“Aurelia! I was so worried when I heard you were sent to the hospital! Are you okay? Are you still in pain?” Eli was getting too close to me with that snot covered face so I, not hiding it, move away from him with a disgusted and annoyed expression. Even though his face was so gross looking to me right now I could see how he was “attractive” to Aurelia in the first place.
With a face that still had baby fat, I could see deep blue eyes that I am surprised someone so young has. His light caramel skin went well with his light blonde hair. As I keep on looking at him I notice that his feet were off the ground as he fully lay on my bed. I could see he was currently wearing a white floral dress with white ribbons holding his hair up into pigtails.
He gave off an expression of an innocent child who could never hurt anyone. I narrow my eyes at the thought, feeling my heart tighten as I continue to look at Eli. I could feel something deep inside of me wanting to comfort him but it quickly got overpowered by my deep resentment for the boy standing in front of me.
“If you could be so kind, get off my bed right now and leave. I do not wish to see you at all. Now if you will excuse me I am going back to sleep. When I wake up, you better be gone.” I could feel my heart loosen as I say that and pull my cover back over me then close my eyes. I couldn’t hear anymore sniffling from Eli but unfortunately, I didn’t hear him leave either.
After a few long minutes that felt like hours, I could hear Eli footsteps walking away from my bed and out of my room. I felt myself relax and I went back to sleep, not wanting to do anything else today but sleep. I would start planning tomorrow. For right now I just want to sleep.
After a while, I was going to drift off again until I heard footsteps approaching my room again. I could smell something delicious coming closer and my stomach decided to let out a growl, showing me I was rather hungry at the moment.
I slowly sat up in my bed again and I had a frown on my face once I realize it was Eli with a cart of food. He struggles to push the cart to my bed but continue to do it until it was near me. Letting out a huge breath, Eli sat on my bed again and I notice his face wasn’t cover in tears or snot anymore.
“Aurelia, let eat breakfast together! You must be hungry, right? You shouldn’t starve yourself you know? It will badly affect you in the future.” Eli was giving me a bright smile as he removes a tray from the food cart and put it in front of me. I looked down at the tray and I saw french toasts that were designed to look like cats and tamagoyaki in the shape of hearts.
If Eli was the one who made this I would have thrown it on the ground, but I knew it was the people of this house who made it for me so I could only let out a sigh as I pick up a fork from the tray and eat.
Eli had a tray in front of him too as we ate on my bed. He was humming happily while I had an annoyed expression on my face, feeling pissed that I, unfortunately, was eating together with my “childhood friend”.
“Is the food not good? You have such a displeased look on your face.” Eli finally notices how annoyed I was at the moment and was tilting his head towards me in a cute way. If anyone else was here the would be gushing about how cute he was but I could only frown deeper at what he was doing.
“Why are you still here? I wish to be alone. Not eat breakfast together with you. After this is done, leave.” I coldly spit that out to Eli and continue to eat, not caring that Eli stops humming. After I finish eating I place my fork down and look at the upset Eli who was just pushing around his small portion of leftover food. Eli made eye contact with me and I notice that his eyes look glossy.
I only stare at him, not caring that he is tearing up at the moment. Eli got up from my bed and put both of our trays onto the cart. I thought he was going to leave with the cart but he got back on my bed and, to my surprise, hug me tightly. Whenever I tried to wriggle out of his grip, he just increases it and I could only sit there with a glare on my face.
“Why are you so cold today?.... Did I do something wrong? Even though you usually act like this with me, you aren’t this cold with me. A-Are we not friends anymore?” I could feel my breathing get difficult as Eli’s grip grew super tight. I was surprised someone at his age was this strong already. I could feel danger flags going off in my head as my shoulder grew wet with Eli tears.
“If I can’t be your friend, what the point of being alive anymore? Not having you in my life is death itself. Don’t kill me, Aurelia. Don’t.” I could feel cold sweat appearing on my back, as Eli’s cutesy voice grew darker. ‘Okay, I forgot one important thing. He is the yandere love interest. I can’t just be cold towards him. He is literally a wildcard.’
“Eli, you are hurting me. We are still friends but you are hurting me so let go before we stop being friends.” I could only sigh on the inside once I realize I would have to be his “friend” if I didn’t want any “accident” to happen to me. Eli let go of me quickly and I saw a bright smile on his face as he just looks at me. I just give him an indifferent look, not bothering to pretend I was please or happy.
“Sorry! You did come out of the hospital. I hope I didn’t hurt you at all. You are my best friend after all. I would rather die than hurt you.” Eli was nuzzling his face against mine and I couldn’t help but understand why Aurelia fell in love with him. If someone acts like this towards you and you never got any type of love from your family then of course you would stick with this person. ‘How disgusting. I hate this. I hate him. But I have to put up with him. Once I reach the game starting point I will never have to deal with him again.’
Eli was still nuzzling me as I thought this, humming happily again. I had both my hands tight in a fist, holding myself back from trying to harm him. I had to be smart. Even if I hated him, I can’t just act out whenever I want. I will just plan ahead. I won’t do anything to him unless he does something first.
I wonder if it is bad that I hope he tries something just so I can break him.
I spent the last few days at my house relaxing and waiting for my body to be at one hundred percent. While I was relaxing I was, unfortunately, visited by my “precious” childhood friend. He would bring me different types of gifts to help me get better.The servants in my house found it cute how considerate he was being but I could only see him in a negative light. I will never fully trust him. I won’t trust anyone who is involved in a way with my death in the game. I have to be careful around them.After a few days of me not doing anything, my 'father' sent me my usual tutor to make sure I was being kept up to pace with everything. From Aurelia's memories, she didn’t enjoy studying at all. She could never be good enough in her 'father's' eyes. Only her 'brother' was the perfect child so she always hid away from her tutor and never did her work.Seeing as I
It was in the middle of the night and my only light source was a candle that I found in the house. I was sitting in the middle of my bedroom with my black book in front of me. I tried to once again open it but stopped once I realized it wasn’t going to budge.“Okay... From the books I read on magic and dark magic if I want to get started with it I have to give up something of myself… It must be talking about blood since I don’t know what else I could give up from myself.” I lift a needle that I stole from Mae sewing kit and stab myself in the finger with it.I held the finger dripping with blood over my black blood and let my blood fall onto it. My blood landed on the book and I looked at it with focused eyes, waiting for something to happen. I was getting irritated when nothing happened after a few minutes and was going to get off the ground when the candle in front of me went out.
I was standing in front of my huge closet that was in my bedroom. I had a frown on my face when I saw all the bright-looking dresses. I went further into this closet hoping I could at least find something that was dark. I was going to give up hope and grab a random dress from the closet when I saw something that stuck out from the colorful dresses.Getting the dark clothing from the line of clothes I held it in front of me. It was a black dress with white lines near the end of the dress. I felt satisfied with what I was holding and took it out of the closet with me so I could wear it for dinner.After I was done picking out my outfit I decided to go back to the black book that my teacher gave me and try to see if I could teach myself a spell. I held the book in my hand for a few seconds before finally opening it. I could feel a small smile on my face when the book opened easily.When I looke
I spent two months in my house slowly expanding my knowledge of the world. My magic was getting better but it wasn’t perfect. I could still hear that voice appear in my head often but I always manage to push them back down.I was currently having a lesson with my tutor who was impressed with how much I improve over the two months since I got into this body. He was currently teaching me stuff that was more suited for children who were older than me.“I am impressed with how you are progressing in your studies. Your magic is above average as well. I wonder if you were able to do this before, why didn’t you?” My tutor was currently looking through assignments he gave me with pleased eyes. I felt satisfied that he was impressed with how I was doing. But it wasn’t enough. Everything had to be better than everyone.“I was too focused on getting atten
Eli became even clinger after my ‘birthday party’. It is weird to have him always hugging my arm, hugging my waist, and just hugging all over. Is he trying to do something? Also, I am not liking that intense look in his eyes whenever he thinks I am not looking at him.He would always invite me over to his home so that I could watch him dress up in his clothing. He would even make me choose what he should wear telling me, “I want to dress in a way that you enjoy. Your opinion matters to me after all.”It didn’t help that he blushed when he said that to me. I don’t know what is happening to him at all. I mean as long as he isn’t trying to mess with me I will, unfortunately, allow this to continue but I am going to figure out a way for him not to always be in my personal space. It gets uncomfortable if he is always close to me.After my &lsq
I was in my house library studying and taking notes of things I didn’t understand so I could ask my tutor to explain it to me when we came at the usual time. I increased my studying time after I met that prick, Colton.I had to take a deep breath as I remembered him and made sure to get my emotions under control. I don’t want to lose to that dick. I have to keep my studying up so he will not catch up with me. I would rather bite my tongue off than lose to that stuck up dick.As I was reading through a book on the history of how magic came to be I heard the door to the library open. I didn’t bother looking up, assuming it was one of my servants here to leave me a little snack. After a few minutes of silence, I realized that the person who came into the room didn’t leave and I could feel them looking at me with intense eyes.Looking up from my book with a little b
I had a cold look on my face as I looked at my ‘father’ who was talking to a group of important-looking nobles. I was at a table with other children who were my age but none of them dare speak to me, too scared by the cold look I was giving.A cup was placed in front of me and the cold look on my face slowly went away. I look over my shoulder to see Sybil standing behind me with a professional look on his face. Even if I was pissed at my current situation I felt pleased that at least I had one person I could trust with me.I was currently at a tea party but this wasn’t just any tea party, it was a tea party for children my age to hopefully get engaged to someone from an important family. When my ‘father’ visited me one day and told me I was invited to one I felt like I was going to lose control of my magic due to how angry I felt.He is already power
It seems luck was not on my side when Merrill decided to ask his parents if he could visit me once a month and stay at my home for a week. I really wanted to refuse but my ‘father’ ignored what I wanted and told me to simply behave nicely.I hated that no matter how harsh and cold I was to Merrill he kept coming back for more and waiting for me to say something else to him. He was simply a person who couldn’t be dealt with by using harsh words. I never thought I would actually prefer Eli over the other two troublesome love interests.Eli and Merrill seem to have a really tense relationship as well, from what I could see from their interactions with each other. Sybil and him didn’t get along either. I really didn’t know why they didn’t like him but it really wasn’t something I would worry about.I was having a lesson with my tutor one day
Do you know how it feels to wake up from a deep sleep? Like a sleep that seems like it wasn’t that long but your body is stiff and you are thirsty. And you just need to brush your teeth because it is not a good feeling at the moment.I was currently dealing with that and it was strange. My body felt well rested but at the same time, it felt super sore. I was having a hard time understanding what time it was, where I am, or the meaning of everything in the world. I could feel something wet on my face and I just knew it was drool, gross.Before I could even handle that, I felt myself getting tackled. I was not expecting it and I could feel all the air leaving my lungs. I was confused and still half asleep. Someone was talking but all I could hear was just a bunch of mumbles. I could hear them but the words didn’t make sen
I didn’t know how I was going to get back to where my body was. I was in a space I didn’t know how I got into so it was hard leaving this space. Even though it was bright and covered in daisies, I couldn’t stay here any longer.I am pretty sure this was a place that was supposed to consume me in all my negative emotions but I managed to kind of handle them. There is still some stuff I need to deal with but not right now.‘The creature that is made up of the souls of all the dead dark magic users probably have my body close to them. It would make sense since they are trying to make me join the other souls as well…’ I was struggling to figure out how I could get out of this place I was in when I felt something hit the
I am Aurelia Giliam, I am hated by my family and I crave to feel any type of love. I am stuck in an endless cycle of trying to get the love of people who I know will never give me it. I am bitter, I am angry. I hate this. I am Alina. I don’t have a last name. My mommy family doesn’t want me to have their surname and I hate saying my father's last name as well. I felt love from my mommy, that love of her was so warm and so pure. I wanted to experience that love again so I kept my heart open… Until I reached a point where my heart was broken to a point I couldn’t fix it anymore. I met a boy with a kind smile and love for me but… I pushed him away. I lost him. I lost my mommy. It hurts so much. I am so lonely. My role in this world was the villainess, I was made to suffer so other people could fall in love. Even if I try to change my fate it wouldn’t e
‘Please don’t! Give me back my child! Kill me instead! I am begging you!’ I could hear a voice of a woman calling out all around me. She was crying and it just made me feel so uncomfortable, I didn’t like hearing that at all. Crying reminded me of my mommy… ‘I don’t want to die! Please don’t kill me! Why are you doing this?!’ I am hearing a different voice this time, it sounds like a man who seems very fearful. I wonder who he is calling out to? ‘I hate you! I hate all of you! I will make everyone pay for this! Do you think I am a monster? I will show you a REAL MONSTER!’ I can’t tell if the per
I am humming to myself as I stand on a stepping stool. My hands are so sticky but I am almost done with the sandwich for my mommy. It took me forever but I finally managed to cut them into heart shapes! There were a few close calls with the knife but I didn’t get hurt at all! Mommy will be so proud of me.I placed my heart-shaped sandwiches on the plate alongside the heart-shaped pancakes! I thought for a second before deciding to put my weirdly shaped waffle on the plate as well. It took me so long to make it and I am proud it came out so well unlike the other ones that weren’t cooked all the way.To finish it off I decided to add the rolled omelet that I added a smiley face to. I couldn’t keep the smile off my face when I was done with everything for my mommy. I couldn’t help but picture he
I felt like Merrill became even strange after our time in the forest together. We had to leave early since he was bitten by a snake, but he became clingy. It was like he was another Eli and for some reason, that seemed to upset Eli a lot.But I was too focus on other stuff to really try to understand why he was upset with that. It feels like my past life keeps merging with my current life. I would see things from my past life but they would quickly disappear once I look at them again. It feels like I am in a nightmare that is slowly becoming a part of my reality. I feel like I am going crazy but I don’t know what to do.I am scared… What if I can’t tell the difference between my past life and this life. I know I have to remember my past fully to get over it but I don’t want to feel the pain again. It feels like I
It has been a while since the moment happened between me and Erik. We are at a standstill with each other, it's was not hate and it is was not love either. He doesn’t look at me with scared eyes anymore but I can’t understand the look in his eyes anymore when I catch him looking at me.I don’t want to understand it, I don’t care about how he thinks about me anymore. That a lie, you care. Why do you care still? So pathetic, you make me feel sick. Fucking useless piece of shit…I am also dealing with the angry voice more often. The other two often show up but for some reason, the angry voice keeps showing up more often. It is often hard to tell the difference between my thoughts and their voice. What if one day I am no longer able to tell the difference anymore… I don’t want to t
I was pretty irritated for a few days since the pain from my cramps just wanted to screw me over. Drucilla gave me something for my period so it wouldn’t get in my way as I was training. It did help me not notice I was bleeding from below but it didn’t help me ignore that pain that would appear out of nowhere.This didn’t really help me out when I was cutting my bangs with shaky hands since I didn’t trust myself with the scissors I was using. When I went to cut both of my long bangs a painful cramp appeared out of nowhere and it caused me to cut bangs a bit awkwardly. When I went to fix it another cramp appeared out of nowhere and my bangs became rather short. I decided it was time for me to stop before I stop having bangs.I mean my hair won’t get in the way of training but it feels so weird to have short h
I was breathing heavily as I hid away in a hole in a tree and I could hear the scream of Eli as he was caught. I was covered in sweat and I felt so dirty. My hair wasn’t doing perfect either seeing as I am pretty sure there were leaves and twigs currently in it.“Let see… My precious babies manage to catch one of you. I wonder who they will catch next~?” Drucilla sounded way too cheerful as her voice echoed in the forest we were currently in. I really didn’t understand why the first day of training was us basically running and hiding away from her pack of wolves, it didn’t make sense!How did I go from reading books in the library about my mom's home country with Colton to hiding away from a bunch of wolves and my weird aunt? This doesn’t make sense at all! Shouldn’t we just slowly d