I had a cold look on my face as I looked at my ‘father’ who was talking to a group of important-looking nobles. I was at a table with other children who were my age but none of them dare speak to me, too scared by the cold look I was giving.
A cup was placed in front of me and the cold look on my face slowly went away. I look over my shoulder to see Sybil standing behind me with a professional look on his face. Even if I was pissed at my current situation I felt pleased that at least I had one person I could trust with me.
I was currently at a tea party but this wasn’t just any tea party, it was a tea party for children my age to hopefully get engaged to someone from an important family. When my ‘father’ visited me one day and told me I was invited to one I felt like I was going to lose control of my magic due to how angry I felt.
He is already power
It seems luck was not on my side when Merrill decided to ask his parents if he could visit me once a month and stay at my home for a week. I really wanted to refuse but my ‘father’ ignored what I wanted and told me to simply behave nicely.I hated that no matter how harsh and cold I was to Merrill he kept coming back for more and waiting for me to say something else to him. He was simply a person who couldn’t be dealt with by using harsh words. I never thought I would actually prefer Eli over the other two troublesome love interests.Eli and Merrill seem to have a really tense relationship as well, from what I could see from their interactions with each other. Sybil and him didn’t get along either. I really didn’t know why they didn’t like him but it really wasn’t something I would worry about.I was having a lesson with my tutor one day
I was getting ready in my room as I was heading over to my ‘ father’s' home to eat dinner with him there. It seemed like our relationship was getting ‘closer’ and he wanted to show his improved opinion of me by having me eat dinner at his house.I didn’t feel honored by this at all. Just made me feel like he was telling me I should be thankful that I can be in his grace. I hated this man and one day I wish I could become higher than him in status. Not through marrying someone powerful but with my own skill.I let out a sigh as I realized it would be a long process for me to reach that goal of mine. Even if I see him as a piece of shit this ‘father’ of mine is someone who earned his status in the world. He is ruthless in his deals and doesn’t let useless emotions affect his business deals.I looked at myself in the mirror and reached up
Ever since I decided to limit my contact with my ‘family members’ I felt a bit more at ease with myself. I don’t know why but it felt like a weight was off my shoulders and Sybil told me my eyes looked brighter and that “You look even more beautiful, Lady Aurelia!”.I decided to ignore what he said and focus on my studies. My tutor, whose name that I finally learned was Hale, told me that I was going to start working on lessons that are for people who are older than me because I was progressing rather fast in my lessons.I felt an odd sense of pride as I thought about Colton's angry expression once he learned this. As long as he keeps being angry with being behind me then I feel like I am doing pretty well in my studies but I can be doing even better. I have to get past my ‘brother’ in his studies then I will feel like I am actually at the top.But something tha
I felt an odd sense of happiness after I found the secret room of my mother. I would always be sneaking off when I had spare time to her secret room and clean it up a bit. I didn’t ask anyone in the house if this used to be the home of my mother since it would bring up questions about me knowing that.Mae also had been a bit more affectionate with me after I told her I loved her. I found it embarrassing but I enjoyed this close relationship between us. It felt like me and Mae were a family. I told Sybil that and when I mentioned that I sort of saw him as an older brother he got upset for a while and was mumbling to himself for a few days. I didn’t bother to ask him what was wrong since it wasn’t getting in the way of his work.During a quiet day in my home where I was looking through my black book, Mae knocked on my door before coming in with a letter in her hand. Taking the letter from her I saw it was from my ‘
I woke up at a table that had a book on it. My head felt foggy as I tried to figure out where I am. The last thing I remember was getting pulled into a dark space and being stared down by familiar black eyes.“You are finally awake, ▇▇▇▇▇. I was getting worried that you died in your sleep. It wouldn’t be the first time that this happened.” A heard a familiar woman's voice and when I looked in front of me I saw the familiar scribble figure with black eyes. She was sitting at the table with me and had a lazy posture.I realized she wasn’t alone at the table, I saw the two different Aurelia also sitting at the table with the scribble out figure. Their expressions were blank as they looked at me with no emotion. I couldn’t understand what was happening or where I was.“W...Where is this place?” The place I was in was completely black, I couldn’t see anyth
The day I met Gia was the day my black and white days finally gained some life. She was a stranger from a place no one knew. She didn’t seem to care about what people thought about her. Always speaking her mind with such confidence that I couldn’t help but seek her out with my eyes.It was so strange that someone of the same sex made me feel like this and it scared me so much. What did this mean and was it good? Since I was a child and rather stupid I did join other people who were messing with her but my heart wasn’t in it. Even though I was one of the people who were messing with her, I wasn’t hated by her and she could see that I didn’t even want to bully her.We ended up having a secret friendship with each other, it was like she was mine alone and I just loved that. I wanted to change myself so I could be a better friend to her. I started to pick out a path that my family disapproves of and it was scary. Yet sh
I was a child born between two people who really loved each other. My mom would always call my dad a silly man but she couldn’t hide the love in her eyes as she told him this. My dad was someone who would do anything to make himself worthy to be called her husband.I never really understood it but it seems like my mom's family didn’t approve of my dad or me. They cut off ties with my mom and refuse to see me as their grandson. It didn’t really hurt my mom that much and took it like it was nothing.I also noticed as a young child my mom would look at someone else with love in her eyes… It was a really beautiful woman. I always got all nervous around her and would often leave gifts of dead animals to show my affection, this would end with me getting a slap on my butt and a long lecture. My mom couldn’t hide how much she cared about that woman and how much she hated that man.I won
Our creation is something we don’t remember much of. All we know is that one day we were created and we were in a dark space with only us. We don’t know how many of us are there. Many there is only one person but their mind was shattered to many pieces. It is confusing so we don’t think much of it.We are bored, we have nothing to interest us. We don’t know what we should be doing. There is no one there to tell us the meaning of our existence. We simply have to figure out what we have to do. It's lonely, probably…. Some of us feel lonely and others feel nothing. We never have the same emotions as each other.When we first were allowed out of the dark space it was a strange experience. We saw so many weird things that we couldn’t understand. That was when we met our first human. This human had a look in their eyes we didn’t like. They wanted power and only power. They didn’t care what they had to d
Do you know how it feels to wake up from a deep sleep? Like a sleep that seems like it wasn’t that long but your body is stiff and you are thirsty. And you just need to brush your teeth because it is not a good feeling at the moment.I was currently dealing with that and it was strange. My body felt well rested but at the same time, it felt super sore. I was having a hard time understanding what time it was, where I am, or the meaning of everything in the world. I could feel something wet on my face and I just knew it was drool, gross.Before I could even handle that, I felt myself getting tackled. I was not expecting it and I could feel all the air leaving my lungs. I was confused and still half asleep. Someone was talking but all I could hear was just a bunch of mumbles. I could hear them but the words didn’t make sen
I didn’t know how I was going to get back to where my body was. I was in a space I didn’t know how I got into so it was hard leaving this space. Even though it was bright and covered in daisies, I couldn’t stay here any longer.I am pretty sure this was a place that was supposed to consume me in all my negative emotions but I managed to kind of handle them. There is still some stuff I need to deal with but not right now.‘The creature that is made up of the souls of all the dead dark magic users probably have my body close to them. It would make sense since they are trying to make me join the other souls as well…’ I was struggling to figure out how I could get out of this place I was in when I felt something hit the
I am Aurelia Giliam, I am hated by my family and I crave to feel any type of love. I am stuck in an endless cycle of trying to get the love of people who I know will never give me it. I am bitter, I am angry. I hate this. I am Alina. I don’t have a last name. My mommy family doesn’t want me to have their surname and I hate saying my father's last name as well. I felt love from my mommy, that love of her was so warm and so pure. I wanted to experience that love again so I kept my heart open… Until I reached a point where my heart was broken to a point I couldn’t fix it anymore. I met a boy with a kind smile and love for me but… I pushed him away. I lost him. I lost my mommy. It hurts so much. I am so lonely. My role in this world was the villainess, I was made to suffer so other people could fall in love. Even if I try to change my fate it wouldn’t e
‘Please don’t! Give me back my child! Kill me instead! I am begging you!’ I could hear a voice of a woman calling out all around me. She was crying and it just made me feel so uncomfortable, I didn’t like hearing that at all. Crying reminded me of my mommy… ‘I don’t want to die! Please don’t kill me! Why are you doing this?!’ I am hearing a different voice this time, it sounds like a man who seems very fearful. I wonder who he is calling out to? ‘I hate you! I hate all of you! I will make everyone pay for this! Do you think I am a monster? I will show you a REAL MONSTER!’ I can’t tell if the per
I am humming to myself as I stand on a stepping stool. My hands are so sticky but I am almost done with the sandwich for my mommy. It took me forever but I finally managed to cut them into heart shapes! There were a few close calls with the knife but I didn’t get hurt at all! Mommy will be so proud of me.I placed my heart-shaped sandwiches on the plate alongside the heart-shaped pancakes! I thought for a second before deciding to put my weirdly shaped waffle on the plate as well. It took me so long to make it and I am proud it came out so well unlike the other ones that weren’t cooked all the way.To finish it off I decided to add the rolled omelet that I added a smiley face to. I couldn’t keep the smile off my face when I was done with everything for my mommy. I couldn’t help but picture he
I felt like Merrill became even strange after our time in the forest together. We had to leave early since he was bitten by a snake, but he became clingy. It was like he was another Eli and for some reason, that seemed to upset Eli a lot.But I was too focus on other stuff to really try to understand why he was upset with that. It feels like my past life keeps merging with my current life. I would see things from my past life but they would quickly disappear once I look at them again. It feels like I am in a nightmare that is slowly becoming a part of my reality. I feel like I am going crazy but I don’t know what to do.I am scared… What if I can’t tell the difference between my past life and this life. I know I have to remember my past fully to get over it but I don’t want to feel the pain again. It feels like I
It has been a while since the moment happened between me and Erik. We are at a standstill with each other, it's was not hate and it is was not love either. He doesn’t look at me with scared eyes anymore but I can’t understand the look in his eyes anymore when I catch him looking at me.I don’t want to understand it, I don’t care about how he thinks about me anymore. That a lie, you care. Why do you care still? So pathetic, you make me feel sick. Fucking useless piece of shit…I am also dealing with the angry voice more often. The other two often show up but for some reason, the angry voice keeps showing up more often. It is often hard to tell the difference between my thoughts and their voice. What if one day I am no longer able to tell the difference anymore… I don’t want to t
I was pretty irritated for a few days since the pain from my cramps just wanted to screw me over. Drucilla gave me something for my period so it wouldn’t get in my way as I was training. It did help me not notice I was bleeding from below but it didn’t help me ignore that pain that would appear out of nowhere.This didn’t really help me out when I was cutting my bangs with shaky hands since I didn’t trust myself with the scissors I was using. When I went to cut both of my long bangs a painful cramp appeared out of nowhere and it caused me to cut bangs a bit awkwardly. When I went to fix it another cramp appeared out of nowhere and my bangs became rather short. I decided it was time for me to stop before I stop having bangs.I mean my hair won’t get in the way of training but it feels so weird to have short h
I was breathing heavily as I hid away in a hole in a tree and I could hear the scream of Eli as he was caught. I was covered in sweat and I felt so dirty. My hair wasn’t doing perfect either seeing as I am pretty sure there were leaves and twigs currently in it.“Let see… My precious babies manage to catch one of you. I wonder who they will catch next~?” Drucilla sounded way too cheerful as her voice echoed in the forest we were currently in. I really didn’t understand why the first day of training was us basically running and hiding away from her pack of wolves, it didn’t make sense!How did I go from reading books in the library about my mom's home country with Colton to hiding away from a bunch of wolves and my weird aunt? This doesn’t make sense at all! Shouldn’t we just slowly d