Rosaleigh P.O.V After the mini get-together and many cries of concern all was well, as well as it could get. There was a little bit of awkwardness as everyone would give me random glances, I pegged it as concern.We tried to play around with our words for the small ones not to catch on, I don't know how I'd feel if Noelle knew.I may not have long but right now isn't the time for her to know.Like any other get-together everyone is sleeping here, I thought hard and long about whether I should sleep with Xander but opted for it.His scent that wafted around the room was a much loved smell, it made me more comfortable than I was initially.For the longest of hours, neither of us slept, I laid in his arms and listened to his heartbeat and story-telling of our past as per my request.The way he spoke was like he was recalling everything as though it was playing right before his eyes or as if he was reliving it.I teased him about but he just smiled and claimed that—quote on quote— every
"She's good...Me too...I know...Of course...I love you too...no doubt....okay, I'll let her know. Goodbye," The bed dips next to me, I look up at my husband with a smile. "Morning," he pecks my lips and moves me so that I'm laying on him."Morning beautiful," I smile and cuddle into him, his body warmth warming me more than I already am."That was you're father, he said to tell you that he loves you and would like to see you today," I nod and interlink our fingers.I brush my thumb over his tattoo, and raise an eyebrow. "I want a tattoo, a lot of them actually. I just never thought to go through with it," He sits up a bit and traces my clean skin, "Why? You're perfect," I hit him lightly with a small laugh."You have more than twenty tattoos and you aren't any less perfect, come on. Just a few, you can come with me, " I kiss his jawline for some convincing."Of course, there's no way I'm letting some stranger touch you in any forbidden place without me there. Even when I'm there," I
"I have popcorn and Skittles, now tell me what we're watching?" I plop down next to Ellie and place down our snacks."Aladdin!" She squeals, I laugh as she sits on a large blue cushion and stares expectantly at the screen.The movie begins to play and the both of us are so enthralled by the movie that we don't notice when Lucia comes back from school or when Jolene comes to make dinner.Only when the movie is near its ending and Xander arrives back from work that our attention is off the movie.I swear out minds were linked and we felt his presence as we both turned at the same time and waited for him to appear in our vision.The moment he did Noelle was the first to spring into his arms, yelling 'Daddy!' I couldn't help the giggles that left me. As he held on to her and asked questions about her day, seeming so interested in every word she uttered, I couldn't help but look at him with pure love.It's only been a few hours since I've seen him but he looks better, the swelling of his
*Ruelle- Get to love you*Levent Geiger- F*ck I wish*~*~*~* Rosaleigh P.O.V By the time I wake up, the sun is staring right at me, telling me that I woke up late. I laid on the bed for a whole ten minutes, just to acknowledge the fact that I'm awake.Parts of me are still slightly sore but it isn't as bad as yesterday, at least that's what I thought before I stood up to go the bathroom.I wobbled a bit then finally got my strength, by the time I'm done getting ready for the rest of the day, Xander walks through the door with a tray in his hands.Waffles and strawberries, bacon, hashbrowns and eggs with a side of what I assume is cranberry juice and a single Cornelia.I giggle with a small smile, this makes him smile allowing his dimple to pop out. "Too late. Good morning beautiful," he sets the tray on the bed and pulls me in for a hug.My heart warms and stomach fills with butterflies, I'm weirdly aware of how tight his arms hold me and the fact that my feet are no longer on the g
I look away for a moment to bat away the tears then back to him, his hand reaches up and thumb brushes away a stray tear."I hope these are happy tears," he murmurs, I nod. Lie.My throat clogs up and to avoid any more questions or talking, I smash my lips onto his. The unsaid words expressed in the kiss, filled with passion, love, desire, hurt, pain and sadness.I let my tears fall freely mixing with some of his, when we pull back we wipe away each other's tears."I love you," my voice is soft and cracks but still has the effect that it needs, he smiles."I love you," for what I wish was forever, he holds me tightly like he'll never let go. That's what hurts more.I know I've said this so many times but I won't sleep or die in peace knowing that I'll leave him in broken in pieces.My mind swirls with these thoughts the entire time, I try my best to enjoy this moment but I can't. And he can't to, I can tell.I wish this was forever but better, that I don't die. That I don't worry abo
"Before we go, unfortunately, " he takes something out from his tux pocket and dangles it out, my mouth falls open."No way!" This makes him laugh, but I cross my arms in protest."Only for an hour and a half. It's a surprise," he begs, we have a playful stare-down for a full minute before I take a hesitant step forward."I'm trusting you," With that his lips turn into a full grin, he takes the next step forward and pecks my lips."I love you," my heart swells."Beyond this universe," I return, turning around for him.Gently he ties a knot behind my head, a sense of panic rushes through me but when Xander takes my hand in his, I calm down and focus on his touch and smell."Are you okay?" I nod silently."Words sweetheart," I smile gently and this time answer with a 'yes'.He steps away then I hear him open the car door then his hand is back in mine, a few hesitant steps forward and a confirmation to step up and I'm in the passenger seat.He fastens the seatbelt for me, kisses my cheek
My fingers tighten around the rails as I lean over to watch the soft ripples of the water, it glitters in colors of the rainbow due to the now changing sky.A loud 'thwack' from behind me gains my attention, I turn in time to see Xander lay a large white blanket on the dock.My lips pull into a soft smile as I go down to help him smoothen it out, as I continue he disappears down into the cabin.When I'm finally done and settled he appears again this time with a large wicker basket, a silver bucket with two wine bottles in it and classical music adding to his elegance.I couldn't be more content than I am right now as I watch him unload everything, from the chocolate covered strawberries down to the sushi platter.In a comfortable silence, we eat. I love the simplicity of this, I don't feel like I have to initiate a conversation because the silence is too awkward for me.This is perfect.*~*~*~* "FLAMISH," I turn back at Xander in confusion, he has this giddy grin on his face, for a s
A moment of silence passes."Can we come?!" Noelle asks happily supporting her upper body on the table, I look at Grey expectantly, he throws me the same look so I look."Not really. We can only bring you on one of the trips, it really depends on where we're going and when it's going to be," I explain.Her mouth forms a cute little 'o', she sits down properly and begins to twiddle her fingers. I can sense some sort of guilt trip coming.She then sniffles and looks up at us with teary eyes, "Can you bring me back something, please?" "You know I always bring you something from every trip," Xander says genuinely, when Noelle then looks at me I know she's pulling some stunt."Not you, mommy?" I raise a scared eyebrows."Yes?" I watch her intently as she gets off her seat and walks around to me, I lean down to her level.What she tells me has my holding back my giggle, I don't know what I expected her to tell me but it definitely wasn't that.When I sit back up, I give her a wink that mak
*3 years later*Xander's P.O.VI look up from my laptop to see Lucia leaning against my doorframe.It's crazy how she's grown up to look nearly the exact replica of her sister."Hey."I close the device and give her my full attention. "Hi."She scratches her head and gives me a nervous smile, "I-" She stutters as someone behind her clears her throat."We were hoping we could ask you for something." I raise an eyebrow."Well, I'm moving out to college in a few weeks and it's nearly uhm Rosie's memorial day, and we were hoping we could get some things that belonged to Rosaleigh. For memories?"My heart stops for a moment before it continues its job."Haven't you already been doing that for the past three years?" I try to laugh it off even though it's pissed me off every time.Although, Rosie was her sister and she deserves something just as much as I'd love to have kept everything of hers to myself.She hasn't moved things around, I'm grateful for that."I have and I would have continue
"Xander, man. Open up!" It's Nic. I wonder why he's here."The children are with Julia. Open up brother. What is going on?" he asks, I haven't moved in hours.Qaia is asleep in my arms, her face reminds me so much of Rosie's."If you don't open up the door, I am going to break in." Nic announces, he can't but I don't want him hurting Qaia when the door cracks from the impact, so I stand up and unlock it.He walks in, "you look fucked up." He comments the moment his eyes land on me.I don't respond. I don't have the energy to. "What's wrong man? You've got the kids all worried. And where is Ros-" his sentence dies off when he looks at the bed."Fuck." Tears well up in my eyes again.He pulls my head towards his and connects our forehead, "I'm so sorry." Tears are strolling down both our faces. "I-I don't know what happened. Noelle told me she wasn't breathing and... I just shut down. She can't be gone, Nicholas." I sob harder."I know, man, I know. I'm so sorry." His voice is soft,
*Two hours later*"Congratulations, Mr. and Mrs. Grey, it's a healthy baby girl."No words can explain the feeling that is spreading throughout my body. My heart feels so... I just don't know how to describe it.Rosie and I connect eyes, I can see the pure bliss going on behind them like a storm of some sorts, tears stream down her face, and I lean over to wipe them off."You did it, mariposa." I kiss her forehead. Our baby girl's cries fill the entire room, I throw my shirt off and accept her small frame. "8 pounds and 10 ounces," he tells me.Her face is reddened as she cries out, I sit beside Rosie and hand her over. Rosie starts to hiccup as silent tears stream down her face. She runs her finger over our baby's face."Shh-shh baby, mommy and daddy are here." she whispers, looking up at me. She cries even more when she sees me. She reaches out with one hand and wipes away the tears I didn't know I was shedding."We did it," I smile.We hold her for a while longer until the docto
After the heart to heart, if I can call it that, Xander took the pills and fell asleep. I, on the other hand, could not.I sat for hours just staring at him, so many times his face morphed from peace to anguish and from anguish to peace. It hurt me.My heart was broken. It still is.When dawn started to settle in, I spent my time on his laptop till full sunrise. I read up on the email he'd been reading, and a part of me felt guilty for not wanting to take the chemo.The other part of me was still insistent on not taking it. It would be a miserable play for all parties, I know from experience.I felt horrible for being happy and recalling all my favorite memories to my dad when all he could do was lay in his bed, hooked on machines. I ended up getting emotional and stressed, so I shut the laptop and began the day. To get my mind off everything, I had a virtual tour of the institute, then had an interior designer meet me at the house to discuss.After that, I spent time with Noelle as
"I think it's a girl. Only she can allow you to eat something like that," I freeze, my wrap just about to dip into my McShake.Ice cream turned into more cravings.I give him a deadly look, which has him laughing out loud. "She'll be an exact replica of you. She'll have your smile, your hair, your eyes, and your laugh. She's going to break many hearts because she won't be allowed to date until we're the same age." He smiles, I giggle."So, never?" He kisses my forehead."She'll have your smarts too," I finish my shake and turn to him."Well I for one, know it's going to be a boy. He'll have my hair color with your teenage curls. Everything else about him will be yours, his facial features; his voice, his eyes. Maybe he'll be lean," I shrug.His eyes hold suspicion in them, "So Jeremiah Fisher is out of the picture?"Shocked, I playfully slap his arm. "Firstly, that was one time. Secondly, that wouldn't be a bad idea either. Either way I—"Everything I ate in the last hour comes up my
Despite my wishes to keep my birthday small and at home, Xander thought otherwise, and by otherwise, I mean:He bought a private island near the Maldives, we didn't stay at it because it was barren, but we did go to it and suggested that we name it and soon talk to designers, for a beach house.A virtual meeting with a Hermès designer for a custom Kelly bag, I don't know how he did it, but he did. To say I was lost would be an understatement, Xander just laughed at me when i didn't know what to answer when it came to the leather types.He took me shopping, obviously, skiing, and I tried surfing but failed profusely. Xander, on the other hand, looked like Gabriel Medina at his best.There's nothing this man can't do.We spent a day at the villa and gave each other massages and watched movies.I loved those three days, but when we came back to the United States, I realized that I love being home rather than being away, or maybe it just has something to do with being around the girls.I
The next couple of months pass by in a blur, a week after the Logan topic we spent a couple of days in New Zealand for Xander's birthday.In June we finally got to building the institute, it's still a working progress as we speak.In the same month, I don't know what strings Xander pulled but Shane Grey signed over the rights of the company over to Xander with no argument. We celebrated just the two of us together.Ever since that day, Logan and Sophia never got in contact, she finally decided to go see the psychiatrist I recommended her. She was broken when he'd cut contact but as time passed she started to seem more like herself as Xander said.We celebrated Lucia's birthday at Disneyland late June.July fourth we finally took Rosander on a joyride if you can call it that, I think we all enjoyed the night. Xander and Julio put their differences aside for that day and even chatted among themselves, including Nic, as they all sa
His body stiffens for a minute but he continues to walk around like it doesn't affect him, it does."Yes, I guess you've missed out on a lot haven't you? While you were slowly killing a defenseless woman, I was trying to pay for our father's chemo and trying to save our brother from rotting in prison for something he never did." I let the words settle in."Well didn't you do a great job at that?" He chuckles dryly, anger bubbles in me.I walk up to him and stare him down, he doesn't shy away. "What happened to you? The James I know would have never hit a woman or abandoned his family," He chuckles again, "You mean the family that is slowly dying one by one?""That is no excuse James! I thought I could rely on you, even if you disappeared occasionally you would always pull through, but I guess you were too busy weren't you?" "What I do with my life does not concern you," disgust flows through every vein in my body.I ca
The constant beep of the heart monitor is silent.The bed is empty.The entire room is silent.My mind doesn't bother to find any reasoning, and my heart beats achingly.He's gone.There's no going back, and I have to accept it.Of course I cried, he's my father. Whether or not he's alive, he will always be, and he left with a piece of my heart; all of our hearts.A week after we came back to L.A., he left us, and a week later, we buried him next to our mother's grave.I broke down, became sick, grieved, and then I pulled myself together for my sisters.That was over two months ago. My heart still aches for my father, but it's dulled. It was time. He got his last wish, I got married.Lucia has gotten better, I'm happy that it didn't take that much of a toll on her as compared to mom's death.We've moved into the new house, the kids love it. Xander and I love it.Being back though has separated us for a while, he's been stuck in piles of work and complications with his father.Despite