Dani spins around on her heels and takes off running, pulling the rest room door open with force, startling an older gentleman waiting on the other side to come in. “Woah.”
“Dani!” She ignores the sound of Rick calling out to her.
“Excuse me.” She mumbles at him as she rushes past. Her words come out choked through the tears.
She can not believe that he was screwing Amber freaking Wagner. The biggest, nastiest slut in the senior class. Actually, she is the biggest skank in the school. She makes time with any boy who looks at her with lust in his eyes. Which is a fair amount, since she is tall, skinny, blonde and beautiful.
A tear drips from Dani's lashe and rolls down her cheek. How could he do that to her? He told her that he loved her. But he could not have actually loved her if he would cheat on her.
When she gets back to the theatre, she goes back stage to wait with her friends. Mel sees the tears and immediately pulls Dani into her arms. As her best friend's arms wrap around her, she feels the floodgates open, as the tears stream down her face. She sobs into Mel's shoulder.
“What happened, Dan?” Lia comes up behind her and wraps her arms around them too.
As she stands sandwiched between her best friends, she questions the tears. She does not even love him. She knows that. Rick is a pompous prick with a chip on his shoulder. He was selfish, entitled and smug. Dani had been going out with him for five months and if she was honest, that was four and half months too long.
She had long since grown tired of him. So it wasn't like she was heart broken that it was over with him. Dani was embarrassed that he had cheated on her, but it was worse that it was with Amber. Her second cousin and her nemisis since they were five years old.
All of her life, Amber had done anything and everything that she could to make Dani miserable. If Dani had a crush on a boy, Amber would go out of her way to get him. If Dani had a big birthday planned, Amber would throw a bigger party on the same night, inviting everyone. Things like that, just to cut at Dani and to hurt her.
But sleeping with her boyfriend was a little much, even for Amber. It was the slap in the face that Amber had been trying to deliver all year, but Dani had let everything roll of her back.
When Amber had dumped a soda on her brand new white dress on the first day of school, Dani had not said a word. She had the office excuse her to go home and she had changed.
When Amber had auditioned againt her in the school play, getting the lead, Dani had gladly accepted a secondary role, ignoring the weeks of bragging and rubbing it in her face. But this, she could not ignore. She hated Amber with every fiber of her being. She was taking no more abuse from that two bit harlot.
“Amber.. and Rick..” She tells them and they assume correctly what he is trying to tell them.
“That witch!” Mel mutters at the same time that Lia grumbles, “That slime ball!”
“And the winners of the Briarwood Institute talent show is..” Mr. Ratcliffe booms out. The sound of paper rustling can be heard over the speakers, before he clears his throat. “Danielle Millman, Lia Baynor and Melania Polk for their wonderful performance of 'Hold on' by Wilson Phillips. Girls, please come on up here!”
Mel and Lia both pull away, looking at each other. “We won?” Mel asks, surprised.
“We won!” Lia confirms, excited.
Danielle wipes the tears from her face, fanning it with her hands to hopefully clear up the red patchiness of her skin, although the knows that it won't help. Everyone will know that she was crying. Unless, she can stay behind the girls and keep her head down.
The three of them make their way across the stage to join Mr. Ratcliffe and principle Elsie Gaylord in the middle. Dani keeps her eyes on her feet, as her friends hold her hands, tugging her with them. They reached the two faculty members and stopped, taking the big check that the principle held.
“Congratulations girls! You ladies did amazing and are so talented. We present you with this check for three hundred dollars, as well as this prize basket of sponsored prizes, such as gift cards, meal vouchers and other items.” Mrs. Gaylord smiles at them. “We loved-”
“Dani!”
Hearing her voice, she turns to see Rick running across the stage towards her, with Amber behind him, smirking. His hair is disheveled and his shirt is askew. He looks at her and pleads loudly, “You have to talk to me, Dani.”
“Rick, not now!” Dani whispers loudly at him, shooing him away. This was not the place or time. She would talk to him afterwards, if it would get him to shut the heck up, but not now.
“That is the problem! That is what you always say!” Rick mimics her voice. “ 'Stop', 'Not Now', 'I'm not ready!' That is all you ever say!” He shouts at her accusingly. “If you are too much of a dang prude to sleep with me, you can't fault me for finding someone that will sleep with me!”
Everyone in the audience gasps and begins to murmur, as Dani's whole body flushes. “Rick-” She says, feeling tears welling in her eyes.
“I am a man! I have needs! If you can't be woman enough to satisfy me, then you can't get pised at me when I turn to Amber-”
“No one gives a shit that you slept with Amber! Every guy in the school has slept with her! She is like a taxi! She gives everyone a ride!” The audience gasps again at Dani's shouted words. They are clearly enjoying this dramatic little conflict. “I don't care about you or what you did. I am angry at Amber for constantly trying to ruin my life. But the jokes on her, because I don't even want you. You kiss like a drunken sailor and have more arms than an octopus, always trying to feel me up! You suck and she can have you!”
“You bitch!” Rick shouts at her and Amber zooms forward, lifting her hand to smack Danielle across the face.
Lia catches her hand before she can make contact and pushes her backwards. “Don't even try it, skank, or I will beat your slutty ass up and down this stage!”
Mr. Ratcliffe grabs Rick, who is shouting obscenities and pulls him away, as Mrs. Gaylord pulls Amber to her feet. “Come on. This is ridiculous!”
They drag them away, as they both grumble and shout. Before they have them completely out of sight, Rick makes one final remark. “No one around here will ever want you, you prude! Being with you is like trying to cuddle up to a hunk of ice! Besides that, you are ugly and masculine! No one wants a boy for a girlfriend!”
A few chuckles can be heard throughout the crowd, but when Dani turns to look at them, she mostly sees sympathetic looks or empathatic grimaces. Tears spill from her eyes as she stands there frozen with mortification.
Everyone heard what he said. They know what happened and they are talking about her. Every eye is on her and it is too much! With a hushed sob, she runs from the building and through the halls. When she pushes out the front door, she looks around in a panic.
Finally she spots Edison, her personal driver and she runs towards him. He sees her tear and he comes forward, to take her in his arms. “Dani, what's wrong?”
“I have to get out of here, Eddy! Please!” She cries, holding on to him.
He nods, helping her into the back of the black limo, before he rounds the vehicle to get into the driver's seat. She sits there, sobbing, as he pulls away into the busy New York traffic.
“Wanna tell me about it?” Eddy asks her, turning in his seat to look at her. The divider is down, because she never keeps it up. Eddy is a great friend of hers ad the secret love of her life.
He is twenty-two, to her sixteen and he is a student at NYU. He works as a chauffer to support himself, to which she is thankful. He has worked for her father for three years now. She had been infatuated with him just as long.
He was tall and medium build, meaning that he is isn't too thin, but he isn't too big either. In her eyes, he is perfect. With his golden brown hair and his chocolate eyes. He has tanned skin and a great smile. He has a little dimple in his chin that she wants to kiss each time she sees it.
“I caught Rick having sex with Amber in the boy's bathroom while I was performing.” She tells him, then meets his eyes in the mirror as he gives her a sympathetic look.
“Ah, honey-”
“Oh, that's not why I'm upset. That was just the beginning of the story, to keep you up on current events.” She tells him and he gives her a strange look. She pulls the wig of her head, tossing it aside as she shakes out her long, chesnut hair.
“Okay..”
“As we are up on stage, accepting our congratulations and the reward for winning, whne he and Amber, looking like they just got it on, come on the stage and he proceeds to shout at me!” She tells him, reliving the fresh trauma.
“He did what?” Eddy asks, getting upset. He is very protective of her. Like a big brother, as he puts it, which always stings a bit.
“In front of everyone, he tells me that the reason that he slept with Amber is because I am frigid and a prude. He claims that he is a man and he has needs. That the fact that I tell him 'no' is why he was driven into my slutty cousin's arms.” Dani seethes with anger at the memory.
“That bastard!” Eddy grumbles beneath his breath.
“Like I told him, I don't care that he cheated on me. He is not worth mine or any other girl's tears. What has me crying is that thousands of people witnessed it. They heard him talk about me, about my sex life. People I go to school with, parents, teachers.. everyone heard it. I was mortified.” Dani says and he nods, understanding why she is upset.
“At least Dad wasn't there..” She says quietly.
“Mr. Millman wasn't there?” Eddy asks her and she shakes her head. She was use to it. He never showed up to anything. Ever since her mother died when she wa ten, her father had thrown himself into work, scarcely remembering that he had a daughter at home that might need him.
Like right now. She needed a parent. She needed someone to hold her as she cried and listen to her pour out her heart. She needed to talk to her father, because she did not want to have to go back to that school. She did not think that she could face all those people on Monday morning.
Mostly she never wanted to see Rick Coster or Amber Wagner again for as long as she lived.
“Eddy? Will you take me to my Dad's office?”
Dani had no doubt in her mind that she would find him there. It is where he always is. He has even been known to sleep their some nights, while she stays home alone in their high rise apartment on the upper east side. She used to be scared to death to stay home alone, but she became good friends with the night doorman Phil and Mrs. Delmire below them.
If she gets nervous, she goes and plays cards with Phil, who taught her to play a mean hand of poker. She used to stay the night with Mrs. Delmire, the seventy year old widower. They would watch British comedies on television and eat pringles chips while drinking hot chocolate.
Now, she stays alone. Mrs. Delmire moved in with her son and daughter, when her health started declining. She and Dani write each other at least once a month, but Dani still misse her.
Phil retired a few months ago, which left her truly alone. She is happy for him, that he gets to spend more time with his family, but she misses him too. She no longer misses her father. By now they have drifted so far apart that he is a stranger to her. On the rare instances that he is at their home, they don't speak.
They tend to regard one another warily, staying silent since they have nothing to say to one another. But she has been making an effort over the last month. He is the only parent that she has left and she wants a relationship with him.
So she has made an effort to talk to him whenever he is home. She makes breakfast for the two of them and serve it to him. She engages him in conversation about his favorite thing in the world; his work.
Being the owner and editor of a national magazine like Chit Chat is a huge responsibility, as she well knows. He tells her that every time that he forgets her birthday or misses a function at school. She is well aware of what his priorities are and where she lies on that list. If she is even on it. Sometimes she wonders..
“Here we are. I will wait down here for the both of you.” Eddy tells her as he pulls up outside of the forty story skyscraper where her father's office is located on the twenty-ninth floor.
The security guard confirms that her father is in the office, letting her go up, despite the building being closed. He must feel sorry for her, with the tear stained face and red rimmed eyes. She walks across the polished marble floor to reach the elevator.
The ride to her father's floor is long and silent, which she finds kind of eerie. She is relieved when the elevator jerks to a halt and with a ding, the doors slide open.
The office is dark, all the desks sitting empty. Looking across the large expanse, her eyes scan the walls of glass to settle on her father's office. She can see through the frosted window that his light is still on, so she takes a deep breath and marches forward.
When she reaches the door, she turns the knob and pushes it open. “Dad, I really need to talk to you-”
“Danielle!”
Freezes in shock before she covers her eyes and turns away. “You have got to be freaking kidding me!”
Not again.
Dani runs from the office and hits the button for the elevator, which thankfully opens up immediately. Once she is closed up inside of the elevator car, she leans back against the wall and covers her eyes, letting out a little scream of frustration. “Oh my God!” She can believe what she just witnessed, but she does know one thing for sure; She wishes that she could pluck her eyeballs out so that she never has to see another person having sex for as long as she lives. She was too disgusted to even think straight.
Dani has longed to hear those words for years now, but she knows that he does not mean them like that. Still, she feels a little pitch of excitement in the bottom of her belly at the thought. “I really don't want to impose on you or your roommates..” She begins but he waves her words away. “Yeah, don't worry about that. It's just my cousin, Jay. He is probably at his girlfriends, because he seems to spend all of his time there these days.” Eddy says as he pulls the car to a stop in a parking spot that says reserved. She hopes that by reserved, it means for him, because she would hate for him to lose
Eddy drops Dani off at her house the next morning, after the spent a long night talking about everything that happened to her the night before. He tells her how she can call the school and see how she can go about getting accepted to the school. Her father is not at home when she arrives, which does not surprise her in the least. In fact, she would have been shocked out of her sock had he been home one a Saturday morning. He has only been there twice in the last six years since her mother passed away. It used to be a tradition of theirs to have a large brunch, with belgian waffles, fresh fruit,
“Dean Winchell's office, of Meesler Boarding School. May I help you?” “I am looking to enroll my child in your school.” Dani blurts out quickly, feeling self-concious and awkward about the lie. Please do not realize that I am a teenager and hang up on me, she silently begs the cranky sounding woman on the other end. “Our girl's school, Southwood, is at maximum capacity and has a two year waiting list. If your student is a female, I regret to inform you that this will be a short conversation. But if you have a son, we have very few openings available, as we recently
It took a couple of hours for PJ to get all of the paperwork in order but by the time that he was done, Dani had everything that she needed to start school. Her name was now Daniel Millman. Danny for short. Thankfully she has been answering to Dani for years so it won't get too confusing for her. “Dani..” “Hmm?” She asks Eddy, turning to face him. “What are you going to do about your looks?” He asks her and she frowns.
The day has come for her to go to her new school. As a him. Not a her. So, she is feeling some massive anxiety about that, but she is pushing it down. She wanted this. She can do this. She has to. She has already done so much to be ready for this. Such as going shopping with Eddy for boy's clothing. He had taken her back to his apartment and had her put on her wig and the stomach band. He had given her a large ace bandage for her boobs, which she had wrapped tightly over her bra. With that and the band, she just looked like a plump guy. Combined with a pair of Eddy's jeans and an old AC/DC
Dani spends the time that Eddy is gone with his father alone in the room, putting her clothes away. She brought clean sheets and her blanket that she wanted, because Eddy had told her that the ones they provide feel like hospital sheets. This was pretty much like a dorm room so she had brought a few things along to make it feel more home like. Such as a huge box of junk food. A mini fridge that Eddy had to bring up later. She had brought some things that she could find only in New York. She had brought two different kinds of toiletries. Shampoo and conditioner that was unscented and some men's body wash for through out the w
Dani spends the time that Eddy is gone with his father alone in the room, putting her clothes away. She brought clean sheets and her blanket that she wanted, because Eddy had told her that the ones they provide feel like hospital sheets. This was pretty much like a dorm room so she had brought a few things along to make it feel more home like. Such as a huge box of junk food. A mini fridge that Eddy had to bring up later. She had brought some things that she could find only in New York. She had brought two different kinds of toiletries. Shampoo and conditioner that was unscented and some men's body wash for through out the w
November 25, 1999Three Years Later Asher looks around the room for his wife, but she is lost in the sea of people. Their family and friends have only been there about fifteen minutes and already he is regretting his and Dani's decision to host Thanksgiving in their new home. But Dani had been so excited when they finally got the renovations done, after three months of contractors and paint samples.
Dani waits at the closed door until someon gives her a signal. Her hands are shaking and she is tapping her foot. A hand grasp hers tightly. “Nervous?” “No, not at all. Impatient. I am ready to get in there.” Dani says and he nods. “It shouldn't be long now.” Just then the doors open with a florish and Dani gets ger first sight of it all. Her wedding. She sees all of the people filling the seats and
Asher sits across from Fred Millman in a slightly awkward silence, because he does not know how to start the conversation that he wants to have. He knows that Fred already knows everything going on. He and Dani are close, so she tells him everything that happens in her life. “Mr. Millman-” “Call me Fred. If you are going to be my son-in-law, you should probably call me Fred.” He says dryly and Asher winces. “Ahout that.. I wanted to say- I'm sorry that I did
Asher looks back at Dani, knowing that she is nervous. She has nervously chattered the whole way here, being worse than their sons. He smiles when she catches his hand and asks, “They founded the publishing company, right?” “Yes. They put the A & J in AJS Publishing. Adrien and Janice Steele. They started it nearly twenty years ago. I worked their off and on in my teens, but last year when I graduated college, they gave me the company. It was between that, a technology company, a medical supply company or a hotel.” “That is an odd assortment of companies.” Dani tells him.
“I checked on the boys and they are okay. They're both still sound asleep.” Dani feels the bed move as Asher joins her. When he had left the bed a few minutes ago, she had no idea what he was doing. A part of her thought that maybe he was trying to sneak out on her. He moves over until his bare body is flush against her naked back and he puts his arm over her waist, anchoring her to him. She can feel his warm breath on the back of her neck. When she does not respond to him, he kisses the back of her neck.
Asher tells his uncle all about his plans with 'Holly from the second floor' and Leo nods along, apparently approving this choice, while Dani's heart breaks inside of her chest. She waited too long. Asher has already moved on. Asher notices Dani slowl withdrawing from the conversation and he assumes that it is because she is tired. He knows that the twins are as well. When she moves over to sit with the boys, casually talking to Jace, Leo leans forward. “So, kids, huh?” He asks and Asher knows that means that he wants the full story.
Dani trails along behind Asher as he walks a few step ahead of her, holding a boy by each hand. Nik is dressed as a teddy bear and Nate is dressed as a lion. Nate has a drawn on brown nose and whiskers thanks to a brown eyeliner pencil. Nik wanted his face colored on too, so she drew him a brown nose as well. With their fuzzy suits on, they both look so cuddlely that she could not stop hugging them. “Are we almost there, Daddy?” Nate asks Asher looking up at him with tired eyes. “Are you worn out, buddy?” Asher asks him and the child nods.
Dani rewipes the table with the wet washcloth for the thirs time; not because it is sticky but because she is stalling. She just will not admit that to herself because then she would have to dig deep enough to admit to herself just why it is that she is avoiding Eddy. And she does not have to dig deep to admit why, because she knows the reason. Asher. That morning when she had woke up and seen a peacefully sleeping Asher beside her, it had just felt to right. It had felt like old times between them and she had been con
Asher did not want to go home. He wanted to stay with his boys. They had supper together, then he and Dani had given them a bath. He read them two stories with a lot of character voices which the boys loved. Even Dani was laughing. This is the fourth night this week and they were together three nights last week. But it is not enough. Because at the end of the night he still has to go home to his lonely apartment across town. Each night the boys still ask him why he is leaving. Why their Daddy isn't staying their with them, with mommy. They just tell them that it's because daddy's house is closer to his work, which is easier for him.