Aaron nervously raked his fingers on his hair as he surveyed the restaurant he had rented and closed down for the special event he will be having there tonight.
The set-up was was perfect for his liking. Nakuha nito ang gusto niyang theme. Simple and romantic.
Napangiti siya at kinapa ang kahita na nasa bulsa niya. Tonight, he will propose to his girlfriend Kristine. And he hoped that she will say yes. Another smile grazed his lips with the thought of his girlfriend.
He had been in a relationship with Kristine for 3 years now. They’d met through a common friend just after he passed the bar exam. They talked and they instantly clicked.
He had always thought that actresses like Kristine had a superficial intelligence just like how they'd act their roles in films. But Kristine is a surprise. She enjoys deep conversation with him. They’d talk about politics, social issues and life. And she has never shown any signs of boredom even if they’d talk about the same topic for hours.
At that moment, he knew he was attracted to Kristine. So, he pursued her and make her fall in love with him. Though loving Kristine wasn’t easy—not just that he had to deal with her fans who doesn’t like him, he needed also to be patient with his girl who wanted to advance her career in the international scene-- he chose to stick with her because he knew she was special. He met Kristine during the right time when he was supposed to have a relationship according to his plans. And so he had always felt she is the one for him.
He had planned his life long before he even graduated from elementary. He had planned to graduate as valedictorian in high school, and so he did. He had planned to go into law school after college. Even though his father was dismayed, he did became a lawyer. He had planned to have a girlfriend after becoming a lawyer. And Kristine did beautifully walked into his life at the right time. And he had planned to propose to his the one, Kristine, three years after their first meeting. And he will do that tonight.
If there is one thing in his life that didn’t go as her planned was him taking over SSL after the sudden death of his father. He wanted to practice his profession. But during this time, he knows he had to step up and be the responsible eldest child his father had groomed him for. He can still take cases on the sides kapag nakaluwag-luwag na siya sa oras sa SSL or until his brothers would show interest on the company. But right now, his work priority is SSL.
He is relatively contented with his life right now. Taking over SSL is just a little detour. Aside from that, nothing is wrong with his life.
All the planning he had made for his life is finally paying off. He’s living relatively perfect life. What could go wrong?
He took a deep breath and surveyed the place once again.
Tonight will be just perfect as I planned, he thought.
Maya-maya pa, tumunog ang cellphone niya. He fished his phone from his pocket and answered the call.
“Hi, Mom,” bati niya sa kausap niya sa kabilang linya.
“Are you already there at Rancho’s?” tanong sa kanya ng Mommy niya.
He suppressed a smile when he immediately sensed the excitement on her mother’s voice. He knew his mother wasn’t excited that he’s proposing to Kristine. His mother is more excited that he’s just a step away from settling down so that he could give her the grandchildren she’s been bugging him to have since he graduated from law school. Kahit si Joshua at Kiel kinukulit din nito na bigyan na ito ng apo. But he knew his brothers too well. They love their bachelor’s life too much to ever let the fun go anytime soon.
“Yes, Mom, nandito na ‘ko sa Rancho’s,” sagot niya sa Mommy niya.
“Is Isabella there? I need to talk to her for some necessary adjustments for the guests.”
Nangunot-noo na siya. “What guests, Mom?”
His mother, Madam Liza Sandejas, gave him that familiar nervous chuckle. “Well, I kind of invited some people to be witnesses, you know.”
His brows furrowed further. “And what do you mean about witnesses, Mother?”
“Well, I invited your Tita Marga and Uncle Clinton.”
Did he hear it right? His mother invited his aunt and her husband without informing him first!
“What? Why would you invite them—“
“Plus, Shannon, Lizzie and Macky and their kids too.”
He scoffed. Pakiramdam niya nabingi siya sa sinabi ng Mommy niya. His proposal to Kristine should be as intimate as possible—just between his and Kristine’s immediate family! Why would his mother ask their relatives to be there? Ibabalita naman din niya sa mga ito ang engagement niya kung sakali.
And Shannon! That brat cousin of his was clearly against his relationship with Kristine. She warned him before that Kristine is not what he thought she was. But he had learned from Kristine that some time ago, Shannon’s ex-boyfriend dumped his cousin to court his Kristine—cementing his theory that his brat cousin Shannon was probably just jealous of his girlfriend.
“Mom, what would they do here? They didn’t even know Kristine!” he protested as he paced the hall.
“Exactly! There’s no other best time for you to introduce your girlfriend to our relatives than now. You know how Clinton had been teasing me and your father for not having grandchildren yet, right? Well, your aunt and her husband have been a great help for me during this time as I recover from my grief, but I just can’t miss this opportunity to tell them that I’m also going to have that grandchild soon.” He shook his head slowly. Nag-iisang kapatid ng Daddy niya ang Tita Marga niya. At mula nang mamatay ang Daddy niya, ang Tita Shannon niya ang umaalalay sa Mommy niya to cope with the loss. But still… “Son, please, indulge me this time,” pakiusap ng Mommy niya.
Nagbuga siya ng hininga. He was thinking of the right words to say. But in the end he knows that he could never ever say no to his mother.
“Alright, let them come. Tell Lizzie and Macky’s kids to stay still or I’ll let face them face the wall until the party is over,” sabi niya.
“Thank you, Aaron. I can’t believe my baby boy is going to be a Daddy soon,” anito sa naiiyak na tinig. She’s been emotional since he told her about him planning to propose to Kristine. His mother sniffed.
“Mom, a groom. I’m going to be a groom and a husband first then, I can be a Daddy,” pagtatama niya sa ina.
He heard her mother huffed and sniffed again. “R-right. You’re going to be all of those. Oh, only if your Dad is s-still h-here…” He heard his mother sobbed.
“Mom, I think you should come here earlier,” mabilis niyang pag-iiba sa usapan. “I think I need your opinion on something.”
Narinig niyang humugot ng malalim na hininga ang Mommy niya. “A-alright. I’ll be there as soon as I can. Please tell Isabella about the additional guests,” anito bago tuluyang pinutol ang tawag.
Agad siyang napabuga ng hininga nang matapos ang tawag. Crisis averted, he thought. Eversince his father died, naging iyakin na ang Mommy niya kahit sa maliit na bagay. He knew it was part of the grieving process. But he didn’t want a wailing mother on the very night he proposes marriage to his girlfriend. Baka kung anong isipin ng mga magulang ni Kristine.
Pagkatapos muling isuksok sa bulsa niya ang cellphone, agad niyang hinanap si Isabella at sinabi rito ang additional guests nila. Isabella is the manager and owner of Rancho Italiano. Kinakapatid niya ito dahil ninang nito ang Mommy niya. One time his mother had her set-up with him for a date, but it failed miserably. They don’t have anything in common, at all! Isabella is married now to an Italian chef and managing Rancho Italiano and all it’s branches nationwide. Si Isabella rin ang tumulong sa kanya sa paghahanda sa proposal niya ngayon kay Kristine.
He paced again. Tonight will go well, he convinced himself.
Pagpatak ng 6:30 PM, handa na ang lahat para sa proposal ni Aaron. Ang sabi ni Kelly, ang road manager ni Kristine, isang guesting lang daw sa isang noontime show ang nasa schedule ng girlfriend niya ngayon. So he immediately asked Kristine for a date at 7 p.m. He was more than relieved when she agreed. Sinabihan niya ito na ipapasundo sa driver nila. Umoo din ito. A week prior, naitawag na niya ang plano niya kay Tito Gilbert, ang Daddy ni Kristine. Tito Gilbert was more than happy to hear the news and he promised his presence tonight.And so here he was, in the middle of the restaurant-- under the sea of fairy lights hanging from the ceiling and rose petals scattered generously on the floor-- awaiting for his future bride with a bouquet of roses in his hands and a beautiful solitaire diamond ring in his pocket.Ilang minuto pa, dumating na ang Mommy niya. Kasunod nito ang pamilya ng Tita Shannon niya, ang Uncle Clinton niya at mga pinsan niya at mga ana
Masakit na liwanang na nagmumula sa kung saan ang nagpamulat kay Samantha kinabukasan. Malakas na ang buhos ng liwanag mula sa bintana ng kanyang kuwarto. Ibig sabihin, tanghali na at hindi na siya nakapasok sa opisina pagkatapos ng mga nangyari kagabi.Kagabi.Napakagat-labi siya nang maalala ang nagdaang gabi. Ang paghahabol niya sa oras. Ang pagkawala ng kuryente sa SSL building. Ang eksenang natagpuan niya sa loob ng penthouse ni Sir Aaron at ang…Sir Aaron.Marahan siyang napapikit at dinama ang kanyang labi. Ramdam pa niya ang init ng halik ni Sir Aaron doon. Dama pa ng balat niya ang bawat paghaplos ng mga palad nito. At dala pa rin ng puso niya ang ligaya na dulot ng pag-angkin nito sa kanya.Marahan siyang nagmulat nang maramdaman ang pamumula ng pisngi niya. Mabilis niyang kinuha ang unan sa tabi niya at itinakip iyon sa kanyang mukha. Gusto niyang magsisigaw at maglulundag dahil panay ang alon ng kilig sa dibdib niya.
Mabilis na naghilamos ng mukha at nag-toothbrush si Samantha bago siya dumiretso sa kusina at nagluto ng agahan. Tamang-tama at hindi pa lumalabas ng kuwarto ang Mama niya. Marahil napuyat din kakahintay sa kanya kagabi.Iyon ang isa sa mga bagay na iniiwasan niya. Ang ma-stress ang Mama niya. Sa tulong ng walker, bahagya nang nakakalakad ang Mama niya. Malaki ang naitulong ng physical therapy noong mga unang buwan matapos nitong ma-stroke. Sa pamamagitan ng maiingat na paggalaw, malaya itong nakaka-ikot ito sa inuupahan nilang bahay nila tuwing wala siya. Subalit gusto pa rin niyang makasiguro kaya maya’t-maya, chini-check ito ni Bettina. Noong nagsimula siyang magtrabaho sa SSL, talagang kusa siya nitong hinihintay sa gabi pagkatapos ng klase niya. Pero kagabi talaga, halos alas-dose na ng gabi siya nakauwi. At dahil sa pagkataranta niya sa nangyari, hindi na niya ito natawagan o nai-text man lang.Mamaya, paglabas nito ng kuwarto, magpapali
Aaron woke up from the hushed noises surrounding him. He opened his eyes only to curse under his breath when he felt that instant pounding on his head.“Aaron, are you awake?” said the familiar voice of his mother. Not a second longer, he saw his mother’s face hover over him. Agad nitong hinawakan ang pisngi niya. “Thank goodness you’re awake!” anito bago iniba ang direksiyon ng tingin. “Citas, isang tasa ng kape, please,” masuyong utos nito sa mayordoma nila sa bahay.Lalo siyang napangiwi, naguluhan. Why is Manang Citas there in his house? And more importantly, what is his mother doing in his house?He gritted his teeth and forced himself to sit. That’s when he realized that he slept on the carpet and was just wearing his boxers on. How the hell did he ended up like that, he doesn’t have any idea.He saw the plump figure of Manang Citas walked towards him from the kitchen. Inabot
Paglabas ni Aaron ng kuwarto niya, wala na ang Mommy niya at ang mga katulong nila. Nalinis na rin ang bahay niya. Wala na ang mga bubog sa sahig. Wala na rin ang mga basyo ng alak sa bar.He will go for a drive today. Before his mother left, sinabi nito sa kanya na ito mismo ang nag-cancel ng mga meetings niya ngayon so that he could think.Maya-maya pa, tumunog ang cellphone niya. He quickly fished out is phone from his pocket and answered the call.“What the bloody hell, Aaron! What have you been doing there that Mom’s calling me to get married and give her grandkids already?” said the man with heavy British accent on the other line.Napangsi siya. The caller was Joshua, his younger brother. He had been living in London for three years now for his masterals. He’s supposed to be the interim CEO ng SSL pero ayaw nito. Mas gusto nito ang buhay sa abroad. Or mas tamang sabihin na mas gusto nito ang bachelor life abroad
Hindi mapakali si Samantha habang hinihintay niyang matapos ang pagkakabit ng Central Venous Catheter o CVC para sa emergency dialysis ng Mama niya. Lumipad ang tingin niya sa labas ng bintana ng ospital. Malapit nang lumatag ang dilim at hindi niya mapigilan ang maiyak dahil hindi siya sigurado kung bukas, kasama pa niya ang Mama niya. Yumuko siya at pinagsalikop ang mga kamay niya.Kanina pa niya gustong umiyak pero pinipigilan niya. Mula nang mamatay ang Papa niya at magkasakit ang Mama niya, ni minsan hindi na siya nakaramdam ng pagod o panghihina. Ang alam niya, malakas na siya—immune sa lungkot at takot ng anumang hamon ng buhay. Pero hindi pala.Nang sabihin sa kanya ng doktor na tanging kidney transplant lang ang makakagamot sa sakit ng Mama niya at maging iyon ay walang kasiguruhan, pakiramdaman niya, pinagsakluban siya ng langit at lupa.Ayaw niyang mabuhay na wala ang Mama niya. Kahit alagaan niya ito habambuhay, basta
Aaron lifted his gaze from his laptop as soon as he heard the soft knock from the door of his office. Maya-maya pa, sumilip sa pinto si Viviane, ang dating secretary ng Daddy niya na secretary na rin niya ngayon.“May bisita ka,” seryosong balita nito.Mabilis niyang ibinalik ang tingin sa laptop niya. “Tell them I’m busy—““It’s Kristine,” putol ni Viviane sa kanya.He huffed and returned his eyes to the older woman. He clenched his fists and tried to restrain his anger. He hesitated for a while but in the end, he gave Viviane a gentle nod—signaling the older lady to allow the visitor to enter.Maya-maya pa, niluwangan ni Viviane ang pagkakabukas ng pinto ng opisina niya. Agad na pumasok si Kristine, wearing her pretty New Yorker inspired outfit. He suppressed a smile as soon as his eyes landed on her. His Kristine is really very pretty. And his heart thumped into a familiar
Tulala si Samantha habang nakatingin sa ataul na ngayon ay nasa sala na ng bahay nila. Kung paano niya nagawang itawid ang kahapon na unang araw ng lamay ng Mama niya, hindi niya alam. Siguro, kung wala si Bettina at ang iba pa nilang kapitbahay na tumulong sa kanya, hindi niya alam kung kaya pa niyang tumayo ngayon. Masyadong malungkot, palihim na nadudurog.Kagabi, pinilit siya ng doktor ng Mama niya na uminom ng pampatulog upang makatulong daw sa pag-process niya ng pagkamatay ng Mama niya. Nakatulog siya, subalit paggising niya kaninang umaga, ramdam pa rin ang walang kaparis na hinagpis sa puso niya. Ilang beses siyang humiling na sana, panaginip lang ang lahat. Na sana, hindi totoo ang mga nakikita niya ngayon sa bahay nila—ang mga bulaklak, ang mga kapitbahay na nakikiramay, at ang ataul kung saan nakahimlay ang bangkay ng Mama niya.Kaya lang, kahit na anong gawin niyang pagpikit, tuwing magmumulat siya, ganoon pa rin. Walang pagbabago.