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Chapter 30 - Common ground
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2024-10-29 19:42:56“Do you mind if I start at home before I drop you off?” Golden says as we leave the school grounds. I want to say yes I mind please let me out at the bus stop but I don’t want to be rude.
She’s been very kind to drive me back and forth from school for the past few weeks and it has made my life so much easier. I haven’t had to worry about hustling my siblings to get to the bus on time in the mornings in a long time.
I’m grateful for her help but that weird feeling I had in the beginning is back. It feels like we’re starting over rebuilding our friendship. I don’t know if we should continue with this anymore. But every morning she shows up on time to pick us pick. I can’t tell you how many times I chickened out of texting her not to pick us up.
I know she’s not going to understand why I want to stop. I don’t know how to say no without sounding ungrateful but at the time am I supposed to just g
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