FEYRE
“God, Feyre, are you okay?” I nod, burying my head in Asher’s chest, trying so hard not to cry.“Yes, I’m fine.” I whisper, holding him tighter. He feels like home, protective as always. Asher is the brother I never had and I make sure to always tell him.“And Cami?” I tell him she is okay too, nodding toward the hospital van where she is resting. “We should get out of here, yes?” I nod eagerly.Asher keeps me by his side while they shake hands with Beta Dylan, and thanks him for his help. “The alpha sends his apologies for the unfortunate event. The guilty party has been punished accordingly.” I feel something cold in my heart at the reminder of the way Alpha Zade killed the man.“Still, thank you for your help.” Asher says and they shake hands again. Beta Dylan nods toward me. “It was great meeting you, beta.” He finishes with a slight tilt of his lips and I muster a smile in return.“Thank you for all your help,” I climb into Asher’s car, while Cami is carried by one of the other pack members. The ride back to the pack is short and by the time we get back to the pack house, all I want to do is slip into bed. I wait until Cami is tucked into bed.She woke up at some point and ate dinner before going back to sleep. She was fine but still weak from all the injuries she sustained.“I’ll just get to bed now,” I pat Asher on the arm and start on the stairs, hearing his gentle footsteps behind me. My room is on the third floor, a floor below Asher’s, being the alpha. The fourth and last floor is reserved for the alpha family, his mate and nursery for when they have kids. The third floor, my floor, is for the beta, gamma, and other high ranking members who choose to stay in the pack house instead of apartments. Mostly single people.“Fey,” I turn, with my hand on the door knob to my room when I hear Asher’s voice. I cock a brow, waiting for what he wants to say. “Are you sure you’re okay?” I sigh and nod.“Feyre,” I shake my head, a smile tugging at my lips at his use of my full name. “You’ve been acting strange since you got back, are you sure you’re okay?”I massage my temples and groan. “Can we talk about this in the morning? I really want to sleep.” It's just a little past nine in the evening, but I really don’t have the energy to talk.“Sure, have a good night.” He winks playfully then jogs down the stairs. He is a night owl, like me and we mostly hang out after most people are in bed. Today, I don’t have it in me to do that.I change into my nighties, a large t-shirt and short shorts, because my best friends are guys and they barge into the room most times without knocking. I get into bed and pull the covers over me. I’m met with cold, emotionless gray eyes, my eyes snap back open. I groan and throw my pillow over my head.I already know I’m not getting any sleep tonight.I woke up quite early the next morning. I was able to sleep even though it was almost four in the morning, but a win is a win. I kept thinking of Alpha Zade and his lack of acknowledgement, it is safe to say I was restless throughout the whole night.I quickly brush my teeth and pull sweatpants up my legs then I walk out. Asher is already in the kitchen when I get down, a hot mug of coffee is already waiting for me on the counter.“You’re a lifesaver, Ash.” I moan as I take the first sip of the hot goodness. We are mostly the first two to wake up, as the pack house mostly starts their day at seven.“I’m going to miss making coffee for you when you move out,” I almost choke at that, and he laughs seeing my expression. “Stop looking so mortified, you know it’s going to happen sooner or later,” he says good naturedly. He says this a lot and usually, I just tease him back but this time, something weird settles in my stomach. “Or sooner,” he drawls, seeing the expression on my face.I groan, throwing my head back. “Yesterday,” I grumble. It is enough for him to figure out what I mean.“In the darkmoon pack?” I nod and he chuckles, clapping. “That’s amazing, Fey. I’m so happy for you.” He rounds the table and pulls me into a hug. I pat his back twice and he lets go.“It’s not exactly something to be happy about.” I explain everything that happened to him and he looks confused by the time I’m done.“Damn, he is an ass.” I nod in agreement and take my now warm coffee to my lips, draining the last of it. “But you need to figure out why he did that, he has to have a reason.”“No way, if he wants to act like I don’t exist, then two can play that game.” The anger and slight embarrassment from last night creep back up.“I think it is best if you at least ask him, you can’t judge a person by just one interaction,” I cock a brow and he sighs. “I know it’s not the best way to go about things, but you’ll regret this forever if you don’t try.” I groan at him always being right.“Fine, I’ll consider it.” I mumble, he nods and smiles. “That’s all I want to hear.” He says and picks up his jacket from the high stool and heads to the backdoor. Before he walks out though, he turns to face me. “You can take the day off, think things through.” And with that, he leaves me alone in the kitchen, with nothing but my thoughts for company.I sit in the kitchen for a long time, thinking of what Asher said. It’s not anything I didn’t know already but maybe it is the push I need.What’s the worst that could happen?I run up to my room and take a quick shower before throwing on a pair of jeans and a plain t-shirt. I pull my hair into a high ponytail and wear good shoes today. The walk to the darkmoon pack is a lot easier than it was yesterday. It’s easier to cross the border this time and I don’t get stopped immediately. I take the route Dylan and I followed, ending up in the same spot Alpha Zade killed the rogue.I look around the unknown place, a few people look at me, cautious curiosity in their eyes. I realize too late that I have no idea how to get to the pack house and the alpha’s office. I turn toward the hospital knowing someone can help direct me from there. I don’t get to three steps before I feel a tug at my arm.I turn immediately, my heart in my throat and come face to face with Beta Dylan. I exhale a breath I didn’t know I was holding.“Beta Dylan,” I greet, smiling a little too widely out of panic. My heart is still beating at a crazy unsteady pace.“Hi Feyre, is it okay if I call you that?” I nod and he smiles. “Right, is everything okay?”“Yes,” my voice sounds squeaky so I clear my throat and try again. “Yeah, I—erm, I’m hoping to meet with your alpha. Can you direct me to his office, please?”“Everything okay? Does he know you’re coming?” he asks and I nod.“Yes, he’ll know why I'm here.” he nods at me but I watch his eyes glaze over as he mindlinks. Probbay speaking to the alpha. I hold my breath in anticipation.“Sure, this way.” he smiles and motions for me to follow him.He stays quiet though I can tell he has a lot to say as we walk to the pack house.He takes me inside and stops outside a dark hardwood door. “He is in there.” he nods and then walks away.With my heart seconds away from jumping out of my throat, I raise my hands up and knock thrice. “Come in,” the familiar deep voice has the hairs at the back of my neck rising.Before I can talk myself into turning back, I open the door and walk into the cool office.Alpha Zade looks up immediately, his jaw tensing.I walk further into the office, not pausing until I’m a foot away from his desk. I don’t waste time with pleasantries, going straight to the point. “Why didn’t you acknowledge that we’re mates last night?”A low laugh rumbles deep in his chest. “And that is why you came all the way here?” he tilts his head to the side, a mirthless smile on his lips.“Answer the question?” I say through gritted teeth.“Let me ask you something else,” he leans back in his chair, looking eerily calm. “What did you think, that you coming here would make me change my mind and name you my luna?” he laughs, the sound mocking.“Wake up from your delusional dream. You are not my mate.” his voice is cruel, there’s a snarl on his lips as he says the crude words. “You’re just like other girls, desperately throwing themselves at me and begging me to make them the luna. But I am not your mate and I will not acknowledge you.”I glare at him, my irritation at his stupid words reaching new heights. I try hard, I try very hard to not feel insulted by the words he is uttering but I can’t help myself. My palms land on the table with a loud smacking sound, he doesn’t flinch, though his eyes harden more. Good.“Not everyone is desperate for your attention, alpha.” I say the title with a mocking tilt, knowing it would set him off. It did. “Reject me if you don’t want me, I don’t care.”The voice in my head is screaming at me to take it back, but I refuse. If he chooses to be an asshole then I can be equally rude.I match his stare with mine, daring him to say the words. He is quiet for a long beat of silence, and I almost think he isn’t going to say it. I turn on my heels, ready to get out of here and go back to my pack and forget any of this even happened, but his voice stops me when I'm by the door.“I, Alpha Zade of the Darkmoon pack, reject you as my mate.”FEYREI’m hooked to my spot, trying too hard to keep a straight face although I feel the pain overtaking every part of me. My wolf howls and whimpers in my head, I block her out, she isn't helping. Not right now. Alpha Zade is still sitting, his face a mask of annoyance and a little disbelief, like he can’t believe what he just said.I shake everything off and square my shoulder, I can be an asshole too. Two can play whatever stupid game he is trying to play.“What are you still doing here?” he asks with a huff, like my presence is an inconvenience for him.Against everything I believe in, I feel tears spring to my eyes. The pain from the mate bond being severed is taking a toll on me, it hurts more because he looks bored, of all things and just irritated, while I’m here battling how to not crumble in his presence. I take in a shuddering breath and steel my spine, I sta—A small yelp leaves my mouth when I feel the tight grasp of a hand on my arm, angry claws digging into my skin.Bef
FEYREI sneak a glance at Asher who is standing a few feet away from where Alpha Zade’s father is. I ask with my eyes what the man is doing here and he just shakes his head, barely, meaning he didn’t ask him. Snapping out of my shock, I muster a smile at the older man and walk further into the meeting room.“You must be the beta,” the man speaks, breaking the terse silence. I nod, my chest filling with pride from the impressed look on his face.“Yes, sir.” I cleared my throat hearing how it came out. He studies me, his look is assessing and not probing. I feel immediately dressed down, especially seeing how his pressed and expensive looking suit makes him stand out.You did this to yourself Feyre. I ignore the voice in my head and try to find a way to end this awkwardness.“I heard you were looking for me, is there anything I can help you with?” I ask him, moving forward to stand beside Asher. He immediately reaches out for my hand. I smile at him in gratitude.“First, I should introd
FEYRE“What?” I stutter out. Alpha Lucien stands straighter.“I know a lot of people, Feyre, and it would be easy to track them. Just give me your word. Just a month, be the luna and give my son his heir. Then you can leave with your information and my son can have a semblance of normalcy in his life,” I shake my head. It sounds too good to be true.We have tried, multiple times, to bring the killers of my parents to justice but you can’t kill someone for their crimes when you don’t know them. It was like it never happened, and for the longest time, I have wanted to do everything I can to find out who killed them and get my revenge. My parents deserve it. They did nothing to anyone and they got killed. I’ll have to avenge their deaths.But how does he know? I don’t think the details of the murder were broadcasted so much that people outside of the pack knew.He seems to know everything. My inner voice muses and I agree. How does he know everything? I should be extra cautious. Asher’s
FEYREI could have sworn I had no intention of calling Alpha Lucien after he left that meeting room two days ago. Even after my talk with Asher, I told myself it is not a risk I’m willing to take. I’d made that decision and wanted to stand firmly on it. Somehow I ended up dialing the number, like I said I wouldn’t. and I told him I would meet with him today, I didn’t want to do this either but something was pushing me too. Probably my doom.I chuckle a little and shake the dramatic thoughts off. We are just going to talk, I’m taking part of Asher’s advice, not fully since I am still worried about the child bit of the deal. I’m going to try and negotiate the terms. I can stay in his pack for a month and be his son’s luna. Only on my terms though and no children will be involved.I don’t want that kind of complication. Don’t get me wrong, I love kids, so much. They are little angels. I love them even more when I remember I can return them to their parents. I can’t stomach the thought of
ALPHA ZADE I’m sick of my father sticking his nose in my business. He is no longer the alpha, I make sure to remind him but he never listens. The height of this is him calling back this woman to my pack. ‘She is our mate,’ my wolf growls angrily. ‘Not anymore,’ I responded, equally angry. All women are the same. They are sneaky little creatures who just get in your pants and think they own you and can control you.“What do you mean what is she doing here, son?” he asks, like I’m the one who is crazy. “She is to be the luna of the pack and I think a pack’s luna should live there.” I grit my teeth so hard I’m surprised they don’t break. I fight the urge to yell, trying to not let my anger show. Well, it is so fucking hard when my father goes and does things like this. I take a look at the damned woman, who is standing beside him, looking innocent and all. I see through her and I know she is just like the others. She wouldn’t be the first to try and manipulate her way into this pack
FEYREAgreeing to stay without having anything to do was a bad decision. I didn’t know that till much later in the evening when I got tired of looking around the room, looking out the window and checking out every nook and cranny of the room. The room is quite large—okay, very large, much bigger than mine back at the pack. Not that it is a surprise, Darkmoon pack is much bigger than ours and they have more members. It is only sensible that their pack house is large enough to fit all their members.At least I’ll be very comfortable for the month I’ll be here. The thought still makes the hairs at the back of my neck stand at attention. I didn’t expect Alpha Zade to even act like he knows I‘m present, he hasn’t disappointed because since our stare off earlier before he stormed out, I haven’t laid eyes on him. It is all good though, it is not like I want to see him and what would be better than him ignoring me for the duration of my stay. That will just make my job easier, so I hope he k
FEYRETalking to Dylan was easy, he was welcoming and friendly. I didn’t bring up Gracie for a reason I can’t explain and we ended up talking about many different things. We have a lot in common, not just our titles and jobs and speaking to him about pack stuff, while being careful not to let any information slip, was…fun. Extremely fun might I mention, I didn’t know how or at what point I ended up sleeping but when next I woke up, it was pretty late.I didn’t bother checking the time, just making a rough estimate in my head and thinking I must have slept for more than a few hours. Dylan is sprawled on the floor beside the couch we’d been sitting on while we played games, I don’t know how he ended up there either but seeing how I can’t remember when I fell asleep, I’m not surprised.Moving quietly, I get to my feet and head to the door, walking on just my toes. I open the door with a bated breath, it opens easily without any noises and I’m very grateful for that, nothing happened and
FEYRE“Thank you,” my face heats at the compliment and I thank her, for that and the seat she said I should take. I haven’t realized that many people know about me. I’m pretty sure I’m not the only female alpha in the world though, maybe just the most popular because of our pack being healers.“I’m Gertrude, the cook.” She motions to the stove and I chuckle, settling into one of the bar stools around the counter, again making sure I’m not facing the man at the end of the room.“Everything smells great,” I tell her and she laughs, the sound airy and free. Someone clears their throat and grumbles, Alpha Zade gets up abruptly, Gertrude looks at him questionably and he mutters something I don’t make out. He carries his plate that is still half full and makes to dump it in the sink but a loud voice stops him, making him hold the plates suspended in the air.“What do you think you’re doing?” Gertrude shrieks in horror. The sound reminds me of an old widow, who always knits and yells at kid