We sit in the car silently while he drives back home. I stare at him and observe his face, it’s completely neutral, and I can’t read him. “Zen?” It comes out as a whisper but he turns his head towards me as soon as I call him. “What is it? Does it hurt somewhere? We should go to the doctor, yes we should. I’m taking a turn.” He turns his gaze back towards the road. “No, no, I’m okay. Are you okay? Why are you so quiet? Talk to me.” I lean on the seat and stare at his face and watch his expressions soften a little. “I’m fine. I just, I just can’t stop imagining what would’ve happened to you if I didn’t come down to look for you.” I can see the restlessness in his eyes, while he runs his fingers through his hair.
“How did you know I was there?” I ask him while caressing his arm to help him relax a bit. “The power went off and that’s when you screamed I guess. It was pretty clear that someone screamed so I went down and was calling out for you. When you didn’t answer me, I understood there was something wrong.” He clenches his jaw and his knuckles turn white, as he tightens his grip on the steering wheel. “Zen, it’s okay you were there for me, like always. You saved me.” I lean my head on the window and stare outside and watch the street lamps as we pass them.
The rest of the car ride was completely silent. Not one word was spoken in between us, Zen was completely zoned out. When we arrived, he got into the house and went straight into his room. He didn’t say goodnight, and when I asked him if he wants dinner he shook his head no, instead of replying to me verbally.
After taking a shower and washing the dirty, musty smell of Joe off myself I decide to go check on Zen. He must be hungry; I should take some late-night snack for him. So, I walk into the kitchen and start making some butter popcorn for him. He loves them, there was one time we ate so much of these, that the next day both our stomachs were upset. Those were good times I must say.
After I’m done making the popcorns, I walk to his room and knock on his door. But there was no response, so I wait for a while and slowly get in. The room is completely dark; the only source of light that is in the room is coming from his phone screen. The light is illuminating his face, his eyes are closed and he has headphones on. I tiptoe in and slowly place the bowl of popcorn on his side table and sit by him. After staring at his face for a while, I place my hand on his cheek and caress it softly. His eyebrows knit at first, with his eyes still closed. When I keep caressing it with a light touch, he relaxes his face and slowly opens his eyes.
“Belle.” He whispers while pushing my loose hair strand out of my face with his fingers. I smile at him and slowly bury my fingers in his hair to give his head a little scratch, which he always enjoys. “You got me all worried my Belle.” His hand goes down to my neck and it starts to massage the area, where the skin has bruised up from Joe’s dirty touch. My eyes start to water up, feeling so lucky to have someone like him. He is so good to me; I don’t want to ever lose him. “I’m fine Zenny, you worry too much.” I lay beside him and slowly get under his comforter.
He smiles at me and slowly wraps his arms around my body, and pulls me closer to him. I rest my head on his chest and wrap my arms around his neck. I feel him sigh and bury his face in the crook of my neck; he inhales my scent and pulls me closer to him. Making our bodies melt into one. “This feels nice.” He kisses the bruised area of my neck and smiles against my skin. I blush hard while caressing his back. This feels nice; this is the best feeling in the world. I could be here all day, every day.
It was a lazy Sunday when all of a sudden I hear Mrs. Fleming squealing. I peek out of the kitchen too see what’s going on, and see there in the middle of the living room she was standing with Zen and Alisha. “I’m so glad dear you’re here. How’s your dad? Heard he’s launching a new eco-friendly car?” She makes her sit beside her and takes her hand in hers.
Did I mention that Alisha’s dad is almost as rich as Zen’s dad? And oh does Mrs. Fleming love rich people. Sometimes I wish I had a rich father, maybe then she would like me too. Sighing, I head back to the kitchen to prepare lunch. Who am I kidding I will have to prepare a feast; Mrs. Fleming would like Alisha to see how much she cares about her. “Isabelle, hey Belle?” Zen knocks on the counter trying to get me out of my thoughts. “Oh sorry, I was just...” I scratch the back of my head, staring at him while gloomy eyes. “Can you send two cappuccinos to my room, please? Thanks.” He doesn’t wait for my answer and quickly head out and vanishes into the hallways. “Sure I can,” I mumble to myself, staring at the dough I was kneading.
“Where are you going?” Mrs. Fleming grabs hand as I was about to knock on Zen’s bedroom door. “Coffee...” Even before I could finish, she yanks me away from the door and pushes me down on the floor. All the hot coffee spills on my torso and within a few seconds, I crash on the floor. The cups smash and I land on them. I feel the burning sensation all over me, as I look down I see some of the broken pieces have lodged themselves into my skin. I stare at her in shock but she just looks down at me with disgust and hatred. “Zen asked me to get them coffee, that’s why I was going in there,” I explain myself and slowly stand up holding my belly. “Always ready with an excuse.” She glares at me before walking away. I feel my tears roll down my eyes, the pain starts growing. It’s quite unbearable. I don’t know what I have ever done to her.
“Let’s go, Belle. It’s your birthday, we will party just you and I.” Zen pulls on my hand, not letting me mop the floor. “Zen, please you know your mom won’t like it. She will probably take her anger out on me somehow later on. So, please I don’t want to.” I pull my hand away from his hold and start mopping the floor again. “Fine.” He doesn’t say anything else and walks straight back to his bedroom.I watch him disappear in his room, I know he’s hurt but I just don’t want to give his mom any change to get all riled up. Since the last incident, I stay cautious and do as much as I’m told. When Zen found out what had happened, both of them got into a big fight. He threatened her that he will leave the house if she keeps on treating me like this. And in r
I moan feeling his tongue glide across my neck.He sucks on my neck and kisses me all over my collarbone. I whimper feeling butterflies erupt in my stomach. “Zen, everyone’s watching,” I whisper tugging his hair. He says nothing and continues his sweet torture on me. "Uhh!Zen." I moan out loud tugging on his hair. He puts his hands under my butt cheeks and makes me wrap my legs around his waist. I look at him and kiss him softly making the kiss sensual. I kiss the corner of his lips and kiss his jaw and suck on it. He bites his lips holding me and squeezes my waist hard. "Always wanted to squeeze your big butt that you keep on swinging in front of my face, in your tight skirt
We sit there in each other’s arms not worrying about what will happen next. Where will this relationship go? Will our friendship be ruined because of this step we took? I was worried for a moment, but it all went away when I looked up at his face. Suddenly, nothing mattered, only he did. I silently stare at him and watch him go through his phone. I look closely at his handsome face and start studying it. His beautiful features are glistening with a light layer of sweat; his eyes are like an ocean. Deep, dark, and full of mystery, I wonder what is going on in his head, is he thinking about us? Is he worried about our relationship?
Days past since our special night, I’m still drunk in the essence of it. I can still feel his touch dance on my skin; they ignite a blazing fire in the pit of my stomach every time I recall our moments. Whenever I feel my lips with my fingers, I start feeling his lips on mine. The feeling of his feather like lips leave a tickling sensation on mine, making my heart fill up with pure bliss.Drops of hot water from the boiling kettle lands on my hand and pulls me out of my thoughts. I hiss rubbing the area while taking off the kettle from the shove. I pour the water into the cup and put a teabag in it. Mrs. Fleming’s afternoon tea is very crucial, if by any chance I mess it up. This tea will become one with my face; trust me I can tell from last experiences.
Lately Zen has been busy with his phone 24/7, I often see him giggling and laughing on the phone. I wonder who’s on the other side of the call. I won’t lie but something inside me burns. My heart, it hurts, I feel jealous and I feel like I should be the reason behind his precious laugh. I should be the one he should be with, I should be the one he says ‘I love you’ to. I’m being too selfish aren’t I? But I guess I am selfish when it comes to him. No matter how much I try, my love for him only gets deeper and deeper. It’s getting very difficult for me to see him just as my friend. I won’t lie, but when he said that night was a mistake, it hurt. Because for me it wasn’t a mistake it was something I longed for.
Life has been hard lately, incident from that night keeps replaying inside my head. Hearing Zen say that ‘I’m just a maid’ has gotten me back to my senses. I was flying high up in the sky all these years, now suddenly it feels like someone ripped off my wings. I fell so hard on the ground that all my dreams, my wishes shattered into million pieces. Never in my life had I thought, out of all the people, Zen will talk to me in this manner. My heart is broken forever now, I don’t know if I will ever be able to collect the broken pieces of my soul.The smile from my lips has go
I sat by the main entrance of the house and waited for Zen. They can’t throw me out of the house for something that I didn’t even do. The sun is about to set, it’s going to get dark. I feel lost, hurt but mostly I'm scared; thinking, what is about to come my way next. Not once did he try to stop her, does he hate me that much now? Just because of my stupidity? I know, they want me to g
It has been few days since I have been staying in this park. Somewhere deep inside, I thought Zen would come looking for me, or else send someone to look for me; but nothing happened. I must be a very big idiot that I’m still waiting for him to come and save me like always.Every day I go around looking for a job, I have visited every restaurant place around, every store to get a job but no one helped. Some of them said no nicely, but some of them pushed me out and behaved so badly. Life took such a turn, that with every step I’m breaking down.