ALPHA CUAN
“you seem to have made yourself comfortable in my home Alpha” Alpha Knight sounds reprimanding.
I have left Neerah to pack her things so I want to settle with her father before we leave.
“Just sign the contract. We don't need to be so chatty” I deadpan.
The Alpha seems even more offended. But he seems to have thought it over already and he loves the money above all else now. He wasn't about to waste time calling me out for things he could do without.
“Are you sure you want to marry Neerah? She is only human. And Alpha Beret will happily take her. You don't have to feel like you have to marry her because she is your mate” he enticed.
“I think it will be better if you shut up” Chase cuts in fearlessly.
“Let him dig his grave, Chase. I'll happily bury him!” I menace, the anger suddenly bursting open inside of me, splattering everywhere so that my nerves hurt from the rush of adrenaline.
The bastard is hinting at using Neerah again. He would give her up to Alpha Beret just to get back in his good graces. Once the debt is paid, and the Alpha could have Neerah as well without needing to marry her, it would be perfect for Alpha Knight.
She would have done everything he originally wanted.
A powerful link with the strong Alpha Beret, as well as paying off his debt.
The Alpha frowns with dissatisfaction, his fierce eyes finding Chase with ill intention.
Alpha Knight, despite his bluster, signed the contract. He doesn't look happy at all. And I am sure it is the thought of the wolf cry legend that has put him on his best behavior since I threw him off Neerah the first time I came in.
“You are dead to Neerah. Be warned” I spat angrily before turning around to walk away from him. Oh…it was hard. But since Neerah will be fine, I feel less provocative towards the sorry excuse of a father.
Chase stayed behind with the Alpha to transfer the funds. So I went back to Neerah. The entire house is luxurious and well kept. Which makes me wonder for the first time what they ever did with the money they borrowed. They didn't need half the extravagance in the pack house.
I found Neerah dressed up and ready to leave with her one suitcase. The irony.
She is wearing a button down denim dress shirt that reached her calf. There is a slim belt that cinched her waist in. She looks quite a vision honestly despite how faded it looks.
“Neerah, I want to speak to you about something” I state in a low, definite tone.
She looks alert. It is like she felt like I have changed my mind about taking her or something.
“The werewolf community is very traditional. We can't just leave without any commitment. You are not just anyone. You are an Alpha's daughter. So why dont we get married legally?” I asked.
She looks to be in shock at first. Then she clears her throat nervously and asks “married? Why?!” She sounds so anxious.
“It will just be a formality. It will only be a legal means to get you out of your father's clutches. I will not inform my pack members about it. It will just be our little secret and you can just live with us as one of us. My pack wouldn't ask questions” I explain gently, hoping she reads the sincerity in my eyes.
“what happens if I want something different? Like a divorce or being official?” She asks tentatively.
“I’ll let you decide that later” I assured her.
“We shouldn't take too long to sign my freedom Alpha Cuan. I want to do it now. I will trust you” she replies with such clarity that I am the one left speechless. Why is she so agreeable? Is it because she has nothing to lose? When she agreed to follow me back to my pack, she sounded so full of hope. But now I am not so sure.
Did she agree because she knows it wouldn't matter in the long run? Is she planning to end her life again? I am so confused.
“Or she just wants to hold onto the only escape she could find Cuan” my wolf, Zen spoke to me for the first time since I met Neerah.
He was always a doer. He doesn't talk much. I have learnt to converse with him only once in a while.
And these past few hours, I couldn't feel him as I used to. It felt like he was me in every way and there is no line of distinction. It's so intrinsic that I don't know how to explain it to myself either.
“Zen, she tried to kill herself just a few hours ago. Would she really want to marry anyone?” I argue.
“She doesn't have a choice does she? Maybe she knows that an opportunity like this wouldn't come by again. Maybe she feels the pull of our bond. It isn't that odd’ he returns simply.
“But she does have a choice. I could take her away regardless of the contract right?”
“That would make things messy. She would know that much” he points out.
Zen’s words put me at ease.
So, I had to retrieve the contract from Chase and I gave it to her for her signature.
Neerah quickly put it down without even reading the document.
“You shouldn't sign anything without checking the specifics” I advise, still worried she is being too nonchalant about it all.
She doesn't come off to me as someone careless. It makes me wonder if I am painting her in a light through my heart.
“welI, am I going to be your slave or something?” She makes it sound teasing and that's even more odd.
“No” I returned with a little frown.
“There. I am Mrs Cuan now right?” She smiles with a satisfied bent that makes me stare at her for so long just wondering if she was always this carefree.
Is it an act?
“I'll hold the suitcase” I offer.
Her eyes widened as if surprised I offered at all. She quickly recovers though. She smiles nervously.
“you don't have to. I am the one who should assist you with stuff” she murmurs almost quietly. But I heard her every word.
I grabbed the suitcase and realized that my hands brushed hers fleetingly. She acted like there was an electrical leak that seeped into her hands.
It's a little funny too because she scrunched up her face, pouting her lips in a dissatisfied way. But overall, you can just tell she is protesting with herself.
“thanks” she whispered dramatically, leaning towards me a little as if sharing a little secret.
I don't know if she is acting weird on purpose to make me feel like she was doing okay. But I will never let my guard around her until I am certain she was no longer suicidal.
I leaned towards her too. Just enough for me to whisper back playfully “welcome” and I walk away to head downstairs.
So weird, but the anger was gone when I interacted with Neerah. I felt it come back when I walked downstairs with her suitcase in hand.
We passed all the mundane faces of her stepmother, her father and her father's beta.
I had to slow down to stand next to her because I could suddenly smell her fear. She must have been hit with her situation again when she saw all their dark and brooding faces.
We entered my car without incident.
Hopefully, we will be gone forever from the clutches of bullies termed as 'family'.
I'll never let her see them again. Unless that is what she wants of course.
NeerahWe drove away from my father's house and I felt so sad all of a sudden. Sad that this was a place I yearned to call home. Sad that I was never given an opportunity to belong. I look at my hands where I cut open just a few hours ago. And for the first time, I can think clearly about the entire thing. Why do I not have the wound? It is as if I imagined it!I start to feel anxious again because I am so sure this is another werewolf trick. My hands shook with fear, unable to accept that it was gone. Just like that.I also kept noticing how his eyes flickered from grey to red and it was the most disconcerting thing ever!I am just so raw. I feel exposed. I feel almost…like I am drowning in a sea of changing tides. I thought I would have to marry Alpha Beret. He was nice in his own way. But much like all the werewolves I know who are in a position of power, he was so arrogant and full of himself. He expected things I couldn't give. Almost like he just automatically expected me
NeerahI came to the conclusion that I need to know more About mates. All I can think of is what Jay told me once. That mates are destined for each other. Once I regain my wits, I increase my pace to meet Alpha Cuan's side so I don't listen to Miley another time. I don't think she likes me.Alpha Cuan led me upstairs and Miley did not follow us. I think she is waiting for him to dump me so she could have him all to herself. Is she a friend? Who is she to Alpha Cuan then? I wonder.“This will be your room Neerah. Do you like it? I could change it if you would prefer one downstairs” Alpha Cuan states with an expectant look.“It's beautiful. Thanks” I reply dourly. “Can I have your number?” He asks.I look at him directly for the first time since he smiled at Miley and I cannot help but cringe inwardly at my bizarre behavior. Clearly, I need time to process everything…“I don't have a phone” I tell him. I never had one. But he did not need to know that.“oh..” he trails off with a smal
NEERAH“Are you alright?” A gentle female voice snaps me out of my deep thoughts. I look over at her, just for a moment before I cast my eyes downward. I couldn't speak. Not a tiny sound. Not at all.“The Alpha got held up by work. He will be here shortly. Why don't you sit down before he appears?” the woman states in a really soothing tone. But I couldn't just sit down with them. Not when my hands are shaking from the force of my emotions. “I am sorry” I whispered. And then I walk out because damn if I would subject myself to their judgment. Not When I already feel like crap.I felt like I was a beacon at the precipice of doom.I make my way upstairs again, close the door to my bedroom and just put my back on the closed door, wondering why I feel so deeply for this one guy I just met hours ago. To the point that I am a jealous wreck!I am not usually this intense. I have never liked any guy in this life before. Men were supposed to be scum. I shouldn't want things only a foolish
Alpha Cuan“You have been wanting to run away since dad died” I accuse my mother with a frown. I have to wonder if she is leaving because I brought Neerah.“I will only take a couple of months. I will come back. It is not like I would be gone forever!” She points out.It was after the dining room incident. I had just gone to dinner when I realized that mom had gone to see Neerah. I was anxious because I dont want Neerah to feel like we are forcing her to start interacting with people so soon. I would rather it happened on her own terms. Mom was adamant that Miley must have put the card because she wanted Neerah to see Rayah's picture in the dining room.“You Should just take the picture down son. Rayah is dead. And you have other pictures of Rayah. That one is just too big. Neerah would constantly feel attacked” she had reasoned.But I was mad at Miley for giving her the card and I have already asked her to leave early. Miley, me and Rayah went to school around the same time. Raya
I look towards another picture of Rayah on the wall and sigh. She has always had this obsession with pictures. She would constantly hang her pictures where I can see them constantly and she claims it is because she wants me to never forget my promise to her.“I’ll never leave you even if you are not my mate” that was the promise we made to each other. Times like these, when I remember Rayah, I usually feel this bitter sweet taste in my mouth. My heart hurt badly. But today, the feeling is intensified by Intrusive thoughts of Neerah.When a knock came in the door, I asked Neerah to come in. I know it must be her.And I am right. The mere sight of her makes me feel so many emotions. That dress just makes her look nothing but spicy…“wow! you have a lot of books, Alpha!” She smiles,looking around at the wall length shelves of books that are used as a decorative addition to the large office. I have more than five thousand books in this office. My father is a book collector. And I happen
NeerahOkay shit! Every darn dress is super expensive. I was thinking of all the ways I'll work to pay off this purchase later and one frigging dress costs two thousand dollars? Is it a friggin’ wedding dress!I guess I saw the slight change in mood from the Alpha but I am too occupied with my dilemma to really say anything. Besides, I don't need to take an interest in him anymore. We were nothing more than fateful strangers.I need to go to a cheaper store. I am going to try and wear one dress and I will tell the Alpha that I don't like their dresses. We will look for a dress more in my lane. But as I was thinking about all of these, I overheard the staff gossiping about me. “Who do you think she is? Another charity case?” “Definitely a Raya wannabe! The Alpha is sometimes too nice to the needy!” “She is shamelessly going to let him pay for her dress. Fucking whore!” “You would think that girls like her would stop by now” “I know right? Five years and he hasn't looked twice a
NeerahThe way he held me, so close and personal, makes the entire situation deeply etched into my mind. I wanted so badly to kiss him back but…The near kiss, perhaps, was the catalyst for my fear because I was suddenly feeling so scared from too many emotions. Need..embarrassment…confusion…I thought we were going to draw a line! I don't care why he was trying to act like we were an item but I don't need to care. His contract ensured that!I bolt away like he just electrocuted me!He holds me in place though, pulling me closer by holding me by my waistline. His hands went around me completely caging me in. His eyes are hard, as if warning me to just go along with it. I am so confused. What the heck am I going along with?!“Cuan!” a rich feminine voice floats into our ears.Another woman who called him by name! Weren’t werewolves so strict on hierarchy? “June!” Alpha Cuan states, looking away from me to face the female Alpha. He pulls me by his side and snakes a hand around my wais
Alpha CuanA scream tore through the air and I knew instinctively that this had to be Neerah.It is nearing morning now and I haven't slept a wink. In fact, I had to digest the information on Rayah after confronting Chase.I rushed out of my office to run upstairs towards her room.Her door is open so the moment I turned the handle, it opened up freely to expose Neerah thrashing wildly on her bed screaming at the top of her lungs hitting the matress with her fisted hands.‘Stop choking me! Stop! Stop! Mom!!!’ She has her hands to her neck trying to break invisible chains.‘No…mom…mom…please…!’She wouldn't say anything else but that is what she wouldn't stop repeating. The three words interchange to describe her inner demons.I tried waking her up but she wouldn't. I held her hands but then she subconsciously thought of it as an attack and started to fight back desperately against me until I held her entire body captive so she wouldn't hurt herself.It didn't take long for her to go l
Alpha Cuan“He needs to hand her over!” Alpha Daren's voice silenced everyone. Although I expected the other Alpha's to stay silent out of self preservation, it still Felt pathetic. I remember when I was young, my father attended a meeting like this. Back then, there was a pack known as ‘Royal Crescent pack’ Their Alpha was of royal descent. He is not a direct descendant but he was pretty powerful. Alpha Daren was not well known then. He has just started his reign of terror and he wanted everyone to fear him. What he did was attack the Royal crescent pack when their Alpha was away. He killed his mate and their unborn child. Somehow, my dad was outraged and simmered in anger for days before he realized that no one was gping to hold his hand and fight. It was bigger than a mere fight war. Alpha Daren has Royal backing. No one wants to test the waters and end up sacrificing their pack for it. So it was like it never happened before. When no one fought back then, why will they fight
NeerahA few Hours LaterHe put a slice of toasted bread on my plate and pushed it gently towards me so it was very close to me. “I know you are hungry. Eat up” he urged. Sitting back in his own chair, I looked up at Rayah's picture in the dining room and blurted out “why is that still here?” He looks at the picture and then at me. As if realizing how bad it seemed, he smiles a little "Don't ruin your appetite. I will take it down” he tells me. I am a little taken aback and with a suspicious look, I say to him “Knowing it's there, how can I have an appetite?” He stares at me as if thoughtfully. And before I knew it, he jumped on the table, reached out to the picture and brought it down. “Put it somewhere outside. Rayah will get it later” he states in one of the maid's directions. I think her name is Alicia. Seeing the photo dragged outside eases the knot in my chest I didn't know existed. I don't know why, I smile to myself, picking up the slice of bread with my bare hand and
It feels like I am having a fever. There is something sensitive running over my skin with tingling and pricks of growing intensity. At first, I was unaware if this was just another bad dream. My mother has left my dreams too long. Perhaps the dreams are changing as there is another form of nightmare I will start to see.The rocks of my life are absent. And the intensity is growing. Only half awake, I sincerely thought that it was a dream. Well, until I open my eyes to find Cuan staring at me with eyes light as silver. Something isn't right here. He is hovering over me fully clothed but I don't feel afraid. Yet knowing instinctively that something is wrong is a thought that was buried deeply because that door that we use to share our emotions kind of burst open and I can suddenly feel …so much …too much…“You are back early” I whisper. My voice is scratchy from sleep but I can tell why he came back. I don't think he slept well last night. He was going overboard trying to give us spac
NeerahI don't want to talk about Rayah today. So I shift my thoughts to something else. “You were mystifying earlier. I felt included but…now that I think about it, I wish I could share the bond with the pack. When you said 'Luna’...” I deepen my voice to imitate him. Cuan smiles fondly. I love the way his eyes spark to life when he smiles.“You said it with that deep tone of voice.I can understand more of why you are Alpha and no one else. You sounded…unnatural. It was mighty powerful. Like, It is something that can't be told. It can only be seen, felt… I wish I knew why I couldn't shift” I try to paint an image of how I felt, gushing out my overflowing emotions.Alpha Cuan caresses my cheek lightly and smiles a little more so his eyes are not only lighting up, but practically glittering. “I wish you can feel it too. The bond between the pack and Alpha…you would have felt the strength of it…l” he sighs as if wishfully. “So, when you fought Alpha Deren, did I influence you in any
NeerahIt's an amicable night. Ine filled with secrets of a budding lovestory. It's easy to get swept up in the fantasy of the night. The wind blew, the cold air making our warmth a shared blessing…“Alpha Beret came for a reason. Do you know why?” I ask him. It's been silent for more than thirty minutes And I feel tired so I rest my head on his lap, which is heaven by the way. Somehow, the action is intimate and gives me a sense of familiarity with our new found closeness.“I don't know why he felt a need to come in person. But he is not a rash person. As you just said, he definitely jas a reason for coming over. We will find out as soon as we meet with the elders” he explained to me. “What will you do if he doesn't accept the payment? Or if my father spent your money deliberately to make it seem like the situation was as bad as before you took me away?” I ask.Clearly, if my father did not pay the money for real, it means that he is still scheming out ways to use me further for h
Alpha CuanWe Kind of just used the plane again to go over to the beach. The main reason being that the plane doesn't Need to refuel or anything. And besides all that, the pilot will be here until we are done anyways. Instead of fly everyone back, I would have them book commercial flights back.In any case, I was specific about the number of people to be invited for this reason. We have like fifty people who came on call. The rest came because they wanted to…Neerah is still feeling the remnants of a first flight trauma. She tries to appear fine but I can Smell her fear just like the last flight. Albeit less I guess.She is brave though. She carries herself well in tensed situations.Although, I am proud of her for keeping her cool, I am now very much worried about us. What sill it be like if I were in greater danger. It was fortunate that the f8ghr was just a dare. A test of courage of sorts. Most Alpha's Would prefer to avoid confrontation with Alpha Deren. The fact that I accepted
NeerahI am so fucking mad! But when you are weak, sometimes, courage is a myth. Like, what is courage when nothing would back it up? It would be an aimless bluster!I think of how to help Cuan. I don't want to seem so useless just after they have all kinda trusted me to lead them alongside their Alpha. It occurs to me that our mind link is not for us to understand each other only. I think that us being able to influence the other is why Alohas need a string mate. And if that is the case, I can't afford to let my fear make him so weak…No one taught me this. It's just instinct. I focused on the rage that had begun to build up earlier. Big mistake! Cuan kind of lost his cool and threw a punch before I could do anything more about my idea.It was definitely the most brutal ten seconds I have ever witnessed in my entire life. Like, Cuan threw the punch, jumped back in the same second while Alpha Deren aggressively shifted into his wolf form. But then Cian shifted too and both werewolves
NeerahAnd then I locked eyes with Rayah. And she smiles at me as if respectful. If only I could beleive it!My biggest hurdle is always Rayah. Somehow, she is no longer with Cuan but she makes everything difficult. She would endure his direct rejection, pretend to be good and holy, and then turn around to bite me instead. It is like she always knows what to say to Cuan to make him feel sympathetic, or guilty enough to let it go. Or rather, she knows how to act in a way that would stop him from wanting to take action against whatever she did. She knows him better than I do. Somehow, even with the mating bond, she has had years to know him. She doesn't want me to forget it…She wants to be Luna. I don't know why. But she wants it bad. Does she love him so much that she wouldn't want him to be with his mate? How brazen is that? How selfish… Sadly, I know too well how selfish love works. It has no consideration for the other party. I sit next to to Cuan who sits at the head of rhe long
NeerahWe arrived at the most beautiful place I have ever been to. The greenery is just mindblowing. The architectural design of the massive one thousand acres of the Wolf Teeth Inn is the most alluring thing that makes me feel excited just for being here. If you love nature, this is your last stop. If leisure is your game, I think you will still love the Wolf Teeth Inn. It screams upper class. The kind of place that reminds you there are two sides to life. Rich and poor. I feel poor even in my richness if you can believe it! It's not my money. I did nothing to contribute to it. I feel like such a fraud… But then I reexamine my emotions. I thought to myself ‘Get out! It's my poor old self struggling to embrace this new life. So would it be better if I said that I feel rich in my poor status? Forget it! I can't get it straight either. It's just mighty weird.First, we were welcomed by staff members who wore uniforms and we were led to the biggest building where Cuan held my hand all