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45: Destroy Me
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Thawing The Alpha’s Cold Heart (Unedited Version) 46: Summit Invite
FEYREIt has been two days since Alpha Zade and I kissed and I have been avoiding him, or we have been avoiding each other. He turned back when he arrived at the dining room and I was there last night. He didn’t eat dinner, I was told by Delilah this morning. He didn’t even bother turning up for breakfast today.I have been jumpy all day, since we got back. I ran to my room and immediately locked the door, like I expected him to come knocking it down till I opened. He didn’t and I hate to admit that I was a little disappointed.I’m not sure I’m ready to face him, all the weird energy surrounding us is suffocating.Someone had mindlinked him, that was the only reason we had separated. I remember how I had felt annoyed by whoever caused the interruption.It felt awkward immediately as we untangled from each other. The tension filling the space.As big as where we were standing was, it felt too small and I thought I would suffocate.The ghost of the lust that was still alive in the air,
Last Updated : 2023-05-29Thawing The Alpha’s Cold Heart (Unedited Version) 47: Game On
FEYRE If I thought I had something to think about because of the kiss, it just got worse with this news of the summit. Dylan tried to make me feel better by saying it is nothing and it will pass in the blink of an eye. He didn’t realize he wasn’t helping so I just smiled politely and thanked him. After he left I rushed to my phone and called Asher who didn’t pick. It felt like my life was crashing down before my eyes and all I could do was watch the fires consume it. I’m hoping I’ll have something to pick up from the ashes when all of this is done. Before we get to that, I’ll have to meet with alpha Lucien to hear from him why I need to go with his son. Can’t I just stay here and do, I don’t know, luna stuff? When I agreed to do this, I didn’t know they would need me to make public appearances with him. I feel cheated, really. I decided I would meet with him after lunch, if he is there then it would be even better. I am already dressed so I just wait anxiously as the time goes.
Last Updated : 2023-05-29Thawing The Alpha’s Cold Heart (Unedited Version) 1: Rogue Attack
FEYREI push the damp strands of hair from my forehead, exhaling a warm breath as I try to keep up with the words coming out of my patrol partner’s mouth. Cami, who is also my best friend and I are patrolling the pack’s borders. Today is one of the lucky days I have her on patrol with me. Although I’m not very thrilled about it, the weather is hot! Almost scorching.“The dream I had last night, I think it is one of my favorites.” She sighs dreamily and I shake my head at the twenty two year old that acts like she is sixteen. I love her for it though.“All your dreams are your favorites, Cam.” She tucks her bottom lip into her mouth at my response.“True,” she agrees. “But this is my favorite, favorite. Like he was so hot I almost melted.”“I’m about to melt from the sun,” I counter, which makes her laugh. “I hate afternoon patrols.” I grumble and she throws her head back in laughter.“Well, dearest beta, you’re one of our best hunters and if there is anything fishy. You’ll smell it fr
Last Updated : 2023-03-09Thawing The Alpha’s Cold Heart (Unedited Version) 2: Arrogant Alpha
FEYRE“What is going on?” The new man speaks, his voice is cold, deep and soothing all at once. He averts his gaze from me and something settles in my lower stomach. I can’t take my eyes off him, his dark hair that is slightly messy and the deep frown set in his lips. “You said it was an emergency.” He isn’t talking to me, his voice still retaining the coldness.It makes a shiver run down my spine.Surely, he felt what I did. I saw his eyes dilate before his gaze returned to their cold gray. Cool and mysterious, like the night sky. Can’t he see that we’re mates? Why isn’t he recognizing and acknowledging that?“Her friend got injured, they said around here and it was a rogue.” A hum rumbles from his throat. My body warms, though he isn’t referring to me. He is not even looking at me but I’m almost melting from just his presence.“And how sure are you that she is telling the truth?” my eyes snap to his, gray eyes stare back at me with no ounce of warmth or emotions in sight.“I wouldn’t
Last Updated : 2023-03-09Thawing The Alpha’s Cold Heart (Unedited Version) 3: I Reject You
FEYRE“God, Feyre, are you okay?” I nod, burying my head in Asher’s chest, trying so hard not to cry.“Yes, I’m fine.” I whisper, holding him tighter. He feels like home, protective as always. Asher is the brother I never had and I make sure to always tell him.“And Cami?” I tell him she is okay too, nodding toward the hospital van where she is resting. “We should get out of here, yes?” I nod eagerly.Asher keeps me by his side while they shake hands with Beta Dylan, and thanks him for his help. “The alpha sends his apologies for the unfortunate event. The guilty party has been punished accordingly.” I feel something cold in my heart at the reminder of the way Alpha Zade killed the man.“Still, thank you for your help.” Asher says and they shake hands again. Beta Dylan nods toward me. “It was great meeting you, beta.” He finishes with a slight tilt of his lips and I muster a smile in return.“Thank you for all your help,” I climb into Asher’s car, while Cami is carried by one of the o
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FEYREI’m hooked to my spot, trying too hard to keep a straight face although I feel the pain overtaking every part of me. My wolf howls and whimpers in my head, I block her out, she isn't helping. Not right now. Alpha Zade is still sitting, his face a mask of annoyance and a little disbelief, like he can’t believe what he just said.I shake everything off and square my shoulder, I can be an asshole too. Two can play whatever stupid game he is trying to play.“What are you still doing here?” he asks with a huff, like my presence is an inconvenience for him.Against everything I believe in, I feel tears spring to my eyes. The pain from the mate bond being severed is taking a toll on me, it hurts more because he looks bored, of all things and just irritated, while I’m here battling how to not crumble in his presence. I take in a shuddering breath and steel my spine, I sta—A small yelp leaves my mouth when I feel the tight grasp of a hand on my arm, angry claws digging into my skin.Bef
Last Updated : 2023-04-27Thawing The Alpha’s Cold Heart (Unedited Version) 5: Proposition
FEYREI sneak a glance at Asher who is standing a few feet away from where Alpha Zade’s father is. I ask with my eyes what the man is doing here and he just shakes his head, barely, meaning he didn’t ask him. Snapping out of my shock, I muster a smile at the older man and walk further into the meeting room.“You must be the beta,” the man speaks, breaking the terse silence. I nod, my chest filling with pride from the impressed look on his face.“Yes, sir.” I cleared my throat hearing how it came out. He studies me, his look is assessing and not probing. I feel immediately dressed down, especially seeing how his pressed and expensive looking suit makes him stand out.You did this to yourself Feyre. I ignore the voice in my head and try to find a way to end this awkwardness.“I heard you were looking for me, is there anything I can help you with?” I ask him, moving forward to stand beside Asher. He immediately reaches out for my hand. I smile at him in gratitude.“First, I should introd
Last Updated : 2023-04-30Thawing The Alpha’s Cold Heart (Unedited Version) 6: You Should Say Yes
FEYRE“What?” I stutter out. Alpha Lucien stands straighter.“I know a lot of people, Feyre, and it would be easy to track them. Just give me your word. Just a month, be the luna and give my son his heir. Then you can leave with your information and my son can have a semblance of normalcy in his life,” I shake my head. It sounds too good to be true.We have tried, multiple times, to bring the killers of my parents to justice but you can’t kill someone for their crimes when you don’t know them. It was like it never happened, and for the longest time, I have wanted to do everything I can to find out who killed them and get my revenge. My parents deserve it. They did nothing to anyone and they got killed. I’ll have to avenge their deaths.But how does he know? I don’t think the details of the murder were broadcasted so much that people outside of the pack knew.He seems to know everything. My inner voice muses and I agree. How does he know everything? I should be extra cautious. Asher’s
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Thawing The Alpha’s Cold Heart (Unedited Version) 47: Game On
FEYRE If I thought I had something to think about because of the kiss, it just got worse with this news of the summit. Dylan tried to make me feel better by saying it is nothing and it will pass in the blink of an eye. He didn’t realize he wasn’t helping so I just smiled politely and thanked him. After he left I rushed to my phone and called Asher who didn’t pick. It felt like my life was crashing down before my eyes and all I could do was watch the fires consume it. I’m hoping I’ll have something to pick up from the ashes when all of this is done. Before we get to that, I’ll have to meet with alpha Lucien to hear from him why I need to go with his son. Can’t I just stay here and do, I don’t know, luna stuff? When I agreed to do this, I didn’t know they would need me to make public appearances with him. I feel cheated, really. I decided I would meet with him after lunch, if he is there then it would be even better. I am already dressed so I just wait anxiously as the time goes.
Thawing The Alpha’s Cold Heart (Unedited Version) 46: Summit Invite
FEYREIt has been two days since Alpha Zade and I kissed and I have been avoiding him, or we have been avoiding each other. He turned back when he arrived at the dining room and I was there last night. He didn’t eat dinner, I was told by Delilah this morning. He didn’t even bother turning up for breakfast today.I have been jumpy all day, since we got back. I ran to my room and immediately locked the door, like I expected him to come knocking it down till I opened. He didn’t and I hate to admit that I was a little disappointed.I’m not sure I’m ready to face him, all the weird energy surrounding us is suffocating.Someone had mindlinked him, that was the only reason we had separated. I remember how I had felt annoyed by whoever caused the interruption.It felt awkward immediately as we untangled from each other. The tension filling the space.As big as where we were standing was, it felt too small and I thought I would suffocate.The ghost of the lust that was still alive in the air,
Thawing The Alpha’s Cold Heart (Unedited Version) 45: Destroy Me
ALPHA ZADEI knew she was going to be my downfall from the first time I met her, I needed an escape from her which was why I chose to come here to read. It was one of the places my mother used to spend her time with.The only remnants of what used to be her pack. After she met my father and found out they were mates, they decided to merge their packs. It was the beginning of their problems and till today, I had wished she stayed as the alpha of her pack and never went for love.Love. Just the thought makes me scoff.I didn’t plan on seeing her there, I couldn’t even understand what she was doing there. All members of the pack stayed away from this part of the pack. Only a few teenagers are found loitering sometimes but even that has been prohibited. After almost ten years as alpha, I have accepted that you can’t control or stop them, just make sure they won’t hurt themselves.Some stories about ghosts of the people that died in the fire here returning to haunt the people of the pack m
Thawing The Alpha’s Cold Heart (Unedited Version) 44: Spying
FEYREI start walking, following Alpha Zade’s scent and the further I go, the stronger it gets. I start with a slow walk which develops into a jog and before I can even think it through, I find myself running.I hear footsteps coming from behind out of nowhere, also running and I pick up speed. It is hard keeping my attention on his scent when I feel like someone is following me. I don’t want to turn to confirm out of fear that something scary is actually there.With my wolf not in sight, I know fighting here is not going to be a good idea, I don’t know how many they are or how strong they are. If I make the mistake of getting hurt here, no one will find me. I’m noy connected to this pack and there will be no way to mindlink or try to pin down my location.Shit, I didn’t tell anyone I was going out.I reach a turn and come to a halt, my breathing ragged. My lungs are burning and my hair has fallen out of its ponytail.I dance a little on my feet, my head feels hazy and I cough out lou
Thawing The Alpha’s Cold Heart (Unedited Version) 43: Run
FEYREI am not taking Delilah’s relationship advice obviously, I’m not even in a relationship to begin with but she insisted, even offered to help in every way she can, when I got tired of her painting what she thought our relationship would be like, I sent her out of my room and made it a point to lock the door from inside. I have officially run out of energy to deal with her today.I breathe out, scratching the back of my hair absentmindedly. I am standing in the middle of my room with my hands on my waist and no closer to figuring out what I want to do. Now that I have good reason to believe he is not hiding anyone I feel at ease.It is just the mate bond making me feel relief when I shouldn’t even care.I take my jotted notes and hide them in the back of my closet along with the map. Relief courses through me at that thought. I didn’t even know why I cared so much about what he does or how I didn’t want him to be bad. Being irritable and arrogant is way better than being a strai
Thawing The Alpha’s Cold Heart (Unedited Version) 42: Uncovering Things
FEYREI needed to come up with a new strategy, and fast. The more minutes, hours, days, I spend wasting time—or working and not really making progress—might be another woman getting hurt.How I went from trying to make the alpha feel again, to trying to uncover if he is a sicko that kidnaps women surprises me. I know I have a knack for a little adrenaline and work but I never thought I would be into this as much as I am. With the blueprints safely tucked into the back of my closet, all I need to do now is how to set phase two of my plan into motion. Getting him to trust me. I already know that is going to be the hardest part of my plan. Thanks to Delilah’s blabbering, I got to know that there are cameras in almost every part of this house.I can’t hack into them unfortunately but if I get close to him, I can know how to access them. Learn to deactivate it so I will do that the day I choose to satisfy my morbid curiosity. I’ll go up there and if I find a woman there like I suspect, I
Thawing The Alpha’s Cold Heart (Unedited Version) 41: Blueprint Is The Same As A Map
FEYREI have an ample lot of time on my hands with nothing better to do, and I have realized I can only work out so many times before my body starts aching. I have resorted to calling Asher every day, even if I feel like I’m disrupting his work.He is too nice to mention and he always picks when I call, even offering a game or something so I can feel less idle. I really don’t know what I’ll do with my life without him. I’ve always thought that finding his mate will be what will pull us apart, I know no female wolf will like her mate hanging out with another female all the time, forget that he is like my brother and just the thought of anything that is not platonic with him makes my skin crawl.Asher and I together will be like incest and I am really not a fan of it.Meeting with alpha Lucien didn’t help, not in the way that I thought, his pretty much cryptic answer when I asked why I was here didn’t help. I have tried to not let myself think of it too much. And since Alpha Zade doesn’
Thawing The Alpha’s Cold Heart (Unedited Version) 40: Reach A Truce
ALPHA ZADEI’d felt like ants were crawling up my skin when I was told my father had returned from his one day trip and he was with Feyre. It reminded me of his trips when my mother was here. He was always traveling for business which equaled him meeting up with his multiple mistresses.A part of me wants to drag her away from him for the fear of him ruining her, but then I remembered her arms around Damien’s neck and I don’t feel the need quite as deep anymore. She is like him anyways, no wonder they get along very well.Mind numbing pain in my jaw makes stars dance in my vision. I’m jolted back to the present with the violent punch and I grunt lowly, both in annoyance and from the sting.The sound of Damien’s feet bouncing on the boxing platform rings in my head before I regain my composure. I give my head a little shake, getting rid of the haziness in my eyes.“Get your head in the game, man.” He groans, coming at me again.Now that I’m paying attention, I see his intention and blo
Thawing The Alpha’s Cold Heart (Unedited Version) 39: Business Transactions
FEYRE“How has the pack been treating you?” Alpha Lucien asks, taking a sip from his Macallan.He’d invited me to drink with him after we met outside and since I didn’t have anything better to do, I agreed. It was either this or drowning in my thoughts in my room alone, either the thoughts of the shadow will kill me or that of the alpha.I am very close to hitting rock bottom and I can’t allow that.Also, alpha Lucien’s company is not that bad, especially when you compare it to that of his son’s.“It has been okay,” I mutter, bringing the glass up to my lips though I don’t take a sip, I don’t put it back down either which leaves it hovering awkwardly over my mouth.“That is good. I hope you’ve settled in easily.” There is curiosity in the man’s eyes and in that instant, I know there is more he wants to know and this is not just a friendly chat. This just shows me how I need to be careful around every one of them.No one is excluded. I’d been the one reminding Asher we weren’t allies,
