Bitter reality

I don't know how, I try resisting every time but still end up in this situation.

Knowing very well, once I am here then there will be no part of me that will try to back down.

Xander's fingers were circling my hips in a very father-like touch, he is only applying enough pressure to let me feel every inch of his touch.

This whiff of his woody cologne turned my thoughts hazy, it's like all my capability is fogged by the desire swirling in my eyes.

His touch was initiating emotions, I know I can't act upon. Still, I feel no control over myself.

My inner battle was still nowhere to be ended when suddenly, Xander pulled his hands away from my hips, and my eyes snapped open, looking at him with confusion, and instead of answering he smirked then with hooded eyes, he leaned closer.

" The ball is in your court, Iris, either you can push me, or you will have no right to ever stop me."

" This is not right. "

" Then tell me what's wrong. "

" I am engaged."

" Yet you neve