Chapter 67

I punched my chest lightly as Richard poured water on my glass, panicky giving it to me. I continued coughing as I struggled to find his eyes.

"Seriously, don't you have any brakes on your words?"

"But you don't have to worry." Richard added. "I know my boundaries, Cattleya. You are married to someone now that I know you truly love and I know that my chance is over. The only mistake I will regret in my life is not confessing to you as quickly as I could. But, like what I said, you don’t have to worry about my feelings for you. I am going to handle that myself. I will be here as a friend only.”

"I'm sorry..." I whispered to him as the corners of my eyes drooped. "Honestly, I don't know how to react in any situation like this. And I'm sorry that I can't like you the same way that you do to me. You deserve so much more in this world and I can’t give it to you. But please know that I think you are an amazing person, and I know for sure that you will someday find someone for you.”

I was baffled when Richard chuckled while staring directly at me.

How can he laugh at these kinds of situations?

"You don't have to feel sorry or else I’ll pity myself for letting the most precious girl slip on my hand. Right now, I am just admiring you from afar now and there's nothing wrong with that for as long as I know where to stand. I promise you that I won't cross the line, Cattleya. Just please let me be your friend, at least? I still want to make you happy in the way that I can.” He beamed a smile.

How can someone be like him? He's like an angel sent from heaven who can't be angry with anyone and all he does is help people and make them happy. Richard is such an incredible person with a big heart that it is making one feel guilty and sad for not giving him back the love that he deserves.

"We are friends now. Thank you for admiring me even though I am myself, I don't see what is there to admire in me. I am just an ordinary girl…”

It was as if a knife stabbed through my heart when I said those words and remember

hearing them from Jaxson himself. The man that I love…

"That is no way to be true. You are the most unique person I have ever met. Cattleya, you are special.”

"Thank you, Richard… I hope it is unique in a good way, though. Thank you for saying that..."

Hearing it from someone helps to ease my feelings right now, but I know it's not enough. I know that there is still a huge hold in my heart right now that I can feel bleeding in pain. It's not enough to make me feel better.

My shoulders slumped again thinking of how Jaxson looked directly in my eyes and say that he loves me, and yet he called me an ordinary girl while he is a popular heir. How can he look down on me that much and how can he let me feel so small.

If I am going to be asked, Jaxson is more special than him being an heir. I think that he has certain qualities that differentiate him from other men, he is adorable, and he knows how to make someone feel loved.

Even after he hurt me tonight, I can't stop myself from thinking about him. My mind is full of Jaxson day and night and I will tonight, I can get him out of my mind.

I let out an audible sigh as I looked down at my food and quietly continued eating.

"I wish I could be someone who can make you happy, KitCat. But I know that I am not the one you need. So, what I am hoping now is for you to at least have a rest tonight." Richard whispered to me.

I quickly got a straight body when all of a sudden grandma and her other friends came here and sang.

They surrounded me and sang a song for me. I think they are trying to comfort me by how they sing their songs. It is about resting by means of smiling.

I moved my body to follow their rhythm and gave them a wide smile.

Things will be better tomorrow more than you think it will be ~

The broken pieces will be back together, quicker as you wish it to be ~

So just hang on tonight, oh baby just hang on tonight, and don't let your smile slip by the air just passing on the night sky ~

"Thank you everyone," I said loudly when their song ended. They are giving me a comfort pat while some just smile at me. "Even if you don't know me, you still tried to make me happy. I can't thank you enough for singing songs that can lighten up the bruises I have... Thank you..."

I saw Richard's heartily smile from the corner of my eyes as he looked straight in my direction.