I could feel myself weigh down with my back pack. I did nit understand any single thing that was happening with me, but I knew I was going to figure it out. I went from finding out that I might actually do care a little bit about Adam, a little bit than I thought and the very mere thought was so disturbing. I knew that the world was playing tricks on me, but what was actually happening with me. I did not understand if this was the mate bond, or if I had actually fallen in love with Adam. After the class had been over, the Lycans all trolled out before I could even get a chance to look up from my desk. I was so surprised but at the same time, I knew there was no one to blame but me. I had told Adam to stay away from me and now that it was, it was hurting every part of my heart. I felt like I could not deal with what I was dashing out, which was the the truth. I was glad he was moving on, and happy with his life and that of his new partner. I wished him a good life. I was going to go
After lunch we had a class and Adam didn't attend. I kept stretching and checking to see if he walked in but I didn't see him. I don’t know if was actually avoiding me on purpose or he wanted to do something that was just going to make me keep looking for him, but I knew that I actually really cared. I realized I was not able to talk to Remy about what had happened. About what was happening to me. I knew that I had to speak to someone about it and she was my best option. After the class I went to the library to borrow some books then I saw Adam at a corner. He was so deep in reading that I did not want to disturb him but as I was about to go out, a student waved at me and I waved back. I decided to dodge him but while trying to do so I stumbled on a heap of books. It caused a lot of noise and Adam looked up at me and stared coldly. My heart was beating fast. I knew that I hated confrontations so much but I did not know the extent at which it was going to hit. I could feel my hands
Adam had already left school. What was it with lycans and disappearing? They moved so fast and sometimes it frustrated me. Had he used his Lycan way to move, to avoid me. But I knew that I could not find him anywhere. Not even the shirt that he was wearing. My heart dipped and I became really sad."Ughhhh" I groaned loudly. What was happening. "What's with that?" Jimmy asked as he snuck behind me. He has appeared from nowhere it had managed to frighten me."Arghh" I jumped in fright. I wasn't expecting him to do that. I had not even seen him at all. He laughed. Like the weirdo and wicked person that he was. "It's payback for all the times you scared the shit out of me" he snorted. He looked happy, if I was not so sad and not in the mood or need to ask what was happening, because I was really sad.I sighed. That was all that I had been doing for a while now. "Well I'm glad you're having fun" I scoffed. A part of me was a bit pained that he was not even joining in to mourn my dead
I stood up from the couch and walked over to the kitchen. I finished the last of the grapes in the bowl and washed it after which I arranged it on the rack and wiped my hands.I went up to my room to get dressed for an evening walk. Maybe it would help clear my head.I opened my wardrobe and took out a grey sweater and blue jeans. The wind was quite strong at night and I wasn't going to take any risks by wearing light clothes.I put on my clothes, tucked my phone in my pocket and popped in my earphones. I put on black boots and went back downstairs.I went out the door and shut it behind me, I made sure to lock it with the key as well.I took off, walking slowly. The wind blew lightly, swinging my hair in different directions.Thankfully my sweater had pockets by the sides and I put my hands in them.I listened to songs by Ruel as I walked down the road. His songs made me calm and I always felt cool everytime I listened to them.I walked around my neighborhood for about an hour and th
The Prince’s DiaryHere I am again, alone with my thoughts. My soul gathered at the feet’s of my tormentors. Every passing day, when the moon has kissed the earth goodbye and all that could be perceived is tormentors of my darkness, they come out to hunt for me. The voices come out to play with my sanity. They take a ball and a bat, scoring and killing me time by time.But tonight, I’m not alone. I have an armor. A protector stands tall in front of me, shielding me away from the tormentors of my mind. I found peace in the midst of a war on my head. I found a queen. I found her.I found the one who would lay down my soul, just have to let me have a peace of mind. And tonight, for the first time in forever, I feel like I might have finally found the hope I’ve been seeking. Tonight, this hour, this minute, this second— I feel the need not to sink into the darkness. For the first time in a while, after my heart has gone through a “shatter me” series, I can feel myself embrace the light.
CodyIt had happened like a fine trick. I knew the school was going th hear about all that had happened sooner than later, but that came sooner than I expected. Jimmy told me that rumours had been spread that I was dumped by Adam after I had tried to come on to me. Who had decided to spread that rumor, or where they had heard it from. I just knew that the whole concept of everything was so uncomfortable and I knew that I could not deal.As Jimmy and I walked past the hallway, with different people staring and pointing at me, I knew that I had a tokay entered into it. I sighed, hitting my hand on my head. This was actually happening. I felt really shitty about myself I was really tired.“How did they even pass that rumour in the first place?” I asked Jimmy as I moved over. We were both seated in our usual spot at the school. This was the only place where I knew the words were not going to get to me. Or the people.“Jimmy, what is happening really? I’m so confused. How did this even ge
The way my heart was beating was starting to get beyond measures. I was breathing like I was on a marathon, yet I was only following the Prince to wherever he was taking me. I was breathing like I was doing something intense. There was something about the way Adam was holding me that was making my heart yield from once place to the other. The way my heart kept skipping and I was trying not to trip on nothing but air at how tight he as holding me, like he was afraid to let me go. There was some type of way I was feeling that even I, myself was starting to get confused about. The way his hands fit perfectly into mine, and how he kept bringing out his fingers to curl around my palm, like he as trying to make sure I was there. Even if I had wanted to escape, which was the last thing on my mind, there was no way I could as his grip was so tight on my hand I could not even slip out. Before I knew what was going on, we were in front of the school already. Now, this was when I was starting
I had not even realized the extent at how I had ruined everything . The way I had pushed the only person that ever cared about me away just cause I was scared of somethings I had made up from the past, when I was much younger. The thing is, weird things had been happening to me. I had been having strange dreams, and I had also had strange feelings in my chest and my heart. I was too scared, and the next solution was for me to run into the human world. My insecurity for being human had made me read too much in what you had said. And I had been scared that if I had let you explain yourself, I was going to lose to these things I had made up my mind to to since I was very much younger. I’m sorry, Adam. Hurting you. Or any of the Lycans who I now, have considered to be a part of my family is the last thing on my mind. Or my head, I’m sorry for being a bitch. I’m sorry for causing you to experience pain, and anger, even hurt, when all you had been to me ever since we met was kind and ni