Chapter 65

Silence enveloped the entire car.

I turned my head to look out the window so that Manager Sol could not see my non-stop flowing tears streaming down my face as I suppressed my voice from making any sound. I know that he already knows that I am crying now, but I still don't want him to see my tears.

Even though we've been in the car for almost thirty minutes, the weight I am feeling in my chest still hasn't lessened and continues to linger. It is still as heavy as the moment Jaxson let those words slip out of his mouth and say it right in front of my face with no hesitation.

I don't regret that I fell in love with him. I really don’t, and I don’t want to.

I have no regrets for those moments when I am completely into him and ready to give the whole me, realizing how much I love him.

But what I regret is that I believe Jaxson that he sees me as Cattleya. That he loves me the way I am even though it never came from his mouth. I thought he is different from his step-mother, but he sees me as an ordinary peasant who is trying real hard to step on their luxurious life.

"I don't have any idea why you are crying right now, Kitty. You seem to be very happy just earlier with your husband and now you are suddenly escaping from him, with your tears streaming down your face and losing where to go. I don't know what happened, but I hope I can help you ease your pain tonight."

When Manager Sol pulled off the car, I wiped my tears away quickly and began peeking at the window to see where we were. The moment I opened my eyes, a house filled with lights greeted me. It is beautifully surrounded by trees with sparkling Christmas lights giving it a glow that can only be seen in a fairy tale. The luminous lights seem like beautiful flies from afar.

I couldn’t wait so I immediately opened the door to take a closer look, but the moment I slid it, a happy voice singing a song engulfed me. Those are such beautiful voices that almost sound angelic.

My eyes quickly wandered to find where the voices were coming from and realized that the source of the happy voices singing along together were from the inside of the house where we are standing.

This house is very well covered with light and screams joy and gratitude even from afar. The lights coming from the house are enough to light up the whole street seemingly like a moon of the village. And even though it is already late at night, the people still sound so energetic and alive and just by hearing their singing I can tell that they are smiling. Their voices surrounding the place sounds like heaven by how well they harmonize together.

“Come, we can go inside.” Manager Sol told me as he gently placed his hand at my back giving me support as we approached the magical house I just saw.

“Are you really sure it’s okay to come in?” I asked, but it seems like Manager Sol did not pay attention to me when he knocked at the opened door three times.

“Good evening, ladies and gentlemen!” He greeted in a loud cheerful voice, halting the people from singing their song.

“Richard!”

“Oh, the man has come!”

“I am glad he’s here again!”

I am so perplexed by what I am seeing now and it seems like I am currently dreaming. The people that I heard from afar singing and having fun together are all middle aged men and women. I am guessing that some of them are already in their forties and fifties. They are sitting on a long sofa, facing each other and creating a circle in the middle, while others are seated on different chairs while holding their instruments.

This can’t be real…

“Richard, my boy, you came.” An old woman approached us and greeted Manager Sol by giving him a sweet kiss on his cheek and shaking his head by holding him on his jaws.

I couldn’t help but to chuckle at how adorable it looks that Manager Sol becomes like a baby after coming here by how the lady treated him.

“—Oh, and who is this fine beautiful young woman that you brought us, huh? Is this finally your girlfriend that we have been waiting for?!” She exclaimed in the most excited voice I have ever heard in my life.

I waved my hand below my face, when the lady suddenly came to me and grabbed my face seemingly examining it. “No, madam.” I said politely, hoping for her to stop twisting my head.

“Grandma, grandma. Chill down.” Manager Sol quickly uttered he tried to pull his grandma away from me. “That’s Cattleya. She was my former employee but recently she resigned so right now, Cattleya is my friend. She said that she’s having a not so good evening and that she feels really gloomy, so I thought of no places to bring her but here. I think maybe, the happiest people I know can help a friend of mine tonight?”

I can imagine myself creating a crease on my forehead as I listen to Manager Sol’s explanation as to why he brought me here. I don’t remember any second that I told him anything like that. But I guess, he thought of the greatest idea to bring me here. Because even I can feel that this is the right place to spend the night. Listening to their music and watching them having fun, living the life that they will remember.

“Is that so?” Manager Sol’s grandmother muttered as she walked towards me again, but this time, she was gentle rather than excited.

I felt the warmth of her hand as she caressed my arm. “Whatever it is that is burdening your heart right now that you don’t want to tell it to anyone, and you feel like your heart will burst in the worst emotion that you just want to be alone and scream… Just do it, honey. There is totally nothing wrong with being sad. Sadness makes the happy moments special, and without it, people will never know that feeling of being happy.”

I was soothed by her warm and soft voice like she is talking to me deep in my heart.

Our attention was grabbed when the people behind started singing their happy song.

I am guessing that there are about 20 of them in this room gathering in the living room.

Every time they sing together I just want to feel the moment and close my eyes, letting the coldness and warmth of their voices calm my body and my mind.