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2024-10-29 19:42:56Hello to all of my amazing readers! First off I want to thank each and every one o you who have supported all of my stories and have stuck around for so long. You have no idea how much your support has meant to me through my time as an author truly. I am greatful to each and every person who has spent money through this app to read my work and left comments (even negative ones). To know that there are people who were actually interested in what I had written still blows my mind.
As you know I haven't updated this story in a while. First I was stuck in a week or week and a half long bought of depression. I've struggled with that and anxiety ever since I was in high school, I just didn't know what it was at the time. I have been on medication which helps however I just get into this little rough patches where I just don't want to do anything. Not clean my house, cook any food, not write, nothing. It sucks a lot to be honest.
Then I was so happ
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Jocelyns POV I could breath a little easier now that I knew Quinton wasn't going to reject me. I woke up the next morning bright and early. Paul, Lorenzo, and I were going to be doing a lot of traveling today. I grabbed my bag and made my way to the foyer. I felt warm arms wrap around me from behind. "Paul and Lorenzo will keep you safe" Quinton said in a sleepy voice. "I know" I said with a small smile. I felt him kiss my temple before I turned around to embrace him.I'm going to miss you I linked to my mate.I'm going to miss you too He replied. I took a deep breath in to take in his scent one last time before I had to leave. "Call me when you officially wake up" I instructed him. His husky chuckle vibrated in his chest "Yes ma'am" He answered. I looked up to meet his gaze and bit my lip. I gently brought his lips to mine and gave him a sweet kiss. Even though it was a small o
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Quintons POVI lifted my head from my desk with a groan. I had told Jocelyn to stay in another room last night but her scent was still everywhere. I couldn't take it so went back to my office for the night. The expensive bottle of scotch had been my best friend last night. I didn't know what to do right now. I was hurt, I wanted to throw the three of them in cells last night. The fact that they had tried to seek revenge on us after what had happened...or well what we had believed had happened.That was the only things keeping me from locking them up. The fact that we had all been manipulated. I know Jocelyn was just a pawn, she couldn't go against her Alpha's command. It still hurt though, that my mate would have aided in causing me harm. Ajax was just as confused as I was on what to do. A knock on my office door caused me to groan, my head was pounding. "Come in" I said going to my mini-fridge to get a bottle of water.
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Jocelyns POVI gulped as I tried to push myself further against the counter. The edge digging into my back painfully as I just stared into my mates glare. "It's not what you think" I said and he scoffed. "Then explain it" He shot back and I closed my eyes. "Look I'll explain it after dinner I swear. I just need your help" I said. I was desperate at this point. He must have felt my desperation because he sighed angrily and backed away."What do you need?" Quinton asked crossing his arms. He looked so cute pouting but I didn't dare laugh. "I need to touch Gunner, not anywhere inappropriate" I said quickly when I noticed the look on his face. "It just need to be in a way that he can't get away from me easily" I said. Quinton nodded his head slowly as if coming up with a plan."Okay" Quinton said and his eyes glazed over. Seconds later Randy and Paul were in the kitchen with us. "Okay boys get out the game
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