There are things we might forget but that doesn’t mean they are no longer important to us.There are times we feel like we know someone when we don’t really even have a bit of conversation with them. Just the feeling of being close to that person for some reason. As if the moment you talk with them, what you can find is nothing but comfort... as if you have known them for so long...There are times that we feel guilty about something we don’t even know. As if we feel so sorry for any trouble we have caused. But when we asked ourselves what that was about... no words came out of our mouths.Weird... yet at the same time, we can’t even say it wasn’t true. For all of it was real and valid.We feel sad for a sudden moment in our lives. And funnily... it is for no reason at all... or maybe there really is a reason behind it but we just don’t really remember. We just don’t really know what the reason behind those tears was...Our minds are blocked from remembering what it really was. As if
The feeling of losing something important.... the feeling of not being able to do anything for it...I can’t help but feel useless...Those things that I have, I am grateful. But to those things that I let go...I feel like, I am an asshole...Did I really make the right choice?Kianna...She’s been with me ever since. I truly care for her but... I thought... casting her away would be the right choice for her to forget her feelings for me.But... every time... I wonder if I have made the right choice...She was there when I needed her but when she needed me... I cast her away. I push her and avoid her...“Are you finally awake?”“Hmm...”“What’s the matter?”I look at myself in the mirror. Indeed, I also want to ask that to myself. What is the matter with me?“Kieffer, are you all right? Do you want to go to the hospital?”Slightly laughing, I shook my head.“No need Mom, I am fine”No, I am not. I have so many troubles in my head that I want to clear up. It is not like I could say th
Right in front of me, I could see far away the figure of Drake standing at the end of the aisle.If I could, I would run to where he is... but that would be funny. How can a slow walk of the bride be a bride running to her groom?That was quite cute but... I can’t help but giggle with what I was thinking.Still, it helps me calm down as I took my step walking closer and closer to where he is.The sound of the piano was so wonderful that I even wonder where that familiar playing was from. But right now, I don’t find the urgency to find out the answer for that.For my mind was filled with nothing but hopes that the carpet I was walking on would bring me quicker to where Drake was.Somehow, Drake’s eyes was locked on mine, that even after I stopped my walk, he didn’t leave his gaze off me.A hand then offered his hands to me. It was grandpa.Dad is not here so grandpa offered to be the one to walk me down the aisle. And I could wish nothing else but this.“You look much more beautiful to
“Congratulations”I look at Francis he hand me an envelope.“Thank you”Looking at it, I look at Drake. Somehow, it surprises me how he looks normal. Well... he did know my past with Francis but I am glad that he have trust in me.“Thank you for coming to our wedding. They said it was thanks to you that Lhanoir agreed in playing the piano for our us. You have my deepest thanks.”The exchange greetings and it just occurs me what they are talking about. Now that I remember it, that sound of the piano, that kind of playing... it was out of ordinary. Who would have thought it was Lhanoir? I admired her when I was young...Now that I think about it... I think Drake told me something about the pianist for our wedding... but I was so sleepy that I didn’t really understand what he was talking about.“You don’t have to thank me. It just happened that I have an acquaintance who is close to her”Blinking my eyes, I look back at Drake and Francis. Slightly giggling, I didn’t think that there would
Waking up in yet another nightmare, I find myself catching my breath. Holding my chest, I stare into the air. “That again…” Mumbling to myself, I can no longer count how many times I had that dream. But to call it a dream is a bit sweet for what it really was. “Love, you are awake already? Did you have that nightmare again?” Smiling at me so sweetly, I never get tired of his face. “Drake” I smiled back and ended up being caught in his arms. “You don’t look good. Are you all right?” “I am. Since you are here with me” A moment of silence before he finally process what I said. Honestly, this side of him is so cute too. “Hey, you know what? where did you learn that? that was foul. How can you say a such thing so natural?” And here he is again with his jokes. If there is something I would think of as a dream, this should be it. After all, it is too good to be a reality. After going back to the past and having the chance to avoid my death, I am lucky. I really am. To think that…
The glass suddenly falls shattering. That sound made me get out of my deep thoughts. Hah, this is a mess. “Sorry… I didn’t mean to…” Shaking my head, I saw my hands near the glass. For some reason, I know it was me who did that but can’t admit it to myself. Am I scared? Of my own image? Or am I… scared of the fact that I know nothing at all? Ever since I was a little, I can’t deny the fact that I am so self-centered. That… I am so good at not looking through things so much. But… I don’t know why. Just seeing my own reflections makes me be reminded of that. They all look so real. As if… it isn’t just my imagination. This is weird, why am I being weird… “Kianna? Hey, I’ve been calling your name for a while. Are you okay? Are you hurt?” Looking at Drake whose face is full of worries, for some reason I feel my eyes getting warm. His facial expression changed. Is he alright? And all I can remember is him hugging me while I was sobbing till I slept. ‘I am not sure when will she be
No matter how much I hate my father because of what he did, I will not deny the fact that I still love him after all of that. I did wish for him to just vanish before… after getting that much hatred but… those are the times that I do not mean what I was saying. I did wish for it but I don’t really mean it… To think that the day would come when he would really be… dead… “Hello? Shaun? Shaun?? Do you hear me?” Calling Shaun, among anyone else, he was one of those who knew what was really happening. Like, he would surely have intel if my father was just faking his death just like me, right? Because if it was him, he should know… [Kianna? Why did you call? Make it quick] He sounds so annoyed but I understand. He is busy too, I know that. But I just really need to know what the truth is… I need to know… “Is it fake news? I mean, I heard that my father is dead, it can be a case just like me. Right? He is faking it, right?” Silence, that is what I heard on the other line. My hand tha
“Mom” I am looking at the back of my mother as she is staring out the window. Drake postponed his work just so he could be with me when I visited my mom. I told him I would be fine but after what happened that time, he dared not leave me alone. He insists on going with me which I also want to happen. I am not sure if it was for me or for him but… staying by each other’s side… I am sure it would be better for the two of us. “Kianna” Looking at me, I saw how my mom smiled so sweetly. As if she was forcing herself to do so. Now that I remember, she does smile like this even before. How foolish of me to not notice. Drake let go of my hand letting me come rushing towards her. “Mom…” I mumbled as I hugged her so tight. But all she did was pat the back of me to let me calm down. “Shhh” How painful it is for her? To get betrayed by her husband like that. to have her daughter fake her death just because the bastard of his husband attempts to kill her only child? I wonder… I wond
“Congratulations”I look at Francis he hand me an envelope.“Thank you”Looking at it, I look at Drake. Somehow, it surprises me how he looks normal. Well... he did know my past with Francis but I am glad that he have trust in me.“Thank you for coming to our wedding. They said it was thanks to you that Lhanoir agreed in playing the piano for our us. You have my deepest thanks.”The exchange greetings and it just occurs me what they are talking about. Now that I remember it, that sound of the piano, that kind of playing... it was out of ordinary. Who would have thought it was Lhanoir? I admired her when I was young...Now that I think about it... I think Drake told me something about the pianist for our wedding... but I was so sleepy that I didn’t really understand what he was talking about.“You don’t have to thank me. It just happened that I have an acquaintance who is close to her”Blinking my eyes, I look back at Drake and Francis. Slightly giggling, I didn’t think that there would
Right in front of me, I could see far away the figure of Drake standing at the end of the aisle.If I could, I would run to where he is... but that would be funny. How can a slow walk of the bride be a bride running to her groom?That was quite cute but... I can’t help but giggle with what I was thinking.Still, it helps me calm down as I took my step walking closer and closer to where he is.The sound of the piano was so wonderful that I even wonder where that familiar playing was from. But right now, I don’t find the urgency to find out the answer for that.For my mind was filled with nothing but hopes that the carpet I was walking on would bring me quicker to where Drake was.Somehow, Drake’s eyes was locked on mine, that even after I stopped my walk, he didn’t leave his gaze off me.A hand then offered his hands to me. It was grandpa.Dad is not here so grandpa offered to be the one to walk me down the aisle. And I could wish nothing else but this.“You look much more beautiful to
The feeling of losing something important.... the feeling of not being able to do anything for it...I can’t help but feel useless...Those things that I have, I am grateful. But to those things that I let go...I feel like, I am an asshole...Did I really make the right choice?Kianna...She’s been with me ever since. I truly care for her but... I thought... casting her away would be the right choice for her to forget her feelings for me.But... every time... I wonder if I have made the right choice...She was there when I needed her but when she needed me... I cast her away. I push her and avoid her...“Are you finally awake?”“Hmm...”“What’s the matter?”I look at myself in the mirror. Indeed, I also want to ask that to myself. What is the matter with me?“Kieffer, are you all right? Do you want to go to the hospital?”Slightly laughing, I shook my head.“No need Mom, I am fine”No, I am not. I have so many troubles in my head that I want to clear up. It is not like I could say th
There are things we might forget but that doesn’t mean they are no longer important to us.There are times we feel like we know someone when we don’t really even have a bit of conversation with them. Just the feeling of being close to that person for some reason. As if the moment you talk with them, what you can find is nothing but comfort... as if you have known them for so long...There are times that we feel guilty about something we don’t even know. As if we feel so sorry for any trouble we have caused. But when we asked ourselves what that was about... no words came out of our mouths.Weird... yet at the same time, we can’t even say it wasn’t true. For all of it was real and valid.We feel sad for a sudden moment in our lives. And funnily... it is for no reason at all... or maybe there really is a reason behind it but we just don’t really remember. We just don’t really know what the reason behind those tears was...Our minds are blocked from remembering what it really was. As if
They said that dreams are something that we shouldn’t remember. For it was designed to be forgotten once we are awake.But in some rare cases, dreams... make us remember them. To give us a message... to grant us some warnings... realization of something that only our subconscious mind can comprehend.‘I should have known that soul is a disaster’‘Her fragments are scattered... now the timelines are in chaos’‘How can a mere soul do that...’‘... She is not just a mere soul...’‘She got that blessing... even some of the angels bound in the land of mortals helped her...’‘But what would you do now? You finally got her fragments?’‘Why bother asking? There is only one thing to do. Fixed it the way it should be. Each soul must only have one memory of their life. And these two are rare cases that are starting to affect the others’My head hurts...As if... something was taken from inside me...The warmth... that I had in my heart seemed to be leaking out.The moment I opened my eyes, it to
Everything seems to be going with its best flow... with my family, with my career... all of it was in a smooth sail... and who would have thought that... it been months since that incident?Thanks to those memories that I have, I was able to prevent most of the things that might cause a huge problem in this timeline. Weird to say this but most of the scenarios in each life have similarities. Those people around me are the same... and there are just rare cases that their deaths would be different. As if it was their fate... my fate...Still, the fact that not all of them are identical means that changes of the future is still possible. The fact that I can prevent things from happening means that I can change the future I will have either for the better or worst of it.But I do hope that the future will be good to me... To be honest, this life is not just for me alone. It is for me and all of the Kiannas that lived a life before mine.Those things that they weren’t able to do... those w
In the end, I failed to see the photo he took. But he was so happy, I can tell. Well, I would admit, me too… I feel so happy now that we two were able to have this much fun.“Yes, that would be all for today”I mumbled as I shut close the folder I had in my hand. All the files regarding the situations that happened are now updated. I think we’ve fixed almost all of it... well, maybe aside from some minor things. But it shouldn’t be a trouble at all.Letting out a deep sigh, I can’t help but miss my date with Drake. I wonder what he is doing today...Opening my bag, I pick up my phone but...“Huh? This isn’t my phone...”It was Drake’s...Did I end up picking up his phone before heading out? Now that I think about it, our phones were charging closely with each other...“Maybe I did pick it up by mistake... I should call him- no... I should call my phone that is probably with him right now...”I giggled as I realized how clumsy it was to not realized that I took the wrong phone with me.
I do have that question for myself as well.Now that the world finally knows I am dead, would it be… right to announce the truth?That is something I am still not sure.And also… What would happen to the company now… I mean… Dad is not around and my brother- No, what I mean is Marco… he is not even my brother…“Kianna…”Patrish mumbles for the first time.“Whatever it might be… please tell us if you plan something big again…”Smiling bitterly, Patrish looks at me.“We are not just your friends, we are a family too. So we were really hurt when we learned about your death. We are hurt more than you can ever think of…”“Patrish…”“I understand what happened but still, we didn’t like what you did. We are happy that you are back but we feel betrayed…”I nod my head. I know that. I already knew it would be like that and I understand that it was but my fault.“I am really sorry… I know that what I did is wrong. Sorry… really”…After that conversation, I never hear Hera’s voice again. She ref
“Kianna? You are…”“Alive?”Looking at their surprised face, I am not sure of where to start. Should I say hello? Or should I explain things first? I… really don’t know.I can feel my hand turning numb. Joined with my heart that was beating so loud, I couldn’t take it… My head is in a mess. As if I am a device full of things with no storage left. And about to turn weird any time soon.Patrish, Scott, Kyler, Exequiel, and Warren. They all came here to see Hera. And also because of the fact that I send them a message to come here…“Thank you for coming here today…”Patrish could not help but put her hand on her lips. Covering it as she did not remove her eyes from me.“Wait wait wait… I don’t understand… Kianna… is that really you? This is not some kind of a joke, is it? If it is, guys it is not funny at all. Quit it right away!” Exequiel mumbles as he has his hands holding his hair.Still is not sure of what was happening.Still can’t process what the whole situation is all about.“Yes