I had not even realized the extent at how I had ruined everything . The way I had pushed the only person that ever cared about me away just cause I was scared of somethings I had made up from the past, when I was much younger. The thing is, weird things had been happening to me. I had been having strange dreams, and I had also had strange feelings in my chest and my heart. I was too scared, and the next solution was for me to run into the human world. My insecurity for being human had made me read too much in what you had said. And I had been scared that if I had let you explain yourself, I was going to lose to these things I had made up my mind to to since I was very much younger. I’m sorry, Adam. Hurting you. Or any of the Lycans who I now, have considered to be a part of my family is the last thing on my mind. Or my head, I’m sorry for being a bitch. I’m sorry for causing you to experience pain, and anger, even hurt, when all you had been to me ever since we met was kind and ni
Remy’s head popped in through the doors and by the time I could get myself back to normal, I realized that on my haste to get away from Adam, I had pushed him away and he was now on the floor, groaning and holding his butt. I turned red immediately. Now, this was going to make it look like we were doing something when we obviously had not. I cleared my throat, ablidiku eye contact from any of the two. I could feel Remy’s mocking smile as she spoke. “Oh. I had no idea you two were up to something.” At this time, Adam had gotten up and take a sit on the couch I had planned to go from the very beginning. Only if he had let me. Now, I was dying from both embarrassment and wetness in my down region. It was like my brain was just starting to realize that we had almost kissed. And this time, it would have been without regrets or disappearance. I swallowed. We really were moving fast. But we had moved too slow, and I still needed Adam to understand somethings. Which was me not accepting that
I observed the dinning room too. There was a kitchen that seemed not to be too far away, although I could not sight the interior from where I was sitting. The dinner table and chairs were placed in the middle of the room. There were different drawings of nature all around. It was so beautiful I envied the artist. There was also another big TV placed in the middle, at the front of the room. Although, it was not as big as the one in the living room, it was taking a large amount of space. “You were clearly embarrassing the girl.” Remy shot a glare at Martin and he gave a sheepish smile. That was when I had tuned in back to the conversation, and realized they had been talking about me. I watched the both of them exchange for a while, before Martin brought his eyes to meet mine, and wink at me. Remy slapped the back of his head immediately. I laughed.“Welcome to our humble abode, Cody.” Edward was the one to speak now, finally taking his eyes off his mate who was now looking smug. “You
I was still being held on tightly by Adam. It was like he did not want to let me go. I finally relaxed over an hour ago, when Ella had brought our games to be played. We later abandoned it and they were now playing a game of ‘never have I ever,’ all these while, Adam kept whispering sweet nothings in my ear, making it hard and impossible for me to concentrate well on it. He had been long for various ways to get me back upstairs ever since we started out, but the girls were not allowing it. Frankly, I also was eager to go ho with Adam because I had to speak to him about what we were. The Lycans had been talking about mates and all sort of things, and I needed to make it clear to Adam, even if the Lycans needed not to know anything. I was still deciding if I was going to accept that he was my mate. I had not accepted it. I had just accepted the fact that I was in fact, indeed in love with him. I wanted us to date, and fall in love the way humans usually do. I wanted us to hold hands a
I kept following the both of them, a lithos bit quiet because I was still in awe of the house when we suddenly stopped in front of a door. Remy opened the door and switched on the light and I gasped. It was like a play house, somewhere to hang around. There was a bar not too far away and couches and little cakes scattered around the floor to make it more colorful, they were of different colors. “I know right. The Prince loves to have his things fancy.” Ella said beside me and I chuckled. She was actually right. I had noticed that even to his fingernails, everything about Adam was fancy. “Does he own this place?” I asked and Remy shook her head. “It’s probably the property of the royal family but Adam had it furnished and designed before our arrival. We were only supposed to spend a few days here but of course, he said he could not come to a place that had been abandoned for several years without new things. So we had this done. Which was part of what delayed us. We should have arri
Adam looked a bit livid as he came in through the door. His face looked flushed with anger as it was really pink. Probably from too much huffing and puffing. Remy laughed as he ignored her immediately after she had opened the door. He looked around slightly around before his eyes landed on mine. He looked a bit relief like I could have been taken away or something. “Calm down, princess. No one is going to do anything to her. It’s not like we are going to bite her.” Ella rolled her eyes and Adam rolled his eyes. “That’s none of my business. And we are done here guys.” Adam grabbed me by my hands and led me away. I laughed as he gave me the stink eye. “You will explain what is funny later to me.” Adam groaned at me and I laughed the more. Seeing him like that was really entertaining. It made me feel special. That someone cared about me enough to ge worried when I go missing, or they cannot find me. I felt all gushy inside. Adam’s hands was still holding on to mine as we passed by the
Finally, I remember that I was turning into something I had seen myself not ever becoming. Sure, there had been times when I was very much younger and I had really envied the werewolves and had wished to be them. I had wanted to be one so bad, I had pushed myself and pushed myself. Just so I could hear a voice from my werewolf or leap into it, but nothing. And now, from nowhere, all of a sudden I was going to be a Lucan, or I was already turning to be a Lycan, which was even greater than werewolves and the idea was absurd. Life. Life, had it way of playing with someone. The same me, that had always been bullied all her life for not being a werewolf was on my way to being a Lycan. I could feel it in my bones. Even before Ella had explained why my eyes had turned gold or why a voice has been speaking in me, something in me just felt it. And the feeling felt like home. I already loved my Lycan form even if it was yet to be fully formed already. I had already accepted it. Then, there wa
Adam was still staring confusedly at me. His stance was like something was wrong, but at the same time, it was like he already predicted like I was going to say something. Probably to hurt him and then leave. I was starting to really hate the things I had done ans said in the past. Adam gets so nervous just because he cannot predict my next actions she he somehow thinks that I want to hurt him, with each and everything that I do. “What is it?” The faster he had picked me up, the faster he had released me and now, I was cold and waiting alone on my own, on the bed, while he remained on the other side. I knew he was forcing himself to speak with it holding him. I understood him too, I was fighting the urge to actually go to him and question why he was so nervous and at the same time, I wanted him to touch me and have his way with me. It was something I could really never decide. A weird feeling I was really loving. “So. I want to speak about something and it is the thing that has been
CodyI was sitting next to Adam, after he had forced me to drink and almost finish a whole bottled of water. Apparently, drinking water helped drunk or tipsy people. I was starting to get to my senses back a little, but I was still lost in that haze. The same haze that tempted me to want to jump around, and dance around the airplane. That same one. Adam was next time, and he had not said a word to me after, except force me to drink more water. At this point, it felt like we were both ignoring each other, when it was indeed far from it. I just wanted to take a break, and not think too much about what was going to happen next between the both of us. Remy had indeed said some things that were starting to just clear on my head. The things she had said had been true, but the way in which she had passed it was what I was not going to agree with. It had not been as much of a big deal as she made it seem, and I did jot know nothing to clear on that. It was very obvious Adam was still pisse
THE PRINCE’S DIARY, 9, November, 1999The end is walking slowlyCrawling blindly in the light Cradling my head with might My other self is staring at me through the ghost of a mirror. And I detest myself for seeing her. Yet, I cannot lose her. Her feet are barely touch the floor. Yet she stands so tall I have to crane my neck. My other self is walking towards me, about to crown my head with thorns of pain and beauty. Beauty through the pain, My other self is staring at me through a broken mirror. Mirror of my broken self, mirror of the broken soul She is screaming, Screaming silently at me for leaving her to decay. Leaving her lost, to burn To end. The end is walking fast. Moving like the wind Moving till I can’t see. Silently gazing at the way the wind rushes towards the water. The sunset, drinking in the beauty of the sky. Beautiful. Amazing. Wonderful. Your heart is dancing at the triumph against sadness. And it’s quietened down the wailings. The bones of your form are e
Remy then got up, like if she wanted to be eye to eye with Adam, like she wanted him to understand what it was that she was saying so clearly. Although, Adam still towered over her, she refused to back down. “You mean how the both of us take care of our business and we don’t make it to the part where everyone notices that something is this wrong with us? Adam, wake up. I can sense your immaturity over this plane. I get the fact that you have never been with a mate, neither have you ever been in a relationship. But watch everything that is going. Watch her, watch the way she kept staring at you in the car ride. Did you even hear the things you said to her? Did you notice how nervous she was to take the plane rides, and how she kept closing her eyes to take deep breath, to inhale in and exhale, she also spoke to herself at some point because there was no one there to comfort her, there was no one there to hold her hands. You just came over buckle her seat belt, walked away, and then
I was still in the plane, waiting for that moment was going to get to me. His pace was slow, it felt like he was walking to me, as if it were a movie, I wanted to count each and every of his step, if there was a way I could. My eyes shone with anticipation, and at the same time, I felt this excitement in me, I could not wait for him to get to me. I was sure my eyes shinning from afar. At that moment, I did not care if me and Adam were not on speaking terms, I did not care if he was going to get to me, and remind me of how annoyed I was, at him from the beginning. I just wanted him to get to me, he was like the prince that was running towards his princess, And there was nothing that could be done about it. It was not like I wanted anything to be done about it. I just wanted Adam in my face, I wanted him to come close to me. It was at this hazy and dizzy thought I realized that I might indeed me more drunk than I had thought. My mind was clouded, and I could only breathe heavily at th
It took several hours before the jet finally took off. I finally released my nerves, and Adam disappeared back to the other side of the room, where he had been right before the plane took off. I was starting to get convinced he had something to do with the other girls who were now on the other side of the room, but I did not bother myself. “Let’s get drinks. I asked the air hostess to bring us some booze, let’s go gets wasted, or what do you say?” Remy asked, and I nodded my head. I sure needed something off my head, before I was going to overthink every single thing, and think that Adam was indeed doing something with girls over there. “I want us to do a toast. I mean, we should do a toast to cody, joining us for the first time, and to the better lives we are all hopefully going to get.” It was so obvious that Ella was drunk already, and I was starting to wonder when it was that she had started drinking. She was doing a toast, while it was very obvious she was the only one holdi
We finally got closer to the plane. The fan was already moving really fast and high. I studied the body of the plane more. There was just no way anyone was going to move close to something like that without having to access every part of it. I looked closer and I saw the same endearment by the side, that had been on Adam’s neck when I had first moved closer to him and accessed him. “Is that the royal symbol?” I asked, and Ella nodded. She was absent minded now, of course. I looked back and noticed that men had moved closer to us. Alongside them was Ben, and the three other guys who were also in black. Right now, they all had sun glasses on, even if the weather was really cool. “She really does love him, doesn’t she?” I whispered to Remy, as we both watched Ella lose her sene or thinking as she stared at Edward, who was also smiling at her, he kept stealing glances at her, and I was very sure that at that moment, he was clearly not listening to whatever it was that Adam was tellin
I was still in Adam’s arms waiting for the time where I was finally going to get off him. I felt suffocated from everything. I just wanted out, and Adam was not even letting me go. I tried to pull away several times not to no avail. I was puffing and groaning in frustration when we the car finally stopped. That time, he let me pull away. I went out of the car after Remy, and stood close to her. I was not planning on staying with Adam anymore. His thought infuriated me. He was just a selfish person that did not care about other peoples feelings when he was being a possessive bastard. I grunted once again. That was when I took in our environment. We were in a tarmac obviously, it was so wide and the wind dusted the skirts of my top. There was bushes surrounding the whole wide space which was located in the middle, making it give this nature vibe. I was very sure this was far away from the pack because I was we have driven for over two hours, roughly. I had no idea somewhere like this e
I was about to move completely away from Adam, when I felt arms wrap me up from nowhere. It caught me off guard, and I knew that I would have panicked, and screamed my head off if I was not in the car, and the rest of the Lycans were not next to me. I glanced behind me, and that was when I realized that Adam had removed his arm and had adjusted them to come close to me. All this while, I had thought he had simply done that to avoid me. I wanted to smile, I would have, if there was still not this renaming prickling hurt that was still in my chest. He had a weird way of showing how he actually felt. In a bid, still in my own anger, I refused to put my hands around him back. He was not just going to come from anywhere, and act in anyway that befitted him, just because he felt like I was looking at another person. When of course, I had just been appreciating the beauty which meant nothing more. He was always the one stressing on how much I did nit care about his feelings sometimes, bef
We were in the car already. I had not realized that the only occupant was just Martin Remy, and me and Adam. Adam was stalked to the other side, pulsing with his arms folded. It felt like he had not even realized that I was sitting next to him already, my head was starting to radiate with heat. Sometimes, there was just some way that he acted that did not sit well with me. Adam could be such a baby. I had not even done anything with Ben, and at the of the day, he was being mad at me for nothing, Adam was such a possessive somebody, it came down to really annoying, Remy understood the struggle I was going through, so she just sealed her lips. I knew she was taking a struggle, not to say anything to Adam. Since he was going to behave like a kid, I was simply going to ignore him all through till he dropped all his tactics. I was not in any mood to speak to anyone that was was not going to speak to me too. My eyes went back to the bracelet that was sitting pretty on my hands. It was gli