Days past since our special night, I’m still drunk in the essence of it. I can still feel his touch dance on my skin; they ignite a blazing fire in the pit of my stomach every time I recall our moments. Whenever I feel my lips with my fingers, I start feeling his lips on mine. The feeling of his feather like lips leave a tickling sensation on mine, making my heart fill up with pure bliss.
Drops of hot water from the boiling kettle lands on my hand and pulls me out of my thoughts. I hiss rubbing the area while taking off the kettle from the shove. I pour the water into the cup and put a teabag in it. Mrs. Fleming’s afternoon tea is very crucial, if by any chance I mess it up. This tea will become one with my face; trust me I can tell from last experiences.
“Why are you so slow?” She looks up at me the magazine she was reading and glares. I keep my eyes down at the tray and slowly place the cup on the table by the purple velvet lounge she’s sitting on.
That day all the maids saw us and went straight to her and filled her up with made up gossips. Though, most of them are true, we were in a very intimate situation. Since that day, she has been keeping an eye on me, not letting me go near Zen. Trying to keep me as busy as possible, so that I don’t get any free time to go talk to him. Weirdly Zen has been asking for me less these days. I barely see him; he mostly stays out of the house, busy with his friends. But his behavior is creating a lump in my throat, and I’m finding it quite hard to swallow.
“Did you clean the outhouse?” She sips on the tea while turning pages of the magazine. “Yes, I cleaned it this morning. There were some plumbing issues so I called a plumber to get them repaired.” Footsteps coming from the foyer take my attention. “Mom.” Zen walks in the lounging area and suddenly stops seeing me. He looks flabbergasted; I have a feeling that it’s cause of me. I quickly tear my gaze away from him and stare at the floor blankly; why is he suddenly acting like a stranger with me? Why can’t he go back to being the old Zen; who used to care about me? I only had him in this entire world and now I’m losing him too.
“Go from here, why are you still standing her?” Mrs. Fleming speaks in a harsher toner than before. I slowly turn on my heel and exit the room and head towards the kitchen while tears start trickling down my eyes. Am I over thinking it? Or is he actually uncomfortable around me? Have I messed up everything? Will I now lose the only person I had? I don’t want to lose him; I want him with me; not as a lover but at least as a friend, like before. If he ignores me like this I will fall apart, then who will pick up the pieces? I wipe my tears and lean on the kitchen counter hanging my head low. “I should talk to him.” I keep wiping my tears as they keep on falling nonstop.
The fear of losing him has started settling inside my heart. Quickly composing myself, I head out of the kitchen to go to his room. I stand outside his room completely nervous. What if he gets mad at me for questioning him so much? Is he just a bit busy? Maybe that’s why he isn’t able to give me time. Sighing, I turn away from the door and start walking away. “It’s better if I leave him alone.” I get in the kitchen and start chopping vegetables to prepare for tonight’s dinner.
During dinner Zen wasn’t there, I kept waiting for him to come down so that I could just see him but he didn’t come. After Mrs. Fleming was done with dinner, I wrap up everything in the kitchen and decide to go up to his room, as I really do need to talk to him. I can’t live like this; my thoughts are driving me crazy.Twisting the doorknob, I open the door a little and peak my head inside his room. Zen looks up from his laptop screen and stares at me with a blank expression. “Can I come in? I need to talk to you.” I wait for him to permit me to get in. “Sure.” He closes the laptop and puts it by him on his bed and lean back on the headboard. His eyes are fixated at me; I feel my heart leap up to my throat. My palms start getting sweaty due to nervousness. I slowly sit by him on the bed and stare at my lap, while fidgeting with my fingers.
“What it is?” He asks shifting closer to me and places his hand on the small of my back. “Why are you avoiding me?” I look up at him to finally make eye contact with him. “I have been busy Belle, nothing else.” He simply states, and looks away to break the eye contact. “No you have been ignoring me, whenever you see me it’s like you want to run away. Why is that Zen? You know I have no one else except for you. Don’t act like a stranger with me.” I choke on my tears and try to wipe my face, as I don’t want him to pity me.
“We shouldn’t have done that. That night was a huge mistake. I’m feeling really guilty for... we shouldn’t have done that. It’s just not right.” He sighs in frustration and runs his fingers through his dark locks. “Is that so?” Suddenly numbness starts spreading across my chest. It feels like someone is trying to cut off my air supply. “We were such good friends and because of my stubborness everything is ruined, only if I listened to you and didn’t take you out for drinking. None of this would’ve happened, if I controlled myself... I’m so sorry.” He groans in annoyance falling back on the bed.
“Don’t be sorry, I didn’t stop you either, so it’s my fault too.” I stare out the window silently. “Everything is ruined right? Our friendship is ruined, isn’t it? Damn it!” He looks at me sighing heavily. “No, only if we allow that mistake you’re talking about to get between us, then it will be ruined.” I put up a smile on my face; fakest one I have had to put up, ever. “So, you don’t hate me? We can go back to being us?” He smiles at me while sitting up and takes my hand in his. I nod looking at him. If I have to keep my feelings hidden from you, to keep our friendship, I will do that in a heartbeat. You’re so precious for me to lose Zen. Too precious. It’s going to be so hard for me to pretend, but I have to because I can’t lose you. I slowly pull him into a hug and let my tears fall holding him tightly.
Lately Zen has been busy with his phone 24/7, I often see him giggling and laughing on the phone. I wonder who’s on the other side of the call. I won’t lie but something inside me burns. My heart, it hurts, I feel jealous and I feel like I should be the reason behind his precious laugh. I should be the one he should be with, I should be the one he says ‘I love you’ to. I’m being too selfish aren’t I? But I guess I am selfish when it comes to him. No matter how much I try, my love for him only gets deeper and deeper. It’s getting very difficult for me to see him just as my friend. I won’t lie, but when he said that night was a mistake, it hurt. Because for me it wasn’t a mistake it was something I longed for.
Life has been hard lately, incident from that night keeps replaying inside my head. Hearing Zen say that ‘I’m just a maid’ has gotten me back to my senses. I was flying high up in the sky all these years, now suddenly it feels like someone ripped off my wings. I fell so hard on the ground that all my dreams, my wishes shattered into million pieces. Never in my life had I thought, out of all the people, Zen will talk to me in this manner. My heart is broken forever now, I don’t know if I will ever be able to collect the broken pieces of my soul.The smile from my lips has go
I sat by the main entrance of the house and waited for Zen. They can’t throw me out of the house for something that I didn’t even do. The sun is about to set, it’s going to get dark. I feel lost, hurt but mostly I'm scared; thinking, what is about to come my way next. Not once did he try to stop her, does he hate me that much now? Just because of my stupidity? I know, they want me to g
It has been few days since I have been staying in this park. Somewhere deep inside, I thought Zen would come looking for me, or else send someone to look for me; but nothing happened. I must be a very big idiot that I’m still waiting for him to come and save me like always.Every day I go around looking for a job, I have visited every restaurant place around, every store to get a job but no one helped. Some of them said no nicely, but some of them pushed me out and behaved so badly. Life took such a turn, that with every step I’m breaking down.
Loud booming noise starts ringing in my ear, I try to open my eyes but the lids feel so heavy that it starts closing on its own. I touch my body to feel my clothes to see if they were still on me or not. And luckily my clothes are on, they are just very wet. Finally I open my eyes wide a
“No I won’t! I don’t want to strip in front of all these men! No!!” I scream trying to push Jake off me.He is trying to take my clothes off my body to get me to wear that god awful piece of lingerie. It looks so provocative, I have never seen one in my life and let alone wear one. My hands are pinned up above my head with one of his large hand tightly holding them in place. I scream and try to push him off me with all the force that I have but I fail miserably. He pushes his left knee in between my thighs to spread them apart. With his other hand he starts pulling off my trousers; a loud
It’s been a few weeks since I have been stuck here; I’m kind of getting used to it. Free food, free shelter and shit tonnes of cocaine to snort. My arms were getting really bruised by the needle poking, so Jake decided to make me snort them up; well he didn’t have to make me, I did it on my own. He showed me how to do the first blow; he took out a dollar bill and rolled it up. Next he took out a visiting card of the club and lined up the white powder he poured on the floor and the next thing I saw blew my mind; in one go he snorted the line up his nose using the rolled up dollar bill. Trust me I tried to fight myself from taking anymore, but my body craves it. To be completely ho
“I don’t want to.” I stare at myself in the mirror of the dressing room. Jake, who is sitting on a chair behind me, has been ogling at me ever since I have put on the lingerie set Cheryl gave me. It is a red two piece; it has detailing of flowers that are embroidered on both the bra and the thong. Most of it is made out of mesh fabric, only the risky parts are hidden behind the flowers. Why did they even bother hiding those; might just have exposed them all at once. She gave me a pair of red thigh garters to go with the set and a very high pair of heels.
To answer the questions that were raised in the minds of the readers, yes I'm working on a sequel. A sequel was always the part of the plan and my idea was to leave the readers to a cliffhanger to get them excited. But a lot of the readers were being critical of my decision, which is completely understandable. 'Set Me Free' was not revised so sorry for the typos, I will try to mend my mistakes as much as possible. The sequel is called 'Am I Free?' the book sheds light on what actually happened to Daniel Robinson, if he ever gets to meet Isabelle Davis. Most importantly the sequel gives the much awaited ending. Hope all the readers will enjoy the sequel, I'm still working on it but here is a short preview of the book. Enjoy.“What is your name?” A deep voice of a man echoes throughout the poorly lit room.Daniel, who is cuffed to a white medical bed, can barely see anything. Small beads of sweat are pooling on his forehead due to the humidity and hot temperature of the room. His blurry
The distant calling of a voice makes me open my eyes; all I see is clear blue sky in front of me. “Tim?” I whisper closing my eyes again as a recollection of the moments of Joe taking him away starts flooding my mind. “Isabelle? Are you okay? He is right here look.” I hear Zen say. “Mom, are you okay?” I feel a small head on my chest and a pair of arms wrapping themselves around my body.
It has been a few days since that whole incident went down in the strip club. The police have been looking for Daniel but they have no trace of where he might be or what might have happened to him. It saddens me to realize that I might not ever be able to see him ever again. Zen has been very supportive of me, he is just wonderful, he is trying to take both Tim and I under his wing. He insisted on getting Tim admitted to a school here so I gave in and let him do it. Zen got all our stuff shifted here and he gave me full liberty on any changes I want to make around the house. He is treating me as if we are married, it’s funny how sometimes he just says ‘Honey I’m home’ after he arrives from his office. Life has suddenly taken a turn for the good, the past s
We have been in Zen’s place for hours now, after putting Tim to bed I went down to the living room where Zen has been pacing back and forth for hours. My whole body has given up and I have been sitting on the couch almost lying on it with a blanket wrapped around my body.“Now can you tell me what happened in there?” I ask while I watch him sit on the single couch in front of me. “There’s no Rosie, there’s no one by that name. No one at all,
“How did she die?” I ask slowly letting him go. He doesn’t let go of me and keeps on holding me tightly and gives my body a tight squeeze before completely letting it go. Zen looks at his lap and fidgets with his fingers and sighs heavily and slowly looks up at me. “After you... after the whole incident with you um... she got into a car accident after a month you were gone.” He looks around not being able to look into my eyes. “I’m so sorry, hope she is in peace.” I slowly pat his back. “I was expecting you at the funeral, it was all over the news thought you saw and you would come.” He slowly smiles at me.A chuckle comes out of my mouth, he doesn’t even have any idea what my life was going through, come to his mother’s funeral right, and I have to be free to be able to go some place. “I really didn’t have access to a TV you know, living in a park bench doesn’t let you have those luxuries. And after you have been kidnapped and drugged you really don’t have the right mindset to get new
The night sky feels darker than usual; the full moon shines brighter. Wind from the open window is making the curtain flow with it, lying on my bed I stare out the window with Tim in my arms. He is fast asleep; his head is resting on my chest. There’s a weird pain in my chest, images of Zen keeps on popping up in my head. I can’t believe I saw him here, I thought never in my life will I see him again but today I did. He looks so matured now; he looks a lot like his father. I guess he did join their company, of course he did his mother always wanted him to. Seeing him has stirred up the emotions that I was hiding deep within me. I don’t even want to see him again, I hate him; I hate everything about him. Closing my eyes I pull Tim closer to my chest and try to sleep.
When I reached Athens after changing trains from station to station, I was welcomed by Ms. Nora, who was my gynecologist, her friend Rosaline. Rosaline is medium built, in her late 40s’, kind woman; she was there in the station to welcome me.She took me to the shelter and kept me there for a few days while she helped me get a job and get a room as a paying guest in a house. Which she was successful at doing, she found a job for me as a waitress in a small cafe by the sandy creek beach. The house that she selected was an ‘all girls’ paying guest house, where several other girls live all together.The first couple months were hard on me, as I had to save most of the money I earned because the last few months of my pregnancy I wou