CHAPTER 5

Dahan-dahan pa rin siyang humakbang palapit sa kanya.

He can feel her strong presence dahilan para patuloy pa rin siya sa paghakbang hanggang sa tumama na ang hubad niyang katawan sa pader.

She grabbed the chance to corner him. But, he tried fighting back. Pero wala rin siyang nagawa dahil mas malakas ang lobo ko kaysa sa kanya.

This b*tch is planning something stupid to do with him. I can’t let her do this but I can’t also control her. This b*tch has become dominant in her own way.

She startd licking the side of his neck while pinning both his hand on the wall. He no longer can fight back as he became weak with what she’s doing.

Mates can feel the same way towards each other once they are having physical contact. Iyon ang dahilan kung bakit bigla siyang nanlambot at hindi makaganti. He also wanted what my wolf is doing to his body. They are feeling the same heat and needs.

When she reached his chin, he immediately moved and catched her lips. Their lips were hungrily fighting.

The both of them can no longer get a hold of themselves. The towel on his lower body fell off leaving both of them fully naked.

She let go of his hand and clung on his neck. He also moved and put both of his hand on her butt cheeks and lift her.

She immediately wrapped her legs around his waist. They then aggresively exchange position, he pinned her on the cold wall and started sucking her lips.

Bumaon ang mga kuko niya sa likuran ng binata ng biglang bumaba ang kamay nito paungo sa kanyang hiyas at nagsimulang maglaro.

He walked and then aggresively lay their body on the soft mattress of the bed. He is now on top of her. His lips travelled from her lips down to her boobs.

He then started sucking her huge tits. A weak moan skipped her mouth. He suck, lick, and suck again his boobs hanggang sa nagsawa siya at muli na namang bumaba ang halik patungo sa kanyang puson hanggang sa kanyang nanginginig na pagkababae.

Kaagad niyang sinakmal ang parteng iyon ng katawan niya dahilan para kumawala ang malakas na ungol mula sa bibig niya at kasabay niyon ang pag arko ng kanyang katawan. Her moaned echoed in the room.

Napasabunot siya sa ulo ng binata pagkatapos ay lalo pang idiniin ang ulo nito sa parte niyang iyon.

She kept on moaning hanggang sa pakiarmdam niya ay nanunuyo na ang kanyang lalamunan.

Patuloy lang naman sa pagdila at pagsipsip sa hiyas niya ang binata. Hanggang sa bigla na lang sumabog ang kung ano mula sa kanyang loob dahilan para lalong lumakas ang ungol niya.

S******p niya ang katas na lumabas sa kanya hanggang sa nagsimula ulit siyang halikan ako mula sa kanyang mga hita paakkyat sa kanyanag puson hanggang sa kanyang bibig.

He then started positioning his big friend from down there.

And I can no longer take it. I can’t make this happen.

Kahit ayaw niya, I forced her to exchange our position and when I finally did it, in a snap, I dissapeared from that place. And I nakedly ran faster toward the place I am curently staying.

I left him there hanging and probably, confused.

I am a f*cking virgin. I cannot just lost my virginity in an unplanned way.

I took some of the clothes hanging outside and sneak inside my room. I put on the clothes on and tied my hair.

“You know what? You desered that damn silver chains on you as you are uncontrollable. Muntik mo na akong ipahamak. Hindi ka pwedeng basta na lang magdesisyon dahil ako pa rin ang may ari ng katawang ‘to. You can’t be just reckless, you are going to destroy both of us. He is human ang he is still our enemy!” May diin ang bawat salitang binibitawan ko. “You cannot just have sex with him. What if I got pregnant? You knew how much his kind loath our kind! What if he reject us? I cannot just depend on a man! You are not coming out unless I say so!” I angrily added inside my head.

“That's the problem with you!” She respond angrily. “You aleays think as if you could control everything. You are always afraid to take a risk because you are afraid of failing or everything will crashed and won't go according to your plan! He is our mate! I cannot just let him away. I cannot live without him!”

“Idiot!” I shouted. “You live for thirty years without him! Why you can't live without him right now! That's the stupidiest thing I've heard from you! He is our enemy! You can't expect him to love you the way you expect him to. The mating bond, iyon lang ang natatanging rason kung bakit ka niya sinabayan kanina. Without that stupid bond, walang mangyayari sa inyo. It's his physical appearance who is yearning for you and not his heart. You can't expect someone to love you just by realizing you are his mate! It doesn't work that way! Everything is not always as what you expected!” She went silent and I heave a sigh. “You do not know him. He is a stranger. There is a lot of what if's. What if he is in a relationship with someone else? What if he is already a married man? What if he is bound to marry someone else? What if he won't like you because we are only half human and he hates our kind? I don't want you to get hurt. I am protecting you from a possible heartache. You become livid when you are broken. Let me work this situation my way and not yours. You are obviously not capable of handling well the situation like these.”

Hindi na siya muli pang nagsalita at kumontra at pinili na lang na nanahimik. Nagpakawala ulit ako ng malalim na buntong hininga.

Mabilis akong napabaling sa aking likuran nang biglang bumukas ang pintong naroon.

Sumalubong sa akin si Beng. Tiningnan niya alo mula ulo hanggang paa.

“Nandito ka na pala, hija. Hindi ko napansin ang pagdating mo.” Saad niya.

“Akala ko tulog ka na kaya hindi ako masyadong nag-ingay. Hiniram ko pala ang mga damit na nakasabit sa labas. Nasira kasi ang damit ko.”

“Ayos lang. Sasamahan na lang kitang bumili ng mga bago mong damit. Baka sakaling maisipan mong magtagal dito.”

“Sige, magpapahinga na muna ako.”

“Oh, sige. Magpahinga ka na. Magpapahinga na rin ako.” Saad niya bago isinara ang pinto.

Pinagpagan ko muna ang maliit na kama bago humiga roon saka ipinikit ang mga mata.

Hindi ko na maramdaman ang lobo ko. And by the way, her name is Coriana. I personally gave her that name. She didn't like it at first but she is getting used to it. She wanted something cool but that name is all I could think of.

I tried finding her inside me. Pero nabigo ako. Hindi ko na siya maramdaman. She is probably hiding somewhere inside me. Magkahalong emosyon siguro ngayon ang nararamdaman niya.

I felt sorry for her though. He is our mate and it was obvious that our bond is strong that is why it is hard to resist. Pero hindi kami pwedeng magpadala sa emosyon.

Matatalo kami kapag nagpadalos-dalos ako. Hindi ako pwedeng magkamali dahil maraming tao ang nakaasa sa akin.

I'm sorry. We can't think of ourselves for now. We need to think first about the safety and freedom of our people. Hindi mahalaga ang mga sarili natin sa ngayon.

I managed to fall asleep after thinking about a lot of things.

***

I woke up before the sun rises. I got up and went outside. The cold breeze of air greeted me. Tahimik ang paligid. Iilan lang ang mga taong naglalakad ngayon sa labas.

I stretched my arms when I suddenly stopped because of a man who casually passed by while looking directly at my eyes. I could see mixed emotions in his eyes. He is angry, disappointed and… Sad?

Maybe because of what happened last night.

He is wearing a square pants and a fitted white shirt, exposing his masculinity. He is jogging.

Nakipaglaban ako ng tingin sa kanya hanggang sa tuluyan na siyang nakalayo.

I let out a deep breath after he was totally gone.

I have a feeling that things won’t be going right and well between us if I will let Coriana do what she wants to our mate. I just have the feeling that fate will be cruel to us if we let the mating bond decide for us.

I already experienced too much heartache even when I was young. I don’t want to experience another. I need to focus on my goal. And that is to save my pack from further and more worst damage.

Beng suddenly appeared behind me handling me a sweet smell of hot chocolate.

“It’s quite cold in here, you might need a hot chocolate. This will also bright your mood.” She said while smiling,

I forcefully smiled at her. I have never experienced something like this. Like someone offers you coffee everyday when you wake up. I was always doing everything on my own.

“Thanks,” simpleng saad ko bago iyon tinanggap.

The sweet smell went straight to my nose.

“What do you want for breakfast?” She asked.

I looked at her straight in the eyes wondering if she was sincere or not.

“Why are you doing this? Why are you taking care of me? I am not asking you to do this.” Saad ko.

She just smiled at me. “This is how we treat our visitors. Aren’t you also like this when you have visitors?”

Inilayo ko na lang ang tingin sa kanya. “I don’t eat breakfast. This hot chocolate will be good.” I said then started sipping on the cup.

“If you say so. I’ll just clean a room para makalipat ka na.” Anya saka umalis na.

We don’t treat our visitors like this ‘cause we never had visitors. Mailang ang mga tao sa amin pati na ang mga kauri namin na galing sa ibang grupo.

Nasa pinakamababang antas na ngayon ang grupo namin dahil sa nangyari noon. Mahigit isang dekada na simula nang magsimula kaming malugmok. Wala na halos nagagawi sa kinaroroonan ng pack namin hindi katulad ng dati na halos sa bawat buwan na lumilipas ay may nangyayaring selebrasyon dahilan para dumagsa ang mga bisita.

Naaalala ko pa dati. Madalas akong tumakas sa mansyon sa tuwing may kasiyahan para magligalig sa lungsod kung saan maraming binebentang nagugustuhan ng aking mga mata.

Tapos papaluhurin ako ni mama sa asin dahil nahuhuli niya ako.

They treated me so vulnerable when I was young. Tinuturing nila akong prinsesa dati na kahit langaw ay ayaw nilang padapuin sa akin. Palagi silang takot dati para sa kaligtasan ko. Sa sobrang pag-aalaga nila sa akin, nabigla ang katawan ko sa responsibilidad na iniwan nila noong nawala sila pareho.

Pinili ko na lang na sumimsim sa hot chocolate na binigay sa akin ni Beng.

Nang maubos ko ang iniinom ko, lumabas ako sa maliit na gate at naglakad-lakad. Medyo gumaan ang pakiramdam no dahil sa ininom ko.

Nakasalubong ko sa daan ang mag-inang namamahala sa lugar na ito. They both stopped when they saw me.

The both of them just looked at me. Ang dalagang kasama ni Cassa ay pinandilatan ako bago sumenyas sa ina na magpatuloy na sila.

Ngumiti naman siya rito bago sumunod.

Cassa looked at me one last time before passing me.

I see… They are having a mother and daughter bonding this early… Just like we used to do.

Hindi na ako mabibigla kung bigla na lang rin mangyari sa batang 'yon ang nangyari sa akin noon sa magkaibang pagkakataon.

At sa ugali niyang 'yon, siguradong mas mahihirapan pa siya.

Buti siguro kung hindi na uulitin ng aming ina ang ginawa niya noon. Sana naman piliin na niyang manatili sa kabila ng masamang nangyayari at hindi na lang basta na maglalaho.

That brat is still my half sister. I also want the best for her.