" Caren !" We both scream disappointed to find her at the door.
We all cuddle on the couch with one big blanket before Caren is filled in on my impending problem.
" We should just go back to that hotel and inquire about the person who booked it."" No," I reply. " That would look absurd, why don't we wait for the owner of mysterious messages to show up?"
" Girl, you've got to stop being stupid, if he already tasted the honey pot why would he come back? "
I notice that Caren has a good point. She is always the most daring in our crew of three, also violent with a sharp tongue. Bella is the loudmouthed one, then there is me, the silent one and schemer.
" Exactly. " Bella says." We should all go."
Its a good thing I got my hair done and it has these crazy bangs at the edges. Except one thing, I was doing all this for my ex boyfriend Mark and he hasn't shown up or crossed my path to see my progress. And at this point I'm beginning to think it was worthless getting eyes, nails and hair done.
A few minutes later we are at the reception of the hotel narrating my ordeal.
" So you are trying to say you slept with the owner last Friday," the receptionist asks laughing.
" Yes, and am sure it was in this five star hotel. "
I can't really tell why she is laughing since we are all getting irritated.
" Can you please search Ryan Doe on your G****e search engine."
" That would be easy, except I haven't paid my telephone bills," I reply.
" Would you mind searching that name in your phone if you don't mind, for us." Caren asks.
" You do realize I can throw you out of here when I call security."
" We don't care, we are not leaving this place without the name. Room number, I don't remember, but she can find it physically. " Bella replies.
"Just wait till I prove to you this is no place for silly broke girls."
" What did you just say," Caren asks.
She is about to slap her with her fiery temper and energy when security show up and hold her hands.
" Mum, if you allow me, I'll show you your way out politely. " A security man says holding my arm.
I'm about to protest but notice people around glaring at us.
We begin to walk slowly towards the door giving the place one last look while scheming our return mission.
" Just a minute," I hear an all too familiar voice emerging from the elevator car.
" Let them go."
The man holding my arm let's go immediately apologizing profusely. He dismisses him with a nod and I am left standing in front of him.
I begin to notice myself and my insecurities. I'm wearing a tight blouse chosen by Caren. I've been holding my tummy in so it doesn't look big but I can't do it anymore. One wrong move and my belly button would fall off.
I try looking up at his tall stature but look down immediately. His staring directly at me. This wasn't part of the plan, me blushing and looking all shy. This was supposed to be a confrontation.
" You look so uncomfortable, " he begins.
" Uh- I'm I -"" And your cheeks are turning red." He adds as his lips go up into the familiar smirk that I had missed." Its not what you think," I defend myself.
" But we can fix that with coffee"
For the first time he says something positive.
" We are all hungry," I hear Bella whisper behind me, "don't you dare turn him down, we'll go and drink that coffee without you."
" Sure, coffee sounds good." I reply.
He leads the way out of the magnificent building and their is a car waiting outside right at the entrance.
The driver opens the door and Bella gets in with Caren. I'm about to get in before he points the other car.
He opens the door and I get into the back seat with him. It's a cool SUV one that I haven't gotten the pleasure of riding in before.
I settle in my seat and look out the window. An opaque glass immediately slides between the driver and passengers causing me to sit up in alarm.
" Don't tell me you are afraid, "
" I'm not. "
" That's some great show you had with the receptionist," He replies laughing softly.
" Don't you dare mock me, I'm hear for some good reasons. "
" I hope moaning my name is one of them," he retorts back winking.
I turn to face him defeated with a big scowl on my face.
" Oh my, the kitten is trying to purr, but anyway how are you doing."
I roll my eyes before the car comes to a stop. Its some old exotic Italian restaurant. The cars packed outside all look expensive giving the place a different touch. Added to by a grass thatched roof.
There is a table outside marked reserved and we all sit down.
My stomach immediately begins rumbling trying to embarrass my pride and facade.
The menu is passed round and I hear Bella and Caren oder full chicken each and many other things. I'm trying hard not to laugh when my turn comes.
What was meant to be a coffee turned to be a huge feast.
I'm not any different as I mutter the word same and look down.
" Iced tea with lemonade,"
We begin small talk and it's obvious the tension and embarrassment on all our faces after the host decided to drink tea.
Which girl sleeps with a man on the first night, their is no good impression am trying to create.
" About the other night," I begin.
" Am all ears." He replies.
" Did you, did we, I mean how did ..." I continue fumbling my way with words.
" Like did you sleep with her?" Caren finally asks.
" Yeah we slept on the same bed."
" Like did you guys do it," Bella insists.
" Do what? Dance, eat biscuits,swim?" He replies back clearly enjoying the show.
" Did we sin with you," I finally ask.
" Yeah, a lot of sins" he says throwing a masculines smile my way.
I gasp at his choice of words and hold my mouth.
" Drinking is also a sin right?"
"Why are you playing with my head," I finally ask.
" I'm just dancing to your tune, to your beats," he answers.
" Shall we now eat." Bella says as the waiter sets the table.
My pupils quickly dilate at the sight of food. No matter what you are going through always eat. I say to myself.
A hand drapes over my shoulders and I feel him pulling me towards him.
" What do you think happened that night," he whispers.
Before I could answer he presses a key into my hands. When you are ready you can come alone we talk.
" Inside that suite ," he adds.
I sat in the soft bed and buried my face in my hands. The problem with hiding in crowds and trying to be invisible is that at the end of the day you were alone.No matter how fast or hard I run, I could never escape myself. I could still see my desperation and unhappy soulless soul that I hid under a facade of happy smiles.Mark had rescued me from the streets and without him, I was going right back. My bills weren't going to pay themselves, now that we had separated, he wouldn't continue to help me.The million dollar question is was I ready to go back working in underground strip clubs and bars to support myself?No!I stood up and pulled in a dress shirt before leaving the house. Did angels really exist, right now I needed every miracle they had left to help me pay my bills.I couldn't come out in the open to tell Bella about my predicament. It was end month and we w
I touched the ground with a thud and scanned the area preparing to murder whoever had witnessed my super woman act. Satisfied with the environment, I jogged towards the flight of stairs and descended down two at a time consoling myself with my hyper Bitch mode that would disappear if I saw a lizard.God, I hated the creatures, they brought hell out of me. I could hear the sad beats of my heart pounding loudly as a result of fear that I refused to give attention. "Now you are fucked up, you did this to yourself, " my subconscious screamed at me. Reaching the driveway, I started sprinting towards home with a blast of cold winter air hitting my head hard. "Where do you think you are going, that is the first place he would look," It was my inner voice again. I stopped running , and stood still petrified like a pillar of salt in the middle of the street . He would look at my place then Caren's. I took
Filthy curses escaped my mouth as I struggled to get up. It was clear how dangerously high, I was betting on fate that almost abandoned me. A small sharp pain came to my thigh and disappeared the way it came.He must have heard the thud, if he finds me my small mental shake will come to an end. I hurried out of the verandah as panic gripped my throat and tears threatened to split out of my eyes. I just wanted to be a girl and cuddle and be spoilt with forehead kisses not this.The beams of a pair of headlights threw on their asphalt sliping beneath the rig's tears making me hide before I was seen.I watched as Ben came down followed by another guy. Ah! It was Friday, they were going out.As expected, Mark came down and hugged them before they started making small talk, all this while his eyes darting left and right unsettled. He gnashed his teeth silently and I noticed his fingers cle
" Raine," the stranger called in a whiskey soaked deep voice. I stood their, unable to believe my eyes. I was fucking up my life from all possible angles. The universe was mocking me straight up on the face. " Raine!" He called again in a loudly. " Hey, uhm, sorry," I fumbled with words. " Why do I have the feeling that you are the best accident and coincidence I've ever made," he said in a voice toned with confidence. " What, wh- what? Now you think I'm an accident," I asked my tone laced with anger and hurt. I was his best accident, that hurt, that hurt a little but no time for that, survival first, get out of this hell hole alive. Where my friends when I needed them the most. I made sure I bumped into his shoulder as I went past him to head for the washrooms and lock myself in. This whole crowd woul
The pale crescent moon shone like a silvery claw in the night sky.I bit the grilled lemon chicken and closed my eyes to savour the sweetness, as I stared at the stars.He was such a good cook. Anytime I saw food, all my manners took flight and left me on my own.I was holding my chunk of chicken between my hands taking big mouth fulls and closing my eyes as I chewed.Ryan on the other hand was nibbing the corners of his mouth with a white napkin, while slicing his chicken and garlic bread with a knife." Forgive me if my demeanor lacks any lady like grace," I apologized without really meaning it." I think you are cute, when I watch you eat like that, " he chuckled. " But when I take you on a date, you'll have to use them," he winked.I looked down as colour filled my cheeks. Was I blushing?Take you out on a date.
Twenty five missed calls! Bella: Where are you? Caren: We can't just make plans and you back out... angry emoji face Bella: Which hellhole are you stuck in caren: If you don't reply in five minutes we are going home without you Bella: Hey are you okay, I heard things got messed up between you and that pighead called Mark Caren: sorry for the bad words, I was drunk , ( crying emoji face) And many more drunken shitty texts. * * * I pushed the door of my house open carefully, so that the door wouldn't break from it's tired hinges. It was a small place, one that I called home. A small bed that was my refuge from the world. Where I could be me and cry my heart out. A small vibration came from my phone and I opened it anxiou
" You'll have to come with us."" No, " he roared refusing to believe the mess I had landed him in.You could be accused of gender violence Infront of the disciplinary committee." Excuse me," one of his friends interjected, trying to explain.I was wearing a nervous look, pretending to be scared, a look Mark could see through clearly.He opened his slobbering mouth to speak in his defence before realizing his mistake.Once again I was playing the victim perfectly and he could never beat me at wearing faces and masks, I had been wearing them all my life." Miss , would you like to write a statement with the school security team?"" No, I just want to head home, I'm about to have a panic attack," I reply sniffing my nose." Drink this, it will help you to calm down," the security man hands me a bottle of aqua water, while o
" Mark," I almost scream unable to believe the sight in front of me.He's standing in a corner with one of his hands inside a girls skirts and the other hand buried in her hair." Raine" he calls back horrified, trying to mask the fear in his face." Are you cheating on me with that girl?"I ask tears blurring my peripheral vision." What happened to loving me till the day I stop breathing, "I can't take the sight anymore one wrong move and I would start sobbing loudly the way I always do in my pillow." Does it look like am saying the truth with her?"" What did you just say?"" Never mind you are the girl I love, this is some alcohol mix up ," he replies with a fake look of desperation on his face.I cover my mouth to prevent the sobs that are building up inside me from coming out. Even after he used me to hide his secret of being bisexual, he still found another girl." Wait don't go," he
" You'll have to come with us."" No, " he roared refusing to believe the mess I had landed him in.You could be accused of gender violence Infront of the disciplinary committee." Excuse me," one of his friends interjected, trying to explain.I was wearing a nervous look, pretending to be scared, a look Mark could see through clearly.He opened his slobbering mouth to speak in his defence before realizing his mistake.Once again I was playing the victim perfectly and he could never beat me at wearing faces and masks, I had been wearing them all my life." Miss , would you like to write a statement with the school security team?"" No, I just want to head home, I'm about to have a panic attack," I reply sniffing my nose." Drink this, it will help you to calm down," the security man hands me a bottle of aqua water, while o
Twenty five missed calls! Bella: Where are you? Caren: We can't just make plans and you back out... angry emoji face Bella: Which hellhole are you stuck in caren: If you don't reply in five minutes we are going home without you Bella: Hey are you okay, I heard things got messed up between you and that pighead called Mark Caren: sorry for the bad words, I was drunk , ( crying emoji face) And many more drunken shitty texts. * * * I pushed the door of my house open carefully, so that the door wouldn't break from it's tired hinges. It was a small place, one that I called home. A small bed that was my refuge from the world. Where I could be me and cry my heart out. A small vibration came from my phone and I opened it anxiou
The pale crescent moon shone like a silvery claw in the night sky.I bit the grilled lemon chicken and closed my eyes to savour the sweetness, as I stared at the stars.He was such a good cook. Anytime I saw food, all my manners took flight and left me on my own.I was holding my chunk of chicken between my hands taking big mouth fulls and closing my eyes as I chewed.Ryan on the other hand was nibbing the corners of his mouth with a white napkin, while slicing his chicken and garlic bread with a knife." Forgive me if my demeanor lacks any lady like grace," I apologized without really meaning it." I think you are cute, when I watch you eat like that, " he chuckled. " But when I take you on a date, you'll have to use them," he winked.I looked down as colour filled my cheeks. Was I blushing?Take you out on a date.
" Raine," the stranger called in a whiskey soaked deep voice. I stood their, unable to believe my eyes. I was fucking up my life from all possible angles. The universe was mocking me straight up on the face. " Raine!" He called again in a loudly. " Hey, uhm, sorry," I fumbled with words. " Why do I have the feeling that you are the best accident and coincidence I've ever made," he said in a voice toned with confidence. " What, wh- what? Now you think I'm an accident," I asked my tone laced with anger and hurt. I was his best accident, that hurt, that hurt a little but no time for that, survival first, get out of this hell hole alive. Where my friends when I needed them the most. I made sure I bumped into his shoulder as I went past him to head for the washrooms and lock myself in. This whole crowd woul
Filthy curses escaped my mouth as I struggled to get up. It was clear how dangerously high, I was betting on fate that almost abandoned me. A small sharp pain came to my thigh and disappeared the way it came.He must have heard the thud, if he finds me my small mental shake will come to an end. I hurried out of the verandah as panic gripped my throat and tears threatened to split out of my eyes. I just wanted to be a girl and cuddle and be spoilt with forehead kisses not this.The beams of a pair of headlights threw on their asphalt sliping beneath the rig's tears making me hide before I was seen.I watched as Ben came down followed by another guy. Ah! It was Friday, they were going out.As expected, Mark came down and hugged them before they started making small talk, all this while his eyes darting left and right unsettled. He gnashed his teeth silently and I noticed his fingers cle
I touched the ground with a thud and scanned the area preparing to murder whoever had witnessed my super woman act. Satisfied with the environment, I jogged towards the flight of stairs and descended down two at a time consoling myself with my hyper Bitch mode that would disappear if I saw a lizard.God, I hated the creatures, they brought hell out of me. I could hear the sad beats of my heart pounding loudly as a result of fear that I refused to give attention. "Now you are fucked up, you did this to yourself, " my subconscious screamed at me. Reaching the driveway, I started sprinting towards home with a blast of cold winter air hitting my head hard. "Where do you think you are going, that is the first place he would look," It was my inner voice again. I stopped running , and stood still petrified like a pillar of salt in the middle of the street . He would look at my place then Caren's. I took
I sat in the soft bed and buried my face in my hands. The problem with hiding in crowds and trying to be invisible is that at the end of the day you were alone.No matter how fast or hard I run, I could never escape myself. I could still see my desperation and unhappy soulless soul that I hid under a facade of happy smiles.Mark had rescued me from the streets and without him, I was going right back. My bills weren't going to pay themselves, now that we had separated, he wouldn't continue to help me.The million dollar question is was I ready to go back working in underground strip clubs and bars to support myself?No!I stood up and pulled in a dress shirt before leaving the house. Did angels really exist, right now I needed every miracle they had left to help me pay my bills.I couldn't come out in the open to tell Bella about my predicament. It was end month and we w
" Caren !" We both scream disappointed to find her at the door.We all cuddle on the couch with one big blanket before Caren is filled in on my impending problem. " We should just go back to that hotel and inquire about the person who booked it."" No," I reply. " That would look absurd, why don't we wait for the owner of mysterious messages to show up?"" Girl, you've got to stop being stupid, if he already tasted the honey pot why would he come back? "I notice that Caren has a good point. She is always the most daring in our crew of three, also violent with a sharp tongue. Bella is the loudmouthed one, then there is me, the silent one and schemer." Exactly. " Bella says." We should all go."Its a good thing I got my hair done and it has these crazy bangs at the edges. Except one thing, I was doing all this for my ex boyfriend Mark and he hasn't shown up or crossed my path to see my progr
I turn around and feel something on my waist. I move my hand and find its a hand, a hairy one.Dear God! Is this a dream?I sit up and look at the person next to me, he's very good looking, a blessing to beauty, I must admit. His chest is well tanned with abs every girl would die for.And for a moment, I'm tempted to touch them if they are real.I look under the sheets and find myself naked. I almost scream as I sweep the room with one look for my clothes.I lift the covers and he's also naked and also hard. Why can't I remember anything? That's some monster under the sheets.I look around for condoms, still nothing.Standing up slowly I tiptoe towards the bathroom to find my clothes in a wet heap alongside with his.How crazy was all this? That our clothes are lying in the shower.I want to so badly remember what happened. I push the drawers and finally find a sweat pant alongside some men shirts