I break the cuff on her wrist and ankle, my anger resurfacing now that she is going to be alright.
I yearn so badly to avenge her suffering. I want her to know that I would fight the devil to keep her safe.
But… would she even realize the gravity of it all? She doesnt know our ways. These primal feelings might scare her. Perhaps I should shield her from the deepness of it. She is too fragile as it is.
I carry her in my arms and walk out the door.
“Where is her fucking room?!” I bark angrily into the pack house. I will take her away if they cannot even help with something so puny.
Out of nowhere, the Luna comes out to scurry ahead of me pointing ahead of her and saying “this way”
I lay her down on her bed and before I demanded it, Chase stood with warm water and a towel. I cleaned her thoroughly before I gave the towel back. He took it and left us alone.
I checked her wardrobe and the clothes there are few. It's so openly clear that no one ever took care of her in any way. So I took out an old summer dress and came back to her side.
I sat beside her on the bed and tried not to think of her intoxicating scent, or the invisible forces drawing me to her as if she were everything I would ever need.
The fact that she almost died makes the reminder chilling on its own.
I want to hold her so badly. Just hold her to my chest and feel her heartbeat over mine.
Perhaps mine would slow. I could soothe myself with the knowledge that she is alive and well. That she was going to wake up.
It is harder than I thought, removing the dress without thinking too much. I just knew that this was going to be a war.
How could I resist her if I cannot even fight the irresistible bond when she was lying unconscious? When she did not even look at me once with her sad eyes? When I don't know what it means to see her smile and watch her be herself?
She is perfect for me in every form. I would love everything about her.
Yet…none of that yet and I am fighting madly to let it go!
I guess thinking of her frail form helped. Well, until the scars came into view. Small scars riddle her body scarcely longer than a needle. All of them.
I was losing my mind. My hands shook. So, I quickly put the dress over her and I held her hand for long moments to push back the feeling of desperation to just call Alpha Knight out and get things over with.
I held her hand for a very long time before Chase walked in. I am still breathing hard, the growls in my chest intensifying, lowering and intensifying again. I wish I could keep calm just by holding her hand. But it's hard.
Everyone else failed her. I can't join the queue.
“Alpha, you need to calm down. Your eyes are red” Chase sounds anxious.
I did not care about the implication of his words. If I dont let out steam, I would end up killing someone in this fucking house!
The last thing I need is a pack war. And although my pack is always ready to defend against anyone, I wouldn't wish to exhaust any resource for nothing.
Defending Neerah is a given. But protecting my pack is also a huge responsibility.
“get me a change of clothes. I am going for a run!” I command. And before he said a word, I went by the window of her room, glad it is big and only needs to be unlatched to open freely.
I jumped over, letting my wolf take over midair before I landed on my paws. I ran for the forest at full speed, letting my emotions ride the wind. Hopefully, far away from me.
It is not my territory but the Alpha mind links with his pack members. I am sure he knows exactly what to do.
I was still feeling a lot tense when I returned.
“She woke up. She wasn't quite coherent. She went back to sleep” Chase explains.
I stare at Chase, silently waiting to hear him tell me exactly what I want to hear.
“The Alpha hasn't said anything. You scared him with your red eyes” he explains with a shadow of a smile.
“But there are people downstairs crying out for justice. But I think his main concern is the deal with Alpha Beret. He is going to lose the pack if he couldn't hold up his end of the bargain” he informs.
“Ask Gates to draw up another contract. I’ll take responsibility” I give a command.
Chase nods once and leaves.
I paced around the room, running my hand through my hair for so long, just thinking of what to do next.
The thought of rejecting the mating bond is too cruel to the both of us. It's not just her. I don't want to be too deeply entwined with anybody else.
My sister was my eternal champion. But she died and left me with a deep hole in my chest. And then Raya was killed. I am still struggling with their deaths till date. What if I embrace Neerah and something ends up happening to her as well? I can't bear the thought.
The solution is to let her go before any feelings of attachment complicates the process.
But that would be just evil. She has gone through enough. Clearly, fate has left me no choice but to accept our bond. I don't know why she hasn't turned but…
I hope that it is only temporary.
The entire situation is dark. Like, she had gone through enough already when her mother died. But to think that her father is worse…
Could she fight this? Would she want to?
When Chase returned, I checked the contract and nodded with satisfaction.
“Keep it away first. I want to know if she would be okay with it” I told him.
That was when she woke up. Chase makes eye motions to alert me about it.
I wasn't expecting to see the clarity in her eyes when she stared back at me.
She has the most intensely savage ice blue stare in the history of blues.
My heart literally skipped a beat.
I don't know exactly what I expected. But I never would have guessed that she would be able to hide her grief so superbly.
This must be what a veteran looks like.
A veteran grief handler.
Fucking hell!
ALPHA CUAN“you seem to have made yourself comfortable in my home Alpha” Alpha Knight sounds reprimanding. I have left Neerah to pack her things so I want to settle with her father before we leave.“Just sign the contract. We don't need to be so chatty” I deadpan.The Alpha seems even more offended. But he seems to have thought it over already and he loves the money above all else now. He wasn't about to waste time calling me out for things he could do without.“Are you sure you want to marry Neerah? She is only human. And Alpha Beret will happily take her. You don't have to feel like you have to marry her because she is your mate” he enticed.“I think it will be better if you shut up” Chase cuts in fearlessly. “Let him dig his grave, Chase. I'll happily bury him!” I menace, the anger suddenly bursting open inside of me, splattering everywhere so that my nerves hurt from the rush of adrenaline. The bastard is hinting at using Neerah again. He would give her up to Alpha Beret just t
NeerahWe drove away from my father's house and I felt so sad all of a sudden. Sad that this was a place I yearned to call home. Sad that I was never given an opportunity to belong. I look at my hands where I cut open just a few hours ago. And for the first time, I can think clearly about the entire thing. Why do I not have the wound? It is as if I imagined it!I start to feel anxious again because I am so sure this is another werewolf trick. My hands shook with fear, unable to accept that it was gone. Just like that.I also kept noticing how his eyes flickered from grey to red and it was the most disconcerting thing ever!I am just so raw. I feel exposed. I feel almost…like I am drowning in a sea of changing tides. I thought I would have to marry Alpha Beret. He was nice in his own way. But much like all the werewolves I know who are in a position of power, he was so arrogant and full of himself. He expected things I couldn't give. Almost like he just automatically expected me
NeerahI came to the conclusion that I need to know more About mates. All I can think of is what Jay told me once. That mates are destined for each other. Once I regain my wits, I increase my pace to meet Alpha Cuan's side so I don't listen to Miley another time. I don't think she likes me.Alpha Cuan led me upstairs and Miley did not follow us. I think she is waiting for him to dump me so she could have him all to herself. Is she a friend? Who is she to Alpha Cuan then? I wonder.“This will be your room Neerah. Do you like it? I could change it if you would prefer one downstairs” Alpha Cuan states with an expectant look.“It's beautiful. Thanks” I reply dourly. “Can I have your number?” He asks.I look at him directly for the first time since he smiled at Miley and I cannot help but cringe inwardly at my bizarre behavior. Clearly, I need time to process everything…“I don't have a phone” I tell him. I never had one. But he did not need to know that.“oh..” he trails off with a smal
NEERAH“Are you alright?” A gentle female voice snaps me out of my deep thoughts. I look over at her, just for a moment before I cast my eyes downward. I couldn't speak. Not a tiny sound. Not at all.“The Alpha got held up by work. He will be here shortly. Why don't you sit down before he appears?” the woman states in a really soothing tone. But I couldn't just sit down with them. Not when my hands are shaking from the force of my emotions. “I am sorry” I whispered. And then I walk out because damn if I would subject myself to their judgment. Not When I already feel like crap.I felt like I was a beacon at the precipice of doom.I make my way upstairs again, close the door to my bedroom and just put my back on the closed door, wondering why I feel so deeply for this one guy I just met hours ago. To the point that I am a jealous wreck!I am not usually this intense. I have never liked any guy in this life before. Men were supposed to be scum. I shouldn't want things only a foolish
Alpha Cuan“You have been wanting to run away since dad died” I accuse my mother with a frown. I have to wonder if she is leaving because I brought Neerah.“I will only take a couple of months. I will come back. It is not like I would be gone forever!” She points out.It was after the dining room incident. I had just gone to dinner when I realized that mom had gone to see Neerah. I was anxious because I dont want Neerah to feel like we are forcing her to start interacting with people so soon. I would rather it happened on her own terms. Mom was adamant that Miley must have put the card because she wanted Neerah to see Rayah's picture in the dining room.“You Should just take the picture down son. Rayah is dead. And you have other pictures of Rayah. That one is just too big. Neerah would constantly feel attacked” she had reasoned.But I was mad at Miley for giving her the card and I have already asked her to leave early. Miley, me and Rayah went to school around the same time. Raya
I look towards another picture of Rayah on the wall and sigh. She has always had this obsession with pictures. She would constantly hang her pictures where I can see them constantly and she claims it is because she wants me to never forget my promise to her.“I’ll never leave you even if you are not my mate” that was the promise we made to each other. Times like these, when I remember Rayah, I usually feel this bitter sweet taste in my mouth. My heart hurt badly. But today, the feeling is intensified by Intrusive thoughts of Neerah.When a knock came in the door, I asked Neerah to come in. I know it must be her.And I am right. The mere sight of her makes me feel so many emotions. That dress just makes her look nothing but spicy…“wow! you have a lot of books, Alpha!” She smiles,looking around at the wall length shelves of books that are used as a decorative addition to the large office. I have more than five thousand books in this office. My father is a book collector. And I happen
NeerahOkay shit! Every darn dress is super expensive. I was thinking of all the ways I'll work to pay off this purchase later and one frigging dress costs two thousand dollars? Is it a friggin’ wedding dress!I guess I saw the slight change in mood from the Alpha but I am too occupied with my dilemma to really say anything. Besides, I don't need to take an interest in him anymore. We were nothing more than fateful strangers.I need to go to a cheaper store. I am going to try and wear one dress and I will tell the Alpha that I don't like their dresses. We will look for a dress more in my lane. But as I was thinking about all of these, I overheard the staff gossiping about me. “Who do you think she is? Another charity case?” “Definitely a Raya wannabe! The Alpha is sometimes too nice to the needy!” “She is shamelessly going to let him pay for her dress. Fucking whore!” “You would think that girls like her would stop by now” “I know right? Five years and he hasn't looked twice a
NeerahThe way he held me, so close and personal, makes the entire situation deeply etched into my mind. I wanted so badly to kiss him back but…The near kiss, perhaps, was the catalyst for my fear because I was suddenly feeling so scared from too many emotions. Need..embarrassment…confusion…I thought we were going to draw a line! I don't care why he was trying to act like we were an item but I don't need to care. His contract ensured that!I bolt away like he just electrocuted me!He holds me in place though, pulling me closer by holding me by my waistline. His hands went around me completely caging me in. His eyes are hard, as if warning me to just go along with it. I am so confused. What the heck am I going along with?!“Cuan!” a rich feminine voice floats into our ears.Another woman who called him by name! Weren’t werewolves so strict on hierarchy? “June!” Alpha Cuan states, looking away from me to face the female Alpha. He pulls me by his side and snakes a hand around my wais