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Starting Over Again
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2024-10-29 19:42:56Joash pov
After every storm, there is still hope
After every rain, there is always a rainbow.After every suffering comes relief.
Maybe it's not always about trying to fix something broken. Maybe it's about starting over and creating something better.
I'm starting over again. We are on process having a fresh restart.
A new pattern of thoughtsNew emotionsA new connection to the worldA new belief system in myselfIn my life and my family.After the shift, I decided to walk in the park. I've had experienced so many bad things these past days and I needed to unwind.
I was walking when I guy suddenly appeared in front of me. I was just staring at him while he was busy talking to his phone. HIis smil is very perfect.
" Who was that? And what are you doing
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