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Chapter 37 - Adventure
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2024-10-29 19:42:56“Are you driving?” I ask Leo as we walk to our assigned UTV.
“No, you are.” He says helping me get into the driver’s side.
“Cool” I say feeling excited about driving around the sand on the beach. Leo walks around gets in the passenger side. We get ready to leave; we’re the last UTV on the line that are parked and ready to go. I wait for the ones in front of me to load up and drive away. They start moving after a short while and then I set off when it’s my turn. The drive starts slowly at first but eventually we pick up speed.
I put my foot down on the accelerator to keep up with the group. I concentrate on navigating the trail, feeling alive. I love this; I’ve wanted to do this for a long time. I’m so glad Zach thought to book this for. I almost went crazy with excitement when he told us we were going to be doing this when we got back to the house this morning.
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