NeerahI came to the conclusion that I need to know more About mates. All I can think of is what Jay told me once. That mates are destined for each other. Once I regain my wits, I increase my pace to meet Alpha Cuan's side so I don't listen to Miley another time. I don't think she likes me.Alpha Cuan led me upstairs and Miley did not follow us. I think she is waiting for him to dump me so she could have him all to herself. Is she a friend? Who is she to Alpha Cuan then? I wonder.“This will be your room Neerah. Do you like it? I could change it if you would prefer one downstairs” Alpha Cuan states with an expectant look.“It's beautiful. Thanks” I reply dourly. “Can I have your number?” He asks.I look at him directly for the first time since he smiled at Miley and I cannot help but cringe inwardly at my bizarre behavior. Clearly, I need time to process everything…“I don't have a phone” I tell him. I never had one. But he did not need to know that.“oh..” he trails off with a smal
NEERAH“Are you alright?” A gentle female voice snaps me out of my deep thoughts. I look over at her, just for a moment before I cast my eyes downward. I couldn't speak. Not a tiny sound. Not at all.“The Alpha got held up by work. He will be here shortly. Why don't you sit down before he appears?” the woman states in a really soothing tone. But I couldn't just sit down with them. Not when my hands are shaking from the force of my emotions. “I am sorry” I whispered. And then I walk out because damn if I would subject myself to their judgment. Not When I already feel like crap.I felt like I was a beacon at the precipice of doom.I make my way upstairs again, close the door to my bedroom and just put my back on the closed door, wondering why I feel so deeply for this one guy I just met hours ago. To the point that I am a jealous wreck!I am not usually this intense. I have never liked any guy in this life before. Men were supposed to be scum. I shouldn't want things only a foolish
Alpha Cuan“You have been wanting to run away since dad died” I accuse my mother with a frown. I have to wonder if she is leaving because I brought Neerah.“I will only take a couple of months. I will come back. It is not like I would be gone forever!” She points out.It was after the dining room incident. I had just gone to dinner when I realized that mom had gone to see Neerah. I was anxious because I dont want Neerah to feel like we are forcing her to start interacting with people so soon. I would rather it happened on her own terms. Mom was adamant that Miley must have put the card because she wanted Neerah to see Rayah's picture in the dining room.“You Should just take the picture down son. Rayah is dead. And you have other pictures of Rayah. That one is just too big. Neerah would constantly feel attacked” she had reasoned.But I was mad at Miley for giving her the card and I have already asked her to leave early. Miley, me and Rayah went to school around the same time. Raya
I look towards another picture of Rayah on the wall and sigh. She has always had this obsession with pictures. She would constantly hang her pictures where I can see them constantly and she claims it is because she wants me to never forget my promise to her.“I’ll never leave you even if you are not my mate” that was the promise we made to each other. Times like these, when I remember Rayah, I usually feel this bitter sweet taste in my mouth. My heart hurt badly. But today, the feeling is intensified by Intrusive thoughts of Neerah.When a knock came in the door, I asked Neerah to come in. I know it must be her.And I am right. The mere sight of her makes me feel so many emotions. That dress just makes her look nothing but spicy…“wow! you have a lot of books, Alpha!” She smiles,looking around at the wall length shelves of books that are used as a decorative addition to the large office. I have more than five thousand books in this office. My father is a book collector. And I happen
NeerahOkay shit! Every darn dress is super expensive. I was thinking of all the ways I'll work to pay off this purchase later and one frigging dress costs two thousand dollars? Is it a friggin’ wedding dress!I guess I saw the slight change in mood from the Alpha but I am too occupied with my dilemma to really say anything. Besides, I don't need to take an interest in him anymore. We were nothing more than fateful strangers.I need to go to a cheaper store. I am going to try and wear one dress and I will tell the Alpha that I don't like their dresses. We will look for a dress more in my lane. But as I was thinking about all of these, I overheard the staff gossiping about me. “Who do you think she is? Another charity case?” “Definitely a Raya wannabe! The Alpha is sometimes too nice to the needy!” “She is shamelessly going to let him pay for her dress. Fucking whore!” “You would think that girls like her would stop by now” “I know right? Five years and he hasn't looked twice a
NeerahThe way he held me, so close and personal, makes the entire situation deeply etched into my mind. I wanted so badly to kiss him back but…The near kiss, perhaps, was the catalyst for my fear because I was suddenly feeling so scared from too many emotions. Need..embarrassment…confusion…I thought we were going to draw a line! I don't care why he was trying to act like we were an item but I don't need to care. His contract ensured that!I bolt away like he just electrocuted me!He holds me in place though, pulling me closer by holding me by my waistline. His hands went around me completely caging me in. His eyes are hard, as if warning me to just go along with it. I am so confused. What the heck am I going along with?!“Cuan!” a rich feminine voice floats into our ears.Another woman who called him by name! Weren’t werewolves so strict on hierarchy? “June!” Alpha Cuan states, looking away from me to face the female Alpha. He pulls me by his side and snakes a hand around my wais
Alpha CuanA scream tore through the air and I knew instinctively that this had to be Neerah.It is nearing morning now and I haven't slept a wink. In fact, I had to digest the information on Rayah after confronting Chase.I rushed out of my office to run upstairs towards her room.Her door is open so the moment I turned the handle, it opened up freely to expose Neerah thrashing wildly on her bed screaming at the top of her lungs hitting the matress with her fisted hands.‘Stop choking me! Stop! Stop! Mom!!!’ She has her hands to her neck trying to break invisible chains.‘No…mom…mom…please…!’She wouldn't say anything else but that is what she wouldn't stop repeating. The three words interchange to describe her inner demons.I tried waking her up but she wouldn't. I held her hands but then she subconsciously thought of it as an attack and started to fight back desperately against me until I held her entire body captive so she wouldn't hurt herself.It didn't take long for her to go l
NeerahI can't believe I am letting him kiss me. I was like ‘Is this some kind of game to him?’ But he is looking at me with so much softness. I can see his total fascination which strangely doesn't seem like just fanciful attraction. It called to me.I felt like I was all he needed at the time. That the situation wasn't wrong. That the time isn't bad. That we are just two individuals burning for each other. I am helpless against the force of my reaction to him. I wanted the connection to last a long long time. He has this aura about him that makes me feel weak in the knees. The serious set of his eyes when they cloud over with feeling. It speaks to my inner heart. I just want to give him everything he wanted then. But I know that I couldn't. “If it is your beauty that calls to me, Neerah, I would include sex in our marriage contract” he whispered, his lips hovering above mine so that I could feel the warmth of his breath as he spoke. I can also see the vibrance of his eyes up clo