Pagpatak ng 6:30 PM, handa na ang lahat para sa proposal ni Aaron. Ang sabi ni Kelly, ang road manager ni Kristine, isang guesting lang daw sa isang noontime show ang nasa schedule ng girlfriend niya ngayon. So he immediately asked Kristine for a date at 7 p.m. He was more than relieved when she agreed. Sinabihan niya ito na ipapasundo sa driver nila. Umoo din ito. A week prior, naitawag na niya ang plano niya kay Tito Gilbert, ang Daddy ni Kristine. Tito Gilbert was more than happy to hear the news and he promised his presence tonight.
And so here he was, in the middle of the restaurant-- under the sea of fairy lights hanging from the ceiling and rose petals scattered generously on the floor-- awaiting for his future bride with a bouquet of roses in his hands and a beautiful solitaire diamond ring in his pocket.
Ilang minuto pa, dumating na ang Mommy niya. Kasunod nito ang pamilya ng Tita Shannon niya, ang Uncle Clinton niya at mga pinsan niya at mga anak ng mga ito. Nagsabi na rin si Isabella na handa na ang crew nito. Ang kulang na lang si Kristine.
He anxiously checked his phone. There were no messages. He texted Kristine a while back, but she didn’t reply. Nag-text din siya kay Kelly pero wala rin itong reply. Tumawag na siya kay Tito Gilbert but he seemed to be busy that can’t answer his calls. And he found it weird.
Minutes passed and still no response from Kristine, her family or her manager. Pagpatak ng alas-siete, dumating ang driver nila. Without Kristine.
“E Sir, umalis daw po sabi ng mga katulong na naiwan sa townhouse niya. May dalang mga maleta,” ani Manong Roger, ang driver nila.
“Hindi sinabi kung saan pumunta?” kalmado niyang tanong, nanakuyom ang mga kamay.
“Hindi raw po Sir e. Basta aalis daw po, hindi sigurado kung hanggang kailan.”
He huffed, anger starting to rise from his chest. Mabilis niyang kinuha ang cellphone niya at idinial ang number ni Kristine. His calls didn’t push through. Sinunod niya ang number ni Kelly, ganoon din. Diretso na niyang tinawagan si Mrs. Cabral, ang mismong may-a*i ng talent agency na kinabibilangan ni Kristine.
“Aaron, napatawag ka?” bati ng nakatatandang babae nang sagutin ang tawag niya.
“I just want to know where Kristine is? She’s not answering her phone,” he said in a controlled tone.
“She’s at the airport right now waiting for her flight to the US. Nakapasa siya kasi sa initial audition for a role in Hollywood. The producers wanted to see her immediately for a final audition kaya sila bumiyahe agad ni Kelly ngayon. Hindi ba siya nagsabi sa ‘yo?” paliwanag ni Mrs. Cabral.
Humigpit ang pagkakahawak niya sa cellphone niya. He clenched his jaw to prevent him from cussing as anger started to course through him. Hindi na niya sinagot si Mrs. Cabral. Agad niyang pinutol ang tawag.
For a while, he stood there at the middle of the hall, unsure of what to do. Kristine stood him up. Hindi iyon ang unang beses na hindi natuloy ang mga plano niya para sa kanilang dalawa ni Kristine. Sanay naman siya na nakikisingit lang sa schedule nito. But of all the days she planned to stood him up, why tonight that he’s going to ask her to marry him? At ang lalong nakakagalit doon, ni hindi man lang nito sinabi sa kanya na bibiyahe ito papuntang Amerika!
“Dammit!” He cussed as he threw the bouquet of roses on the floor.
“S-son?” tawag ng Mommy niya sa likuran niya. Hindi siya sumagot. Masyado siyang galit para kausapin ang Mommy niya nang hindi nakasigaw.
“Oh my god, the bitch stood you up, isn’t she?” ani Shannon. Nilingon niya ang pinsan niya. Nakatutok ang mga nito sa cellphone nito. “The bitch is at the airport and flying to the US. She stood you up, Aaron!” histerikal na balita nito bago ipinakita sa kanya ang video ni Kristine na nasa airport at ini-interview ng local press.
He stormed out of the restaurant and went to his car. Kahit na anong tawag ng Mommy niya at mga kamang-anak niya hindi siya nagpapigil sa pag-alis. He was seething in anger. How could Kristine just leave him in the dark just like that? He made him looked like a fckin fool!
Sa buong tatlong taon na relasyon nila ni Kristine, siya ang laging nag-aadjust para dito. Dahil naiintindihan niya ito, she’s just 26 and full of dreams. Kristine wanted fame and all the glitz and glamour that goes along with it. And he wanted her to achieve just that. He wanted her to have everything good and beautiful in this life. Heck! He’d even give her the world she only need to ask him and he’d fckin give it to her.
And then this. One call just to tell him that she can’t make it, hindi pa nito magawa? What does she think of him, a lost puppy who’d just follow her wherever she goes?
“Bullshit!” he hissed as he drove away from the restaurant.
He drove around the city for a few minutes just to clear his head before he drove to his penthouse at SSL. Pagtuntong niya sa penthouse niya, agad siyang nag-text sa Mommy niya na nakauwi na siya sa bahay at na wala na itong dapat ipag-alala. Dumiretso siya sa bar at uminom ng beer. He wanted to knock himself to sleep tonight.
Pakiramdam niya kasi pinaglalaruan na naman siya ng tadhana. He was okay with the sudden death of his father messing up his career path for a while. But he can’t allow fate to mess up even with his relationship! Kristine is supposed to be the one because they’ve met at the right time. Why is she the one messing up all of his plan?
Tumungga siya mula sa pangatlo niyang bote ng beer at hinugot ang cellphone niya mula sa bulsa niya. He looked at Kristine's photo on his wallpaper. He took that a couple of months ago when she was having a photoshoot. He was supposed to take her to Amanpulo for a weekend getaway, but her work called and took her away from him again. But since he wanted to be with her, sinamahan na lang niya ito sa trabaho. He can still remember all the hateful looks the people in the production were giving him when he was waiting for Kristine to finish her work. It was as if he’s not welcome there—in their world. But when he told Kristine about it, sinabi lang nito na masyado siyang sensitive dahil mababait naman daw ang mga katrabaho nito.
A wave of hurt rose from his chest.
“What's wrong with you?” naghihinanakit na tanong niya sa picture ni Kristine.
Maya-maya pa, tumunog ang cellphone niya. Nag-flash sa LCD ang pangalan ng girlfriend niya. She was calling him. He pushed the reject button before downing the bottle of beer on his hands. Nang tumunog ulit ang cellphone niya, kumuha na siya ng premium drink sa bar at uminom doon straight from the bottle. But the damn phone just won’t stop ringing. What would she say to him anyway after making a fool out of him? Nakakapangalahati na siya sa premium drink nang bumigat ang pakiramdam niya. He was beginning to feel light-headed.
Good, he thought. He knew blessed sleep will come sooner than he expected. Kaya lang, tumunog ulit ang cellphone. Sa inis niya, pinulot niya iyon at binato sa pader. It crashed on the floor, broken. Kasabay niyon ang pagdilim ng paligid at pag-switch on ng emergency light sa ‘di kalayuan.
He took off a few buttons from his polo nang tuluyan niyang maramdaman ang init.
Maya-maya pa, sinubukan niyang tumayo mula sa bar. Only for him to stumble on his carpeted living room. He is fckin wasted. A very first in his entire lifetime.
He laughed at himself and closed his eyes—planning to sleep. Maya-maya pa nakaramdaman siya nang malambot na kamay na humahaplos sa kanyang pisngi. Akala niya guni-guni lang niya. Kaya lang naulit ulit ang masuyong paghaplos sa pisngi niya. He forced his heavy lids to open. He saw a vague form of a woman looking down on him. He caught the woman’s hand touching his face. He heard her gasp.
“What are you… doing here?” he asked in a slurry voice.
“S-Sir…” she called in a sweet comforting voice. He caught a whiff of her scent and he found it so fcking pleasant he wanted to have more.
He pulled her closer to him only for her to crash directly on his lips. She was soft, warm and inviting. And his body’s reaction was instant. He kissed her and touched her. And she willingly surrendered to his need. That night, he owned that stranger woman over and over until he could finally sleep.
Masakit na liwanang na nagmumula sa kung saan ang nagpamulat kay Samantha kinabukasan. Malakas na ang buhos ng liwanag mula sa bintana ng kanyang kuwarto. Ibig sabihin, tanghali na at hindi na siya nakapasok sa opisina pagkatapos ng mga nangyari kagabi.Kagabi.Napakagat-labi siya nang maalala ang nagdaang gabi. Ang paghahabol niya sa oras. Ang pagkawala ng kuryente sa SSL building. Ang eksenang natagpuan niya sa loob ng penthouse ni Sir Aaron at ang…Sir Aaron.Marahan siyang napapikit at dinama ang kanyang labi. Ramdam pa niya ang init ng halik ni Sir Aaron doon. Dama pa ng balat niya ang bawat paghaplos ng mga palad nito. At dala pa rin ng puso niya ang ligaya na dulot ng pag-angkin nito sa kanya.Marahan siyang nagmulat nang maramdaman ang pamumula ng pisngi niya. Mabilis niyang kinuha ang unan sa tabi niya at itinakip iyon sa kanyang mukha. Gusto niyang magsisigaw at maglulundag dahil panay ang alon ng kilig sa dibdib niya.
Mabilis na naghilamos ng mukha at nag-toothbrush si Samantha bago siya dumiretso sa kusina at nagluto ng agahan. Tamang-tama at hindi pa lumalabas ng kuwarto ang Mama niya. Marahil napuyat din kakahintay sa kanya kagabi.Iyon ang isa sa mga bagay na iniiwasan niya. Ang ma-stress ang Mama niya. Sa tulong ng walker, bahagya nang nakakalakad ang Mama niya. Malaki ang naitulong ng physical therapy noong mga unang buwan matapos nitong ma-stroke. Sa pamamagitan ng maiingat na paggalaw, malaya itong nakaka-ikot ito sa inuupahan nilang bahay nila tuwing wala siya. Subalit gusto pa rin niyang makasiguro kaya maya’t-maya, chini-check ito ni Bettina. Noong nagsimula siyang magtrabaho sa SSL, talagang kusa siya nitong hinihintay sa gabi pagkatapos ng klase niya. Pero kagabi talaga, halos alas-dose na ng gabi siya nakauwi. At dahil sa pagkataranta niya sa nangyari, hindi na niya ito natawagan o nai-text man lang.Mamaya, paglabas nito ng kuwarto, magpapali
Aaron woke up from the hushed noises surrounding him. He opened his eyes only to curse under his breath when he felt that instant pounding on his head.“Aaron, are you awake?” said the familiar voice of his mother. Not a second longer, he saw his mother’s face hover over him. Agad nitong hinawakan ang pisngi niya. “Thank goodness you’re awake!” anito bago iniba ang direksiyon ng tingin. “Citas, isang tasa ng kape, please,” masuyong utos nito sa mayordoma nila sa bahay.Lalo siyang napangiwi, naguluhan. Why is Manang Citas there in his house? And more importantly, what is his mother doing in his house?He gritted his teeth and forced himself to sit. That’s when he realized that he slept on the carpet and was just wearing his boxers on. How the hell did he ended up like that, he doesn’t have any idea.He saw the plump figure of Manang Citas walked towards him from the kitchen. Inabot
Paglabas ni Aaron ng kuwarto niya, wala na ang Mommy niya at ang mga katulong nila. Nalinis na rin ang bahay niya. Wala na ang mga bubog sa sahig. Wala na rin ang mga basyo ng alak sa bar.He will go for a drive today. Before his mother left, sinabi nito sa kanya na ito mismo ang nag-cancel ng mga meetings niya ngayon so that he could think.Maya-maya pa, tumunog ang cellphone niya. He quickly fished out is phone from his pocket and answered the call.“What the bloody hell, Aaron! What have you been doing there that Mom’s calling me to get married and give her grandkids already?” said the man with heavy British accent on the other line.Napangsi siya. The caller was Joshua, his younger brother. He had been living in London for three years now for his masterals. He’s supposed to be the interim CEO ng SSL pero ayaw nito. Mas gusto nito ang buhay sa abroad. Or mas tamang sabihin na mas gusto nito ang bachelor life abroad
Hindi mapakali si Samantha habang hinihintay niyang matapos ang pagkakabit ng Central Venous Catheter o CVC para sa emergency dialysis ng Mama niya. Lumipad ang tingin niya sa labas ng bintana ng ospital. Malapit nang lumatag ang dilim at hindi niya mapigilan ang maiyak dahil hindi siya sigurado kung bukas, kasama pa niya ang Mama niya. Yumuko siya at pinagsalikop ang mga kamay niya.Kanina pa niya gustong umiyak pero pinipigilan niya. Mula nang mamatay ang Papa niya at magkasakit ang Mama niya, ni minsan hindi na siya nakaramdam ng pagod o panghihina. Ang alam niya, malakas na siya—immune sa lungkot at takot ng anumang hamon ng buhay. Pero hindi pala.Nang sabihin sa kanya ng doktor na tanging kidney transplant lang ang makakagamot sa sakit ng Mama niya at maging iyon ay walang kasiguruhan, pakiramdaman niya, pinagsakluban siya ng langit at lupa.Ayaw niyang mabuhay na wala ang Mama niya. Kahit alagaan niya ito habambuhay, basta
Aaron lifted his gaze from his laptop as soon as he heard the soft knock from the door of his office. Maya-maya pa, sumilip sa pinto si Viviane, ang dating secretary ng Daddy niya na secretary na rin niya ngayon.“May bisita ka,” seryosong balita nito.Mabilis niyang ibinalik ang tingin sa laptop niya. “Tell them I’m busy—““It’s Kristine,” putol ni Viviane sa kanya.He huffed and returned his eyes to the older woman. He clenched his fists and tried to restrain his anger. He hesitated for a while but in the end, he gave Viviane a gentle nod—signaling the older lady to allow the visitor to enter.Maya-maya pa, niluwangan ni Viviane ang pagkakabukas ng pinto ng opisina niya. Agad na pumasok si Kristine, wearing her pretty New Yorker inspired outfit. He suppressed a smile as soon as his eyes landed on her. His Kristine is really very pretty. And his heart thumped into a familiar
Tulala si Samantha habang nakatingin sa ataul na ngayon ay nasa sala na ng bahay nila. Kung paano niya nagawang itawid ang kahapon na unang araw ng lamay ng Mama niya, hindi niya alam. Siguro, kung wala si Bettina at ang iba pa nilang kapitbahay na tumulong sa kanya, hindi niya alam kung kaya pa niyang tumayo ngayon. Masyadong malungkot, palihim na nadudurog.Kagabi, pinilit siya ng doktor ng Mama niya na uminom ng pampatulog upang makatulong daw sa pag-process niya ng pagkamatay ng Mama niya. Nakatulog siya, subalit paggising niya kaninang umaga, ramdam pa rin ang walang kaparis na hinagpis sa puso niya. Ilang beses siyang humiling na sana, panaginip lang ang lahat. Na sana, hindi totoo ang mga nakikita niya ngayon sa bahay nila—ang mga bulaklak, ang mga kapitbahay na nakikiramay, at ang ataul kung saan nakahimlay ang bangkay ng Mama niya.Kaya lang, kahit na anong gawin niyang pagpikit, tuwing magmumulat siya, ganoon pa rin. Walang pagbabago.
Aaron watched his mother pace anxiously in his office at SSL. It’s 7 in the evening and truth be told, though he has been trained to spend indefinite hours in the courtroom, his body has been feeling the strain of the day. Or should he say, the strain of the past few weeks.It’s just supposed to be an ordinary day, had it not been for that damn accident on one of their cargo ships. At kahit hinihintay pa niya ang pagbabalik ng mga tauhan niya sa SSL for an emergency meeting, alam na niya agad na malaking halaga ang mawawala sa kanila dahil sa aksidente.The ship carries products from their biggest clients. And though they had always practiced insuring the goods entrusted to them, still, the accident will cost them much in paying for the damages and penalties. As if the pulling out of investment of Mr. Smith, one of their biggest investors, was not enough for him to handle. The move shook their financial stability and some of the board me