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Chapter Twenty-Four – Valentine Special – A Memory Of A Coward
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2024-10-29 19:42:56I am sitting away hidden in a corner and sitting on the ground having a smoke. This is my second cigarette but I really don’t care at the moment, I need to calm down for a bit. I could hear the laughter of other students walking past the place I am currently hidden. It sounds like they are probably happy… Unlike me…
Today is Valentine's day and I am currently suffering. I hate this day with a passion… I hate the fact it is a day where people just show off their love for their lover… I hate that I want someone to do something for me… Such a childish wish of mine, I know better than that.
“▇▇▇▇▇! What are you doing here smoking again? This is seriously bad for you…” I was taken out of my thoughts by a familiar male voice. Looking up from my feet I could see a
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