Amara
I'm glad that Kuya and Manang Nenita were with me yesterday. They helped me with everything I needed to do and even drove me to the airport. Returning to the States feels different now that I'm no longer a Villanueva. Ang huling punta namin rito ay noong nag bakasyon kami, magkasama at masaya. Ngunit ngayon, ako nalang mag isa. The change is hard to accept. And I hate how just thinking about it makes me want to cry. Everything feels strange and new, as if the world has shifted slightly, making me see everything from a different perspective. The weight of my new reality is heavy. But it's good to be back here. At least now I'm with my family. It gives me a sense of comfort I desperately need right now. Though everything feels different, being surrounded by those who love me makes it a little easier for me. Pero hindi pa rin ako natutuwa sa ginawa nila kahapon, para lang ma sorpresa ako pag pumunta. I'm physically and emotionally exhausted. But I know I'll be fine. Things always get better in the end. Mabigat pa sa ngayon. This, too, will pass, and I'll find my way through it. I looked outside the window at the city lights below. They were beautiful, but I couldn't bring myself to feel excited like I used to. Natigil ako sa pagtingin sa baba nang makaramdam ako ng matinding pagkahilo. I grabbed the plastic bag I always keep in my bag when I travel, just in case. Parang masusuka ako. This was new for me. Hinawakan ko nalang muna ang plastic. I rested my head against the seat, feeling awful. I'd never felt like vomiting while on a flight before. I tried to stay calm. Ngunit hindi ko na napigilan nang tumagal. I guess I'm too stressed and haven't had enough sleep, which is why I vomited. Parang hinahalukay ang tiyan ko. After this flight, I'll make sure to rest, napapabayaan ko na ang sarili ko. A few more minutes until I arrive. I feel a mix of sadness and a hint of relief. I’m finally with my family again, but he's no longer here. I sighed deeply. I don’t know how to cope with this now that I’m alone again. It feels strange. I got so used to having him around that being alone now, going back to being a Fernandez, feels weird and wrong. The love we shared now feels like a cruel joke, and it hurts more than I can bear. Pag naaalala ko ang halikan nila ni Tiana parang gusto ko na lamang silang saktan pareho. Wala akong ginawa sakanila kung hindi ay maging isang mabuting asawa at kaibigan. Tama si Kuya Mel, masyado akong naging maluwag at mabait. Even when his mother disrespected me right in front of him, he never did anything to stop it or stand up for me. Kahit pa sinubukan niya itong pigilan, hindi pa rin ito nag tagumpay. It’s clear she knows him well, understands exactly what he likes and dislikes. Kilalang kilala niya ang anak niya. Kaya siguro ganoon nalang kung tratuhin niya ako, dahil siya mismo alam kung ano ang tunay na nararamdaman ng anak niya. Ang daling pinaniwalaan ang mga paratang sa akin. It’s painful to realize that he might have seen this as his chance to leave me. When the opportunity came, he took it without a second thought, leaving me. Hindi man lang pinaabot ng isang buwan, ilang oras lang yata nang umalis siya sakin at nakipaghalikan na sa iba. Ako ba talaga ang nagloko, Javier? After a few more minutes, my flight finally landed. The cold wind hit my face as I stepped outside. Mas mabuting na rin na dito ako, baka sakaling gumaan kahit konti. I grabbed my suitcase and headed to the taxi stand. The cab pulled up quickly, and I climbed in, giving the driver the address to our house. Nakakapanibago, pero hindi na rin masama. Masasanay din ako, kinaya ko noon at kakayanin ko ulit ngayon. The city passed by in a blur of lights and shadows as the cab made its way through the streets. The familiar sights of home began to appear, but they felt different somehow, almost distant. Each turn and street sign brought a wave of memories, both good and painful. Finally, we reached the house. I paid the driver, took my luggage, and stood for a moment on the doorstep. The place looked the same, but it felt colder, emptier. I took a deep breath and opened the door, inaasahan ang sorpresa sa akin. Ngunit para akong nanlamig nang makitang walang tao roon. Nanginginig akong pumasok. Hindi maari... Para sa sorpresa iyon hindi ba? Nasaan sila ngayon? As I stepped inside, Nia, one of the housekeepers, emerged from the kitchen with a look of surprise on her face. Nia is also Filipina and works here overseas. Ngumiti ito nang marahan, nang makabawi sa pagkabigla. "Ma'am, nandito na pala kayo. Upo ka muna ma'am." Inalalayan ako nito papunta sa upuan. "Nasaan sila?" I asked, my voice trembling. Please, let this be a surprise. It has to be a surprise. Hindi totoo iyong sinabi ni tita sa tawag. Hindi dapat totoo iyon. Huwag ngayon, hindi ko kakayanin. Tears started to well up in my eyes, almost spilling over. There was no way. My mother couldn’t be gone. I couldn’t bring myself to believe it. Hindi sumagot si Nia, niyakap ako nito. Nakakabigla, ngunit nakakagaan ng pakiramdam. Walang tigil sa pag tibok nang mabilis ang puso ko. "Nasaan sila, Nia?" Inulit ko ang tanong ko, ngunit nanatili itong tahimik. She pulled away from the hug and grabbed her purse from the counter. Taking my hand, she gently guided me outside. I had no idea where we were heading, natatakot akong malaman. We took a short cab ride, and as we approached our destination, my heart sank when I saw the sign for the social hall. My stomach churned as I realized it was the place where wakes are usually held. Nanginginig ang katawan ko, ayoko nang tumuloy. Walang tigil sa pagpatak ang mga luha ko. Hindi ko man lang magawa ang magpahinga sa lahat ng nangyayari sa buhay ko. Bakit ngayon pa... "Bakit nandito tayo Nia? Ayoko rito, umuwi na tayo." Saad ko, ngunit hinawakan lamang ako nito sa kamay at tiningnan ako sa marahan na paraan. Ang mga mata nito ay malungkot habang nakatingin sa akin. Umiling ako, ayaw tanggapin ang nangyayari. The cab came to a stop in front of the social hall. Nia continued to guide me, each step feeling like it was getting harder and harder to take. My legs felt heavy, and every move seemed to take all my strength. When we walked through the door, the sight before me nearly stopped my heart. There, near the urn, was a large photograph of my mother. Her smile looked so serene and peaceful. Sampal sa katotohanan na inaasahan ko. Ang sorpresang inaasahan ko. Akala ko pag umuwi ako rito, ay mababawasan ang sakit na nadarama ko. Mas lalo lamang itong nadagdagan. I saw the family turn to me, their faces full of pain. Their grief was too much to bear. I couldn’t move another step. My legs gave out, and I fell to the floor, feeling completely lost. I cried with a deep, aching pain that felt like it was coming from my core. Ang bawat hikbi ay masakit sa aking dibdib. Everything around me blurred as I cried uncontrollably, kinakain ako ng matinding kirot sa aking dibdib. Sinubukan akong itayo ni Nia, ngunit hindi ko na kaya pang tumayo. Lumapit sa akin ang pamilya, ngunit si Tita ang nauna, umiiyak habang umupo sa tabi ko at niyakap ako. “Why would you leave me, Mom? Bakit?” I cried out, my voice breaking with every word. Bawat tanong ay parang kutsilyong tinatarak sa dibdib ko. Ayokong paniwalaan noong nalaman ko, ginawa ko ang lahat para kalimutan ang sinabi ni Tita. Iniisip na baka may sorpresa lang para sa pagdating ko. Pero bakit ganito naman kasahol ang madadatnan ko…Amara"Mom, I want this too!" My five year old son, Yuan, came running to me, clutching a bright red toy car. His hair bounced with each step, may malaking ngiti sa kanyang labi. Ngunit bago pa man ito makalapit sa akin, Ayala her twin sister stepped in front of him, blocking his path with her tiny arms."You already bought a lot, Yuan," she said, crossing her arms with a stern look on her face. Halos magkadikit na ang kilay nito. Parang matanda kung umasta. Hindi ko mapigilan ang hindi matawa sa ginawa nito. I walked over to them.I bent down to their level. "Hey, it's okay. Mommy's going to buy it, alright? But first, what do you always need to remember?" I asked, nakangiti habang kausap ang dalawang anak ko.Yuan's expression softened as he came closer and hugged me. Ayala followed him. "Be kind always," Yuan said, hugging me tightly. Natawa ako nang marahan habang niyakap silang dalawa."Very good," I said softly, pinisil ang mga pisngi nila. "Let's go and pay."Just like usual, t
AmaraThe next day, we gathered in the conference room for a crucial business meeting about the trip to the Philippines. Ang buong kwarto ay tahimik at tanging tunog lamang ng aircon at ng aking takong ang maririnig.Ang mga taong naunang dumating na nakaupo kanina ay tumayo nang pumasok ako. Randam ko ang pag sunod ng mata nila sa akin habang papunta ako sa aking upuan sa unahan. "Alright, let's get started," I began, taking a deep breath. "This collaboration could take our perfume brand to the next level. The Philippines offers a unique market with great potential, and partnering with this new brand can open doors we haven't even imagined."Our marketing head, Elena, nodded in agreement. Pinaglalaruan ng kamay nito ang ballpen sa harapan. "We've done extensive research on the market trends there, and it's clear that there's a growing demand for high-quality perfumes. Our products will fit perfectly.""Logistics will be key," Rafael added, his voice steady and confident. "We need to
Rafael As I packed the last of our luggage, I glanced over at the twins. Ayala and Yuan were bubbling with excitement, walang tigil sa pagngiti ang dalawa. May dala-dala silang maliliit na bag na hindi nila binibitawan. Napangiti ako habang tinitingnan sila. "Are you guys ready?" I asked, ruffling Yuan's hair. "Ready, Papa!" Ayala chimed in, bouncing on her feet. I smiled, but a part of me was still worried about the trip. Tiningnan ko si Amara na nag aayos sa sarili habang nakatingin sa salamin. I knew how much it meant to her, and I wanted to be there to support her through it. I also knew there were things in the Philippines she preferred to keep buried. Noong panahon na walang wala siya, ako ang nandoon para suportahan siya sa lahat. Mahal ko siya bilang kaibigan ko. Marami na rin siyang naitulong sa akin. Hindi ko nga rin maintindihan sa sarili ko noon kung bakit ko siya tinulungan. Ayoko sa miserable, pero tinulungan ko ang babaeng puno ng uhog noon habang umiiyak sa gilid n
RafaelOur flight landed safely. Nakahinga na rin ako nang maluwag, ngunit pagod ako sa byahe. Habang yung dalawang bata naman ay masiglang masigla, sabik nang makababa ka agad ng eroplano. I shook my head and smiled slightly at the sight."Welcome to the Philippines," the flight attendant announced over the intercom.We gathered our things, making sure not to leave anything behind. "Alright, kids," I said, trying to keep my voice firm. "we're here, huwag bibitaw sa kamay ni mom, maliwanag?"Tumango naman silang dalawa na ngiting ngiti. "Opo!" sagot ni Yuan, kaya ginulo ko ng kaunti ang buhok nito saka ko siya nginitian.Hinayaan ko nalang muna na si Amara ang maghahawak sa kamay nila. Dahil ako naman ang nagdadala ng gamit naming lahat. Mas mabigat iyon kung ipapaako ko pa sakanya. Kahit papaano may natitira pa naman na pag ka gentleman sa budhi ko, hindi pa naman purong disney princess lang.As we stepped off the plane, the warm, humid air hit us, a stark contrast to the air-conditi
AmaraAll day we stayed in the hotel to rest. It felt really great that Rafael came with us. It made me feel a little more at ease.Medyo naninibago rin kasi ako nang makabalik ulit dito pagkatapos ng ilang taon. Mahirap man aminin pero parang nanumbalik sa akin ang mga nangyari noon pagkalabas namin ng eroplano. Mabuti na lamang at minsan ay kinakausap ako ni Rafael, kahit kadalasan wala naman sa hulog ang pinagsasabi niya basta malibang lang ako. Nakakatulong iyon maibaling sa ibang bagay ang atensyon ko, kaysa isipin ang mga nangyari noon.Nakakagalit ang ginawa nila, nakakasuka. Hanggang ngayon ay pinagsisisihan ko talagang hayaan sila na gawin sa akin ang lahat ng iyon. Hindi sila karapat-dapat sa kabaitan ko. Inabuso nila ako.We shared the huge room he booked. I had no problems with it since alam ko naman na ang pagkatao niya. Kahit yata maghubad ako sa harapan niya mandidiri lang iyon. Ilang taon na kaming magkaibigan, at laking pasalamat ko rin sakanya na nabuhay pa ako ngay
Amara Bumaba ako sa harapan ng isang napakalaki at eleganteng building. Its modern design was striking, with large glass panels that allowed a clear view of the interior. Kitang kita sa labas lahat ng tao sa loob, mayroong nakatutok sa laptop, may nag uusap at ang mga nagtra-trabaho rin dito. The building exuded an aura of sophistication and success, much like the one I had in the States. Huminga ako nang malalim bago pumasok sa loob. I walked through the glass doors, entering a spacious lobby filled with sleek, contemporary furniture and tasteful art pieces. Maganda ang atmospera, kahit saan ka lumingon ay halos yayamanin ang makikita mong tao. I made my way to the reception desk, where a friendly yet efficient-looking secretary greeted me. "Good morning," I said, trying to keep my voice steady. "I'm Amara Verity Fernandez. I have a meeting regarding the perfume collaboration." Ngumiti ito sa akin ng malaki, bato ako binati. "Good morning, Ms. Fernandez. We've been expecting you.
Amara I went back to the hotel after that. Para akong nakalutang, hindi maintindihan ang dapat na maging reaksyon. Hindi naman ako sigurado na siya iyon, nakakapanibago lang. Pumasok ako ng hotel ngunit wala na sila roon. Ibinilin ko naman sakanila bago ako umalis kanina na umalis nalang sila kahit wala ako. Susunod naman ako pagkatapos. Pero parang nawalan na ako ng gana. Hindi dapat ganito, matagal ko nang ibinaon sa limot lahat ng nangyari. Kung sakaling siya man iyon, ano naman ngayon? Malamang ay sila na ngayon ni Tiana. Baka nga may anak na sila. Ilang taon na rin ang nakalipas. Kontento na rin ako na ako lang at yung mga anak ko. Nandito pa si Rafael upang suportahan ako sa lahat ng bagay. I sighed at my own thoughts, feeling the weight of my fears pressing down on me. Shaking my head to clear my mind, kinuha ko yung cellphone para tawagan si Rafael. Kailangan ko silang puntahan ngayon, nangako ako sa dalawa na susunod ako doon. Kailangan ko rin ikalma ang sarili.
Amara "Ask mommy" sagot ni Rafael kay Yuan. Nangungulit itong huwag muna bumalik ng States at pumunta sa bahay ni Rafael sa probinsya. I chuckled as Yuan kept tugging at my hand, trying to get my attention. "Mom, can we stay here a little longer? Please?" he begged, his eyes wide with excitement. Kasalanan talaga ito ni Rafael, dahil sinabi niya pa iyon. Hangga't maaari sana ay pagkatapos namin na mag gala rito, ay babalik na kami ng States. Hindi ako komportableng mamalagi rito. On the other side, Ayala was quietly taking in the surroundings, her small hand firmly in Rafael's grip. She looked up at him every now and then, her curiosity evident in her gaze. Tahimik lang si Ayala, hindi ito yung tipong nangungulit pero makikita pa rin sa mukha niya yung kuryusidad. Naghihintay ng magiging desisyon ko. Paano ako tatanggi kung ganito yung mga mukha nila. I glanced at Rafael, who was smirking playfully, his eyes sparkling with encouragement. "It would be a good experience for t
Javier Napakapit ako sa gilid ng lamesa upang mapanatili ang balanse matapos ang huling sampal na natamo ko dahil sa galit ni Mr. Wei. Ramdam ko ang malamig na patak ng dugo na umaagos mula sa sugat sa aking pisngi, ngunit pinilit kong pigilan ang sarili na ipakita ang sakit o galit ko. Alam kong hindi ako maaaring magpakita ng kahinaan, lalo na sa harapan ng taong ito. "Mr. Wei," mahina pero mariing sabi ko habang tinititigan siya ng diretso sa mata, "I assure you, I will handle this. Hindi makakaligtas ang Montellions sa ginawa nila. Hindi ko hahayaang tuluyang masira ang negosyo mo dahil sa kanila." Patuloy siyang naglalakad paikot sa opisina, parang isang hayop na na-trap, puno ng galit at kawalan ng tiwala. Tumigil siya sa harapan ko, ang mabigat na hininga niya ay parang nagbabantang bagyo. Nakita ko ang pait at galit sa kanyang mga mata hindi lang dahil sa pagkalugi, kundi dahil sa pride na tila nabasag. "Don't you dare make promises you can't keep, Villanueva," mari
RafaelAfter our coffee time, I drove Amara to one of my penthouses near the beach. To be honest, I was a bit surprised when she asked if she could stay there for a while. And who am I to refuse? After all, I'm her devoted best friend.Pagdating namin doon ay sinalubong kami ng malamig na hangin kasabay ng tunog ng mga alon. Pinanood ko si Amara habang nililipad ng hangin ang kanyang buhok, at tahimik niya itong isinuklay pabalik sa likod ng kaniyang tainga.Bigla ko naman naalala ang eksena namin sa loob ng coffee shop. Mukhang nag-aalala siya para sa mga empleyado ni Javier, pero naramdaman ko rin ang matinding galit niya para sa kanya.She might have sounded like she was worried about him, but the truth was, she wasn’t. At first, I had doubts, maybe, she still had lingering feelings for him. That’s why I tried to remind her that he wasn’t worth it.I was relieved to hear that her concern was solely for the employees and not for her ex-husband.She may have spoken calmly, but I coul
After Rafael left and went to the washroom, I lightly tapped my chest, trying to calm myself.I can't deny that I was surprised when he said those things.Maybe even he, didn't realize that I heard what he said. I'm well aware that Rafa is a big fan of jokes and loves to tease me whenever he gets the chance.But what I didn't expect was, when he whispered about his preference between his thighs.Because of what he said, I couldn't help but feel embarrassed and awkward. I know Rafa didn't mean anything by it; even though he's gay, he has a buff, muscular body, and his features are masculine enough to fool any woman into thinking he's a real man.Dahil sa pakiramdam ko ay umiinit pa rin ang pisngi ko, tumayo na ako sa kinauupuan ko upang um-order ng ice cream. Habang nasa counter ay napabaling naman ang tingin ko sa wall tv na naka attached sa may gilid. Hindi ko napansin na mayroon TV pala doon kung hindi i-on ng isang staff nila. Bahagyang lumaki ang mga mata ko matapos makita an
RafaelAs we settle down at La Estrella, I couldn’t help but stifle a laugh, my shoulders shaking slightly.“What’s going on?” Amara arched her left eyebrow as she reached for her coffee and gently took a sip.She’s so incredibly pretty and elegant in every way she moves. For a moment, I just stared at her, as if in this bustling coffee shop, everything around us blurred, and all I could see was her.I couldn’t resist snapping my fingers in the air, which made her jump a little.“You know Amara, if I were a woman, I’d be even prettier than you,” I said, chuckling.Amara rolled her eyes, and unknowingly, I smiled.Damn. I’m so lucky to have her as my best friend. Of course, a beauty like hers needs a goddess like me. If I had long hair, I’d already be flipping it.“You seems so happy today.”Marahan nitong ibinaba ang kaniyang tasa sa mesa.Isang malawak na ngiti naman ang binigay ko sa kaniya, “Of course! We should celebrate your successful meeting with Ms. Guevarra.Bahagya naman namu
JavierAfter calming myself down, I immediately executed my plan to address the problems that kept coming one after another.I turned to Serena, who was standing in front of me.“Please handle the press for me, Serena. If possible, tell them that I will hold a press conference with them as long as they take down the news,” I instructed.“Noted, boss. Then, I’ll take my leave,” she replied, bowing slightly before leaving my office.I looked up at the ceiling with a frustrated sigh.If Amara were beside me, she would have told me to stay calm and gather my thoughts. Even though we’ve been apart for a year, her presence still lingers in my mind.I shook my head, trying to push thoughts of Amara aside. There was no time for distractions. I had to focus on salvaging what was left of my crumbling plans.With a deep breath, I reached for my phone and dialed the number of my head of operations.“David, I need an immediate status update on the site where the collapse occurred,” I said, my voice
JavierNaantala ang pagpunta ko sa meeting matapos kong mabalitaan na nagkaroon ng aksidente na nangyari sa mga dini-deliver namin na construction items.At first, it seemed like a minor issue, something that could easily be fixed by using another courier.Pero huli ko na malaman na mas malala pa pala ang sitwasyon. Our delivered items had been swapped, and some of it had already been used at the construction sites, leading to a major collapse.The replacement items were nothing but low-quality materials, halatang sinadyang palitan upang sabotahiin ang negosyo ko.And upon the investigation, it was revealed that the Montellions were behind it.I remembered how fiercely we competed to win Mr. Wei's favor, and despite the odds, I managed to convince him to side with us, causing a significant loss for the Montellions.I clenched my fist tightly, frustration washing over me.Ang insidenteng ito, kasama pa ang pagkakasugat ng ilan sa mga tauhan ni Mr. Wei, would severely damage our busines
RafaelI was little bit impatient today. I can’t call my assistant because right now, she’s maybe at Javier’s side attending all his schedule.And the only one who left me is Norrine, one of my people I planted inside of his company. Her great intellegent towards at mathematics raise her position as Accounting Manager. I picked up my phone and dialed her number. It took two rings before she finally answered.“Sir,” she said, her voice steady and professional."Norrine, what's the status on the plan?" My voice was steady, but beneath the surface, a storm brewed.I stood before the towering glass wall. The sky was a brilliant blue, the sun casting a warm serene light over the chaos of my thoughts.My eyes traced the buzzling city but all I could see was my reflection on the glass wall with a dark expression on my face. I couldn’t help but to feel anxious now that I know that Javier would be there in the collaboration of Amara and Penelope’s business venture. The knowledge that he wou
RafaelI stood on the balcony, overlooking the beach as the moonlight danced on the waves. Ang payapang kapaligiran ay siya namang kabaliktaran ng isipan ko. I pulled out my phone and called my assistant, needing to get updates on the situation with Javier’s company."Hello" I said when my assistant picked up. "What's the latest update on sabotaging Javier's company?"I leaned over the balcony, watching the waves crash against the shore. The night air was cool and crisp as I took a long drag from my cigarette, the tip briefly lighting up in the darkness.Matagal ko nang minamatyagan ang kompanya ni Javier, ex husband ni Amara. Simula nang malaman ko ang bagay na ginawa niya noon, hindi ko maiwasan ang hindi magalit. Hindi naman ako ang niloko, pero sa tuwing iniisip kong sinaktan nito si Amara, parang may kung ano sa loob ko na gusto siyang pahirapan.At iyon ang naghantong sa akin sa ganitong posisyon. Ako rin naman ang dahilan bakit ang lapit nila ngayon nang hindi nila alam. Malaki
AmaraI stayed at the mansion with my daughter Ayala, who was sleeping so peacefully. Her tiny body curled up under the soft blankets, completely relaxed after the long journey. Rafael and Yuan had gone out to explore, leaving the house in a gentle, serene quiet.Settling into a cozy armchair, I opened my book and let myself get lost in its pages. The silence was comforting, a rare moment of calm.Mabuti na rin na pumayag akong pumunta rito. Napakaganda ng lugar na ito, malayong malayo sa kinalakihan kong lugar. Kung sa lugar na nakasanayan ko ay halos malalaking building ang makikita, dito naman ay konti lang. Wala masyadong malalaking gusali.Noong nalaman ko kay Rafael na Capiz ang probinsya nito, ayoko na tumuloy. Ngunit pumayag nalang ako, kaysa bawiin yung sinabi ko.Naalala ko ang mga nangyari dati, hindi naman na dapat pang inaalala. Ang sinabi dati ng mama ni Javier na nandito sila ni Tiana, nag babakasyon habang ako ay naiwang mag isa. Matagal nang tapos iyon. Kaya mas mabut