Our creation is something we don’t remember much of. All we know is that one day we were created and we were in a dark space with only us. We don’t know how many of us are there. Many there is only one person but their mind was shattered to many pieces. It is confusing so we don’t think much of it.
We are bored, we have nothing to interest us. We don’t know what we should be doing. There is no one there to tell us the meaning of our existence. We simply have to figure out what we have to do. It's lonely, probably…. Some of us feel lonely and others feel nothing. We never have the same emotions as each other.
When we first were allowed out of the dark space it was a strange experience. We saw so many weird things that we couldn’t understand. That was when we met our first human. This human had a look in their eyes we didn’t like. They wanted power and only power. They didn’t care what they had to d
I am the only child of the rulers of Greenflower and it is a suffocating position. I am always being looked at by everyone and I am not allowed to show any type of weakness… My parents do love and care for me but they don’t truly understand what I go through. Being a prince isn’t as perfect as everyone thinks it is. I am only seen as a perfect human being.When I started to wear female clothes everyone stopped looking at me and started whispering how horrible it was that my parents had a child like me. My parents were fine with what I was wearing, even my mom would help me get cute clothing so that I could look extra cute. This didn’t help me make a lot of friends but I didn’t really care about that. I was fine by myself and I didn’t need anyone.The first meeting with Aurelia was actually one-sided. I saw her from behind a wall and she was crying by herself. She looked like she was pushed onto the grou
I was standing in front of a huge door, it was towering over me. The door looked ominous in front of me. I didn’t feel safe as I stood in front of this door. I just knew there was something behind this door that I didn’t want to see…I could feel my body move as I went to open up the door. Even though the door was so huge I managed to grab hold of the doorknob. The doorknob felt cold against my hot and sweaty palm. I was hoping that the door was locked but my heart sank when it opened without any problem.I push the door and it slowly opens up. I didn’t move as the door continued to open up. I was frozen in that spot as I looked straight ahead. I didn’t want to move forward but I wasn’t in control of my body.I walked into the darkroom and kept walking until I saw a light. When I reached the light source I felt my heartbeat increase in speed. I saw a kno
There is a table. I am sitting at the table. I feel numb. There is a slip of paper in front of me, a check with a lot of zeros. It feels like I am being mocked by these zeros. There is someone across from me but I do not wish to look at them.I can hear countless voices around me, insulting me, laughing at me. I am mad. I want to kill them all. Kill them. Kill them. Kill them. Kill them. Kill them. Kill them. Kill them. Kill them. Kill them. Kill them. Kill them. Kill them. Kill them. Kill them. Kill them. Kill them. Kill them. Kill them. Kill them. Kill them. Kill them. Kill them. Kill them. Kill them. Kill them. Kill them. Kill them. Kill them. Kill them. Kill them. Kill them. Kill them. Kill them. Kill them. Kill them. Kill them. Kill them. Kill them. Kill them. Kill them. Kill them. Kill them. Kill them. Kill them. Kill them. Kill them. Kill them. Kill them. Kill them. Kill them. Kill them. Kill them.
It was a rather awkward situation I was in currently, sitting in a room with all the love interest and Erik. Eli was by my side and holding my arm tightly while looking up at me with worried eyes. Erik kept looking at me as well but would always look away when he realized I notice him looking. He wanted to say something to me but he was scared, he will always be scared.“OMG! Why the fuck is the air in this room so awkward? It reminds me of that time where my parents caught me naked with an innocent maiden from a really important family. Well… She wasn’t innocent anymore after what we did… Hehehe…” Drucilla was also in the room with us and she didn’t really help at all with getting rid of the awkwardness… Why did she bring up something like that?“Sometimes you really need to stop and think to yourself, should I be saying this? It will help you out so much.” Everet
I was sitting on the ground of the balcony connected to the room I was in, the door still wide open behind me. I was looking up at the night sky, it was filled with many stars that seemed to shine brighter due to the reflection from the barrier surrounding this place. I thought back to what Drucilla said to me when I asked her about it….“Well, you see… In the past, we really didn’t want to have any connection with anyone other than ourselves so we made a barrier that only we could open. No one was allowed in and no one was allowed to leave either. We didn’t believe anyone on the outside was good enough for us. Of course that changed after the events that made that being but we still keep the barrier up.” Drucilla was looking out the window that was in the hallway. She had an unreadable look in her eyes as she looked at the barrier that seemed to stretch and cover everywhere.“Why is the b
I am sitting away hidden in a corner and sitting on the ground having a smoke. This is my second cigarette but I really don’t care at the moment, I need to calm down for a bit. I could hear the laughter of other students walking past the place I am currently hidden. It sounds like they are probably happy… Unlike me…Today is Valentine's day and I am currently suffering. I hate this day with a passion… I hate the fact it is a day where people just show off their love for their lover… I hate that I want someone to do something for me… Such a childish wish of mine, I know better than that.“▇▇▇▇▇! What are you doing here smoking again? This is seriously bad for you…” I was taken out of my thoughts by a familiar male voice. Looking up from my feet I could see a
I really don’t know how to feel about getting a fever after arriving in a new place. It wasn’t even a fever that would leave after two days or something like that. I was sick for basically half a month and I can’t remember most of the things that happened when I was sick. For some reason, I kept remembering the person with the beautiful eyes and for some reason a male with a nice smile.Whenever I tried to figure out who the male with the nice smile was, my head would get a painful headache and it felt like my heart was breaking. For some reason, I knew that I didn’t want to remember this male… It just felt like something I am too scared to face…It is embarrassing to remember that I kept calling out for Mae during the time I was sick. I even kept mistaking Drucilla for her and holding onto her hand.
I was breathing heavily as I hid away in a hole in a tree and I could hear the scream of Eli as he was caught. I was covered in sweat and I felt so dirty. My hair wasn’t doing perfect either seeing as I am pretty sure there were leaves and twigs currently in it.“Let see… My precious babies manage to catch one of you. I wonder who they will catch next~?” Drucilla sounded way too cheerful as her voice echoed in the forest we were currently in. I really didn’t understand why the first day of training was us basically running and hiding away from her pack of wolves, it didn’t make sense!How did I go from reading books in the library about my mom's home country with Colton to hiding away from a bunch of wolves and my weird aunt? This doesn’t make sense at all! Shouldn’t we just slowly d
Do you know how it feels to wake up from a deep sleep? Like a sleep that seems like it wasn’t that long but your body is stiff and you are thirsty. And you just need to brush your teeth because it is not a good feeling at the moment.I was currently dealing with that and it was strange. My body felt well rested but at the same time, it felt super sore. I was having a hard time understanding what time it was, where I am, or the meaning of everything in the world. I could feel something wet on my face and I just knew it was drool, gross.Before I could even handle that, I felt myself getting tackled. I was not expecting it and I could feel all the air leaving my lungs. I was confused and still half asleep. Someone was talking but all I could hear was just a bunch of mumbles. I could hear them but the words didn’t make sen
I didn’t know how I was going to get back to where my body was. I was in a space I didn’t know how I got into so it was hard leaving this space. Even though it was bright and covered in daisies, I couldn’t stay here any longer.I am pretty sure this was a place that was supposed to consume me in all my negative emotions but I managed to kind of handle them. There is still some stuff I need to deal with but not right now.‘The creature that is made up of the souls of all the dead dark magic users probably have my body close to them. It would make sense since they are trying to make me join the other souls as well…’ I was struggling to figure out how I could get out of this place I was in when I felt something hit the
I am Aurelia Giliam, I am hated by my family and I crave to feel any type of love. I am stuck in an endless cycle of trying to get the love of people who I know will never give me it. I am bitter, I am angry. I hate this. I am Alina. I don’t have a last name. My mommy family doesn’t want me to have their surname and I hate saying my father's last name as well. I felt love from my mommy, that love of her was so warm and so pure. I wanted to experience that love again so I kept my heart open… Until I reached a point where my heart was broken to a point I couldn’t fix it anymore. I met a boy with a kind smile and love for me but… I pushed him away. I lost him. I lost my mommy. It hurts so much. I am so lonely. My role in this world was the villainess, I was made to suffer so other people could fall in love. Even if I try to change my fate it wouldn’t e
‘Please don’t! Give me back my child! Kill me instead! I am begging you!’ I could hear a voice of a woman calling out all around me. She was crying and it just made me feel so uncomfortable, I didn’t like hearing that at all. Crying reminded me of my mommy… ‘I don’t want to die! Please don’t kill me! Why are you doing this?!’ I am hearing a different voice this time, it sounds like a man who seems very fearful. I wonder who he is calling out to? ‘I hate you! I hate all of you! I will make everyone pay for this! Do you think I am a monster? I will show you a REAL MONSTER!’ I can’t tell if the per
I am humming to myself as I stand on a stepping stool. My hands are so sticky but I am almost done with the sandwich for my mommy. It took me forever but I finally managed to cut them into heart shapes! There were a few close calls with the knife but I didn’t get hurt at all! Mommy will be so proud of me.I placed my heart-shaped sandwiches on the plate alongside the heart-shaped pancakes! I thought for a second before deciding to put my weirdly shaped waffle on the plate as well. It took me so long to make it and I am proud it came out so well unlike the other ones that weren’t cooked all the way.To finish it off I decided to add the rolled omelet that I added a smiley face to. I couldn’t keep the smile off my face when I was done with everything for my mommy. I couldn’t help but picture he
I felt like Merrill became even strange after our time in the forest together. We had to leave early since he was bitten by a snake, but he became clingy. It was like he was another Eli and for some reason, that seemed to upset Eli a lot.But I was too focus on other stuff to really try to understand why he was upset with that. It feels like my past life keeps merging with my current life. I would see things from my past life but they would quickly disappear once I look at them again. It feels like I am in a nightmare that is slowly becoming a part of my reality. I feel like I am going crazy but I don’t know what to do.I am scared… What if I can’t tell the difference between my past life and this life. I know I have to remember my past fully to get over it but I don’t want to feel the pain again. It feels like I
It has been a while since the moment happened between me and Erik. We are at a standstill with each other, it's was not hate and it is was not love either. He doesn’t look at me with scared eyes anymore but I can’t understand the look in his eyes anymore when I catch him looking at me.I don’t want to understand it, I don’t care about how he thinks about me anymore. That a lie, you care. Why do you care still? So pathetic, you make me feel sick. Fucking useless piece of shit…I am also dealing with the angry voice more often. The other two often show up but for some reason, the angry voice keeps showing up more often. It is often hard to tell the difference between my thoughts and their voice. What if one day I am no longer able to tell the difference anymore… I don’t want to t
I was pretty irritated for a few days since the pain from my cramps just wanted to screw me over. Drucilla gave me something for my period so it wouldn’t get in my way as I was training. It did help me not notice I was bleeding from below but it didn’t help me ignore that pain that would appear out of nowhere.This didn’t really help me out when I was cutting my bangs with shaky hands since I didn’t trust myself with the scissors I was using. When I went to cut both of my long bangs a painful cramp appeared out of nowhere and it caused me to cut bangs a bit awkwardly. When I went to fix it another cramp appeared out of nowhere and my bangs became rather short. I decided it was time for me to stop before I stop having bangs.I mean my hair won’t get in the way of training but it feels so weird to have short h
I was breathing heavily as I hid away in a hole in a tree and I could hear the scream of Eli as he was caught. I was covered in sweat and I felt so dirty. My hair wasn’t doing perfect either seeing as I am pretty sure there were leaves and twigs currently in it.“Let see… My precious babies manage to catch one of you. I wonder who they will catch next~?” Drucilla sounded way too cheerful as her voice echoed in the forest we were currently in. I really didn’t understand why the first day of training was us basically running and hiding away from her pack of wolves, it didn’t make sense!How did I go from reading books in the library about my mom's home country with Colton to hiding away from a bunch of wolves and my weird aunt? This doesn’t make sense at all! Shouldn’t we just slowly d