Amara
Ang malamig na tubig na dumadaloy sa akin ay tuluyan ko nang naramdaman nang marinig ko iyon. Si Javier ang nag utos? Hindi niya magagawa sa akin iyon. Kahit galit 'yon... mahal pa rin ako. Kaya bakit? baka nagkamali lang si kuya. "Kuya, baka nagkamali lang po kayo ng pagkarinig?" tanong ko habang iniinda ang ulan sa labas ng bahay ni mama. Bago pa ito makapagsalita upang sagutin ako, lumabas si mama. May sarkastikong ngiti. "He did say that," she smirked, the corners of her mouth curling up in a way that made her words sting even more. Nang marinig ko iyon sakanya, at makita ang mukha nitong puno ng sarkasmo, imbes na magalit ako, mas lalo lamang ako nanlumo. He was really angry at me. A cold shiver ran down my spine at the thought that we might never fix this mess. The idea of losing him for good filled me with fear, making it hard to breathe. "Saan po siya ngayon mama?" I asked in a weak voice, struggling to keep my composure. My words felt like they were barely holding together. I needed to know, even though the answer might break me even more. Hindi ko na alintana ang malakas na buhos ng ulan sa akin. Basang basa ako, mabuti na lamang hinintay ako ng driver namin. Nandoon ang mga gamit kong dala-dala. "He went out with Tiana," she replied, her voice flat and emotionless. The words hit me like a punch to the gut. My mind raced with questions and fears, each one cutting deeper than the last. Tiana. Of course, it had to be her. The weight of betrayal and confusion bore down on me, making it hard to breathe. Para akong napako sa kinatatayuan ko at hindi agad nakasagot. Nasaktan ako roon. Alam kong hindi ko dapat pag selosan si Tiana, dahil hindi naman ito nagpakita sa akin ng kasamaan. Hindi rin siya nagpakita sa akin ng mga bagay na dapat kong pagselosan. She had always been a good friend to Javier. Maybe he was with her now, venting all the things he couldn't say to me. The thought of him opening up to her, sharing his pain and frustrations, twisted something sharp in my heart. It hurt knowing he turned to someone else, even if it was just to talk. I tried to convince myself that it was just friendship, that he needed someone to lean on. I lifted my eyes to meet Mama's and nodded weakly. "Aalis na lang po ako, kung ganoon, mama," I said. My voice was barely a whisper. The walls around me felt like they were closing in, and I needed to breathe, to think. Leaving seemed like the only option left, kahit na parang tinatakasan ko ang lahat ng importante sa akin. "No, pumasok ka. Javier left something for you," she said, her voice steady. I was stunned. I hadn't expected her to let me inside their house without Javier being there. Alam ko ang galit nito sa akin. Gayon pa man, ay nagpapasalamat ako. Susubukan ko rin itanong ang sinabi nito kay Javier. I was trembling with fear, my heart racing at the thought of asking. I desperately wanted to know. Kanina lang ay galit ako nang malaman ang galit ni Javier sa akin dahil sa sinabi ni mama. Pero ngayon na nandito na siya sa harapan ko, hindi ko magawang magalit. Gusto niya ang nakakabuti para kay Javier. At hindi ko man lang iyon maibigay sa anak niya. Walang mali sa katawan ko, ngunit isang taon na ang nakalipas pero hindi pa rin ako nabubuntis. Nakakapagod ang lahat... Tiningnan ko ang kabuuan ni mama habang nakasunod ako sakanya. Hindi pa halata sa mukha nito ang katandaan, ngunit kung titigan mo nang mabuti ang kanyang galaw ay mahina na ito. Pumasok ito sa loob, ngunit natigil ako nang huminto siya sa pintuan. "Just stay outside. I don't want you bringing any mess into the house," she said coldly, her voice sharp and unwelcoming. Her words were like a cold wind, pushing me back, kaya napatungo naman ako. Feeling the weight of her disapproval, I stood there, drenched. Knowing I wasn’t welcome to step further. It stung, but I understood. Tiningnan ko ang sarili. Basang basa ang kasuotan. Hindi na ako maayos kung tingnan. Naaawa ako sa sarili ko, pero hindi ko na iyon pinansin. I stood outside by the door, soaked. The cold rain dripped down my body, and the chilly wind made me shiver uncontrollably. I felt numb and alone, the harsh weather only adding to my pain. Hindi nagtagal, lumabas na rin si mama. May dala itong papel. Hindi ko alam pero bigla akong kinabahan. She handed me the envelope, but I didn’t take it right away. My heart pounded so hard it felt like it might break free from my chest. "Take it," she said, her voice dripping with sarcasm. "Javier left this with me before he went out with Tiana." With trembling hands, I accepted the envelope. When I opened it, my world shattered. Inside were divorce papers. I shook my head, unable to believe what I was seeing. Why is this happening to me? Tears mixed with the rain on my cold face, streaming down uncontrollably. But this is Javier's signature... Is this really happening? Ang dali niyang bitawan ako. Akala ko magpapahinga lang siya, babalik, at pakikinggan ako. My head spun with dizziness, but I forced myself to stay upright. Tears kept streaming down my face, relentless. I tried to hold myself together. Ang pagsama niya kay Tiana, ay matatanggap ko pa. Pero itong papel... ayokong tanggapin ito. "I can't sign this, Mama. Please, give it back to him. Aalis nalang po ako." My voice was firm but trembling. I looked at her with pleading eyes, desperate to undo the pain. Tinalikuran ko siya para umalis na, hindi kinakaya ang nakita. "He’ll be with Tiana for the next three months, Amara," she said with a cold, detached tone. "He left some of his work with Francis for now. They’ve gone to Capiz for a long vacation. Sounds nice, doesn’t it?" Nabitin sa ere ang mga paa ko. Hindi nakagalaw. I felt overwhelmed and deeply hurt, my emotions getting out of control. The pain was so intense that I could barely contain it. In that moment, all I wanted was to lash out, to make her feel the suffering I was experiencing. "Siguradong masaya ka ngayon mama. Nag aaway kami ngayon, dahil sa ginawa mo hindi ba? But I still won’t sign it," I said firmly, turning to face her. I saw the anger flare in her eyes, but I held my ground. She responded with a sarcastic chuckle. Ang pagtawa nito ay parang inaasar niya ako, pinapamukha kung gaano ako ka tanga dahil sa sinasabi ko ngayon. "Javier already signed the documents. Matagal kana niyang hindi mahal, Amara. I'm his mother, so I know everything about him. He’s just been with you out of pity," she said with a false smile, her eyes glinting with a mix of satisfaction and malice. Pakiramdam ko ay paulit niyang tinapak-tapakan ang pagkatao ko nang sinabi niya iyon. Umiling ako, hindi naniniwala sa kanya. Walang tigil sa pag buhos ang mga luha kasabay nang malakas na ulan. "If you still don't believe me, then you should see it for yourself," she said, handing me a photograph. I stared at the picture, my body going cold. It showed Tiana and Javier locked in a kiss. Tiana's hand cradled Javier’s face, while his hand rested on her waist. Their eyes were closed, lost in the moment, their expressions a painful reminder of what I had feared all along. Napigtas ang maliit na pag asang kinakapitan ko. Nanginginig habang nakatayo. Ano mang oras ay bibigay na ang katawan ko. The image of them together, kissing so passionately, was a cruel reminder of the trust that had been shattered. It left me feeling utterly abandoned, as if every promise and moment we shared had been a lie. The betrayal making me feel as though I was losing a part of myself. Kailan pa? Kailan sila nagsimulang lokohin ako? Talaga bang kinakaawaan niya nalang ako kaya hindi niya ako iniwan? I trusted both of them completely. I ignored what Mama said before because I believed they were just friends, and they had always been kind to me. He treated me so well that I didn't notice something was wrong. But now, looking back, I realize Mama wouldn’t have pushed Tiana towards Javier if there was nothing off. She must have known something I didn’t, which is why she kept insisting on Tiana being with him. It feels like a direct insult to me as his wife, a betrayal of the trust I had in both of them. Mas kilala niya nga ang anak niya. "I suggest you sign this, Amara," she said coldly, her gaze piercing through me. "For the next three months or even longer, I doubt Javier will feel anything for you. Even pity might not be enough to make him stay." She handed me the divorce papers along with a pen. My hands trembled as I took them, the weight of what I was about to do sinking in. Signing these papers felt like signing away everything that once mattered. The thought of making it official, knowing it would change everything, was unbearable. Kaya siguro ang bilis niya rin pinaniwalaan si mama. He doesn’t love me anymore. He’s just staying with me out of pity. As I stared at Javier’s signature on the papers, a tear fell and blurred the ink. Each drop seemed to underline my pain, showing the cold reality that he’s only here because he feels sorry for me, not because he truly wants to be. Ang daya mo Javier... "I feel sorry for you, Amara," she said coldly. "But if I had seen that Javier really loved you, I wouldn’t be doing this." I had no response. Words escaped me. I felt trapped and overwhelmed, like I was gasping for air. With trembling hands, I slowly moved to sign the papers, each stroke of the pen feeling like it sealed my pain and despair. I'm sorry for holding on to you, Javier. I was so focused on loving you that I failed to see the little things that mattered to you. I didn’t notice the cracks forming in what we had. I’m letting you go now. It’s tearing me apart to do this, but I realize it’s the only way for you to find what you truly need. I hope you find the happiness I couldn't give you.Amara I sat in the car next to Kuya, our driver, tears streaming down my face. The rain outside was relentless, and I was completely drenched. Palagi akong nililingon ni Kuya Mel dahil sa pag aalala. Walang tigil sa pag buhos ang mga luha ko, sumasabay sa lakas ng ulan. He only stayed out of pity? I guess I was so absorbed in my own emotions that I failed to notice it. I'm too blind to see it until it's too late. "Isipin mo nalang na mabuti na iyong nalaman mo agad nak. Habang wala pa kayong anak, mas mahirap pag meron na." Hindi na nakatiis si Kuya sa paglingon sa akin. Nag aalala nang lubusan. "Oo nga po" I agreed, but deep down, I wished I hadn’t known. I loved him too much, enough to accept even his pity just to be by his side. But now that I knew the truth? I had to accept it and let go. It was clear I couldn't give him the happiness he deserved. Each beat from my chest felt like a painful reminder of what I had lost Masakit malaman ang totoo. Ngunit nagdala rin it
AmaraI'm glad that Kuya and Manang Nenita were with me yesterday. They helped me with everything I needed to do and even drove me to the airport.Returning to the States feels different now that I'm no longer a Villanueva.Ang huling punta namin rito ay noong nag bakasyon kami, magkasama at masaya. Ngunit ngayon, ako nalang mag isa. The change is hard to accept. And I hate how just thinking about it makes me want to cry. Everything feels strange and new, as if the world has shifted slightly, making me see everything from a different perspective. The weight of my new reality is heavy.But it's good to be back here. At least now I'm with my family. It gives me a sense of comfort I desperately need right now. Though everything feels different, being surrounded by those who love me makes it a little easier for me. Pero hindi pa rin ako natutuwa sa ginawa nila kahapon, para lang ma sorpresa ako pag pumunta.I'm physically and emotionally exhausted. But I know I'll be fine. Things always
Amara"Mom, I want this too!" My five year old son, Yuan, came running to me, clutching a bright red toy car. His hair bounced with each step, may malaking ngiti sa kanyang labi. Ngunit bago pa man ito makalapit sa akin, Ayala her twin sister stepped in front of him, blocking his path with her tiny arms."You already bought a lot, Yuan," she said, crossing her arms with a stern look on her face. Halos magkadikit na ang kilay nito. Parang matanda kung umasta. Hindi ko mapigilan ang hindi matawa sa ginawa nito. I walked over to them.I bent down to their level. "Hey, it's okay. Mommy's going to buy it, alright? But first, what do you always need to remember?" I asked, nakangiti habang kausap ang dalawang anak ko.Yuan's expression softened as he came closer and hugged me. Ayala followed him. "Be kind always," Yuan said, hugging me tightly. Natawa ako nang marahan habang niyakap silang dalawa."Very good," I said softly, pinisil ang mga pisngi nila. "Let's go and pay."Just like usual, t
AmaraThe next day, we gathered in the conference room for a crucial business meeting about the trip to the Philippines. Ang buong kwarto ay tahimik at tanging tunog lamang ng aircon at ng aking takong ang maririnig.Ang mga taong naunang dumating na nakaupo kanina ay tumayo nang pumasok ako. Randam ko ang pag sunod ng mata nila sa akin habang papunta ako sa aking upuan sa unahan. "Alright, let's get started," I began, taking a deep breath. "This collaboration could take our perfume brand to the next level. The Philippines offers a unique market with great potential, and partnering with this new brand can open doors we haven't even imagined."Our marketing head, Elena, nodded in agreement. Pinaglalaruan ng kamay nito ang ballpen sa harapan. "We've done extensive research on the market trends there, and it's clear that there's a growing demand for high-quality perfumes. Our products will fit perfectly.""Logistics will be key," Rafael added, his voice steady and confident. "We need to
Rafael As I packed the last of our luggage, I glanced over at the twins. Ayala and Yuan were bubbling with excitement, walang tigil sa pagngiti ang dalawa. May dala-dala silang maliliit na bag na hindi nila binibitawan. Napangiti ako habang tinitingnan sila. "Are you guys ready?" I asked, ruffling Yuan's hair. "Ready, Papa!" Ayala chimed in, bouncing on her feet. I smiled, but a part of me was still worried about the trip. Tiningnan ko si Amara na nag aayos sa sarili habang nakatingin sa salamin. I knew how much it meant to her, and I wanted to be there to support her through it. I also knew there were things in the Philippines she preferred to keep buried. Noong panahon na walang wala siya, ako ang nandoon para suportahan siya sa lahat. Mahal ko siya bilang kaibigan ko. Marami na rin siyang naitulong sa akin. Hindi ko nga rin maintindihan sa sarili ko noon kung bakit ko siya tinulungan. Ayoko sa miserable, pero tinulungan ko ang babaeng puno ng uhog noon habang umiiyak sa gilid n
RafaelOur flight landed safely. Nakahinga na rin ako nang maluwag, ngunit pagod ako sa byahe. Habang yung dalawang bata naman ay masiglang masigla, sabik nang makababa ka agad ng eroplano. I shook my head and smiled slightly at the sight."Welcome to the Philippines," the flight attendant announced over the intercom.We gathered our things, making sure not to leave anything behind. "Alright, kids," I said, trying to keep my voice firm. "we're here, huwag bibitaw sa kamay ni mom, maliwanag?"Tumango naman silang dalawa na ngiting ngiti. "Opo!" sagot ni Yuan, kaya ginulo ko ng kaunti ang buhok nito saka ko siya nginitian.Hinayaan ko nalang muna na si Amara ang maghahawak sa kamay nila. Dahil ako naman ang nagdadala ng gamit naming lahat. Mas mabigat iyon kung ipapaako ko pa sakanya. Kahit papaano may natitira pa naman na pag ka gentleman sa budhi ko, hindi pa naman purong disney princess lang.As we stepped off the plane, the warm, humid air hit us, a stark contrast to the air-conditi
AmaraAll day we stayed in the hotel to rest. It felt really great that Rafael came with us. It made me feel a little more at ease.Medyo naninibago rin kasi ako nang makabalik ulit dito pagkatapos ng ilang taon. Mahirap man aminin pero parang nanumbalik sa akin ang mga nangyari noon pagkalabas namin ng eroplano. Mabuti na lamang at minsan ay kinakausap ako ni Rafael, kahit kadalasan wala naman sa hulog ang pinagsasabi niya basta malibang lang ako. Nakakatulong iyon maibaling sa ibang bagay ang atensyon ko, kaysa isipin ang mga nangyari noon.Nakakagalit ang ginawa nila, nakakasuka. Hanggang ngayon ay pinagsisisihan ko talagang hayaan sila na gawin sa akin ang lahat ng iyon. Hindi sila karapat-dapat sa kabaitan ko. Inabuso nila ako.We shared the huge room he booked. I had no problems with it since alam ko naman na ang pagkatao niya. Kahit yata maghubad ako sa harapan niya mandidiri lang iyon. Ilang taon na kaming magkaibigan, at laking pasalamat ko rin sakanya na nabuhay pa ako ngay
Amara Bumaba ako sa harapan ng isang napakalaki at eleganteng building. Its modern design was striking, with large glass panels that allowed a clear view of the interior. Kitang kita sa labas lahat ng tao sa loob, mayroong nakatutok sa laptop, may nag uusap at ang mga nagtra-trabaho rin dito. The building exuded an aura of sophistication and success, much like the one I had in the States. Huminga ako nang malalim bago pumasok sa loob. I walked through the glass doors, entering a spacious lobby filled with sleek, contemporary furniture and tasteful art pieces. Maganda ang atmospera, kahit saan ka lumingon ay halos yayamanin ang makikita mong tao. I made my way to the reception desk, where a friendly yet efficient-looking secretary greeted me. "Good morning," I said, trying to keep my voice steady. "I'm Amara Verity Fernandez. I have a meeting regarding the perfume collaboration." Ngumiti ito sa akin ng malaki, bato ako binati. "Good morning, Ms. Fernandez. We've been expecting you.