LEAD ME TO FATHER

ARIANA'S POV~

I could see his face, his mischievous grin, and his soft lips on mine before, falling into the abyss

“Mateo!” I screamed.

I stretched out my hand to grab him, but I couldn't reach I was too late, i saw the ocean swallow him up and take him far away from my hand.

“Ariana! Im here, im right here” he kept waving but he was so far away.

“Mateo!” I screamed again before jolting myself awake from sleep. My body was drenched in sweat on a cold night like this.

“That fucking whore! Where is she?” I heard a woman’s voice.

The door of my room burst open and a woman ran in, she lunged at me before Julius ran in and held her back before major damage could be done.

“I knew, miss high and mighty, I saw the way you looked at him that night, you bitch!” she cried, as she attempted to lunge at me again, she grabbed my duvet and ruffled it violently.

“Oh my God Becky,” I whispered and got out of bed.

“You killed him you fucking whore! You killed him!” she cried again before Micola came in to take her away.

Serena came in after.

“Sorry about that Ariana, are you okay?” she asked before smiling at me.

I did not know if I should trust her.

“She’s still very confused, can't blame her, I mean they were about to get married, and you know shit happened,” Serena said.

I was quiet, I watched them escort her out of my room before closing the door.

“Serena, oh my God, I feel so guilty for this, I didnt mean for any of this to happen, did I get Mateo killed” I cried,

She moved closer to me sat beside me, and gestured for me to join her, then she pulled my hand gently until I sat.

“Look at me Ariana, you didnt kill him, this is not your fault, these were two men who should have made better life choices okay, this is not on you, I need you to get yourself together, you have a baby to care for, you can't fall apart, not right now Ari,” my sister said. 

She placed her palm on my back and rubbed it.

“Come on let me help you get ready before the doctor gets here” she smiled.

As I took a step further, I realized something, but I didnt want it to be true, so I discarded the thought.

After almost an hour the doctor arrived, fully prepared with his scan machine, he laid me on the couch comfortably where everyone gathered.

I heard Becky sobbing uncomfortably in the next room, and I felt another fresh wave of guilt wash through me.

“Are you comfortable, Mrs Donatelli?” he asked before giving me a warm smile, i nodded but didnt smile back.

My heart was heavy.

“Im going to now check if everything is okay, do I have your consent?” he asked.

“Yes,” I replied slowly.

He placed the stethoscope plugs in his ear before placing the other end on my bare round belly.

He gave me another smile before concentrating on the sound he hoped to hear.

But I had a doubt.

And my worst fear was confirmed when his smile faded, he shot Julius a glance before trying to locate my baby’s heart bear again.

“What’s going on?” micola asked tapping the doctor.

“Let me confirm” he retorted before, turning to micola.

He pulled the scan machine towards the sofa and turned it on, he gave my belly a glance with another worried expression before turning the machine on.

Soon he had put the jelly and the scan machine was freely roaming.

“Hmmm,” he mumbled, before trying another spot, he applied pressure again.

“There’s the baby, looks good, let's find the heartbeat” he mentioned.

He looked around again before lowering his eyes.

He turned to me and said, “im sorry ma'am, but I couldn't find a heartbeat” he said.

“What does that mean!” Julius thundered.

“We’ve lost the baby, im sorry” he finally said, “I'll give you all some time before we discuss the next steps” he added before getting up and leaving the room.

Everyone fell quiet, I couldn't believe it, I finally lost my child.

The only reason why Mateo let me go on that cliff was because I was carrying his heir and now I've lost the baby.

No! This can't be the end.

“Ariana im so sorry” Serena started, micola nodded and Julius cursed under his breath before looking away.

“What happened?” Becky inquired as she walked into the room, no one said anything but by the look on their faces, it was an easy guess.

“Im glad, im glad that thing inside you thought it wise to go with its father, you cheap fucking whore” she laughed before leaving the room.

I was mute and I sat still on the sofa. I can't believe that this is where it ends. I've lost Mateo and now my only surviving child has also left me.

The doctor came in a few minutes after to lay out my only option.

“We need to take it out as soon as possible” he informed gently, serena hissed in anger and Julius’s arms were folded.

“What?” I asked softly, I couldn't believe what the doctor was suggesting, this couldn't be the end.

“Im sorry ma'am but it's the only way, your baby is gone, we have to get it out, did you want to know the sex?” he inquired.

I looked at him in shock, my mouth unable to move even though I wanted to rip his neck ear to ear for saying my child was dead!

“It was a…”

“I don't care! My child is not dead! Check again! Im not losing my child! No!” I exclaimed before getting up.

“Im not doing this, I can't!” I cried before running out of the room, I had to leave there, I needed to catch my breath.

“Ariana!” I heard Serena call after me.

The ocean where Mateo fell wasn't far from this safe house, I needed to look for him this can't be the end.

“You can't tell me you love me and just die you bastard!” I cried.

I ran out of the house and ordered the guard to drive me to the beach, at first he declined.

“How dare you!” I cried again before slapping him across the face as tears streamed down my face,  but after Serena decided to go with me, Julius allowed it.

After almost 2 hours of driving, we reached the ocean, I wrapped myself comfortably in the long scarf and walked toward the calling calm tide.

“I don't accept this Serena, he told me he was falling in love with me before he fell, he can't just leave like that, and now I've fucked up the one job I have!” I cried.

Serena sighed, “Ariana this isn't your fault, i can't let you rip yourself apart for this since you got married, you haven't been at peace, these men killed your baby! Not you do you hear me” she said before taking my hand.

But I refused to accept the doctor’s diagnosis, I can't let that be the end.

“I need to be alone, Serena,” I said softly before hugging her.

I started my journey along the coastline alone when I started to get an unusual feeling.

It felt familiar, it had happened to me before.

Suddenly I could feel Mateo’s presence among the wind, it got stronger and stronger as I walked along the coast and peered into the ocean down below.

“Mateo” I called softly, just then I felt a kick.

“Oh my God!” I exclaimed touching my belly, I looked again along the shore line something caught my attention on the horizon.

Just a distance away I saw someone on a slab of rock, faced down but I recognised that bloody phoenix tattoo anywhere.

“OH MY GOD! Serena! It's Mateo!”