Novels by Queen_bitterella

"Ano. Sigurado ka na ba talaga sa desisyon mo na yan? Final na yan? Ikaw kasi masyado kang takbuhin. Takbo ng takbo akala mo naman nakikipag karera ka." Karen told me while rolling her eyes. Inilapag ko ang aking bag bago naupo sa kama ko. I look around and see the same room I had left before. Thinking that I am back again here makes my eyes rolled. Haharapin ko na naman ang kapatid ko. It was just like we're twins. Yeah. Ako ang unang pinanganak sa ibang sinapupunan. Ako ang panganay sa aming dalawa. Ako ang nakakatanda pero bakit parang siya iyong nasusunod. "I hate it when Rose was making move on my husband. Hindi lang ako masasaktan. My daughter was too attached from his father. Hindi ko hahayaang maranasan niya ang naranasan ko. Hindi ko rin pinangarap na lumaki sila na hindi buo ang pamilya. ""So you're saying that you'll stay with him just because of the kids? Iyon lang ba hindi ka kasali sa dahilan na yun? Alam mo isa ka rin indenial queen. Bakit ba lahat kayo ganiyan. Naka

"Mom." my son called me noong mahalata niyang naka tulala na naman ako. I smile at him bago ko inabot ang kamay ko sa kaniya. Agad naman niyang kinuha ang kamay ko at nag lakad patungo sa akin. It's been a month since I made my decision. Humingi ako ng break kay mommy bago kami nag tungo ng Vienna. Isang buwan na kami dito. Tumakbo na naman ako sa problema ko. Tumakbo ulit ako sa problema ko. Tinakbuhan ko na naman ang problemang dapat hinaharap ko."Is daddy going here too mom?" Lara asked me. Agad namang lumapit sa akin ang anak ko bago ito kumapit sa kabilang braso ko. "Do you miss your dad?" tanging tanong ko. Kasi kung oo ay ibabalik ko na sila. Actually kahit gaano ka kaready sa isang bagay pag dumating iyon magugulat ka pa rin. Masasaktan ka pa rin. Even though you expect it iba pa rin ang feeling pag dumating na. Iba pa rin yung mararamdaman mo pag nasa harapan mo na. "Yes. And we miss grandma too. Did they bully you too mom like the way they bully me? Kuya will away the

"I'm tired." I told him It's true. I am tired. I am really tired of this shit. Too tired of this lies. Pero parang mas nadadagdagan ang sakit na yun. Because he's here. Comforting me as if he didn't hurt me before. Isa siya sa sobrang nanakit sa akin. "Shhh. I'm here love." He whisper to me. But I push him. I tried to push him. "You hurt me more than they do. How dare you. Don't touch me!" I shouted as I push him. "Shh. Just cry. I won't leave you love." pag papakalma niya sa akin. But those memory keep coming back into my head. Trying to ruin the peace I am creating about him. I tried to forget to for once this time but I just can't. Mas lalo lamang nadagdagan ang sakit na nararamdaman ko noong mas niyakap niya ako ng mahigpit. Kinailangan ko siya noon pero bakit wala siya. It's hard to trust again lalo na ngayon. Sa mga nangyayari ngayon. "No. I can't. I still can't forget those pain you gave me. I can't forget how you treated me. It's still running back. So don't touch me!"

The mall was pack of people. They are walking. Others are almost running. A typical mall on Sunday. Families on bonding. Kids are running. Every restaurant and fastfood was pack of family who are eating. Couples. Single. Friends. Or maybe exes who are out for closure. Pero sa dami ng tao doon ay hindi nakatakas sa akin ang pamilyang nasa harap namin. "So you plan to expose the marriage huh. Why?" My bio mom asked. Bakit nga ba? Hindi ba dapat? Ano ba ang dapat? Itago ko na may asawa na ako? Na may ama ang mga anak ko. Na kasal na ako at hindi totoo ang issue dati na nag pabuntis ako sa ibang lalaki. Na yung kinukuha at akala ng lahat na fiancee ng kakambal ko ay asawa ko pala. Are they ashamed? Well they should be. "Why? We are married. Aren't family belong here? I mean hindi ko sinasabing hindi kayo pamilya but. You know. Those family who betray and set up their family for money. Those traitors. " ani ko. "Oh. Us? Traitors? Hindi ba dapat ikaw yung mahiya. Ikaw yung nang agaw ng

"I'm going to take our children into school. Are you going with us?" he asked me habang ako ay nag aayos ng buhok. He is in my back. Looking at me straight from the mirror while bucking his belt. I don't have any idea why I say yes on his thought about this. Him in my house sharing room and acting like a parents. I'm fine with this if this is just for kids sake and also for me not to look like a fool to others. People are too confuse on what really is happening in our family. On what really made me this kind of woman. I don't care about what others may say before but now. I won't permit that. "Sure. I'm off to work too so might as well bring me to the site. Or I'll just commute." ani ko. I saw him smile before taking my things. My heart race as I watch him smile. Picking my things and walking out of our room. Lance wasn't too okay with the set up but Lara was more excited than ever. She was too happy having a dad. She always brag about it and always told everyone that she already me

I tried to focus on my work and ignore Dale but he always found a way for me to look at him. He was now running away from our kids while we are working. Mas naiistress ako habang nandito sila. Dahil baka may mahulog na lamang ng kung ano at nandito sila nag lalaro. Dale always makes me worried after the kids. I didn't even think that having him with my side will caused such a chaos. "Dale enough of that. Stop running here and take those two out and grab some food. Hindi mo man lang ba naisip yun?" I scolded him. The two kids stop running too and look at me. Dale look down finding the right word to answer me but instead of answering he pull me and try to drag me out of that site, "What are you doing?!" I asked him. Pulling my hands back. "We're going to eat. At saka you shouldn't stress yourself up. Madali na yan matapos so relax okay. Few more weeks and our house was done." He answered. "I thought it was ours. What happened to our house Dale?" Rose suddenly spoke at our back. Agad