*This is a three part series published as one book. This is part one: Lola's story.*
~Lola’s Point of View~
Everyone has that dream where you’re weightless, floating and free. Only sometimes I wake because I’m getting pulled under, or I fall under the water and can’t get air. Right now I felt that, free and floating but the air, I had all the fresh air I could handle. It was crisp and clean, I wanted more of it. It was as if my lungs were discovering it for the first time.
I felt a cool light breeze caressing my body, it was nice and relaxing. After rain, the smell of grass and trees. I tried to move my hand to wave into the wind but it was stuck. I pulled harder but I quickly realized I couldn’t even feel my hand that well. Like the circulation was cut off. Had I lost my hand? No, don’t be ridiculous Lola. You’re just asleep!
I shook my head and popped my eyes open, what a weird fucking dream. Who dreams that they are floating and that they lost their hand?
I looked out ahead of me, nothing but darkness. I willed my body forward but couldn’t move. It was only then that reality hit and I realized I could barely feel anything. I looked down and took in rope, practically cutting off the blood supply to my whole … naked body.
‘What the fuck,” I whispered, realizing finally that I was tied up.
Not only was I tied, my feet weren’t touching the ground. Probably a good five feet from it if I had to guess in just the moonlight. I wiggled my toes, just barely feeling them enough to do so. Just air underneath.
How long have I been here? How did I get here? Was this still the dream?
The sting in my neck flooded back the memories of a short cut I’d taken in the woods to get to a party. There were wolves. The wolves are real, this isn’t anything weird. But they were. Something very off about them. Like I knew anything about wildlife!
I’d gone down hard, and hit my head on a fallen tree then … nothing.
But where … did they … go and how am I here? I couldn’t understand it.
I had to scream, but what good would that do? Hell it was about all I had at the moment. I couldn’t really make out any other trees close by though, was this some sort of open field? Nobody would hear me out here. But someone would come looking for me, certainly.
My friends! My friends will realize I’m missing, right? No you idiot, and you didn’t even tell them you were going in the woods or what time you were getting to the party. Your parents are gone until tomorrow and you’re currently completely fucked!!
I pulled and tugged with all I had but the ropes were too tight. I was up against some type of beam or tree. A pole maybe. Who undressed me? This just makes no sense! Oh shit, shit shit!
All this because I wanted to go to that damn party!! Now I’m gonna die out here! Some wolves are gonna pull me limb from limb. My last memories are going to be of me getting dismembered!
I let go of a hard breath as the tears fell down my cheeks. How did I let this happen? How could I be so stupid?
Literally everything I thought was so important now seemed so incredibly fucking stupid. I was SO stupid!
There are always tales of abductions, but I didn’t personally know any people who were missing.
“Hello,” I called, but my voice just seemed to carry into the night air.
I have no idea how much time went by, I watched the moon and the clouds, at least the rain had stopped. After a while the sun began to rise and with a little bit of light I finally made out another pole maybe a half a football field’s length away. There was a girl tied to that one too, and she seemed unconscious, or dead.
“Hey,” I shouted.
“Hey,” a voice said, and I jerked my head in the opposite direction.
Another pole, another girl. What the actual fuck??
“Do you know what the hell is going on, are you from the city, from Auburn,” I asked.
“No, otherside, Springfield,” she yelled.
What? Was it all a trap? But what the hell did the wolves have to do with it??
“My name is Lola Perkins, I was taken … uhm … I think. In the woods on my way to my friend’s house,” I shouted.
“My name is Fiona Bloomington, I was taken in the woods on my way to the movies,” she said.
“How many of us are out here? Do you know what the hell is happening,” I cried.
“I just came to … I … don’t know anything,” she cried.
I jerked my head back to the other female, I could see her better now that the sun was steadily rising. Her dark hair was covering her face so I couldn’t get a good look.
After a few more minutes I heard shouting, men. Lots of men. But I couldn’t see them. They had to be close though. Finally the other girl began to stir and I tried talking to her as well. But all she wanted to do was panic and scream. I wasn’t totally sure I blamed her, but it wasn’t doing her any good.
Now was the time to keep all your wits about you.
To do what though??
I threw my head back and sighed. I almost couldn’t feel anything anymore, all the circulation to my body was cut off. Oddly enough, I did feel hungry. Typical at a time like this.
The voices grew louder, more angry. My pulse quickened, what was about to happen? My eyes frantically darted everywhere as my heart raced in my ears. Suddenly, the voices were gone. I looked over at Fiona, she was absolutely just as panicked.
“Where did they go,” she shouted.
I shook my head. Just as I did, growls filled the air, then the pounding of heavy feet. I gasped as all the air left my lungs, completely unable to comprehend what I was seeing. This can’t be real.
It … cannot … be … real.
A swarm of wolves broke from the trees and fog, snarling and pissed off. They suddenly began fighting each other, with pieces of their bodies being bitten off and thrown.
They were still very far away but I could make out the sprays of blood, the sheer hatred of each other they felt. It seemed like a few gave up, I noticed some running off.
“Oh fuck! Oh fuck! Are they … fighting over us? Are we their prize,” Fiona shouted.
Blinking, I tried to understand her words, as the realization of them hit me. She was right!! If they got to us, they were claiming us. For what though?? Some freaky sex stuff?? Oh shit!! Ohh shit!!
I frantically tugged at my ropes, with absolute panic and desperation washing over me. What the hell good would it do? I’d only cut myself and likely the blood would entice them all the more. I couldn’t move a centimeter, trying to was totally pointless.
I watched with complete horror at the reality staring me down. I jerked my head toward the other girl when she finally stopped screaming and it seemed she’d passed out. Hell, that was probably for the best. For her anyhow.
As desperate as I was to get the hell out of here I needed to stay conscious. Blacking out would be fully giving up power, not that I stood a chance against wolves. Or men? Were they the same things?
“Werewolves,” I said, in a whisper.
No, they don’t exist!! They can’t! My mind raced to some of the books I’d read, movies I’d seen. All the things that go bump in the night your parents warn you about. But come on, werewolves??
It’s the only thing that makes sense.
I gaped with horror as they got closer, but their numbers got smaller. My eyes were drawn to a particularly large black wolf, who seemed to be decimating literally every single animal in his path. He was like a damn machine.
Please don’t let him get me!
Oh, did it matter? They were clearly all insane. All wild beasts!
My mind took things ever further, if they did make me their sex slave would I birth a werewolf? No! Surely not. Right? I shook my head, I couldn’t believe this was happening. It just couldn’t be real!!
I didn’t know what it was, but I simply couldn’t take my eyes off that black wolf. His stature far stood out above the rest, his color the darkest. He attacked without hesitation and killed every one that he lunged at. For some reason though, he didn’t terrify me the way the others did. What am I even saying?
Was it possible there were … nice werewolves?
I laughed, now fully delusional. I jerked my head to look at Fiona and she was now passed out too. Great!
I started to count and there were less than a dozen wolves left, I gasped in utter shock as some of the furry bodies in the grass began to turn … into naked men!!
“Ohh fuck it is real. That’s them! They are … they’re … it’s … oh shit,” I yelled, obviously to no one.
Werewolves. They’re real. They’re real and they’re about to capture me!! What if … what if I tell them I have an STD?
You don’t want me you big furry freak, I’ll give you the clap! I shook my head. I was really losing it.
My lungs burned with how heavy I was gasping. My chest was too constricted. I felt my strength and energy dwindling. No, no no!
STAY AWAKE!! STAY AWAKE!!
Before I knew it there were less than six wolves left, and they weren’t fighting now. They were pacing each other, sizing each other up.
The brown one I was staring at looked at me, actually locked eyes with me and cocked his head to the side. Was he warning me? Picking me out?
My eyes looked for the big wolf and saw him fighting another. The brown one bolted, running straight at me.
“No! No no no you fucker,” I screamed.
I writhed more against my ropes, I was certain my arms were a bloody mess. I couldn’t make myself stop trying. My mind told me to stop but my body was in absolute fight or flight mode. But really, I couldn’t do either. I was a complete sitting duck.
My eyes stayed locked on the brown wolf as he got closer and closer. I closed them for the briefest of moments, begging God to intervene. To please fucking help me!! But it was obvious there was no help for me. My eyes burst open to now see a naked man running toward me, complete madness in his eyes and on his face. He was filthy, dirty and bloody.
“I told you you were mine,” he yelled, as he began to climb up the pole..
He had huge gashes on his body. How was he not bleeding out?? I immediately felt his slippery body and the blood against my skin through the ropes as he moved up my legs.
“Get the fuck off me you freak,” I shrieked, and tried to move my legs as if I were kicking him.
In my mind I was kicking him at any rate! His hand then covered my face, smearing blood on my cheek. I looked away but he grabbed my chin and jerked it toward him.
“I’m about to fuck you in every … single … way possible,” he grinned, with his nasty teeth.
He held up a hand, which suddenly grew claws and I nearly threw up at the sight. This isn’t real. I’m dreaming. I’m hallucinating. I cannot BE REAL!!
He used the claw to begin sawing at my ropes and I whimpered seeing that he was successful with that one. My eyes tried to look past him, but he was too big and kept moving.
“Just look at me, little pup, remember my face. It’s the only one you’re ever gonna see again,” he growled, lunging forward and sucking on the top of my breast that was popping out from the rope.
I lost it and threw up, my puke falling on him and in his hair. Loud growls were near, but I closed my eyes. I then felt the man moving, like he was struggling to hold onto me. My upchuck didn’t even phase him. My eyes burst open as he began to scream.
“Mine!!! She’s fucking mine,” he yelled, getting in my face.
He opened his mouth and showed me big, sharp and pointy teeth, caked in blood. I nearly threw up again as his hot breath was inches from my face. But I froze completely.
“MINE,” he yelled, and seemed to lunge for my neck. His nasty breath hit me again, and I held my mouth shut, trying not to smell it. It was clear something was below us, and he was fighting it. His teeth just missed my cheek when he fell forward, and I finally exhaled.
When he lunged for my neck a second time I mustered every possible ounce of strength I had, and since I was running on pure adrenaline I hoped it was enough. I pulled my head back and then smashed my forehead against his, hard as hell.
One of his hands fell away from me as he dangled, clearly in shock. My head instantly throbbed as the pain hit me, I was going to have a massive concussion. I blinked away the blurred vision as a heap of black fur appeared out of nowhere seemingly in midair, and then some massive teeth were in my face again.
Did he just really jump this high?? Can they do that?! Was I fully delusional now?
I couldn’t close my eyes. I watched with sheer terror and total shock as the wolf’s teeth sank into the man’s neck inches from my eyes. Blood sprayed my whole face, it was warm and thick. I instantly started spitting it out.
I flicked my head quickly and opened one eye when his weight left me, and then I watched as both of their bodies fell to the ground. I gaped in disbelief as the big black wolf tore the man limb from limb, and when he was satisfied he jerked his head up at me. Our eyes locked until I couldn’t fight the heaviness anymore. I finally gave in.
~Lola’s Point of View~ “Who lives in a pineapple under the sea … Spongebob square … pants,” I mumbled, as I struggled to open my eyes.“Sponge what,” a gruff voice said.My eyes rolled around a bit, but I couldn’t focus. Who doesn’t know Spongebob? He’s the best.I felt something at my lips, a straw. I sucked it and hummed, as cool water filled my mouth. I couldn’t get enough, it was like I’d never had a drink a day in my life. When I was satisfied I laid back, the pillow was perfectly soft and fluffy. Definitely a ten out of ten. I gaped at the weird ceiling, was this … a log cabin? Not a hospital?“How do you feel,” the voice said. It was a husky, deep voice. Kind of scary for a doctor, where am I?I focused and took in a guy, maybe five or so years older than me? Man, doctors are looking younger and younger. Hot, clearly buff, obviously busts it in the gym. Short trimmed black hair, not even enough for me to ruffle. Dark skin, maybe hispanic? Maybe just a good tan.“You look more
~Lola’s Point of View~In the couple of days that passed, I was only left with more questions and few answers. Belle mentioned again this morning that it truly was pointless to think about any escape, and dumb to even try, extremely dangerous. And well … yeah the thought of Drake’s scary ass wolf chasing me down really wasn’t appealing. Or some freak getting me instead.But I’d bide my time. There was no way in hell I was just going to roll over and accept this. I didn’t give up when I put my mind to something. I’d play nice, I’d play along. But I would go home. Maybe not in a week or a month but it would happen.I had to get the hell out of this cabin.. I was going to drive myself insane with the questions I needed answered. Time to make some friends.I grunted as I swung my feet over the side and tossed off the heavy blanket. They said I couldn’t leave their “pack,” whatever that means. They didn’t say I couldn’t leave this house. I wiggled my feet and gave myself a little pep talk
~Drake’s Point of View~ I had to get away from her, from the intense aroma of her. Surely Gage was just excited to be so near a new female, that’s what it had to be. *Must have her,* he growled in my head. *But she’s not our mate,* I said, scolding him. I mean, I was pretty sure. She didn’t have her wolf, but I would know. I was certain of it. When Belle and I cleaned Lola up my Beta had to come in and pull Gage away. He wanted to mate her, mark her in the worst way. He was damn near there too, but Belle ratted me out. She was right to do it, but that doesn’t mean shit to my wolf. There’s no way in hell our pack would tolerate a female being marked without her consent. And an Alpha of all people should be held to the highest standard. *We need a mate! We’ll have to settle,* he said, believing we’d never get our fated mate. I put up a good, hard exterior but I was a hopeless romantic. Yeah, it was hard as fuck to be patient, nearly impossible-- A deep growl cut across the stil
~Lola’s Point of View~ When someone backs me into a corner, I don’t cower. I don’t shake and whine like a little baby. I rise to the occasion and this place … this whole situation, will be no different. These guys around here eye me like a piece of meat, maybe I should act like one. I really didn’t know what it was about Drake that turned me on so much. He pushed every single one of my buttons and yet I hardly ever got more than a few words with him before he walked away. He was infuriating. It had now been a week that I’d been trying to get used to pack life. I’d met more women and even kids although they called them “pups” which was just bizarre. During the day most women were busy with their duties but it wasn’t like the men weren’t too. Everyone had a purpose, a role and certain things were expected of them. I was shocked to learn some cabins didn’t have electricity, but solar panels were expensive and I supposed they couldn’t all have them. Only the cabins in about a mile rad
~Drake’s Point of View~ *Yes! Say yes,* Gage shouted, practically pushing himself through my skin. He wanted nothing more than to shift and claim this female who was professing her desire for us. She was beautiful, she seemed pretty intelligent, just immature. I did something I’ve literally never done before: I completely fucking blanked. I didn’t move, I didn’t speak. I froze. A sharp elbow hit me in the gut and I shook myself out of it. “Go get her Alpha,” someone said, encouraging me. Suddenly catcalls and whistles broke out all over, and Lola raised her head to look at me. I finally figured out how to move my feet and stalked toward her. She had some balls, I’d give her that. But this is just not how this is done. There was also little chance she’d met all the males we had to offer, likely only half. Her fated mate could very well still be out there. Stay calm Drake, stay calm. Literally everyone is watching you, Jett is watching you. When I first agreed to be Alpha alon
~Lola’s Point of View~ I laid in bed, tossing and turning. Part of me felt like I’d humiliated myself, the other part felt that Drake humiliated me. Granted I was putting on a hell of a show, full on Oscar winning performance if I do say. But he rejected me. Yeah I guess I have no clue what it is to find your fated mate, clearly I haven’t. It’s likely I won’t, just seems like some fairy tale. Some mumbo jumbo. There was a couple I’d met though, Ty and Bethany. They were fated mates and they couldn’t look more opposite. She was actually taller than him but together, they just fit and were totally adorable. Everything about their actions showed how in love they were. They had twin girls and another one on the way. A part of me tried to understand Drake’s logic, but the cold black part of my heart that was just desperate to go home didn’t really care. I had to be in my mom’s arms again, I had to feel my dad’s warmth and hear his laugh. My friends … did they miss me the same as I mis
~Drake’s Point of View~ “Lost are you,” I said, crossing my arms over my chest. She was easily half a mile from her cabin and it didn’t appear anyone escorted her here. Although everyone thinks we’re together so males might be afraid to go near her. Either way, she shouldn’t be out here alone. “Uhm…” she said, her eyes dropping straight to my dick. I grinned, and Gage practically did a backflip. We were extremely proud of our body, just rarely had the chance to show it off to a female. And certainly not one that hours ago was begging for my bite. I hadn’t planned on her seeing me like this right now but too late. I was completely erect, as were most who’d been on the hunt. It had been a long day but we were all full of adrenaline. We’d gotten some major kills and we’d gotten more than enough meat to last us weeks. Not having to focus on that would give us the time we needed to prepare for winter. “We got this Alpha, go home,” someone shouted, witnessing this exchange. I took Lol
~Lola’s Point of View~ I sighed, feeling lighter and more content than I could remember. I rolled over and felt the chilly bed. I made a face and stared at the ceiling when I realized I was alone. Mulling over Drake's words in my head, I only got irritated. He was essentially saying I could still find my fated mate and I'd forget all about him. Yeah right! I mean, yeah all of this was supposed to be to help me get out of here, but I'm just not sure it's that easy now. Last night was the best night of my life, definitely the most mind-blowing orgasm I've ever had. Of course I've only had ones I've given myself. But was I seriously ready to just give up my plan and stay here to make babies? I really didn't know anymore, Drake was fucking amazing. I wasn't sure I could imagine leaving him now. The way he looked at me, the way his hands felt on my body… there was no way in hell I was ever going to get that feeling from someone else. Not some puny human boy. He was as real a man as they
~Sawyer’s Point of View~ “That’s it, that’s it Jess, come on baby girl,” I said, cooing at my daughter. She looked at me with her bright green eyes and smiled. She put one chubby little foot in front of the other as she took her first steps … like she’s been waiting forever. Like she visualized it and had a plan. I held my arms out to her as she finally collapsed into me. “Ohh!!! Ohh god, I got it! I got it on video,” Lola screamed. My sexy mate was pregnant again, but she didn’t know it yet. I just picked up the scent yesterday. It was likely her wolf would figure it out today or tomorrow so I’d wait and let that happen. I was surprised it took this long to happen again but it was good we had some time between pups. It was damn hard for Lola to wrap her head around the fact that shifters have varying times for pregnancy. For wolf shifters it is usually 20-25 weeks. We had Jess at 21 and she was absolutely perfect. “Did I miss it,” I heard, and looked up to see Lola’s father. She
~Three Months Later~ ~Drake’s Point of View~ *That’s it baby! You got him,* Gage shouted at Helena through mind-link. Gage sat back on his hind legs and proudly stared at the beauty in the snow, who was devouring a large gopher who had given her quite a chase. Corinne was two and a half months pregnant and already growing quite tired from shifting, so this may likely be the last time she does it until after our twins are born. We’d had to start from scratch when her wolf came. It was as if Helena was a brand new wolf coming into her own, and we had to teach her everything. I couldn’t be happier to see her hunting skills were this good already. *That’s my girl,* Remy cooed, over mind-link, open to us both. I rolled my eyes. It was bad enough that Sawyer and I damn near came to blows over Lola, but now we were destined to fight over another female’s attention for all our days. Gage and I were desperate to be the ones to show Helena everything. To grow her abilities and be there for
~Corinne’s Point of View~ Despite Drake marking me, the full moon proved to be too much for his wolf. I caved and just told everyone to leave us be, leave us alone. But Sawyer refused. He saw right through me, and made them take Drake away. I had no clue what they did with him, but I wasn’t sure tonight would be any better. The pull of a full moon can last a couple of days at minimum. I didn’t sleep a wink, my body was crippled with spasms and pain that seemed not to stop. Why couldn’t I just sleep with him? Why hadn’t I just done it? *No,* I heard, making me pop out of bed. “Helena,” I said, barely in a whisper. *It needs to be special, not rushed,* she said. I fell back against the bed, my arms and legs splayed out in all directions. *Goddess I’ve missed you terribly. I’m so damn sorry. I’m so so sorry,* I said, tears streaming down my face. *I’m still so weak. But I think the next full moon, I’ll have it together. Go to mate now, the closeness to his wolf will help me,* sh
~Drake’s Point of View~ *Skin … creamy soft…* Gage purred. He demanded I touch her sandy blonde hair, it was damp and we wanted to run our fingers through it. I couldn’t possibly help myself despite knowing I had to tread carefully. Even touching Corinne before she was ready could be disastrous. I had no idea when the last time was that a male touched her, maybe the last time she had a pup but I just didn’t know. I’d already spent a lot of time speaking with the doctors about PTSD. It was hardly something I dared to ask her about, the female seemed to resent me and try to run away every chance she got. Gage liked at first, cat and mouse. But after a few days it just became depressing. I didn’t have the heart to just come out and tell her we were mates. Not to mention Sawyer told me to let it run its course. See if her wolf comes out just by being around me. Being around other strong wolves. If her wolf came, she would do wonders for calming Corinne, giving her reassurance. Judgin
~Corinne’s Point of View~ “Mama, I love your cuddles,” I heard, making me stir. I squeezed the warmth in my arms, it was my son Jakob. Oh, and Helena apparently. I really didn’t know what it was to sleep alone but it wasn’t as though I was able to give the kids all their own beds. I couldn’t even believe that I had slept, basically only because my body was THAT tired. That exhausted. I still couldn’t even believe it. Venom was no more. There would be no more cave, no more hole in the earth we called home for so long. But above all … no more males coming in the night and invading our bodies. In a weird way, I’d miss our little bunker. The only home my babies had known. We were now in a large cabin with tons of rooms. Tons of light and colors. Real furniture. A deep breath already told me someone was cooking and my stomach practically lurched me out of bed. I couldn’t believe how nice everyone was, maybe being the Alpha’s sister will have perks. Maybe they’re just actually n
~Drake’s Point of View~ *Fuck this is a long run, we need a drink,* Gage whined. We were exhausted but this was hardly the time to stop. He wasn’t wrong though. *There should be a few cabins coming up, we’ll stop there,* I promised him. I was getting mind-links from all over. Digger had attacked Belle and Lola, now he was on the loose. There were easily a hundred guardians already there on site but our lands were so damn big finding him wouldn’t be as easy as you’d think. They all believed he was heading toward the beach though, and everyone said Jett took Alice there. I knew he would take her to the ship, there’d be no chance in hell anyone could find them hidden away in the cove. It was a perfect hiding spot and likely how the ship ended up there in the first place. Then went to hide their treasure then couldn’t get back out. Everyone had theories. The first cabin we stopped at had a family in it, thankfully they had a bunch of chicken and rice left from dinner which Gage ate
~Lola’s Point of View~ Should have never agreed to go with Belle, all these damn kids in such a small space! But seeing Alice and Jett make eyes at each other constantly made me just feel awkward. I needed a distraction and I wasn’t getting it watching those two practically fucking with their eyes. It took some serious effort but Duncan was actually a massive help getting all the babies to bed. We’d had to make beds out of dresser drawers for the tiny ones, there was so little space. Belle and I were going to be sharing a cot as it was. I didn’t think Sawyer would want me snuggling up to a male. We’d gotten a mind-link earlier that our guardians had defeated Venom and everyone was on their way back. But it could be dawn before they’d be back. I’d gotten some weird feelings and sensations through my mate bond for the last couple of hours and I didn’t know what to make of it all. Sawyer was sad, but yet happy and relieved. I hated waiting to find out why but he was okay and that’s al
~Alice’s Point of View~ “Ohh right there yeah, Ohh Jett, you’re so deep, right in the middle ohh you know my spot,” I moaned. “It’s only the beginning, good thing you have four strong hands to take care of you,” Jett said, licking his lips. Damn, why does he have to be so impossibly good looking? Even just sitting there it’s nearly impossible not to shove him down and-- *There’s noise outside,* Maura shouted. Jett’s wolf must have sensed it at the same moment because he dropped my foot and leapt to the window. There were two guardians on patrol outside the house and I immediately realized that wasn’t enough. An awful kind of dread fell over me, and Maura was begging to shift. We had planned to stay holed up in Dane’s old cabin while everyone was gone, but I was too curious to see the infamous beach house and didn’t think it should sit empty. So we passed the cabin on to Belle and her pups, with Duncan going along. It would be tight for all but it was far enough in the south. T
~Corinne’s Point of View~ “Sa… Sawyer?” The word left my mouth, my heart raced but my mind… My mind tried to convince me I was hallucinating. Vivian took my hand, knowing his name. As many times as I’d told stories of how we grew up. How I’d had to lose everything to the same male who now held me captive. The babies were all scared and restless, having been woken twice in the night now. But this gruff voice in the dark, it was like a beacon of light and hope … more than I’d ever felt. The Goddess was shining her light on me, in my darkest hour. I handed my pup to Viv and took a step forward. She put her free hand on the small of my back as I began to shake uncontrollably. The last time I’d seen my brother’s face he was a contorted mess of anger, rage and half wolf. It was torture to have that as the last memory of my best friend. “Corrie! I’m here, I’m here. I’m real honey,” I heard. His voice was nothing like I remembered, it was so rough and he sounded so pained. Honey … that