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8: Bad Person, Good Leader
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Thawing The Alpha’s Cold Heart (Unedited Version) 9: Eavesdropping
FEYREAgreeing to stay without having anything to do was a bad decision. I didn’t know that till much later in the evening when I got tired of looking around the room, looking out the window and checking out every nook and cranny of the room. The room is quite large—okay, very large, much bigger than mine back at the pack. Not that it is a surprise, Darkmoon pack is much bigger than ours and they have more members. It is only sensible that their pack house is large enough to fit all their members.At least I’ll be very comfortable for the month I’ll be here. The thought still makes the hairs at the back of my neck stand at attention. I didn’t expect Alpha Zade to even act like he knows I‘m present, he hasn’t disappointed because since our stare off earlier before he stormed out, I haven’t laid eyes on him. It is all good though, it is not like I want to see him and what would be better than him ignoring me for the duration of my stay. That will just make my job easier, so I hope he k
Last Updated : 2023-04-30Thawing The Alpha’s Cold Heart (Unedited Version) 10: Suspicious Glances
FEYRETalking to Dylan was easy, he was welcoming and friendly. I didn’t bring up Gracie for a reason I can’t explain and we ended up talking about many different things. We have a lot in common, not just our titles and jobs and speaking to him about pack stuff, while being careful not to let any information slip, was…fun. Extremely fun might I mention, I didn’t know how or at what point I ended up sleeping but when next I woke up, it was pretty late.I didn’t bother checking the time, just making a rough estimate in my head and thinking I must have slept for more than a few hours. Dylan is sprawled on the floor beside the couch we’d been sitting on while we played games, I don’t know how he ended up there either but seeing how I can’t remember when I fell asleep, I’m not surprised.Moving quietly, I get to my feet and head to the door, walking on just my toes. I open the door with a bated breath, it opens easily without any noises and I’m very grateful for that, nothing happened and
Last Updated : 2023-04-30Thawing The Alpha’s Cold Heart (Unedited Version) 11: Clumsy
FEYRE“Thank you,” my face heats at the compliment and I thank her, for that and the seat she said I should take. I haven’t realized that many people know about me. I’m pretty sure I’m not the only female alpha in the world though, maybe just the most popular because of our pack being healers.“I’m Gertrude, the cook.” She motions to the stove and I chuckle, settling into one of the bar stools around the counter, again making sure I’m not facing the man at the end of the room.“Everything smells great,” I tell her and she laughs, the sound airy and free. Someone clears their throat and grumbles, Alpha Zade gets up abruptly, Gertrude looks at him questionably and he mutters something I don’t make out. He carries his plate that is still half full and makes to dump it in the sink but a loud voice stops him, making him hold the plates suspended in the air.“What do you think you’re doing?” Gertrude shrieks in horror. The sound reminds me of an old widow, who always knits and yells at kid
Last Updated : 2023-04-30Thawing The Alpha’s Cold Heart (Unedited Version) 12: Sexcapades
FEYREAfter Alpha Zade left, I got up and sat back in my chair, trying to look as normal as possible. Gertrude gives me a look but I shoot her a smile and dig into my pancakes. I moan on the first bite and give her a thumbs up, she finally smiles and goes back to looking normal.“You don’t seem to like the alpha very much,” she observes a few minutes later, taking the seat next to mine. I stare at the last bite of my pancake and lift my shoulder in a shrug. She seems to be his fan and I haven’t studied her enough to know how she would take that. “I know he may seem like he isn't the nicest person, but he has a good heart.”I shrug again because really, what can I say to that? She doesn’t know what is between us and if what happened a few minutes ago says anything, it is that we aren't going to get along at all.“Are you staying here for long?” I purse my lips, chewing slowly and give her a nod then I shake my head.I swallow a little and mumble. “Not really. I’m not sure.”Her lips br
Last Updated : 2023-04-30Thawing The Alpha’s Cold Heart (Unedited Version) 13: Mature Thoughts
FEYRE“I’m not going anywhere, what are you talking about?” I ask him, sitting up and bringing my legs down. If he didn’t look like he was serious, I would have said he did that just to get me to bring my legs down from his desk.“What do you mean, ‘what am I talking about?’ you’re going to be there for long, how do you want to work as a beta and a luna?” he gives me a look that suggests I’m crazy when he is literally the one spewing rubbish.“It is just for a month!” I retort pointedly. Asher still gives me that look and I huff. “It is the deal I made with him, I get to come back and deal with my beta job because I’m not uprooting my life just for that asshole,” he opens his mouth and I already know he is about to argue so I don’t let him speak. “And besides, you can’t get a step-in beta. Jerry is busy with his gamma work. You can’t do this alone especially with all the plans we have for the new trainees. You need me here.”I was born a beta. The role was tailor-made for me and he kn
Last Updated : 2023-04-30Thawing The Alpha’s Cold Heart (Unedited Version) 14: Like A Glove
FEYREThe energy in the Darkmoon pack feels different after what I experienced earlier. I check the window again after I park my car where it had been and stay in there for a lengthy moment, waiting to feel what I did or see the blinds move again. Nothing happened, I kept staring at it, not wanting to miss when it finally happened but nothing. I give up and get out of the car, convincing myself it was just a figment of my imagination, or at least, trying to convince myself.Probably just my head making things up and my not liking new places. I drag the single suitcase I’d packed from my old things back in my pack and start dragging it with me to the main house. There are more than enough clothes here for me to use, but the brand new pajama pants will never be as comfy and homey as my old ones that have holes in them. I am too attached to let it go at this point.I was surprised when I saw the new shampoo in the bathroom is the brand I use and so is the shower gel. I roll my eyes, rea
Last Updated : 2023-04-30Thawing The Alpha’s Cold Heart (Unedited Version) 15: Shower Secret
ALPHA ZADEFeyre wiggles beneath me, I would have enjoyed this thoroughly if my wolf hadn’t blocked me out. I knew letting him get close to her was going to be a big fucking mistake, I wanted to put her in her place and see where that took us.“Let go of me you fucking asshole,” I can’t help it, I smirk a little and Cassian, my wolf does too. He has a thing for women with a dirty mouth. although you can smell the innocence on her, it is so fucking potent I feel the need scrunch my nose up whenever she is close. How she survives as the beta of her pack, I have no idea. She is too innocent for the things we do to help our pack and our people survive.“No,” Cassian replies harshly. I feel her anger rising and I know she is about to snap, a part of me wants to act like this thing never happened. Take back control from and just leave.Like the episode this morning, I lost it after staying close to her for too long. It can’t happen again.“I’ll count to three,” she blows a breath, trying to
Last Updated : 2023-04-30Thawing The Alpha’s Cold Heart (Unedited Version) 16: Dressy Dinner
FEYREIn my twenty-two years, I’ve never been humiliated, disgraced and belittled like Alpha Zade just did, and he doesn’t know this but he just started a fucking war. The first thing I do when I get to my room is head to the shower. I hadn’t bothered to wear anything after I shifted back to my human form, entirely too annoyed to even think of nudity or them having security cameras in the hallway.Nudity is second to us and not many people care for it, it doesn’t mean I’m fine with strange men looking at me, just that I couldn’t be bothered with it because of the mood I was in thanks to that freaking asshole.Just, how dare he? I can’t even begin to explain how humiliated I felt. Not only did my wolf betray me, he had to go and use his damn alpha dominance over me. That is so wrong.I shouldn’t have expected right from him, he probably wouldn’t know it if it slapped him in the face.I scrub my body raw that by the time I step out of the shower, I look bright red. I dress in my familia
Last Updated : 2023-05-01
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Thawing The Alpha’s Cold Heart (Unedited Version) 47: Game On
FEYRE If I thought I had something to think about because of the kiss, it just got worse with this news of the summit. Dylan tried to make me feel better by saying it is nothing and it will pass in the blink of an eye. He didn’t realize he wasn’t helping so I just smiled politely and thanked him. After he left I rushed to my phone and called Asher who didn’t pick. It felt like my life was crashing down before my eyes and all I could do was watch the fires consume it. I’m hoping I’ll have something to pick up from the ashes when all of this is done. Before we get to that, I’ll have to meet with alpha Lucien to hear from him why I need to go with his son. Can’t I just stay here and do, I don’t know, luna stuff? When I agreed to do this, I didn’t know they would need me to make public appearances with him. I feel cheated, really. I decided I would meet with him after lunch, if he is there then it would be even better. I am already dressed so I just wait anxiously as the time goes.
Thawing The Alpha’s Cold Heart (Unedited Version) 46: Summit Invite
FEYREIt has been two days since Alpha Zade and I kissed and I have been avoiding him, or we have been avoiding each other. He turned back when he arrived at the dining room and I was there last night. He didn’t eat dinner, I was told by Delilah this morning. He didn’t even bother turning up for breakfast today.I have been jumpy all day, since we got back. I ran to my room and immediately locked the door, like I expected him to come knocking it down till I opened. He didn’t and I hate to admit that I was a little disappointed.I’m not sure I’m ready to face him, all the weird energy surrounding us is suffocating.Someone had mindlinked him, that was the only reason we had separated. I remember how I had felt annoyed by whoever caused the interruption.It felt awkward immediately as we untangled from each other. The tension filling the space.As big as where we were standing was, it felt too small and I thought I would suffocate.The ghost of the lust that was still alive in the air,
Thawing The Alpha’s Cold Heart (Unedited Version) 45: Destroy Me
ALPHA ZADEI knew she was going to be my downfall from the first time I met her, I needed an escape from her which was why I chose to come here to read. It was one of the places my mother used to spend her time with.The only remnants of what used to be her pack. After she met my father and found out they were mates, they decided to merge their packs. It was the beginning of their problems and till today, I had wished she stayed as the alpha of her pack and never went for love.Love. Just the thought makes me scoff.I didn’t plan on seeing her there, I couldn’t even understand what she was doing there. All members of the pack stayed away from this part of the pack. Only a few teenagers are found loitering sometimes but even that has been prohibited. After almost ten years as alpha, I have accepted that you can’t control or stop them, just make sure they won’t hurt themselves.Some stories about ghosts of the people that died in the fire here returning to haunt the people of the pack m
Thawing The Alpha’s Cold Heart (Unedited Version) 44: Spying
FEYREI start walking, following Alpha Zade’s scent and the further I go, the stronger it gets. I start with a slow walk which develops into a jog and before I can even think it through, I find myself running.I hear footsteps coming from behind out of nowhere, also running and I pick up speed. It is hard keeping my attention on his scent when I feel like someone is following me. I don’t want to turn to confirm out of fear that something scary is actually there.With my wolf not in sight, I know fighting here is not going to be a good idea, I don’t know how many they are or how strong they are. If I make the mistake of getting hurt here, no one will find me. I’m noy connected to this pack and there will be no way to mindlink or try to pin down my location.Shit, I didn’t tell anyone I was going out.I reach a turn and come to a halt, my breathing ragged. My lungs are burning and my hair has fallen out of its ponytail.I dance a little on my feet, my head feels hazy and I cough out lou
Thawing The Alpha’s Cold Heart (Unedited Version) 43: Run
FEYREI am not taking Delilah’s relationship advice obviously, I’m not even in a relationship to begin with but she insisted, even offered to help in every way she can, when I got tired of her painting what she thought our relationship would be like, I sent her out of my room and made it a point to lock the door from inside. I have officially run out of energy to deal with her today.I breathe out, scratching the back of my hair absentmindedly. I am standing in the middle of my room with my hands on my waist and no closer to figuring out what I want to do. Now that I have good reason to believe he is not hiding anyone I feel at ease.It is just the mate bond making me feel relief when I shouldn’t even care.I take my jotted notes and hide them in the back of my closet along with the map. Relief courses through me at that thought. I didn’t even know why I cared so much about what he does or how I didn’t want him to be bad. Being irritable and arrogant is way better than being a strai
Thawing The Alpha’s Cold Heart (Unedited Version) 42: Uncovering Things
FEYREI needed to come up with a new strategy, and fast. The more minutes, hours, days, I spend wasting time—or working and not really making progress—might be another woman getting hurt.How I went from trying to make the alpha feel again, to trying to uncover if he is a sicko that kidnaps women surprises me. I know I have a knack for a little adrenaline and work but I never thought I would be into this as much as I am. With the blueprints safely tucked into the back of my closet, all I need to do now is how to set phase two of my plan into motion. Getting him to trust me. I already know that is going to be the hardest part of my plan. Thanks to Delilah’s blabbering, I got to know that there are cameras in almost every part of this house.I can’t hack into them unfortunately but if I get close to him, I can know how to access them. Learn to deactivate it so I will do that the day I choose to satisfy my morbid curiosity. I’ll go up there and if I find a woman there like I suspect, I
Thawing The Alpha’s Cold Heart (Unedited Version) 41: Blueprint Is The Same As A Map
FEYREI have an ample lot of time on my hands with nothing better to do, and I have realized I can only work out so many times before my body starts aching. I have resorted to calling Asher every day, even if I feel like I’m disrupting his work.He is too nice to mention and he always picks when I call, even offering a game or something so I can feel less idle. I really don’t know what I’ll do with my life without him. I’ve always thought that finding his mate will be what will pull us apart, I know no female wolf will like her mate hanging out with another female all the time, forget that he is like my brother and just the thought of anything that is not platonic with him makes my skin crawl.Asher and I together will be like incest and I am really not a fan of it.Meeting with alpha Lucien didn’t help, not in the way that I thought, his pretty much cryptic answer when I asked why I was here didn’t help. I have tried to not let myself think of it too much. And since Alpha Zade doesn’
Thawing The Alpha’s Cold Heart (Unedited Version) 40: Reach A Truce
ALPHA ZADEI’d felt like ants were crawling up my skin when I was told my father had returned from his one day trip and he was with Feyre. It reminded me of his trips when my mother was here. He was always traveling for business which equaled him meeting up with his multiple mistresses.A part of me wants to drag her away from him for the fear of him ruining her, but then I remembered her arms around Damien’s neck and I don’t feel the need quite as deep anymore. She is like him anyways, no wonder they get along very well.Mind numbing pain in my jaw makes stars dance in my vision. I’m jolted back to the present with the violent punch and I grunt lowly, both in annoyance and from the sting.The sound of Damien’s feet bouncing on the boxing platform rings in my head before I regain my composure. I give my head a little shake, getting rid of the haziness in my eyes.“Get your head in the game, man.” He groans, coming at me again.Now that I’m paying attention, I see his intention and blo
Thawing The Alpha’s Cold Heart (Unedited Version) 39: Business Transactions
FEYRE“How has the pack been treating you?” Alpha Lucien asks, taking a sip from his Macallan.He’d invited me to drink with him after we met outside and since I didn’t have anything better to do, I agreed. It was either this or drowning in my thoughts in my room alone, either the thoughts of the shadow will kill me or that of the alpha.I am very close to hitting rock bottom and I can’t allow that.Also, alpha Lucien’s company is not that bad, especially when you compare it to that of his son’s.“It has been okay,” I mutter, bringing the glass up to my lips though I don’t take a sip, I don’t put it back down either which leaves it hovering awkwardly over my mouth.“That is good. I hope you’ve settled in easily.” There is curiosity in the man’s eyes and in that instant, I know there is more he wants to know and this is not just a friendly chat. This just shows me how I need to be careful around every one of them.No one is excluded. I’d been the one reminding Asher we weren’t allies,
