Dani has longed to hear those words for years now, but she knows that he does not mean them like that. Still, she feels a little pitch of excitement in the bottom of her belly at the thought.
“I really don't want to impose on you or your roommates..” She begins but he waves her words away.
“Yeah, don't worry about that. It's just my cousin, Jay. He is probably at his girlfriends, because he seems to spend all of his time there these days.” Eddy says as he pulls the car to a stop in a parking spot that says reserved. She hopes that by reserved, it means for him, because she would hate for him to lose his job because he got her father's vehicle towed away on her behalf.
But rather than say anything to him that might make him change his mind, she just lets him open her door and she follows him into the apartment. When he grabs her hand and pulls her up the stairs behind him, she nearly swoons.
Once they climb the three floors to his apartment, he opens the third door on the right. The door is red, with chipping paint, so she assumes that is apartment is a modest little place.
When the door pushes open, she is pleasantly surprised by how nice the apartment is. Though it is much smaller and way less opulant than her fathers, she falls in love with his apartment immediately. It isn't a house designed merely to boasts one's wealth. It is a home and it puts off that vibe.
“Wow. Awesome place.” She tells him sincerely, moving forward to run her hands across the fireplace mantel.
Built into the wall and surrounded by book shelves, it is the perfect show piece for the room. An overstuffed sofa, draped with brightly colored throws and mismatched pillows are a nice touch.
“It's not what you are use to..” He comments dryly and she turns to look him in the eyes.
“That's why I like it so much. This place feels real. Comfortable. It is a place where you can come in, kick your shoes off and relax. Sit on the couch and eat Chinese food. Lay down on a rainy day and read a book by the fire. Have friends over to play games and drink beer. It feels like a home.”
“Your place isn't? It is so nice!” Eddy tells her.
“Yeah. He pays Helga and Odette to keep it clean, so it pisses him off if I mess up so much as a spoon after they leave. He hates if I leave takeout boxes in the trash, since it 'stinks up the place'. My shoes go on the rack in my closet and my books are to stay in my room on the shelf. I think I have maybe sit on our couch twice in my whole life. I eat all my meals at the table alone, then go to my room where I sit with the door shut.”
“Damn. That sounds..”
Horrible? Stupid? Excessive?
“Lonely.”
Dani looks at him and nods, turning back to look at the pictures on his wall before he can see the tears in her eyes. It is lonely. She has been o damn lonely since her mother died. She has her friends when she is at school, but they are always so busy that they can usually only ever hang out like one weekend a month.
That is the rest of the time where she is all by herself, since her father is like an elusive unicorn around the apartment; So hard to spot that she sometimes wonders if he is even real.
“You look so young here.”
Danielle point to a picture on the mantel and he comes up behind her, looking where she is pointing. He smiles widely. “I was. I think I was maybe thirteen or fourteen in that picture.”
“Where were you at? That looks like a castle.” She comments.
In the picture there is a young Eddy, standing next to three other guys in front of a large stone building. She can only see what she imagines is a small piece of the structure, but still she is getting strong castle vibes from it.
“Northwood Putus Boarding School. My favorite place on Earth.” Eddy tells her with a far away look.
“Northwood.. Meesler?” Was that someone's name?
“Named after Ivan Barrick Meesler. He was an immigrant from Russia. Born Ivan Orlov, he came to America to flee his extremely wealthy, but terrible family. This was like 1886 or something like that.” Eddy begins the story, gesturing to the couch.
Dani takes a seat where he points, waiting for him to join her. When he does, she turns to face him, waiting for the rest of the story.
“He had a two month journey that finally ended with him getting lost somewhere in the woods. No one was around and he asked the very few people that he found, in towns that were hour away, but noone knew of anyone owning it. So, he settled there. In between mountains and a big pond. Surrounded by trees, it was a beautiful slice of Heaven to him.”
“Sounds like it.” Dani agreed.
“He spent his days harvesting stones from the mountain, building a large structure out of stone. He meant it to be a place for his younger siblings. It tooks him nearly a year to make the place, which was a huge two story home. It had eight rooms, a kitchen and a large eating room. A guy traveling through stopped one night a few months in and they became friends.”
“Who was the man?” Dani asks, invested in the story.
“Thomas Shriver.” Eddy answers. “Anyways, Thomas was a boy of sixteen and he had run away from an abusive home. Ivan, knowing that story well, took him in. While built the house, the boy who was farm raised and good with his hands, worked on furniture out of trees that he cut down. They worked well togthr until they got it finished. Ivan asked Thomas if he wanted to stay and the boy accepted.”
“That's really sweet of him. The two guys are no longer alone in the bog house.” Dani feels for the two of them, being alone until they found each other.
“Yeah. Ivan left Thomas in charge of the place while he traveled back to Russia. He was gone for months.” Eddy says and Dani looks at him, surprised.
“Why did he go back to Russia, if he came to Vermont to get away from his evil family?”
“When he fled Russia, he left behind so many people. He had eleven younger brothers and sisters, as well as a woman that he loved. His parents ran an 'orphanage' as a front to sell children into slavery. So Ivan went back with a large ship that he had paid for the voyage. With the help of a few well payed companions, they smuggled all of the orphans and his siblings out of Russia. He also turned his parents in for their crimes. I don't know what happened with them, if anything, but he came back to his house in Vermont with twenty-six children, ten of his siblings and his love, Petra.”
“They kidnapped the children?” Dani asks, scandalized by the thought. She understands that it was for their own good, but wasn't it still a crime?
“Technically, but he saved their lives. They changed their names, except for him, to Ivan and Lily Meesler. They changed all of the children's names as well. Lily taught the children, while the older kids, ages fourteen to seventeen, went to a nearby town for jobs. Thomas hunted all day for food to store up and they lived a simple life. They eventually went back for Thomas's siblings, bringing them up to nearly forty.”
“Forty kids. Good God, I can not imagine. That must have been rough.”
“Yeah, I doubt it was easy. But they built a bigger house, got some help from the older kids and eventually took in more kids as time passed. By the time Ivan turned fifty, nearly twenty six years later, they had over two hundred children in attendance. They were a school for wealthy families to send their children to get top notch educations. Now, they are even bigger, with two seperate schools. One for the boys and one for the girls.”
“Damn. Big progress.”
“Yeah. It is a really great place. The two years that I was there were great. My dad started working there after my mom left us. He wanted a fresh start, where the whole town wasn't talking about how his wife had left him for his best friend. So, we packed up and moved to Vermont. I got to go there for free, since he was a teacher there.” Eddy tells her.
His words strike a chord with Dani. Fresh start where no one is talking about you. A great place. Dani decides that a remote school at the bottom of the mountains somewhere in Vermont, sounds like Heaven to her, same as Ivan. It's her fresh start, just like it was for Eddy's dad. It is where she wants to be.
“How do you apply for this school?”
Eddy drops Dani off at her house the next morning, after the spent a long night talking about everything that happened to her the night before. He tells her how she can call the school and see how she can go about getting accepted to the school. Her father is not at home when she arrives, which does not surprise her in the least. In fact, she would have been shocked out of her sock had he been home one a Saturday morning. He has only been there twice in the last six years since her mother passed away. It used to be a tradition of theirs to have a large brunch, with belgian waffles, fresh fruit,
“Dean Winchell's office, of Meesler Boarding School. May I help you?” “I am looking to enroll my child in your school.” Dani blurts out quickly, feeling self-concious and awkward about the lie. Please do not realize that I am a teenager and hang up on me, she silently begs the cranky sounding woman on the other end. “Our girl's school, Southwood, is at maximum capacity and has a two year waiting list. If your student is a female, I regret to inform you that this will be a short conversation. But if you have a son, we have very few openings available, as we recently
It took a couple of hours for PJ to get all of the paperwork in order but by the time that he was done, Dani had everything that she needed to start school. Her name was now Daniel Millman. Danny for short. Thankfully she has been answering to Dani for years so it won't get too confusing for her. “Dani..” “Hmm?” She asks Eddy, turning to face him. “What are you going to do about your looks?” He asks her and she frowns.
The day has come for her to go to her new school. As a him. Not a her. So, she is feeling some massive anxiety about that, but she is pushing it down. She wanted this. She can do this. She has to. She has already done so much to be ready for this. Such as going shopping with Eddy for boy's clothing. He had taken her back to his apartment and had her put on her wig and the stomach band. He had given her a large ace bandage for her boobs, which she had wrapped tightly over her bra. With that and the band, she just looked like a plump guy. Combined with a pair of Eddy's jeans and an old AC/DC
Dani spends the time that Eddy is gone with his father alone in the room, putting her clothes away. She brought clean sheets and her blanket that she wanted, because Eddy had told her that the ones they provide feel like hospital sheets. This was pretty much like a dorm room so she had brought a few things along to make it feel more home like. Such as a huge box of junk food. A mini fridge that Eddy had to bring up later. She had brought some things that she could find only in New York. She had brought two different kinds of toiletries. Shampoo and conditioner that was unscented and some men's body wash for through out the w
Dani spends the time that Eddy is gone with his father alone in the room, putting her clothes away. She brought clean sheets and her blanket that she wanted, because Eddy had told her that the ones they provide feel like hospital sheets. This was pretty much like a dorm room so she had brought a few things along to make it feel more home like. Such as a huge box of junk food. A mini fridge that Eddy had to bring up later. She had brought some things that she could find only in New York. She had brought two different kinds of toiletries. Shampoo and conditioner that was unscented and some men's body wash for through out the w
Dani has been at school for a week now and she has fallen into a routine of sorts. She does not socialize, which is pretty different from her old school experience where she knew every one there and they knew her. She had a billion friends. Now she goes about her day all alone. She eats her lunch alone in her room. After classes are over she is back in her room. That is where she spends all of her time, reading books or watching tv on her little portable tv. Mostly she just gets grainy images and garbled speech. Yet she still finds that better than being around a bunch of rich guys that at like idiots. Her first day in class these
Asher Steele rolls his eyes for the fifth time in as many minutes. His friends seem to be acting even more childish today than usual and it is bugging the hell out of him. Normally he does not mind when they act like morons because he can just retreat into his own world and ignore it but for some reason today, he can not seem to get past it. “Tyler, man, that is-” Thomas says to the guy who just told everyone a story about how over the weekend when he was visiting his patents back at home how his dad caught his younger sister giving her female best friend 'special attention' under the covers at a sleepover party.
November 25, 1999Three Years Later Asher looks around the room for his wife, but she is lost in the sea of people. Their family and friends have only been there about fifteen minutes and already he is regretting his and Dani's decision to host Thanksgiving in their new home. But Dani had been so excited when they finally got the renovations done, after three months of contractors and paint samples.
Dani waits at the closed door until someon gives her a signal. Her hands are shaking and she is tapping her foot. A hand grasp hers tightly. “Nervous?” “No, not at all. Impatient. I am ready to get in there.” Dani says and he nods. “It shouldn't be long now.” Just then the doors open with a florish and Dani gets ger first sight of it all. Her wedding. She sees all of the people filling the seats and
Asher sits across from Fred Millman in a slightly awkward silence, because he does not know how to start the conversation that he wants to have. He knows that Fred already knows everything going on. He and Dani are close, so she tells him everything that happens in her life. “Mr. Millman-” “Call me Fred. If you are going to be my son-in-law, you should probably call me Fred.” He says dryly and Asher winces. “Ahout that.. I wanted to say- I'm sorry that I did
Asher looks back at Dani, knowing that she is nervous. She has nervously chattered the whole way here, being worse than their sons. He smiles when she catches his hand and asks, “They founded the publishing company, right?” “Yes. They put the A & J in AJS Publishing. Adrien and Janice Steele. They started it nearly twenty years ago. I worked their off and on in my teens, but last year when I graduated college, they gave me the company. It was between that, a technology company, a medical supply company or a hotel.” “That is an odd assortment of companies.” Dani tells him.
“I checked on the boys and they are okay. They're both still sound asleep.” Dani feels the bed move as Asher joins her. When he had left the bed a few minutes ago, she had no idea what he was doing. A part of her thought that maybe he was trying to sneak out on her. He moves over until his bare body is flush against her naked back and he puts his arm over her waist, anchoring her to him. She can feel his warm breath on the back of her neck. When she does not respond to him, he kisses the back of her neck.
Asher tells his uncle all about his plans with 'Holly from the second floor' and Leo nods along, apparently approving this choice, while Dani's heart breaks inside of her chest. She waited too long. Asher has already moved on. Asher notices Dani slowl withdrawing from the conversation and he assumes that it is because she is tired. He knows that the twins are as well. When she moves over to sit with the boys, casually talking to Jace, Leo leans forward. “So, kids, huh?” He asks and Asher knows that means that he wants the full story.
Dani trails along behind Asher as he walks a few step ahead of her, holding a boy by each hand. Nik is dressed as a teddy bear and Nate is dressed as a lion. Nate has a drawn on brown nose and whiskers thanks to a brown eyeliner pencil. Nik wanted his face colored on too, so she drew him a brown nose as well. With their fuzzy suits on, they both look so cuddlely that she could not stop hugging them. “Are we almost there, Daddy?” Nate asks Asher looking up at him with tired eyes. “Are you worn out, buddy?” Asher asks him and the child nods.
Dani rewipes the table with the wet washcloth for the thirs time; not because it is sticky but because she is stalling. She just will not admit that to herself because then she would have to dig deep enough to admit to herself just why it is that she is avoiding Eddy. And she does not have to dig deep to admit why, because she knows the reason. Asher. That morning when she had woke up and seen a peacefully sleeping Asher beside her, it had just felt to right. It had felt like old times between them and she had been con
Asher did not want to go home. He wanted to stay with his boys. They had supper together, then he and Dani had given them a bath. He read them two stories with a lot of character voices which the boys loved. Even Dani was laughing. This is the fourth night this week and they were together three nights last week. But it is not enough. Because at the end of the night he still has to go home to his lonely apartment across town. Each night the boys still ask him why he is leaving. Why their Daddy isn't staying their with them, with mommy. They just tell them that it's because daddy's house is closer to his work, which is easier for him.