Jordan pov
"Yes, babe, I'm about to sleep now, yes. Sister Kim is with me" I answered and ended the call.
Honestly, I really don't like Amanda, my current girlfriend, why? Because she's too clingy, she wanted me to update her, to give her every detail that I am doing, I looked like a bird inside a cage that doesn't have any freedom to make myself happy.
" Who's that?" My sister asked
" Amanda, " I answered boringly.
" What's with that facial expression?" She stared at me while her hands are crossed on her chest
" You know what Sis, it's better to put your hands on your waist, like this" I stood up from sitting and went on her direction and put her hands on her waist
" And why? Do I look prettier on this position?" She asked while smiling
"Of course not, that position is better for you to have a shape, whenever you put your arms on your chest you look like a walking stick, your chest is flat, I think my chest is bigger than yours," I said and chuckled
" You!" She shouted and pulled my hair
" Ouch, that hurts, I am just joking," I said while laughing
" Don't ever say those words again"
"Why I'm not even lying I'm stating the fact"
" Tsk, go out, go buy juice, I want to drink orange juice," She said and pushed me out of the house.
I started walking when I accidentally saw a guy walking on the shore, attempting to end his life.
I hurriedly run next to him and pulled him out from the water
He keeps in struggling to escape from my hand, but I didn't let him go.
After we reached the shore he started crying, he cries like a baby.
He touched my face and I was shocked when he mentioned a familiar name.
" Di.Dilan?" He asked
" No, I am Jordan" I answered
He looked so scared, We are in that position when my sister came rushing.
"What's happening?" My sister asked
"Sis, he almost drowned himself earlier," I answered
" Wait let me check, " Sis Kim said while she slapped his face gently
" hey..buddy.. are you okay?" She asked
" Ye...Yes.. sorry" He answered and slowly stood up but he lost his balance, gladly I am standing at his back, I immediately catch him on my arm
We brought him inside and offered water
" What do you think you are doing earlier? By the way, my name is Kim, my sister said.
I left Joash to my sisters care and went inside.
I'm still wondering why he called me Dilan earlier, I don't know but that name sounds very familiar, I'm not sure now if that name is one of my patients, old friend or colleagues.
I shook my head and stared to them, I saw how Joash cried, his eyes are almost sticking out from his eye sockets.
I went to my room to get handkerchief and towel, after getting the things I needed I came back and handed the handkerchief.
Here" I offered, I saw how my sister and Joash shocked facial expression. I think they are having a heart to heart talk.
" You can have my brother," Kim laughed
" What!?" I shouted
" Kidding, I just want to lighten the mood up," My sister said and pulled my hand
" I'll just get some snacks, okay, Jordan stays with Dilan for the meantime," She said and stood up.
I gave her a what-am- I going to do look.
She just smiled at me" Everythings gonna be alright," my sister said before walking
I sat next to him and held his cold hands tightly, I can feel how scared he is, as a psychiatrist I know what people feel.
He was about to stand up when I pulled his hands.
" Where are you going?" I asked
" I already consumed too much your time I think I need to go to my room and take a rest," He smiled and answered
" Are you sure that you are fine now?" I asked
He nodded and smiled, he continued walking, I followed him and saw him took a deep breath and with his eyes, he stopped for a moment and continued walking to his room.
" Where's Joash?" Sis Kim asked
" He went home already" I answered
" He looks very scared" She added
"Uhhmm" I answered
I was about to walk to my room when I remembered Dilan's name.
" Sis, do you know a person named Dilan?" I asked I saw how shocked my sister was.
"Wh-why did you asked?" She said stuttering
" None, Joash said that name earlier after I saved him, I think that was the name of his boyfriend," I said
I saw how my sister's eyes widened, she even dropped the glass of water that she was holding.
"Hey, are you alright?" I run next to her
"Yes--Yes" She answered
" Are you hiding something?" I asked
She immediately started at me and shook her head
"No--Nothing," she said while picking the broken glasses on the floor.
" Ouch" She shouted
I saw blood came out in her index finger.
" There's something wrong," I said and continued picking the glasses.
My sister went to her room, I throw the glasses on the garbage bag, as I entered the house I saw her sitting in the living room carrying an old box.
I remember that box, my mom always hides that below her bed, after she passed away my sister took it snd hide it, I thought that box is just a toy or something, but it turned out to be an important weapon.
"What's that?" I asked while walking inside
"You are old enough, you need to know the truth," She said
I can see the water in her eyes.
This is serious, I can feel the tension inside the house, I can feel that something bad is about to happen.
"Come here, " She said
I walked and sat in front of her. She took a deep breath snd wiped her eyes.
" Promise me you won't get mad at me after," She said.
I smiled.
" What the heck is really happening? I'm getting scared now"
After I mentioned that name, the positive and jolly aura of my sister changed into a serious and scary one.
She took a deep breath before opening the old box.
" The thing inside this box is really important, Mom told me to show it to you when you are already old, old enough to accept everything, to understand what really happened back then," She said
"These pictures are the only one left, the others were included on our house when it was burned down, I was 6 years old back then when you are still 1 year old," She said
She slowly flipped the photo.
"Wh--what?" I shouted. " That's me?" I added
I took the photo from her hands.
"I'm sorry, I did not tell it to you, I run out of courage to tell it to you way back then, but right now, you need to know everything, you need to know the truth," She said
I stared to her who looked scared, I smiled and took the box.
"Are you not mad?" She asked
"No" I answered," I am happy because you told me everything, by the way why all things inside here are for two people, same designs?" I asked
I brought out everything inside the box, all of the things inside it are paired, two pairs of same designed small sleepers, two cute hand gloves and two cute shirts.
I am happy exploring what's inside the box when I touched a photo album, I opened it and was shocked by the photos.
" Wait, " I said as I flipped every page of the album.
" Who's this, why we are four here? What's going on?" I asked
"That--that is..."
The only thing more shocking than the truth is the lies the people tell to cover it up.
JoashI woke up because of the rays of the sun hit my eyes.I gently stood up and sat on the edge of my bed, I took a deep breath and gently closed my eyes, I wore a fake smile on my face to cover the pains I am experiencing." You can do it Joash, " I said, cheering myself up.I stood up and went to the bathroom to take a bath, I was in that position when a sudden flashback appeared." My name is Jordan, "Fuck, I need to meet that guy again, I need to talk to him, I took a quick shower and hurriedly dressed my self, after fixing my self, I ran to the lobby and went to the house of Jordan." Hey, Kim, " I said and smiledKim, Jordan's sister stared at me, her eyes are swollen and red, she tried to smile but I can still see sadness through her eyes." Are you okay?" I askedShe took
JoashI stood up from sitting when Jordan came home.He stared to his sister and stared back to me."I'll go home now," I said"No, stay here, wait for me, I'll just change my clothes and come with me to the cemetery where you buried the body of my twin brother." He said" Wait, what? Twin brother? Do you mean Di-Dilan? Dilan is your twin brother?" I asked while shaking my head.That's why they looked like, I'm still confused right now, Dilan did not mention anything about this."Yes, he is my long lost twin brother, it's a long story, just wait for me here," He said and walked straight to his room" Sis, go change your clothes, we need to visit and pay respect to our brother!" Jordan said in a scary tone of voice.I glanced to Kim who is smiling.They both went inside there rooms wh
Josh PovI can feel how awkward Jordan is right now, He can't concentrate on eating because Liz keeps on staring at him." Hey, eat your food first," I said as I pinched Liz's leg." Ahh, sorry" She apologised" Jordan, I just want to ask something, if it's fine with you," She said" Yes, as long as it's not about my love life, it's fine" Jordan answered and smiled." When did you know that you had a twin brother?" Liz asked" Actually, just last night," He said" Huh? Why?"" Last night, Joash almost drowned himself on the beach, I helped him, I saw how scared he was," He said while staring at meI can feel my sweat flow down from my cheek." Wait, what, you did what?!" Liz asked me" I was stupid that time, I wanted to end my life be--" I'm not yet
JoshWhy did he come back? I thought he already went home, I look stunned when he walked near us, handed me a handkerchief and when he gave me his phone number, Wait, what? If I'm sad or having some problem he will come and help me? Am I dreaming?After the thing happened earlier, I went back to our apartment, as I opened the door the smell of Dilan's scent is still there, I sat on the couch."Hey, you're back?" I heard a voice."I missed you so much, I requested for an under time" I answered and gave him a peck on the cheek."Let's eat then, " Dilan saidMy eyes started to water again, these are the happy moments we had.Every area of this house has a lot of important memories.I stood up and went to the kitchen to get water."Stop drinking those, that is bad for your health" I shouted."
Josh POVI remember every time I woke up this early, breakfast is already ready on our dining table, coffee is served hot, my clothes to wear is also prepared, but now, I need to do it alone.After taking a bath I immediately dressed and walked out of the house, I don't have the appetite to eat.I took a cab and told the driver to drive our office.Along the way, I opened my phone and saw Jordan's Facebook post.Life said " You're gonna be happy" but first I will make you strong."I smiled, seeing Jordan this happy makes my heart flutter, it feels like I am seeing Dilan on him, but the more I see Jordan the more I feel the pain of being left alone by my boyfriend, I guess this is really not a good thing seeing him, talking to him, I need to have space for us.As I arrived at the office, I saw how shocked everyone, how they stared
JoashThat was cool, Dj Dee is really cool, I want to see him soon, I will bring Joash to him, I can feel that he can help Joash to be motivated, he's encouraging words can uplift and motivate Joash."Good Morning, Love" I was shocked when I saw Amanda sitting on my bed, I just came out from the bathroom."What are you doing here?" I asked while walking past her to get clothes." I want to have breakfast" She pouted" The food is downstairs, you go eat there," I said as I pointed the door."No, I want you to be my breakfast" She winked."What the hell?" I whispered"Why! We are lovers and besides, we haven't done that for almost forever" She said while walking near me.I don't know but I really don't want to be with this girl."S--stop it, Amanda," I said as I pushed her head.
Joash"Are you free today?" I sent a text message to Jordan, I am not really waiting for his response since I know that he is still busy working.I was about to put my phone back to my pocket when it rang.I answered it." Joash? Where are you, yes I am free today" He said?I can feel how excited he is based on the tone of his voice."Yes, I want to ask for a favour," I said"What's that?" He asked"Can you help me, can you be my doctor for the meantime? I need a person who will help me rebuild myself" I saidHe cleared his throat before speaking " Yes, why not, I'll definitely help you with that" He saidJoash: Let's meet later on my condominiumJordan: Okay, just send me the addressI sent my address to him after ending the call.After a
JordanShit why does Amanda need to drive Joash home, she might kill me if she noticed that I run off from her just to meet Joash, well this is my first time to visit Joash in the first place. Besides no one will notice me because of my get-up attire I am wearing a black hoodie jacket, mask and thick glasses for me to hide my identity and not to be noticed by Amanda when they arrive.I hide on the Pole next to my car when I saw Amanda's car arriving, I saw how she tried kissing Joash inside but pretended like she was just removing the seatbelt, I know that trick because she used that to get meI saw how disgusted Joash as he went down the car, I can't help but chuckle, When
JoashI went to Dylan's grave and everything was worth it. I know heaven is a beautiful place because they've got youWhen someone makes you the happiest person and the saddest person at the same time, that’s when it’s real. That’s when it’s worth something.You made me the happiest and saddest person in this world when you came into my life and brought me smiles and happiness but everything changed when you suddenly left me. It's been 2years 1month and 27days since you left me. How am I going to explain the feelings I have experienced since he left me? How am I going to face this cruel world when my best friend, best buddy and m
As I went out of the bathroom, the smell of the food that Joash was cooking welcomed me.I smiled stupidly imagining my life with him."YAH, neo geogi usgo meongcheong hae?" He shouted.I did not understand what he just said. I just smiled and walked near him."The only Korean word that I know is SARANGHAE, so I'll take those words as I love you too, okay?" I said and laughed.He smiled and went out."Faster let's eat, cause later I will eat something," He said and winked.I laughed, now I can see his naughty side.I went down to the dining area and the food was already prepared.I sat down and stared to my baby, he was just standing in front of me, smiling."What now? Let's eat," I said."Go, I'll just watch you,""Why? Are you not hungry?""I am, but seeing you makes me full already,""Nah, that's too much sweet, baby," I said and stood in front of him."What was th
JordanI woke up only wearing my boxer shorts, I tried to move but my head is still aching, I touched the bed and saw Amanda lying down beside me."Fuck, what happened?" I asked and stood up." We had fun last night, the way you moan, it feels like you were longing for this for so many years, I still love how you kiss me back, your lips are still that soft, your body is still looking for mine," Amanda said as she stood up, she was only wearing her underwear."Dress up," I shouted and throw her clothes to her." Why? You don't like me seeing naked?" She asked as she crawled going in my direction. "Another round?" She added."No, Amanda, we are over, what happened to us last night is just a mistake, you drugged me, you all played me, I never thought that you can do this to me," I said and took my clothes from the floor."Hey, Jordan, wait, I
Joash povAfter every storm, there is still hopeAfter every rain, there is always a rainbow.After every suffering comes relief.Maybe it's not always about trying to fix something broken. Maybe it's about starting over and creating something better.I'm starting over again. We are on process having a fresh restart.A new pattern of thoughtsNew emotionsA new connection to the worldA new belief system in myselfIn my life and my family.After the shift, I decided to walk in the park. I've had experienced so many bad things these past days and I needed to unwind.I was walking when I guy suddenly appeared in front of me. I was just staring at him while he was busy talking to his phone. HIis smil is very perfect." Who was that? And what are you doing
I woke up very happy today different from other daysAfter I took a bath, I quickly ran down to the kitchen to cook and prepare foods for the two of usI heard a voice coming from the master's room, as I looked back I saw Joash yawning and rubbing his tummy"Good morning," I said and waved" Aww your preparing foods, here let me give you a hand" he offered a hand to help meHe was slicing the meat when he asked me a question" Jordan, what happened last night?" He suddenly asked me and smirked"Huh?, nothing," I answered, I tried my best not to look obvious, I need to help him forget everything that had happened yesterday.My face is burning and I can feel that it is turning red so I quickly looked on the other side"Are you sure? Why are you trembling?" He added" Can you hand me the radish?" He sai
JoashI saw my reflection sitting and huddled in the corner wiping the tears on my eyes.Nobody knows the real me. Nobody knows how many times I've cried in my room when nobody was watching. Nobody knows how many times I've lost hope, how many times I've been let down. Nobody knows how many times I've left like I'm about to snap, but I just don't, for the sake of others. Nobody knows the thoughts that go through my head when I'm sad, how horrible they truly are. Nobody. Knows. Me.I saw how messy I am on that picture until a hand came and offer me to stand up."Baby I will be by your side, I will stay by your side, I will be with you forever, I love you and I will always love you"Who was that?The sad face I once had become like a flower that blooms."You are safe with me I promise. And when you get scared: look me in the eyes,
" Let's go to church," Joash said" Okay" I answeredIt took us 30 minutes to walk from the cemetery to the church, we kneeled and took the moments to pray and ask for forgiveness
I woke up from the sun coming from the window. I squint my eyes and saw Joash preparing coffee."You're awake now?" He asked."Here drink this one," He handed me the coffee. He sat next to me."Thank you, Jordan, I know you have so many things to do but you stayed on my side, I don't know how to repay your kindness. Tell me what you need I will give it, as long as I can, I will repay you." He saidI smiled at him and pressed his hands."You don't need to do that, helping you is enough for me, seeing you smile is enough for me," I answered."Dylan and you are the same, both cheesy and sweet," He said and smiled.I saw happiness through his eyes." Let's visit my brother later? "I asked. I saw how his face gloomed." For real? I can't wait, "He answered." Okay take a bath now, "I said.He hurriedly went inside the bathroom and took a bath, I brought the clothes that my sister brought kast night. Maybe
"Where are you?" I texted Amanda, I need to see her today to tell her that we postpone our date, Joash needs me more." I'm here, look at your back" She replied.I was shocked when she kissed me after I turned my head, "What are you doing?" I asked and gently pushed her."Surprise," She said happily. She walked back and sat beside me." How are you?"I asked"I'm fine" she answered"How about you?""I'm fine as well, Amanda, can we postpone our celebration? I need to hurry and go home, my sister is sick" I lied."What?" She shouted "this is important to me, I even prepared my body for you," She said and moved closer to me, she even rubbed his breast on my arm."What are you doing?" I narrow my brows" I missed you, babe, come to my house, I prepared everything, for you, for us""No Amanda, my sister needs me today, I came to see you just to tell you that," I said