Okay, fine. I went overboard again and yes, I am guilty. I partly want to apologize but I won’t. Why would I? Nasaktan ako nang mawala siya noon. Sa tingin ko naman ay sapat ng dahilan ‘yon para magkaroon ako ng karapatan na sumbatan siya. Of course, manunumbat talaga ako! Ayos na sa akin kahit ‘yong hinanakit ko na lang ang maging lingid sa kaniyang kaalaman.It’s been almost 20 minutes since he left our table. Nakokonsensya nga ako kaya lumabas na lang rin ako para hanapin siya. Pa-bente otso na kami. Malapit nang madikit sa trenta pero heto siya, kung maka-asta ay akala mo dise sais. I mean, does he really have to walk out? Hindi naman siya ganito noon. Madalas pa nga ay nagagawa niyang baliktarin ang sitwasyon, e. Siguro, ayaw niya lang lumalim ang argumento dahil alam niyang matatamaan siya sa mga sasabihin ko. Pikon yarn? Psh, deserve. Paglabas ko ay halos manginig ako sa lamig na sumalubong sa akin. Open area kasi dito since nasa side kami ng hotel kung nasaan ang garden. May k
Hindi na ulit ako nagtangka pang magsimula ng panibagong argumento. Bakit kasi kailangan niya pang sabihin na ‘naaano’ siya kung puwede naman na huwag na lang siyang umimik? Can’t he just keep that to himself? The amount of confidence this man has… It really annoys the sh*t out of me. What he did was very embarrassing on his part yet I was the one who was ashamed and cannot take the secondhand embarrassment. Ni hindi man lang nga siya nailang matapos niyang ibulgar ang kahalayan niya. Napaka-balasubas talaga ng ugali!Hanggang sa makarating kami sa bahay niya ay wala na kaming naging kibuan. Iginaya lang niya ako sa sala at kusina niya, tinuro kung nasaan ang banyo kung sakali man na gagamit ako and then told me to help myself if I need or want something. Matapos niyang umakyat ng hagdan ay hindi na ito muling bumaba upang entertain-in man lang ako.Wow, I feel so accommodated that I could die. Pinamumukha niya ‘ata talaga sa akin na napilitan lang siyang isama ako dito sa bahay niya.
Napaawang ako nang marinig 'yon. I never anticipated that sudden question because I thought we were done with that conversation the moment we got inside his house.Why does he have to make things complicated between us? I mean, I do that too but I’m trying to at least hold myself back and somehow be patient with him. I don’t want to explain something that I shouldn’t but if I keep mum, it might make him misunderstand my silence. Imbes na paharap ay naging paatras ang nabitin kong paghakbang.Ramdam kong may kung anong nakabara sa aking lalamunan. Natatakot akong magsalita dahil alam kong anumang oras ay puwede akong pumiyok. Paniguradong pagsisisihan ko na naman ang mga salitang nagbabadya ng lumandas sa aking mga labi pero bahala na.Binalingan ko siya at padabog na nilapag muli ang coffee mug sa island table, dahilan para bahagyang matapon ang kapeng laman nito. "Why the h*ll are you asking me that? Si Migz ang interesado, siya dapat ang tinatanong mo niyan. Can you just drop this co
Body ache woke me up the next morning, us under his sheets, my head rested on his chest while his arm was perfectly wrapped around my waist. To be honest, last night was a near-death experience for me. I don’t know if it has something to do with being a virg*n at this age but I literally passed out and he’s still—Oh, nevermind.Sinadya niya bang ipunin lahat ng sama ng loob sa akin para gumanti sa ganitong paraan? Sa liksi ba naman niya kagabi, hindi malabong gano’n nga. I remember cursing him muffedly, medyo maliwanag na no’n sa labas at nang makitang lamog na talaga ako ay do’n lang niya ako tinigilan. Akala ko nga hindi na ‘ko magigising, e!Nang tingalain ko siya, there he is, sleeping so safe and sound. Ang amo ng mukha, jusko. Akala mo’y batang paslit na hindi pa namumulat sa kahit anong kasamaan o kalupitan ng mundo, malayong-malayo sa tigreng nakatalik ko kagabi.With my forefinger, I carefully trace his thick brows, his lengthy lashes, then down to his nose bridge, and to his
"G-Godd*mn it…" I whimpered as his hand perfectly wrapped around my neck from behind. His other hand was just beside my arm, keeping his weight trying not to crush me while he's riding me like a champ. I almost ripped the sheets when he went deeper. "Alessandro!""F*ck, why the h*ll are you getting sexier every d*mn time? Oh, sh*t… Hmm!"For some reason, hindi ako makaalis dito sa bahay niya. Nakakapagtrabaho pa naman ako kahit papaano, he let me go to work but not totally letting me go home. Kahit sa opisina, hatid-sundo niya ako. Kahapon, nakauwi ako saglit sa unit ko pero sumama siya at naghakot ng mga damit ko para dalhin dito. Now, literally every single time I'm gonna say goodbye and tell him I'm going home, we always end up on his bed. I never knew he could be this insatiable. It’s not like I don’t like it but it’s just…too much!After a series of org*sms, he lazily lay beside me and wrapped an arm around my waist, unbothered by our sweaty bodies. "You better calm the f*ck down
He’s driving me off to work, one hand on the steering wheel and the other intertwined with mine. I was busy playing with my lips, biting and rubbing them with a finger when I felt him squeeze my hand, and slightly graze his thumb through my skin. I absent-mindedly turned to him, before I could say something he already did.“What is it?”“Hmm? What ‘what is it’?” taka kong tugon, then eventually panicked. “Are we talking about something? I’m sorry, ano nga ulit ‘yon?”Sandali siyang sumulyap sa akin at agad rin ibinalik sa daan ang tingin. “Mukhang malalim nga ang iniisip mo. Do you mind sharing? I would like to hear about it, Ms. Velasquez.”“I’m…” I’m overthinking things. “I’m just stressed. A-Ang dami ko pa kasing pending projects. Well… I’m almost done designing your restaurant, so you don’t have to worry about it.”I don’t know, but these unnecessary thoughts just keep coming and distract me at random times of the day. I just can’t stop thinking about his dateless departure and ou
The more I fall for him, the more he gets weirder. I don’t know when it exactly started but he hugs me more often, he sniffs my hair like it’s a drug he’s addicted to, or he would suddenly just stare at me—there are a lot of weird things he’s been doing actually, and the worst of all is that he randomly smells my armpits.Aware naman akong may pagka-siraulo siya pero sa lahat ba naman ng puwede niyang amuyin, bakit ang kili-kili ko pa? Ang nakakainis pa ro’n ay hindi ko siya napipigilan dahil bigla-bigla na lang niya itong ginagawa. Nakakawala ng dignidad, jusko po. Even in public places, he would lift my arm and then lean to smell it!We’re going to attend Migz & Ana’s child gender reveal so here we are, both in front of his bathroom mirror, I’m applying lipstick while he fixes his hair. Subukan lang niyang gawin na naman ‘yon mamaya at talagang makikita niya ang hinahanap niya.“I swear to God, Alessandro Maven. If you do that again later, I’m going to kick your balls and I won’t be
Having a quite heavy workload kind of helps me to drift away from overthinking. Yes, it is exhausting but at least I’m not as restless as I am when I’m having sleepless nights, doing nothing but stress about things I shouldn't exaggerate in the first place.Actually, I've already decided to confront him but I just can't do it. Pinangungunahan ako ng takot ko at alam kong hindi dapat ako nagpapadaig sa mga naiisip ko ngunit ayoko rin naman na masyadong magpa-kampante. Either what we have is real or he’s just playing around, but it could be neither of these.Even after all the assurance Aven's been showing or telling me, ang dami pa rin talagang "what if's" na naglalaro sa aking isipan. Alam kong kung may isang tao man na gustong malaman kung anong bumabagabag sa akin, it’ll be Aven. But I have no plans on telling him about it, I don't want him to think or feel that I don't trust him. I trust him, I just can’t help having doubts. Maybe it’s too soon to decide for that, at baka kaya ko pa