Chapter 68

I stared blankly at the ceiling as I pulled the blanket up to my chest. I have been hearing my phone ringing for almost thirty minutes repeatedly, but I don't feel like answering it.

I don't want to talk to him, I'm still hurt by the words he said to me.

I almost rolled over in bed but still couldn't fall asleep. Every time I close my eyes, the only thing I remember are those words that keep echoing in my brain.

"I am Jaxson Madrigal, everybody knows me as the heir of Ruegold and you are just an ordinary girl."

He is such a jerk for saying that.

I felt the heat in my eyes again and the heat rising in my cheeks as I remembered those words more.

"I am Jaxson Madrigal, everybody knows me as the heir of Ruegold and you are just an ordinary girl."

I thought he loved me...

My phone rang again and this time I decided to pick up my phone that I threw on the bed earlier to check the phone screen.

[Jaxson, Calling….]

I didn't answer his call and instead just stared at his name on the screen.

"Jaxson..." I mumbled. “Jaxson Madrigal…”

How different would our situation be if he wasn't Jaxson Madrigal and he was just an ordinary person like me?

I didn't remove the face on the phone even after the call had died. Jaxson's face was revealed to me lying on the bed and not looking at the camera. This was the night I took a picture of him in his bed in the bedroom of the mansion.

I miss him...

This is how love is. Even though you are already hurting because of that person, you still want to see them. You still miss the days that you two are spending together.

[Jaxson, Calling…]

When his name flashed on the screen again, I let out a heavy, deep breath.

[“OH THANK GOD! FUCK, CATTLEYA! I AM GOING CRAZY RIGHT HERE! WHERE ARE YOU RIGHT NOW!?”]

I listened to his enraged voice on the other line but I am not planning to say anything.

The moment I heard Jaxson's voice, my tears just streamed down my face. I miss him, I know I miss his voice.

[“HELLO? ARE YOU THERE? CATTLEYA!?”]

He continued to shout on the other line as I tried to stop my sobbing from escaping my mouth.

[“A-Are you listening to me..?”]

The tone of his voice dropped and this time, he doesn't sound enraged, he sounds worried.

[“Cattleya… Please… Talk to me...”]

I closed my eyes as I listened to his gentle and raspy voice. I have no intention of speaking and talking to him. But if he wants to say something, I am ready to listen.

[“I can feel you’re listening... Catt... I realize how much my words have affected you and I'm sorry for being so insensitive that I didn't consider what you will feel. But, I also want to tell you that what I mean by saying I'm famous and you're an ordinary girl is just because I want to be protective of you. Catt... please... answer me.”]

I shook my head as my tears continued to fall. I used my hand to cover my mouth and remained silent.

[“I'm just afraid that when people start getting information from your background that I want to protect, they'll use it against you. And what's worse is that people will see it as one of your weaknesses.”]

I didn't know hearing someone's voice hurt like this. I felt like my heart was being squeezed by ten different people because of the tightness and pain.

[“I was being protective of you... but I guess I went overboard and now, instead of keeping you by my side, you're gone. Catt, can you tell me where you are..? I'm here in your apartment and you're not here. Baby, please... Tell me where you are and I'll pick you up."]

I hung up after hearing what he had to say and then I shut down my phone to stop receiving calls from anyone at least for now.

I took one of the pillows and buried my face in it. Maybe it would be better for me to take a nap tonight. And force myself to rest.

Jaxson told me he was just protecting me and didn't mean what he said. But I don't seem to be convinced of his reasons for telling me those brutal words.

I get it, paparazzi will be all over me once they find out where I really come from and dig deeper into my past. I think he has a point. If some of his followers look up my information they will find out about my mother and Charles. I guess he is right. However, I am still not happy with the words he used to me.

I'll go back tomorrow in the afternoon and spend some time here because I feel that the surroundings here in their place are beautiful especially every morning even though the place is really beautiful even at night.

I'm going to try to sleep tonight, but first I need to help myself to sleep because it seems like a lot is really bothering me and I'm having a hard time finding peace and rest.

I wiped my tear wet cheeks and then slowly got up from the bed. I went to the other side of the window and then slowly opened the curtain covering it.

I was amazed at the view that opened up to me when I opened the curtain and only the sliding window served as my house. This window is glass so I can see the outside even though I haven't opened it yet. I gently sat on the sofa bed next to the window. I assume that they put this purposely so that if you want to relax and just look at the window, you have an area that is comfortable while staring outside the window.

View here is the widest land where almost every tree has its Christmas lights that are sparkling looking up here from above. It's like stargazing but you don't look up.

I slide the door open to feel the cool breeze brushing my skin. I let the cool breeze dry the remaining tears on my cheeks.

"Thinking deeply again?"

I opened my eyes when I heard Richard's voice. I immediately looked for where he was but I was surprised that I couldn't see him anywhere I looked.

"Down here, princess."