Chapter 63: Love story

Charlotte’s pov 

I went back inside and found everyone still celebrating.

Logan was drinking way too much; I think he feels guilty because he is actually relieved.

Although he considers Mr Knight his family he is still happy that his father didn’t suffer from all of this.

I guess I would say that it’s a bittersweet moment for him.

I went and sat next to me, he put his arm on my shoulder as they were talking with some of the pack members.

His father wasn’t around, I guess he is probably drowning his own sorrows somewhere.

You know being betrayed is probably the worst feeling in the world.

He is probably angry and also feeling sad for his friend who had just lost everything.

Being banished from a pack is worst punishment than death, but at the same time he will still be alive.

So, he is probably debating if what he did was better or if there was another option or if he could have done somethings differently.

I wondered as well when my mother didn’t choose me.

Was I a terrible daughter to her?

Did she see any evilness in me that I couldn’t see?

Did I do something that she buried under the rug and then understood that night?

Why did the woman who loved me and gave birth to me look at me like I am an abomination.

Would she have chosen me if I got up every time when she told me to.

Would she have chosen me if I smiled more or was kinder and gentler?

Was a not a good enough daughter to her?

No matter how badly hurt we are we don’t want to blame the other person.

Maybe its because we love them, does that mean that we also hate ourselves?

Is that why we blame ourselves instead of the people we love? 

That would make sense, Sasha is probably a narcissist so she would blame her father.

Everyone in this room feels guilty about what happened one way or another.

Except for her, even the people who were nothing but spectators.

Even me a complete stranger feels some kind of sadness towards him, but his own daughter does feel anything at all.

“Let’s go and get some air” Logan said to me, and I nodded as we went out.

We went to the garden and sat down on the grass, “you don’t seem to be enjoying yourself, that’s why I said we should go out” he said.

“It’s nothing, I am just tired” I said, and he looked at me with a smile.

“Then you must always be tired” he said, and I looked at him confused.

“You look like that most of the time” he explained, and I nodded.

“Stay with me” he said, and I looked at him and he smiled.

He opened his arms wide, “stay with me, every time when you are tired I will hold you in my arms” he said.

He then pulled me into his arms, “and then I will kiss you and make you feel alright” he said and started kissing my cheeks.

He then moved to my forehead, my eyes, my nose and then stopped a little at my lips.

His touched mine, I felt my heart dancing around with joy at this.

He got closer and I slightly opened my mouth which he took as an okay to kiss me.

And he did, he kissed me, it was the gentlest kiss I have ever had.

Just gentle enough to sweep me off my feet, he then pulled away and smiled.

That handsome smile, what the hell am I doing?

What happened to keeping a distance?

I thought in this lifetime I didn’t want a love story.

But looking at him I want it; I want a perfect love story.

 

I want the white picket fence with kids running around.

I want to be able to grow old with someone, I want to love this amazing guy in front of me.

He then didn’t say anything and just held me in his arms like that. What is this feeling?

This warm and really fuzzy feeling that I am getting.

Will I ever get that?

I have never dreamt of dreaming.

You see I spent so much time looking behind my back.

Reading as many books as I could to try and find answers about the curse.

The one dream I have ever had and honestly wouldn’t have admitted out loud was that I want to be free.

I was scared that maybe that dream would never come true.

Even now I am scared to death, what if I die without getting rid of the curse?

And then I have to do this whole process all over again.

 What if I never get to have a love story? 

Logan’s pov 

“What? You heard Sasha say all that?” I asked Charlotte and she nodded as we were getting ready to sleep.

“She asked her own father to challenge my dad” I said and honestly I believe her but it’s still unbelievable.

She would do something like this to her own father.

“That’s not all, she showed no remorse. You should have heard the way she was talking to him, to took everything in me to not go there and slap her” Charlotte said shaking her head.

 I smiled when she said this, I have seen that feisty side of her so it does sound like something she could do.

I loved the way she put my brother in his place, no one has ever been bold enough to tell him the truth.

I also liked the look on his face when she said that.

Something about having his face so far up his ass, “What’s with the smile?” she asked, and I just shrugged.

I looked at her, even with a bare face after taking a shower she still looks amazing.

She let me kiss her, I don’t know how but somehow she opened up to me.

I am not even trying that hard, hell I have just been myself for the past few days.

So, is that what it takes to win her over?

All I need to do is just to be myself and nothing more?

For the past few days, I feel like I am getting to know her better.

I am starting to see how amazing she is.

You know in my head I always held her to the standards from that night when we first met.

I thought that she was wise, and the more I get to know the deeper in love I get.

The moon goddess has without a doubt given me the best mate in the world.

Who cares about the curse?

If needed I will just spend whatever little time I have with her in this world. 

Those were the words that came to Ryder’s mind when he first met Reene. That he didn’t care if he died young or if his soul would end up in the abyss for the rest of his life.

As long as for a few seconds, minutes, hours, days, and weeks he got to hold her.

Now I understand him, I understand him more than anyone else.

Because I would do the same, the memories of her smile and lips will forever be in my mind.

Like this curse I hope that they are attached to my soul, so I remember her in all my lifetimes.

“Hey where did your mind wonder off to? I just told you about what Sasha did” she said, and I nodded.

“Yeah I am just processing it” I said, and she nodded.

“But what was her plan exactly?

Do you think that she would have harmed you if she succeeded?” I asked her.

“No, I think the easiest way would be to marry your brother.

And those two have so much in common, I bet some of these days they will get together” she said shaking her head.

Sasha has always had a thing for me, would she settle for my brother just for the title of Queen Luna.

There is so much to unpack now, I never really realized until now, but this place is not safe.

Home has always been the safest place for me, but now that I know the truth it isn’t anymore.

Maybe it’s because I was sheltered, and our father made sure that nothing could harm us. 

As we get older and start going on our own paths we realize how unsafe the world really.

To think that there are people who have lived this way ever since they were young.

To think that Charlotte has lived like this ever since she was 16 years old.

Never feeling safe no matter what, always sleeping with one eye open.

I have only experienced it for a few days, but I already feel like I am suffocating.

“And what about this witch? Who is she and who exactly is her target? Why is she targeting you and me?” I asked and Charlotte sighed.

“That’s the million dollar question, who the hell is her real target?” she asked.