Chapter 62I was trying to figure out a way to fight and try to get out of my own mind when the darkness started to fade away and I knew it was throwing me into another memory. I still had 3 years that Damien visited me that I didn’t have my memories back of yet. I had a feeling that I needed to see them all before I could take whatever the next step was in getting out of my mind. I was surprised to find that it didn’t throw me into a memory, it put me in a perpetual state of darkness fading. Like it was stuck and couldn’t go any further. I suddenly got the feeling that I needed to calm down again. I stopped and took a few deep breaths to calm my mind. It worked, and I was able to hyper focus on the world beyond the darkness. I could feel my body where it lay. I could feel the temperature of the room, and the presence of bodies walking in and out. I could feel my mind, as if I were outside looking in and my mind was its own entity. I could feel my lifeforce hanging on by a thread. I
Chapter 63I could feel his snake-like silky tendrils retreating from my mind as he went. The further away he got the more I realized that I was still lying in Damiens bed. I had gotten myself this far, but couldn’t seem to go any further. “Ok Snow, in order to accept your fate of becoming a Vampire. What do you need?” I asked myself out loud, hoping that it might help me get some kind of idea. Suddenly the room started to fade out and when it faded back in I saw myself with Xavier. We were in Florida, and he had taken me snorkeling for my birthday. We were just putting our gear away when I saw Damien walk up to us. He said something to Xavier, who promptly got up and walked away, leaving me alone with a Vampire. Before I could even grab my knife, which wasn’t on my leg because I was in a bikini, Damien grabbed me and pulled in for a kiss. Watching from the outside I knew he was showing me a memory, it was the memory from last year. Once he pulled away, I smiled at him. “Damien! Hey,
Chapter 64I was expecting another memory, but I didn’t get it, which I thought was strange. It made me wonder if Damien had just not visited me that year, but I knew he did. He visited me every year. He wouldn't have missed a year. “Damien!” I heard Jericho's voice call out, and that snapped me from my thoughts. I heard Damien rush in immediately. “What is it?” He said. “Look! What are these on her hands?? They just formed in front of my eyes.” Jericho said. I could hear the awe in his voice. “Damien smiled and looked down at me. I could see him but my body wasn’t reacting. “She’s waking up. She’s going to wake up.” Damien said. “How do you…” Jericho started to say, but was cut off when I started to stir. I had been begging my body to let me in, to just listen to my commands, and to my surprise, it did. I suddenly felt as if my consciousness and my body had reconnected. I could no longer see anything from the outside, and I knew exactly where I was. I took a few breaths in and exhale
Chapter 65“Stop, you don’t owe me anything. If anyone owes anyone anything, it’s me owing you. I never should have led you on all those years. Never. It was selfish and unfair to you. Not that I knew why I couldn’t feel anything towards you before now, but if I didn’t feel anything I should have just said no. I honestly wanted your company because I was tired of always being alone. It was selfish and I'm sorry.” I said. “Snow, don’t apologize. I don’t care what happened, I wouldn’t change anything. I would do it again in a heartbeat, just to be close to you. I know Damien isn’t going to want to hear this, but I love you, Snow… I love you so fucking much. And even if you will never love me back I don’t want to lose you in my life. Vampire or not. So please, feed from me so you can complete your transition. Because a world without you, is not a world I want to live in.” He said. His emotions were plain on his face, and I couldn’t help the guilt that pooled in my gut, but also the happi
Chapter 66“Damien, I need to tell you something.” I said. He turned to me. “What is it, doll?” He said. I exhaled a slow breath just trying to regain my composure as the gravity of what I had agreed to started to hit me. I could feel myself starting to spiral and the room started shaking again. I closed my eyes and pushed the stress from my stomach. I needed to calm down. Once I was able to regain my composure I opened my eyes and locked them on Damien. “Sorry, I lost it for a second. So Max visited me, as I'm sure you know because he said you contacted him.” I said. Damien looked completely confused. “Who is Max? Oh wait, you mean the council?” Damien replied. I nodded. “He said he spoke to you, which I’m seeing that this might be untrue…” I said. I instantly looked down at my hand, not even caring that Damien and Jericho were both looking at me like I was mad. I sighed in relief when the amethyst ring was absent from my hand. But I was surprised to see that the back of my hand was
Chapter 67“I’m really glad that you kept pursuing me, even when I continually pushed you away. Honestly, I’m glad we didn't get together when I was 18.” I said. I could see the confusion twinkling in his neon green eyes. I let myself get lost in the chasm that was churning beneath their calm demeanor before replying. “If we had gotten together, I would have left The Academy. If I did that, I never would have known about the hit on you, and I never would have been able to do anything about it. I think you may have been killed, and I would have been helpless.” The sadness in my voice echoed throughout the now empty room, bouncing off the walls and disappearing through the open window to the outside world. “Everything happens for a reason, doll. Even if we don’t understand why.” He purred, moving a piece of my hair behind my ear. “I’ve never believed in fate. I’ve always believed that you control your own fate, but now I'm not so sure.” I said. The neon green of his eyes reminded me of
Chapter 68“I see.” Damien replied. I could see the wheels still turning in his mind. “Oh and I might still try to kill you, just FYI. But at that point, maybe that would be that. Who knows.” I said. He just laughed, making me smile. “Ok, so next year when I visit, I'm going to do things differently. I’m going to make you fall for me. I promise.” He said. “I really hope you do.” I replied in my drug induced state. “Let’s get you home, it’s starting to get late.” He said, leading me from the club to his vehicle outside. I heard him command my vehicle to go home, but I was too messed up to notice. He helped me inside his car and drove us to The Academy. He helped me out and was about to leave when I turned to face him. “Do you think you could stay here with me tonight? I don’t want to be alone.” I said. I could see the slight pout on my face that seemed to drive Damien crazy. He didn’t even hesitate before telling me yes, and following me inside. I saw him compel a few people who saw us
Chapter 69I walked to the elevator to the 7th floor and headed towards the suite at the end of the hall. I didn’t have to knock when I arrived because the door opened on its own. I stood there for a moment and then stepped inside, closing the door behind me softly. Max was at the bar pouring two drinks when I took a few steps further into the room, clearing my throat to announce my arrival. Not that he needed me to, he knew I was going to be early. I always was. He turned to face me, and he stopped dead in his tracks. I watched as his eyes roamed my entire figure, stopping only when he met my onyx eyes with his. He kept his emotions so buttoned up that I had no idea what he was thinking, but he was almost looking at me like I was a piece of meat. “See something you like?” I growled, hoping that he could hear the sarcasm in my voice. He shook his head slightly as if he were snapping out of whatever daze he was just in, and headed my way. “I always see something I like with you, doll.”