Dani runs from the office and hits the button for the elevator, which thankfully opens up immediately. Once she is closed up inside of the elevator car, she leans back against the wall and covers her eyes, letting out a little scream of frustration.
“Oh my God!”
She can believe what she just witnessed, but she does know one thing for sure; She wishes that she could pluck her eyeballs out so that she never has to see another person having sex for as long as she lives. She was too disgusted to even think straight.
Because when she pushed open the door to her father's office, she found that he was not alone in the room. He was sitting at his desk, as she had expected. But what she hadn't imagined was his married secretary sitting on the desk with her skirt pushed up to her hips, with his hands holding her in place.
She was bare from the waist up, with his mouth on her chest, suckling at her. Dani had quickly averted her eyes, disgusted by the sight. Clearly Dani had surprised them both, that much was clear. But it came as a surprise to her too.
Yeah, her mother has been gone for six years. It is not like she expected her father to never move on again. That is not what she has a problem with. What hurts her is, if he is finally ready to pull himself out of his despair that he has been in since her mother died, why can't he do it with her?
Why could he not make a life for himself in the real world, with his daughter? He can't drag himself away from work to come to see her perform, but he can push all his work into the floor so that he can do his married, twenty-six year old secretary?
Hurt is what is creeping up in Dani. Her father made the choice to be with his employee tonight rather than support his daughter. Jealousy, as she thinks about all of th other times that he had chosen to be with her, rather than being with his daughter.
Dani does not cry though. Screw all of them. She is done crying. Rick and Amber deserve each other. They both suck! As for her father.. let him have his secretary.. but a small part of her hopes that the husband comes and kicks his ass.
As for what she was going to do, well, that was another story. She really had no idea what she could do. She was seventeen in three weeks, still not old enough to legally leave home.
But if she had a choice, she would get the hell out of New York. Get away from everyone and everything that she knows and that knows her. She wants a fresh start somewhere else, where she will have a clean slate.
The elevators doors slide open with a door with a ding, and once more she runs to Eddy. He is there waiting with open arms, holding close. “Eddy, take me somewhere far away from here. I don't want to go home.”
So Eddy put her in the front seat of the limo with him, keeping his arm around her as a gesture of comfort, that she greatly appreciated. He drove around the city for a few hours until he started yawning. It was nearly two in the morning and she knew that she could not ask him to drive around all night. He needed rest.
“If you'll drop my off at the corner of Canal Street, I would appreciate it.” She tells him and he gives her an incredulous look.
“Why on earth would you go down there at this time of night? Especially at this time of night.” Eddy asks her and she shakes her head to clear it.
“Because there is a little place there that is open all night that I can hang out at. I told you, I don't want to go back to my dad's place.”
Dani could not bring herself to call it home, because it had not been a home since her mother had moved into the hospital to live out the rest of her days. Her mother had died of HIV.
Whenever she tells people that, they assume that her mother wa a drug addict or whore, having contracted it by living a rough lifestyle, when in fact nothing could be further from the truth.
Her mother had been an actress and a famous singer. She performed on Broadway and in so many movies and shows. She was the prettiest woman that Dani had ever seen. Long, tall and blonde. She had a figure to kill for, a face like a goddess and voice of a an Angel. Everyone that laid eyes fell in love with her.
Not just because of her looks. She was as kind as she was gorgeous. A small town Kentucky girl having made it big in New York, she still had that old country raising that had her be kind to everyone. She never adopted that entitled, better-than-everyone attitude that some famous people get. She stayed humble and kind.
So kind in fact that when she saw her broadway co-star, Jamie Layman getting roughed up outside of the theatre one night, she had stepped in to help him. As an openly gay man, he was always having to put up idiots hassling him.
That night a group of drunk, homophobic idiots had taken too far. One of the men knocked Layla to the ground, pulled a gun and shot Jamie in the chest. The others ran off at the sight of the gun, him quickly following them, leaving the young man to die.
Layla had moved over to him, placing her cut up bare hands on his wound to try to stop the blood. He was twenty-six years old. He did not deserve to die like that, all because of who he was and how he loved.
He died there on the street in Layla arms before help could arrive. Layla wasn't the same after that. Everyone assumed it was the depression when her health started failing her. She had been diagnosed with cystic fibrosis when she was a baby, so she was no stranger to illness. With a lung transplant and other experimental treatment, she had lived to be twenty-seven, when doctors never thought that she would make it out of her teens.
That is abserious condition and it is deadly, but Layla Denise Albertson Millman was a fighter. But when she contracted AIDS, it quickly destroyed her already compromised immune system. She was dead within eight months of the night of Jamie's death.
Strangers around the world mourned her, but none more than her daughter and her husband. A ten year old Dani spent every day by her bed, holding her hand and stroking back her wispy hair. Everyone else was afraid to touch her. They feared catching the disease. But Dani was afraid of that. What she feared most was trying to live a life without her mother.
She had no idea that he would also have to live without her father too.
“We're here.”
Eddy's voice pulls her from her painful memories of the past. She looks up and sees that they are outside of his apartment building. He had told her about it, pointing it out to her as they drove by, but she had never been there before.
“Your building?”
“Yeah. You are staying with me tonight.”
Dani has longed to hear those words for years now, but she knows that he does not mean them like that. Still, she feels a little pitch of excitement in the bottom of her belly at the thought. “I really don't want to impose on you or your roommates..” She begins but he waves her words away. “Yeah, don't worry about that. It's just my cousin, Jay. He is probably at his girlfriends, because he seems to spend all of his time there these days.” Eddy says as he pulls the car to a stop in a parking spot that says reserved. She hopes that by reserved, it means for him, because she would hate for him to lose
Eddy drops Dani off at her house the next morning, after the spent a long night talking about everything that happened to her the night before. He tells her how she can call the school and see how she can go about getting accepted to the school. Her father is not at home when she arrives, which does not surprise her in the least. In fact, she would have been shocked out of her sock had he been home one a Saturday morning. He has only been there twice in the last six years since her mother passed away. It used to be a tradition of theirs to have a large brunch, with belgian waffles, fresh fruit,
“Dean Winchell's office, of Meesler Boarding School. May I help you?” “I am looking to enroll my child in your school.” Dani blurts out quickly, feeling self-concious and awkward about the lie. Please do not realize that I am a teenager and hang up on me, she silently begs the cranky sounding woman on the other end. “Our girl's school, Southwood, is at maximum capacity and has a two year waiting list. If your student is a female, I regret to inform you that this will be a short conversation. But if you have a son, we have very few openings available, as we recently
It took a couple of hours for PJ to get all of the paperwork in order but by the time that he was done, Dani had everything that she needed to start school. Her name was now Daniel Millman. Danny for short. Thankfully she has been answering to Dani for years so it won't get too confusing for her. “Dani..” “Hmm?” She asks Eddy, turning to face him. “What are you going to do about your looks?” He asks her and she frowns.
The day has come for her to go to her new school. As a him. Not a her. So, she is feeling some massive anxiety about that, but she is pushing it down. She wanted this. She can do this. She has to. She has already done so much to be ready for this. Such as going shopping with Eddy for boy's clothing. He had taken her back to his apartment and had her put on her wig and the stomach band. He had given her a large ace bandage for her boobs, which she had wrapped tightly over her bra. With that and the band, she just looked like a plump guy. Combined with a pair of Eddy's jeans and an old AC/DC
Dani spends the time that Eddy is gone with his father alone in the room, putting her clothes away. She brought clean sheets and her blanket that she wanted, because Eddy had told her that the ones they provide feel like hospital sheets. This was pretty much like a dorm room so she had brought a few things along to make it feel more home like. Such as a huge box of junk food. A mini fridge that Eddy had to bring up later. She had brought some things that she could find only in New York. She had brought two different kinds of toiletries. Shampoo and conditioner that was unscented and some men's body wash for through out the w
Dani spends the time that Eddy is gone with his father alone in the room, putting her clothes away. She brought clean sheets and her blanket that she wanted, because Eddy had told her that the ones they provide feel like hospital sheets. This was pretty much like a dorm room so she had brought a few things along to make it feel more home like. Such as a huge box of junk food. A mini fridge that Eddy had to bring up later. She had brought some things that she could find only in New York. She had brought two different kinds of toiletries. Shampoo and conditioner that was unscented and some men's body wash for through out the w
Dani has been at school for a week now and she has fallen into a routine of sorts. She does not socialize, which is pretty different from her old school experience where she knew every one there and they knew her. She had a billion friends. Now she goes about her day all alone. She eats her lunch alone in her room. After classes are over she is back in her room. That is where she spends all of her time, reading books or watching tv on her little portable tv. Mostly she just gets grainy images and garbled speech. Yet she still finds that better than being around a bunch of rich guys that at like idiots. Her first day in class these
November 25, 1999Three Years Later Asher looks around the room for his wife, but she is lost in the sea of people. Their family and friends have only been there about fifteen minutes and already he is regretting his and Dani's decision to host Thanksgiving in their new home. But Dani had been so excited when they finally got the renovations done, after three months of contractors and paint samples.
Dani waits at the closed door until someon gives her a signal. Her hands are shaking and she is tapping her foot. A hand grasp hers tightly. “Nervous?” “No, not at all. Impatient. I am ready to get in there.” Dani says and he nods. “It shouldn't be long now.” Just then the doors open with a florish and Dani gets ger first sight of it all. Her wedding. She sees all of the people filling the seats and
Asher sits across from Fred Millman in a slightly awkward silence, because he does not know how to start the conversation that he wants to have. He knows that Fred already knows everything going on. He and Dani are close, so she tells him everything that happens in her life. “Mr. Millman-” “Call me Fred. If you are going to be my son-in-law, you should probably call me Fred.” He says dryly and Asher winces. “Ahout that.. I wanted to say- I'm sorry that I did
Asher looks back at Dani, knowing that she is nervous. She has nervously chattered the whole way here, being worse than their sons. He smiles when she catches his hand and asks, “They founded the publishing company, right?” “Yes. They put the A & J in AJS Publishing. Adrien and Janice Steele. They started it nearly twenty years ago. I worked their off and on in my teens, but last year when I graduated college, they gave me the company. It was between that, a technology company, a medical supply company or a hotel.” “That is an odd assortment of companies.” Dani tells him.
“I checked on the boys and they are okay. They're both still sound asleep.” Dani feels the bed move as Asher joins her. When he had left the bed a few minutes ago, she had no idea what he was doing. A part of her thought that maybe he was trying to sneak out on her. He moves over until his bare body is flush against her naked back and he puts his arm over her waist, anchoring her to him. She can feel his warm breath on the back of her neck. When she does not respond to him, he kisses the back of her neck.
Asher tells his uncle all about his plans with 'Holly from the second floor' and Leo nods along, apparently approving this choice, while Dani's heart breaks inside of her chest. She waited too long. Asher has already moved on. Asher notices Dani slowl withdrawing from the conversation and he assumes that it is because she is tired. He knows that the twins are as well. When she moves over to sit with the boys, casually talking to Jace, Leo leans forward. “So, kids, huh?” He asks and Asher knows that means that he wants the full story.
Dani trails along behind Asher as he walks a few step ahead of her, holding a boy by each hand. Nik is dressed as a teddy bear and Nate is dressed as a lion. Nate has a drawn on brown nose and whiskers thanks to a brown eyeliner pencil. Nik wanted his face colored on too, so she drew him a brown nose as well. With their fuzzy suits on, they both look so cuddlely that she could not stop hugging them. “Are we almost there, Daddy?” Nate asks Asher looking up at him with tired eyes. “Are you worn out, buddy?” Asher asks him and the child nods.
Dani rewipes the table with the wet washcloth for the thirs time; not because it is sticky but because she is stalling. She just will not admit that to herself because then she would have to dig deep enough to admit to herself just why it is that she is avoiding Eddy. And she does not have to dig deep to admit why, because she knows the reason. Asher. That morning when she had woke up and seen a peacefully sleeping Asher beside her, it had just felt to right. It had felt like old times between them and she had been con
Asher did not want to go home. He wanted to stay with his boys. They had supper together, then he and Dani had given them a bath. He read them two stories with a lot of character voices which the boys loved. Even Dani was laughing. This is the fourth night this week and they were together three nights last week. But it is not enough. Because at the end of the night he still has to go home to his lonely apartment across town. Each night the boys still ask him why he is leaving. Why their Daddy isn't staying their with them, with mommy. They just tell them that it's because daddy's house is closer to his work, which is easier for him.