trained Not To Love You 55 What I Will Spin If You Dare
CamilaMelania decided she would leave the next morning. The air in the house was heavy with tension, words having been exchanged that could not be taken back. She came to check on Katya and found me sleeping on an air mattress in Katya's room. It was the first time she had seen me there."Is this where you sleep?" she asked, her voice softer than usual."Yes, Madam, so I am not too far," I replied, and I saw her eyes soften. She looked at me with a mix of curiosity and contemplation."I apologise for yesterday; it’s just that what was said made sense. You would never harm my family, would you?" Her question caught me off guard. It was unusual for Melania to apologise to someone like me, someone she considered beneath her. I had to tread carefully."Not in my wildest dreams, Madam. I owe my life to the Morosovs. I could never," I assured her, and she nodded, letting out a sigh."Keep this between us," she said, stepping closer. I wasn't sure what she meant but I stayed silent, waiting.
Last Updated : 2024-08-08Trained Not To Love You 56 Let's Get Away For A Bit
CamilaMadame Melania walked softly to the crib, her hand trembling slightly as she reached down to caress Katya’s cheek. Her touch was gentle, filled with a mixture of regret and sorrow."My sweet child," she whispered, her voice breaking. "Grandma was so angry yesterday that she made you cry. I'm so sorry, my love. I promise, next time I come, I won't make you cry." She bent down, her lips brushing Katya's forehead in a tender kiss, before she turned and left the room.I sat there, rooted to the spot, unable to move. My mind was a whirl of emotions, my heart heavy with sadness. I didn’t know how long I stayed like that, frozen in time, until Ronan walked in. He was dressed in casual clothes, a stark contrast to the turmoil inside me."I heard her leaving this morning," he said, his voice breaking through my deep thoughts. I turned to look at him, feeling the weight of the world on my shoulders. He walked over and sat beside me, his presence a small comfort."I'm so sorry about yeste
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Trained Not To Love You 250 A New Life
RonanThe rest of the day unfolded like a dream. The blending of cultures at the reception created an electric atmosphere, with traditional music, dancing, and customs from both Jorvik and Belvaria.People laughed, cheered, and toasted together, the joy in the air bringing everyone closer in a way I hadn’t seen before.The food was exquisite—lavish dishes from both sides, served alongside sweets that melted in your mouth. I glanced around, noticing a few of the usual snobbish Jorvikians clinging to old prejudices, but their aloofness felt like a remnant of a fading past. The world was changing, and today was proof that we were moving forward.As the day finally wound down, my heart quickened, knowing I’d soon take Camila home with me for the first time as my wife.My mother’s eyes were misty with tears as we prepared to leave. I knew the real reason she was so sentimental had little to do with the wedding itself.She’d gotten used to Camila and Glenda living at home, filling her table
Trained Not To Love You 249 Camila’s Vows
RonanThese words were my truth, my heart’s deepest promises, and I meant to honour them, no matter what life might bring our way.The hall was filled with the soft sounds of sniffles and quiet sighs; I could feel the weight of emotion in the air. But in that moment, I was aware only of Camila. My vow, my promises, were for her and her alone.Camila took a deep breath, gathering her thoughts, and I could see the shy nerves flickering in her expression. She hesitated just a moment, and then began, her voice steady but filled with emotion.“Ronan,” she said softly, her voice warming as she spoke, “words can’t fully capture what I feel, but I’ll do my best.” A gentle chuckle rippled through the crowd, lightening the moment, and she smiled at me with a look that made my heart race.“You made me feel at home when I didn’t have a home,” she continued, her voice thick with sincerity. “Because of you, I’ve known joy, dignity, and freedom—even though society didn’t think I was worthy of those
Trained Not To Love You 248 Eager And Willing
RonanThe music began softly, and I stood at full attention, my heart pounding as I focused on the door where Camila would soon appear.I felt a mix of nerves and anticipation I hadn’t expected, my eyes lingering on that entrance, hoping each passing second would bring her closer. But first came the bridesmaids, one by one, entering gracefully.Olivia led the way, her figure heavily pregnant but glowing, followed by Stephanie, Ashley, and two Belvarian women who looked like relatives of Camila. Though I hadn’t met them before, their familial resemblance to Camila was subtle—a trace here, a gesture there.Then, my little Katya appeared, a tiny vision holding a small basket of flowers. My heart melted as she toddled down the aisle, her big eyes wide with wonder. For a one-year-old, she was doing exceptionally well, capturing the hearts of everyone as she made her way forward.But then, as her gaze found mine, she lit up and shouted, “Dada!” I couldn’t help but laugh, joy filling me as s
Trained Not To Love You 247 The Day Was Finally Here
RonanThe day I had dreamed of for so long had finally arrived—my wedding day. As tradition demanded, I couldn’t spend the night with my bride, so I stayed at my house with Marc, Joseph, Erin and Ashton. Lying awake that morning, memories flooded my mind, filling me with emotions I hadn’t felt in a long time. I remembered a different night, a night that haunted me and almost changed everything.That time, I’d been betrayed, drugged, and left in a haze by people I’d thought I could trust—people like Abel and Mira, whose influence had threatened to destroy my happiness. But not this time. This time, it was just my brother my soon-to-be-in-law and my true friends and me, laughing and drinking, reliving those simpler days with nothing sinister lurking around the corner.For the first time, I felt completely in control, safe. I was grateful for that disastrous night from the past, because without it, I would never have crossed paths with Camila. Everything I’d been through, all the pain an
Trained Not To Love You 246 Two Days To The Wedding
CamilaTwo days before the wedding, Erin arrived with a heavily pregnant Olivia. I couldn't help but wonder how she managed to fly so far along in her pregnancy.Apparently, they had used a private jet, which explained the quick journey. My father had flown them all into Jorvik, bringing along his family, two lively ladies named Trisha and Lily, whom he said were our distant relatives. Along with them were Olivia’s friends, Stephanie and Ashely, who couldn't stop gushing about their excitement to see Marc and Joseph again. Clearly, those two men had left quite the impression on them.Olivia was radiant, her happiness infectious. It was clear she was free-spirited, a stark contrast to the life of servitude I had known.I was grateful she had never had to experience that harsh existence. Madam Melania was particularly taken with Olivia, unable to stop admiring her striking red hair and vibrant green eyes.I could see the wheels turning in Madam Melania’s mind as she tried to charm Olivi
Trained Not To Love You 245 Embracing A New Life
CamilaMy father returned to the villa that the head of state had prepared for him and his entourage. The wedding was just two weeks away, and he planned to leave briefly, returning with my family to attend the ceremony. I was excited at the thought of meeting them, especially with how well my mother’s relationship with Dimitri was progressing. Their bond seemed solid, unhindered by the past, and I was genuinely happy for them both.Ronan suggested we return to his house after the celebration, but Madam Melania was determined to keep us there. She pulled out all kinds of tricks to persuade us to stay, even pleading with my mother not to leave.However, Dimitri was firm in his decision to take her to Nerania, where he also planned to buy a house in Jorvik for them to stay. I understood his reasoning; Madam Melania often seemed to forget that we were no longer slaves, and a little distance might help her realise the changes in our lives.She wasn’t malicious, but her subtle reminders—li
Trained Not To Love You 244 Father And Daughter
CamilaAs Erin and Ashton walked in alongside my father, I found myself standing up almost absently, my heart racing. Seeing him in person was a revelation; he looked so much better than he did on the screen.His eyes were soft and warm when they fell on me, as if he had just encountered an angel, and in that moment, I couldn’t believe he was my father. The weight of the moment pressed down on me, filling me with a mix of joy and disbelief.I didn’t want to waste any time; I was determined to avoid any awkwardness between us. With a surge of emotion, I rushed toward him and wrapped my arms around his waist, letting him know that there was no need for words. I felt him pause for just a heartbeat before he slowly wrapped his arms around me in a bear hug, holding on tightly as if he were afraid I might slip away.“My daughter, my daughter,” he said, his voice cracking with emotion. I could feel his pain radiating through his words, hear it tremble in the air between us. This moment was a
Trained Not To Love You 243 Nervous
CamilaI was a bundle of nerves after the signing ceremony. My heart raced, each thump echoing in my ears like a drum. I knew Fredrick wouldn't waste any time seeking me out. Erin had mentioned how impatient he had been throughout the event, his excitement barely contained.As I thought about the man I was about to meet, I felt my stomach twist into knots. My mother appeared calm and composed, but I was anything but. Fredrick was my father, a man I had never seen before, someone I hadn’t even known existed until now. The realisation weighed heavily on me. This was all so overwhelming, yet I understood it was something I had to confront.Once the signing ceremony ended, I slipped out of the living room and headed up to Ronan's room. I needed a moment to gather my thoughts and calm my racing heart. I wasn't sure how I would react when I finally met Fredrick face-to-face or what I might say to him. I had only spoken to him once over the phone, which felt like a distant memory now. That w
Trained Not To Love You 242 The Signing
RonanAs we celebrated, Ashton turned to Erin with a look of quiet amazement. “When my uncle told me the only way to achieve this was by working honestly with the Jorvikians, I didn’t believe him,” he admitted. “But I guess he was right all along.” Erin nodded, sharing the same sense of disbelief mixed with newfound hope. It truly felt like the dawn of a new era, and I was grateful beyond words to witness it, let alone be part of it.Just as we were toasting to freedom and the future, my father’s phone rang. He listened quietly, then looked over at me, his expression softening. “Gregory has agreed to waive the death penalty in exchange for Lucas’s cooperation. He’ll be dismissed from the military and serve three years in prison. After that, he’ll be a free man. This is the best deal we could secure for him.”I nodded, a feeling of respect and relief swelling up as I met my father’s gaze. “Thank you, Father,” I said, my voice low but sincere. He returned a small smile, nodding back. Al
