Strange Rain.

They say once we are given something, no matter what, it is gonna be taken back again and again, nothing is granted to last , not life nor death .

Because in life and death we shall always part , it is a journey full of mysteries , isnot it?

In life, we live so full just to simply die , that makes me question are we even alive in the first place , or the fateful truth we are just dead dreaming to be alive .

we don't own life and we donot own death , we basically have nothing but the last moments we spent before the clock ticks  .

As much as you enjoy loving someone , as much as you fall in love with someone , you sooner or later you are going to fall out of it  ,nothing stays the same , time can kill it .... slowly .

Not by your own free will ? i wonder what can we do ? nothing !! 

As not even our hearts , belong to us , so nothing really lasts not love nor life nor death ?! so what is left really for us ?

They say you live only for the thing you miss the most , the thing that you never had, never had been given.

until you find it and you can leave peacefully and ascend somewhere ........

Some people who time runs out them and they die without even glimpsing the fact of that they are dead  . it is game over here and there is no way back and you will always lose .

My mother feared so, to be one of them , the misfortunte one she called .

She once had it all, love and life and literally everything would possible anyone want , until she married ... him , the king of Alta.

My mother never had a child, as every night she begged and prayed until she collapses hard on the floor , hitting it as a broken branch, exhausted and powerless as she always became. 

To wake up the next day to do it all over again, in non-ending loop , when it will over ? no one knows , it seems like it is not working or not going to work at all , not like this .

"Your highness you have to stop, you are pushing on your limits and our Lord is going to punish us," said her scared servant.

But my mother never listened , as you can see, she was the queen of Alta ,a great kingdom where no one cared much about anything , they got all , money , food , slaves ,servants and kids , but my mom wasn't given the child birth gift, just yet, they said that she is sterile as a dessert where no water or greens just plain , dry sand , the one your tongue dries if you only see it , and nothing out there to be given , that what she was ,she had never given birth to a royal blood for 20 years of marriage , sadly it means in my time the meaning of useless pot , no matter what you put there , it will always be useless.

my alleged father, yeah him , the king didn't wait for her any longer , afterall she was just an arranged marriage , a deal to increase his power more , to him she was just valuble antique to show on parties , but when night comes , he treats her like a broken doll that he no longer wants to play with it .

 Actually he took so many mistresses for his hoggish enjoyment but only one that would just conquer his ego and win him over that much easily and brutally controlled him like a toy for her, a marionette I would say , Asian is her name .

Unlike my kind-hearted mother Alyas, she was powerfull , she didn't only distance the king from other mistresses and the the mother queen ,but my mother herself also were forbidden to see him upon her cruel orders , she controlled when she eats and when she sleeps and she was just a mistress .

Asian gave him 7 kids, she became the true ruler behind my father and he became her rope doll.

Broken-hearted Queen had nothing to do but to pray and to cry , she had lost her last hope to bear a child how can she when the king didnot care about her exsitence anymore .

One night after crying long enough that her eyes were engraved by dark ashes of sadness, falling to the tough floor again , that was never soft for her fragile body yet it was more comforting to her heart than her king would .

A heavy rain just started to fall , and to be fair it was the strongest rain ever witness in the kingdome , the rain was as a glowing icy blue fall , yet doesn't give cold chills but rather warmth to the bones , that night the king wandered in the castle unheeding to no where in confusion not talking to anyone,  not even Asian herself , like he was bewitched by something ,he wandered and wandered until he found himself in front of my mom's room, he shakely grabbed the dusty curtained door , he entered by pushing it by both of his hands , just to find her in that miserable state where he let a tearful sigh escape his eyes , i wondered if he can feel her pain , or was it a crocodile tear, she was lying there , on the ground , her hair was wetted by the rain ,she is sweating like a molten ice berg that had just collapsed , her cheeks were redder than 18 years old blushing like an innocent virgin , and she had just unsealed her eyes , raised herself and crawled to his legs where she bowed even more for someone already on the ground ,the king found himself lifting then carrying and putting her to the rusted bed , releasing soft kiss to her forehead that kiss that was poured down to her perished soul reaching her shaking dry lips to start and ignite the flames of lovely one last night for her fragile body and for her aching heart .

Needless to say, nine months later I was brought to life with the loudest scream ever that rang around the castle corridors , giving Asian the quite heachache she needed  , again with the same rain  .

They say that night of the strange rain was a curse and a blessing in a way , they really can't tell what it was or what happened exactly, that night all flowers bloomed and reached climax duriing the NIGHT !! just to die the next day in the morning leaving a sightful scene of dead crops and birds on the grounds with ashen flowers yet with no trace of any fire , so they called it a curse, they lost a lot.

But to my mom becoming pregnant surprisingly in such old age was a miracle , so she called it a blessing.

Asian knew about what happened that night and managed to not only to exile my mom and her loyal servants after birth but she kept her imprisoned in far away place , in the outskirts of the Kingdome, in an abandoned castle and she had forbidden anyone of saying her name even the king himself wouldn't dare defy her orders .

my mom didn't care much , she finally got me , what else she would want , like she had the whole world in me .

when I was born, I was born with light transparent skin as glass you can see through to my veins which is like a river through a frozen frost.

My hair was luminous, crimson as sun's last strings of dusk , so soft and smooth to touch .

My eyes were glowing aurora not a single colour, just radiating all colours , they never saw anything like this , she got scared over me , that she hide me from everyone, and To be honest I never looked like my mom who was blonde and freckled fawn like an aged strawberries.

since my birth my dad never paid me a visit or sent me a flower in my birthday nor a fancy dress, not a father would do, actually he never saw me as his daughter, like he never acknowledged that fact that I was even alive or i exsited .

That hurted me alot but my mother devoted all her time and love for me.

so here I am flowering and nourishing like I would have never been , soon i will see this world that was taken away from me , and i shall get out of my cage .

I am Muons Alyas, the last seed of the uprising Alta kingdom.​