Chapter 127

After the heart to heart, if I can call it that, Xander took the pills and fell asleep. I, on the other hand, could not.

I sat for hours just staring at him, so many times his face morphed from peace to anguish and from anguish to peace. It hurt me.

My heart was broken. It still is.

When dawn started to settle in, I spent my time on his laptop till full sunrise. I read up on the email he'd been reading, and a part of me felt guilty for not wanting to take the chemo.

The other part of me was still insistent on not taking it. It would be a miserable play for all parties, I know from experience.

I felt horrible for being happy and recalling all my favorite memories to my dad when all he could do was lay in his bed, hooked on machines.

I ended up getting emotional and stressed, so I shut the laptop and began the day. To get my mind off everything, I had a virtual tour of the institute, then had an interior designer meet me at the house to discuss.

After that, I spent time with Noelle as