"So who was the lucky guy?" A reporter asked me over the phone. My painting was already release in that condo and offers flood in my email. Some are asking if they can guest me in the shows. Asked me if I can be their supplier or be one of the artist they'll showcase the talent.
"He was my first love. My longtime crush" I answer the reporter who asked me.
Dale was my longtime crush. And my first love. I just don't know if he'll be my lifetime.
"So can you drop the name?" she said politely.
Napangiti lamang ako habang inaalala ang pangalan niya. My Dale was my ideal man. My dream. My true love. My life. My home. My everything.
I close my eyes as I clearly remember the day that my love become more deeper.
"I told you I can handle my self" I insisted to the man in front of me. Hawak niya ang payong habang nasa harap ko. He was smiling at me.
I was running away from that place. From his company. I don't know what I've done wrong this time. Basta ang alam ko ay kailangan kong tumakbo. I need to run away from him. From them. I don't know what to think now. Halos hindi na rin maampat ang mga luha ko. I feel like I just need to cry to rest."Lilly stop." Ace shouted but my feet can't stop running away. And then Ace pulled me. I don't know why didn't I protest."Napapagod na ako kakaintindi. Feeling ko sobrang mali ako lagi. Lahat na lang ng bagay" I whisper. He just hush me while I am crying into his shoulder."Hindi naman ikaw yung mali. Sadyang may mga bagay lang na hindi na pwedeng ipilit kahit na kaya pa. Kaya mo pa ba?" tango lang ang naibigay ko sa kaniya habang pilit na inaayos ang sarili ko. Pinahid ko ang luha ko bago sa kaniya ngumiti at nag lakad paalis doon.I need to go home. I want to go home.P
"So masarap ba siya?" Iyon agad ang tanong ko sa kakambal ko ng makita ko siya na pumasok sa bahay. May hawak siyang isang papel."Oo naman. We just make love—""One round. Is one round enough for you?" I asked her again while I am arranging something in the table."One or two is not important —""It is." muli kong pag putol sa kaniya. "We made love 5 times after he got home. Ikaw isang beses lang ako hindi. See the difference Rose. Ako kahit ilan ikaw isa lang. Did he moan loud in that room Rose? He moan more louder while he was thrusting inside me" I told her that. Para naman siyang isang batong hindi makagalaw sa kinatatayuan niya."How dare you!""Oh how dare you too. He was my husband. You're just his past time""I am his girlfriend.""I am the wife." I told her harshly too habang matalim
"Ako na." I told him habang pumipili ng damit niya. Kanina pa siya nasa loob ng kwarto pero hanggang ngayon ay hindi pa rin niya alam ang susuotin."Saan ba tayo pupunta?" He asked me. Nangunot ang noo ko sa tanong na iyon bago ko siya pinitik."Idea mo ang date na ito tapos tatanungin mo ako. Oh come on. Pag sa kapatid ko nga alam na alam mo kung saan dapat mag date diva" I said before rolling my eyes."Sa kama—"Dahil sa gulat ay naihampas ko sa kaniya ang hawak kong damit. Ilang beses ko pa siyang hinampas bago ako tuluyang tumigil."Aray masakit yun. Totoo naman kasi talaga. Pag kami ang mag kasama ng kapatid mo nasa loob lang kami ng bahay""Edi dito na lang tayo. Forgot that you and my sister have an issue to solve. Go on fuck her I don't care. Kayo rin ang mag solve ng problema ninyong dalawa." Inis na inis kong ani bago ako na
Pabalik-balik ako sa loob ng kwarto ko habang suot pa rin ang robe. Kakatapos ko lamang maligo pero feeling ko kailangan ko pang maligo ulit. Pinagpapawisan ako dahil sa kakaisip ng kung ano ba talaga ang nangyayari. I didn't want to confront him. To asked him. But I need to apologize on what happened last night. I won't asked for sorry because of the thing I didn't remember. I just want to asked sorry for not saying where I am last night. But how did he found me if I didn't tell him where I am. I am still confuse while walking back and forth.Nagulat pa ako dahil sa biglang pag bukas ng pinto. It was him who open the door. Wearing just a plain shirt and a pants."Mag bihis ka na at aalis tayo" he said in his low voice. My mouth fell open while looking at him."Ngayon? Bakit?" I immediately asked him that but he just stare at me before closing my door. Agad naman akong napatakbo sa loob ng closet ko at nag hanap ng masusuot. I just wear a plain
"Ano ba! Sabi ng bitaw eh. Didn't you hear me. Bitawan mo ko." I shouted at him habang pilit na inaalis sa pag kakahawak ang kamay niya. Masyado na itong mahigpit habang pilit akong inaalis doon."How dare you to flirt that man""How dare you too to fuck my sister. Aren't we fair? Your flirting my sister, fucking her, claiming her. Eh ako that was just a dance Dale!" I shouted at him too habang hingal-hingal. Doon niya lamang nabitawan ang kamay ko bago ako tinignan ng masama."It's your fault that you marry me!" pag duro niya sa akin pero tinabig ko lang iyon."Really? Maybe I want to be your wife but it's my sister's decision why I ended up your wife. Didn't you know that she's loving another man. That he's dating someone other than you. That he plan this para mapa ikot kayo. Ang tanga niyo!" I shouted at him. But I only receive a slap coming from him. But instead of going berser
It was nearly morning when I hear my husband shouting. While throwing everything he saw and touch. Agad naman akong bumaba dahil doon. Nataranta naman ako ng makita ko siyang nakahandusay sa sahig habang nag kalat ang mga basag na gamit. I run towards him and try to help him to stand up but he pushes me.I can feel that something wounded me when I try to prevent myself from falling on the floor. And I saw a part of the vase that was in my hand. Maliit lang iyon pero mahapdi.Pero hindi ako umalis doon. I help him again but he pushes me again."Rose" he shouted while walking. Pilit ko namang inaalis siya sa mga dadaanan niyang bubog pero hindi siya nakinig."Dale stop. Wala siya dito." I told him but he didn't listen. He continue to shout and find my sister but I continue to stop him."Rose. Where are you Rose. Please Rose come back. Rose I need you!" he shouted again that makes me stop and let go of his hand. Pinahid ko muna
It was nearly morning when I feel that I'm cold. I stand up to close the aircon but I feel dizzy while doing so. Ni hindi ko nga nakayanang makatayo ng matagal because I'm always ending up laying down my bed. My head is spinning and I don't know why I want to vomit. My head aches and I'm shivering. Wala akong nagawa kundi ang pumasok sa kumot ko habang nginig na nginig. I can't take it. I don't know why did I ended up sick even I bathe after that rain.Sa ganoong sitwasyon ako naabutan ni manang. Nanginginig habang pilit na isinisiksik ang sarili sa kumot ko na alam ko namang kahit anong gawin ko ay hindi maiibsan ang lamig na nararamdaman ko."Ayos ka lang ba?" Manang asked but I can't answer her. She touches my head and run out of my room calling my husband's name."Dale! Dale. Dale ang taas ng lagnat ng asawa mo. Dale" pag tawag niya kay Dale. And after that
I wake up in my bed while my head is aching. I'm still cold but I can bear it now. I saw my husband was holding my hand habang naka office attire pa. I tried to wake him up but I ended up looking at him while sleeping. I look at my hand and found that I have an IV. I look around for any possible person near us but I couldn't see one.The door cracked and I saw manang walking inside having a tray on her hand. She look at me before smiling."Gising ka na. Buti naman. Isang araw kang tulog eh" aniya sa akin bago nilapag ang tray ng pagkain sa side table. She wake Dale's up in a slight way.Nakita ko ang pag angat ng ulo niya bago pumungas-pungas.I tried to sit up but I can't. Sobrang hirap umupo dahil sa sakit ng ulo ko. I hold my head when it spins but Dale help me out bago kinuha ang tray ng sopas at hinihipan iyon."I can eat alone" I told him kahit na alam ko sa sarili kong hindi ko kaya. Na masyado akong mahin
"Ano. Sigurado ka na ba talaga sa desisyon mo na yan? Final na yan? Ikaw kasi masyado kang takbuhin. Takbo ng takbo akala mo naman nakikipag karera ka." Karen told me while rolling her eyes. Inilapag ko ang aking bag bago naupo sa kama ko. I look around and see the same room I had left before. Thinking that I am back again here makes my eyes rolled. Haharapin ko na naman ang kapatid ko. It was just like we're twins. Yeah. Ako ang unang pinanganak sa ibang sinapupunan. Ako ang panganay sa aming dalawa. Ako ang nakakatanda pero bakit parang siya iyong nasusunod. "I hate it when Rose was making move on my husband. Hindi lang ako masasaktan. My daughter was too attached from his father. Hindi ko hahayaang maranasan niya ang naranasan ko. Hindi ko rin pinangarap na lumaki sila na hindi buo ang pamilya. ""So you're saying that you'll stay with him just because of the kids? Iyon lang ba hindi ka kasali sa dahilan na yun? Alam mo isa ka rin indenial queen. Bakit ba lahat kayo ganiyan. Naka
"Mom." my son called me noong mahalata niyang naka tulala na naman ako. I smile at him bago ko inabot ang kamay ko sa kaniya. Agad naman niyang kinuha ang kamay ko at nag lakad patungo sa akin. It's been a month since I made my decision. Humingi ako ng break kay mommy bago kami nag tungo ng Vienna. Isang buwan na kami dito. Tumakbo na naman ako sa problema ko. Tumakbo ulit ako sa problema ko. Tinakbuhan ko na naman ang problemang dapat hinaharap ko."Is daddy going here too mom?" Lara asked me. Agad namang lumapit sa akin ang anak ko bago ito kumapit sa kabilang braso ko. "Do you miss your dad?" tanging tanong ko. Kasi kung oo ay ibabalik ko na sila. Actually kahit gaano ka kaready sa isang bagay pag dumating iyon magugulat ka pa rin. Masasaktan ka pa rin. Even though you expect it iba pa rin ang feeling pag dumating na. Iba pa rin yung mararamdaman mo pag nasa harapan mo na. "Yes. And we miss grandma too. Did they bully you too mom like the way they bully me? Kuya will away the
"I'm tired." I told him It's true. I am tired. I am really tired of this shit. Too tired of this lies. Pero parang mas nadadagdagan ang sakit na yun. Because he's here. Comforting me as if he didn't hurt me before. Isa siya sa sobrang nanakit sa akin. "Shhh. I'm here love." He whisper to me. But I push him. I tried to push him. "You hurt me more than they do. How dare you. Don't touch me!" I shouted as I push him. "Shh. Just cry. I won't leave you love." pag papakalma niya sa akin. But those memory keep coming back into my head. Trying to ruin the peace I am creating about him. I tried to forget to for once this time but I just can't. Mas lalo lamang nadagdagan ang sakit na nararamdaman ko noong mas niyakap niya ako ng mahigpit. Kinailangan ko siya noon pero bakit wala siya. It's hard to trust again lalo na ngayon. Sa mga nangyayari ngayon. "No. I can't. I still can't forget those pain you gave me. I can't forget how you treated me. It's still running back. So don't touch me!"
The mall was pack of people. They are walking. Others are almost running. A typical mall on Sunday. Families on bonding. Kids are running. Every restaurant and fastfood was pack of family who are eating. Couples. Single. Friends. Or maybe exes who are out for closure. Pero sa dami ng tao doon ay hindi nakatakas sa akin ang pamilyang nasa harap namin. "So you plan to expose the marriage huh. Why?" My bio mom asked. Bakit nga ba? Hindi ba dapat? Ano ba ang dapat? Itago ko na may asawa na ako? Na may ama ang mga anak ko. Na kasal na ako at hindi totoo ang issue dati na nag pabuntis ako sa ibang lalaki. Na yung kinukuha at akala ng lahat na fiancee ng kakambal ko ay asawa ko pala. Are they ashamed? Well they should be. "Why? We are married. Aren't family belong here? I mean hindi ko sinasabing hindi kayo pamilya but. You know. Those family who betray and set up their family for money. Those traitors. " ani ko. "Oh. Us? Traitors? Hindi ba dapat ikaw yung mahiya. Ikaw yung nang agaw ng
"I'm going to take our children into school. Are you going with us?" he asked me habang ako ay nag aayos ng buhok. He is in my back. Looking at me straight from the mirror while bucking his belt. I don't have any idea why I say yes on his thought about this. Him in my house sharing room and acting like a parents. I'm fine with this if this is just for kids sake and also for me not to look like a fool to others. People are too confuse on what really is happening in our family. On what really made me this kind of woman. I don't care about what others may say before but now. I won't permit that. "Sure. I'm off to work too so might as well bring me to the site. Or I'll just commute." ani ko. I saw him smile before taking my things. My heart race as I watch him smile. Picking my things and walking out of our room. Lance wasn't too okay with the set up but Lara was more excited than ever. She was too happy having a dad. She always brag about it and always told everyone that she already me
I tried to focus on my work and ignore Dale but he always found a way for me to look at him. He was now running away from our kids while we are working. Mas naiistress ako habang nandito sila. Dahil baka may mahulog na lamang ng kung ano at nandito sila nag lalaro. Dale always makes me worried after the kids. I didn't even think that having him with my side will caused such a chaos. "Dale enough of that. Stop running here and take those two out and grab some food. Hindi mo man lang ba naisip yun?" I scolded him. The two kids stop running too and look at me. Dale look down finding the right word to answer me but instead of answering he pull me and try to drag me out of that site, "What are you doing?!" I asked him. Pulling my hands back. "We're going to eat. At saka you shouldn't stress yourself up. Madali na yan matapos so relax okay. Few more weeks and our house was done." He answered. "I thought it was ours. What happened to our house Dale?" Rose suddenly spoke at our back. Agad
I wake up the next day with Dale beside my bed. Hugging me from behind habang isinisiksik ang sarili sa akin. I saw his finger wearing our wedding ring. Holding my hands tightly when I tried to take my hand away. "Kailangan ng almusal ng mga anak ko""I already made them some breakfast. Just laid. I'm still sleepy love. " he whisper at me bago muling isiniksik ang sarili sa akin. I didn't move or even think to got up because he's holding me tight. "Just let me do this. This is the things that I missed for those times that I am running away from the marriage that I thought was fake and your scheming plan. I didn't realize that maybe you are a victim too. That maybe the both of us are victim". I hold his hand and start to feel his body at my back. I can even feel his breath in my head and his feet against mine. "What if we didn't suffer and parted for years. Are this gonna happened?""I wish we didn't parted our ways. I wish I could turn back time just to held you""But I know if yo
"Are you sure about being with Dale again?" Karen asked me like she's not favor in that decision. "You like it too. Why ask now?""Come on. I just want to piss you off but I didn't wish that to happened. I mean I want my godchildren to have a complete family. But if it means it will hurt you of course I won't permit those. My sister walk at the same path as yours so I know how hard it is. So decide carefully" aniya. Agad naman akong tumango sa kaniya bilang pag sang ayon. Yeah. It's true. I need to decide carefully of course. My children's future are in my hands. It's either they will have a father or stay what we have now. A simple small family we treasure. But when I think of the complication in the near future I always ended up thinking again. If we got annulled and his parents and my biological parents wants him to marry my sister it was a big trouble. Because my children and my sisters children will be sibling that may bring odd feeling for the both of us. And I don't want my
I don't know what to think. I am not looking forward to Dale being my childrens father again well technically he is but I can't trust him fully. I am not yet over on how did he push me away. I hate him. I hate him that much I am not ready for him to be my husband again. I've already witness and experience enough for me to say yes to him again. But what happened last night bothers me. Why did I laid down his bed. Damn his tricks. It always going into me. "Forget what happened last night" I told him when I saw him walking in the corridor. Umiling siya sa akin bago nag patuloy sa pag lakad. "No I won't. What happened last night was a dream come true to me. ""Well it's my nightmare" I answer him. Full of anger. I can't hold back myself. Naiinis ako. Naiinis ako sa sarili ko kung bakit ganun na lang ang nangyari. I should fall for him. The marriage that was bound to tie us loosen up years ago and now. Now that he's tying it up I'll just help him with that. No. The marriage that bound u