ALPHA CUAN
“you seem to have made yourself comfortable in my home Alpha” Alpha Knight sounds reprimanding.
I have left Neerah to pack her things so I want to settle with her father before we leave.
“Just sign the contract. We don't need to be so chatty” I deadpan.
The Alpha seems even more offended. But he seems to have thought it over already and he loves the money above all else now. He wasn't about to waste time calling me out for things he could do without.
“Are you sure you want to marry Neerah? She is only human. And Alpha Beret will happily take her. You don't have to feel like you have to marry her because she is your mate” he enticed.
“I think it will be better if you shut up” Chase cuts in fearlessly.
“Let him dig his grave, Chase. I'll happily bury him!” I menace, the anger suddenly bursting open inside of me, splattering everywhere so that my nerves hurt from the rush of adrenaline.
The bastard is hinting at using Neerah again. He would give her up to Alpha Beret just to get back in his good graces. Once the debt is paid, and the Alpha could have Neerah as well without needing to marry her, it would be perfect for Alpha Knight.
She would have done everything he originally wanted.
A powerful link with the strong Alpha Beret, as well as paying off his debt.
The Alpha frowns with dissatisfaction, his fierce eyes finding Chase with ill intention.
Alpha Knight, despite his bluster, signed the contract. He doesn't look happy at all. And I am sure it is the thought of the wolf cry legend that has put him on his best behavior since I threw him off Neerah the first time I came in.
“You are dead to Neerah. Be warned” I spat angrily before turning around to walk away from him. Oh…it was hard. But since Neerah will be fine, I feel less provocative towards the sorry excuse of a father.
Chase stayed behind with the Alpha to transfer the funds. So I went back to Neerah. The entire house is luxurious and well kept. Which makes me wonder for the first time what they ever did with the money they borrowed. They didn't need half the extravagance in the pack house.
I found Neerah dressed up and ready to leave with her one suitcase. The irony.
She is wearing a button down denim dress shirt that reached her calf. There is a slim belt that cinched her waist in. She looks quite a vision honestly despite how faded it looks.
“Neerah, I want to speak to you about something” I state in a low, definite tone.
She looks alert. It is like she felt like I have changed my mind about taking her or something.
“The werewolf community is very traditional. We can't just leave without any commitment. You are not just anyone. You are an Alpha's daughter. So why dont we get married legally?” I asked.
She looks to be in shock at first. Then she clears her throat nervously and asks “married? Why?!” She sounds so anxious.
“It will just be a formality. It will only be a legal means to get you out of your father's clutches. I will not inform my pack members about it. It will just be our little secret and you can just live with us as one of us. My pack wouldn't ask questions” I explain gently, hoping she reads the sincerity in my eyes.
“what happens if I want something different? Like a divorce or being official?” She asks tentatively.
“I’ll let you decide that later” I assured her.
“We shouldn't take too long to sign my freedom Alpha Cuan. I want to do it now. I will trust you” she replies with such clarity that I am the one left speechless. Why is she so agreeable? Is it because she has nothing to lose? When she agreed to follow me back to my pack, she sounded so full of hope. But now I am not so sure.
Did she agree because she knows it wouldn't matter in the long run? Is she planning to end her life again? I am so confused.
“Or she just wants to hold onto the only escape she could find Cuan” my wolf, Zen spoke to me for the first time since I met Neerah.
He was always a doer. He doesn't talk much. I have learnt to converse with him only once in a while.
And these past few hours, I couldn't feel him as I used to. It felt like he was me in every way and there is no line of distinction. It's so intrinsic that I don't know how to explain it to myself either.
“Zen, she tried to kill herself just a few hours ago. Would she really want to marry anyone?” I argue.
“She doesn't have a choice does she? Maybe she knows that an opportunity like this wouldn't come by again. Maybe she feels the pull of our bond. It isn't that odd’ he returns simply.
“But she does have a choice. I could take her away regardless of the contract right?”
“That would make things messy. She would know that much” he points out.
Zen’s words put me at ease.
So, I had to retrieve the contract from Chase and I gave it to her for her signature.
Neerah quickly put it down without even reading the document.
“You shouldn't sign anything without checking the specifics” I advise, still worried she is being too nonchalant about it all.
She doesn't come off to me as someone careless. It makes me wonder if I am painting her in a light through my heart.
“welI, am I going to be your slave or something?” She makes it sound teasing and that's even more odd.
“No” I returned with a little frown.
“There. I am Mrs Cuan now right?” She smiles with a satisfied bent that makes me stare at her for so long just wondering if she was always this carefree.
Is it an act?
“I'll hold the suitcase” I offer.
Her eyes widened as if surprised I offered at all. She quickly recovers though. She smiles nervously.
“you don't have to. I am the one who should assist you with stuff” she murmurs almost quietly. But I heard her every word.
I grabbed the suitcase and realized that my hands brushed hers fleetingly. She acted like there was an electrical leak that seeped into her hands.
It's a little funny too because she scrunched up her face, pouting her lips in a dissatisfied way. But overall, you can just tell she is protesting with herself.
“thanks” she whispered dramatically, leaning towards me a little as if sharing a little secret.
I don't know if she is acting weird on purpose to make me feel like she was doing okay. But I will never let my guard around her until I am certain she was no longer suicidal.
I leaned towards her too. Just enough for me to whisper back playfully “welcome” and I walk away to head downstairs.
So weird, but the anger was gone when I interacted with Neerah. I felt it come back when I walked downstairs with her suitcase in hand.
We passed all the mundane faces of her stepmother, her father and her father's beta.
I had to slow down to stand next to her because I could suddenly smell her fear. She must have been hit with her situation again when she saw all their dark and brooding faces.
We entered my car without incident.
Hopefully, we will be gone forever from the clutches of bullies termed as 'family'.
I'll never let her see them again. Unless that is what she wants of course.
NeerahWe drove away from my father's house and I felt so sad all of a sudden. Sad that this was a place I yearned to call home. Sad that I was never given an opportunity to belong. I look at my hands where I cut open just a few hours ago. And for the first time, I can think clearly about the entire thing. Why do I not have the wound? It is as if I imagined it!I start to feel anxious again because I am so sure this is another werewolf trick. My hands shook with fear, unable to accept that it was gone. Just like that.I also kept noticing how his eyes flickered from grey to red and it was the most disconcerting thing ever!I am just so raw. I feel exposed. I feel almost…like I am drowning in a sea of changing tides. I thought I would have to marry Alpha Beret. He was nice in his own way. But much like all the werewolves I know who are in a position of power, he was so arrogant and full of himself. He expected things I couldn't give. Almost like he just automatically expected me
NeerahI came to the conclusion that I need to know more About mates. All I can think of is what Jay told me once. That mates are destined for each other. Once I regain my wits, I increase my pace to meet Alpha Cuan's side so I don't listen to Miley another time. I don't think she likes me.Alpha Cuan led me upstairs and Miley did not follow us. I think she is waiting for him to dump me so she could have him all to herself. Is she a friend? Who is she to Alpha Cuan then? I wonder.“This will be your room Neerah. Do you like it? I could change it if you would prefer one downstairs” Alpha Cuan states with an expectant look.“It's beautiful. Thanks” I reply dourly. “Can I have your number?” He asks.I look at him directly for the first time since he smiled at Miley and I cannot help but cringe inwardly at my bizarre behavior. Clearly, I need time to process everything…“I don't have a phone” I tell him. I never had one. But he did not need to know that.“oh..” he trails off with a smal
NEERAH“Are you alright?” A gentle female voice snaps me out of my deep thoughts. I look over at her, just for a moment before I cast my eyes downward. I couldn't speak. Not a tiny sound. Not at all.“The Alpha got held up by work. He will be here shortly. Why don't you sit down before he appears?” the woman states in a really soothing tone. But I couldn't just sit down with them. Not when my hands are shaking from the force of my emotions. “I am sorry” I whispered. And then I walk out because damn if I would subject myself to their judgment. Not When I already feel like crap.I felt like I was a beacon at the precipice of doom.I make my way upstairs again, close the door to my bedroom and just put my back on the closed door, wondering why I feel so deeply for this one guy I just met hours ago. To the point that I am a jealous wreck!I am not usually this intense. I have never liked any guy in this life before. Men were supposed to be scum. I shouldn't want things only a foolish
Alpha Cuan“You have been wanting to run away since dad died” I accuse my mother with a frown. I have to wonder if she is leaving because I brought Neerah.“I will only take a couple of months. I will come back. It is not like I would be gone forever!” She points out.It was after the dining room incident. I had just gone to dinner when I realized that mom had gone to see Neerah. I was anxious because I dont want Neerah to feel like we are forcing her to start interacting with people so soon. I would rather it happened on her own terms. Mom was adamant that Miley must have put the card because she wanted Neerah to see Rayah's picture in the dining room.“You Should just take the picture down son. Rayah is dead. And you have other pictures of Rayah. That one is just too big. Neerah would constantly feel attacked” she had reasoned.But I was mad at Miley for giving her the card and I have already asked her to leave early. Miley, me and Rayah went to school around the same time. Raya
I look towards another picture of Rayah on the wall and sigh. She has always had this obsession with pictures. She would constantly hang her pictures where I can see them constantly and she claims it is because she wants me to never forget my promise to her.“I’ll never leave you even if you are not my mate” that was the promise we made to each other. Times like these, when I remember Rayah, I usually feel this bitter sweet taste in my mouth. My heart hurt badly. But today, the feeling is intensified by Intrusive thoughts of Neerah.When a knock came in the door, I asked Neerah to come in. I know it must be her.And I am right. The mere sight of her makes me feel so many emotions. That dress just makes her look nothing but spicy…“wow! you have a lot of books, Alpha!” She smiles,looking around at the wall length shelves of books that are used as a decorative addition to the large office. I have more than five thousand books in this office. My father is a book collector. And I happen
NeerahOkay shit! Every darn dress is super expensive. I was thinking of all the ways I'll work to pay off this purchase later and one frigging dress costs two thousand dollars? Is it a friggin’ wedding dress!I guess I saw the slight change in mood from the Alpha but I am too occupied with my dilemma to really say anything. Besides, I don't need to take an interest in him anymore. We were nothing more than fateful strangers.I need to go to a cheaper store. I am going to try and wear one dress and I will tell the Alpha that I don't like their dresses. We will look for a dress more in my lane. But as I was thinking about all of these, I overheard the staff gossiping about me. “Who do you think she is? Another charity case?” “Definitely a Raya wannabe! The Alpha is sometimes too nice to the needy!” “She is shamelessly going to let him pay for her dress. Fucking whore!” “You would think that girls like her would stop by now” “I know right? Five years and he hasn't looked twice a
NeerahThe way he held me, so close and personal, makes the entire situation deeply etched into my mind. I wanted so badly to kiss him back but…The near kiss, perhaps, was the catalyst for my fear because I was suddenly feeling so scared from too many emotions. Need..embarrassment…confusion…I thought we were going to draw a line! I don't care why he was trying to act like we were an item but I don't need to care. His contract ensured that!I bolt away like he just electrocuted me!He holds me in place though, pulling me closer by holding me by my waistline. His hands went around me completely caging me in. His eyes are hard, as if warning me to just go along with it. I am so confused. What the heck am I going along with?!“Cuan!” a rich feminine voice floats into our ears.Another woman who called him by name! Weren’t werewolves so strict on hierarchy? “June!” Alpha Cuan states, looking away from me to face the female Alpha. He pulls me by his side and snakes a hand around my wais
Alpha CuanA scream tore through the air and I knew instinctively that this had to be Neerah.It is nearing morning now and I haven't slept a wink. In fact, I had to digest the information on Rayah after confronting Chase.I rushed out of my office to run upstairs towards her room.Her door is open so the moment I turned the handle, it opened up freely to expose Neerah thrashing wildly on her bed screaming at the top of her lungs hitting the matress with her fisted hands.‘Stop choking me! Stop! Stop! Mom!!!’ She has her hands to her neck trying to break invisible chains.‘No…mom…mom…please…!’She wouldn't say anything else but that is what she wouldn't stop repeating. The three words interchange to describe her inner demons.I tried waking her up but she wouldn't. I held her hands but then she subconsciously thought of it as an attack and started to fight back desperately against me until I held her entire body captive so she wouldn't hurt herself.It didn't take long for her to go l