“So, Chester, your name is rising pretty fast in the industry since you took over the company. That’s quite impressive,” Daddy praised Chester habang kumakain kami ng lunch.
Meanwhile, I couldn’t even raise my gaze dahil sa kaba. My mind is very clouded, at hindi pa magandang… ramdam na ramdam ko ang titig sa akin ng pinakamatanda sa tatlo. Chester Lancelot Del Fuego was staring at me angrily like I did something fucking horrible! Bakit ganoon siya makatitig? Dahil ba sa nangyari kagabi?
Ang kapal naman ng mukha niya kung ganoon! Last time I checked, he was the one who introduced himself as Chancellor! Kaya kung may dapat mang magalit sa aming dalawa, ako iyon! He tricked me! He lured me! He kissed me and… it was…
I cleared my throat at the thought of it. I wouldn’t say I didn’t enjoy it, pero kahit na! He should’ve known that I was looking for his brother! And I… I can’t believe I haven’t differentiated them.
But now, I think I know how it goes.
“Thank you, Sir. Well, honestly, I haven’t taken over the company yet. I just made a simple contribution when it comes to the machines we’ve been distributing,” Chester answered.
His eyes are actually way deeper. His gaze were surprisingly more intense and heated. At ang boses niya ay mas malalim. He speaks like he’s well too fond of himself, hindi gaya ni Chancellor na marespeto at palakaibigan.
At first, I really thought that maybe, I was just confused at the three of them kaya naiisip kong si Chester ang nakasama ko kagabi. But as he talked slowly, I realized that I may be confused at the three of them, but I was sure that he was the one I did it with last night.
His eyes tell me it.
“Simple contribution? Your new products received high ratings. Isama pa ang magazines and… other services that you enhanced. They were all at the top of the chain.” My brows furrowed at Fiona’s compliment. I know her very well. Those compliments have other meanings. Is she flirting?
“See? Kailan mo ba ibibigay ang presidency sa anak mo, Chris? He seems well-prepared for this,” Dad said.
However, Tito Chris laughed before he pats his son on the shoulders. “Kung alam mo lang, I was already pushing him to do so. Pero matigas ang ulo. He said he wanted to do one thing before handling the company.”
Daddy seemed amused. Hindi ko tuloy mapigilang mag-angat ng tingin dahil kailanman ay hindi ko siya nakita o narinig na ganito kaproud sa isang tao. Funny that he never seemed that amused whenever we showed him our achievements.
When I breathed heavily, I looked away from my father. Pero nang gawin ko iyon, nahuli ako ng titig ni Chester. My eyes locked at his intensed gaze, pero kaagad ko iyong iniwas. I couldn’t hold that stare longer. Titig niya pa lang, para na akong sinisilaban dahil sa kaba. It felt like I was a candle melting under his stare.
“Oh, really? Ano ba ang gusto mo pang gawin bago mo ihandle ang negosyo niyo? Maybe you can do it while managing the corporation!” Daddy suggested.
But to our surprise, Chester’s answer was quick… and damn demanding.
“Simple,” he said and started wiping his mouth, telling us that he was serious about it. “I want to marry your daughter before I completely take over the company. So that means that I… want this marriage as soon as possible.”
What the fuck?!
The annoying sound of utensils filled the room nang wala sa sariling mabitawan ko ang kubyertos dahil sa narinig! He wants this marriage as soon as possible when we barely even know each other?!
“As soon as possible?” bago pa ako makapag welga, kunot noo nang itinanong iyon ni Daddy sa kanya. However, the way he asked Chester seems like he’s damn excited!
No… this can’t be. Hindi porke’t wala na akong magagawa ay mamadaliin na nila ito!
“Yes. if you’d allow it, I want a wedding in about two weeks–!”
“Two weeks?!” I exclaimed. “Are you in a race or something?”
Halos matawa ako dahil parang hindi totoo ang lahat nang nangyayari dahil napakabilis naman ng gusto niya?!
“Paris,” saway sa akin ng Daddy dahil sa pagpalag ko sa kagustuhan ng golden boy niya.
Who the hell wanted to get married in just about two weeks?! Hindi ako papayag na matali sa kanya, sa ganoong kabilis na oras! I want to buy time to escape this damn engagement kagaya ng ginagawa ko noon sa nakaraang engagements ko! But with this pace, na gusto niyang ikasal kaagad, mababaliw ako bago ako makatakas!
“That's just impossible. I mean… sa preparations pa lang–!”
I tried to look for an excuse, pero mukhang pinaghandaan niya na talaga ito!
“Regarding that, you don’t have to worry. I have them all prepared. If you’re unsatisfied with the decor and preparations, then we can just… have another ceremony.”
What?!
Shit… ano ba talagang plano niya? Are his brothers in a race for this, or what? Bakit siya nagmamadali sa pagpapakasal na ito?
Am I a good catch? I don’t think so. Despite being the daughter of my father, the well-known business tycoon in this industry, I was never his heir! Plus, I have tons of issues trailing behind me, kaya anong makukuha niya kung papakasalan niya ako agad?!
“Hmm, that actually… sounds great,” Dad said with a smirk. Of course, he likes it. Chester is… a good catch for sure!
“So… Paris?” Chester asked in a low and naughty tone, parang nang-iinis o kung ano!
“She doesn’t have any problems with this,” Daddy interrupted before I could even damn speak. “Right… Paris?”
My jaw dropped at how disrespectful it was. Hindi ko alam pero hindi ko na talaga kinakaya ang ginagawa niya! Getting married in two weeks? Sinong baliw ang papayag sa ganoon?!
I angrily sighed and put my spoon and fork down. Umiiling kong tinanggal ang dining napkin at kinuha ang purse ko dahil hindi ko matatagalan ang hapag na ito!
“Excuse me,” I said before I exit myself.
“Paris–!” Narinig ko pa ang tawag ni Daddy at ni Tito Christopher pero hindi ko iyon pinakinggan. I immediately walked away from the damn restaurant dahil naiirita na talaga ako sa mga napag-uusapan.
I couldn’t even swallow an engagement that he arranged, tapos ngayon, basta-basta niya na lang akong ipapakasal sa lalaking napili niya dahil fast-rising ito sa business industry?! Is that any way for a father to behave?!
Hindi ko… hindi ko siya maintindihan. At mukhang hindi ko na talaga siya maiintindihan.
With heavy breathing, I walked at a fast pace, determined to get out of there kahit wala naman talagang pupuntahan. I just want to leave. I just want to be out of his reach before I completely lose my mind and my dignity!
But when I was just about to call the approaching cab, I felt an arm wrap around my waist and pulled me away from the pavement!
“What the–?!”
“You can’t just run away from everything, you know.” His deep and rough voice penetrated my ears, making me feel different emotions. Kahit ngayon ko pa lang siya nakilala, pakiramdam ko’y sauladong saulado ko na ang boses at ang galaw niya!
“Let go of me, Chester!” I shouted and removed his damn thick arms around me!
I’m not sure if he’s just going easy on me kaya ko natanggal iyon. But seeing how his brows shot up, I’m sure that no matter how soft he portrayed, he’s still not letting go of me today.
“Oh, you suddenly knew the difference between me and your boy, hmm?” I gasped at his words. Aminado akong dahil sa napag-usapan kanina, bahagyang nawala sa isip ko ang issue na iyon. But because of his remarks, siguradong sigurado na akong siya nga iyon!
“Bastard,” I insulted him before I turned my back. Bahala siya riyan!
“Ano ba?!” sigaw ko nang muli niya akong hilahin bago pa ako tuluyang makaalis sa kanyang harapan. “Nasasaktan ako, bitawan mo nga ako–!”
However, he suddenly pulled me closer, making me face him. My heart started racing wildly when I saw how angry he already is. His jaw is tightened, and so is his grasp on my wrist. Parang kaunti na lang, sasabog na sa galit.
His glare made me shut up. I’ve never seen someone this angry, and I… don’t think I want to see it again.
Chester closed his eyes and breathed heavily. It’s like he’s trying to calm down as he loosens his grip. “Sakay,” he calmly said when he clicked the car door open.
“Bakit naman ako sasakay diyan–?”
“Don’t make me repeat myself, Paris Felicity. Sumakay ka na,” he said, still annoyed. “I’m not going to harm you. Just get the fuck inside the damn car.”
I glared at him. Balak ko pa sanang tumakbo palayo at huwag siyang sundin, but it seems like luck isn’t really on my side. It started to drizzle. And I’m sure that anytime now, maaaring lumakas pa iyon. Damn it.
Wala akon nagawa kundi ang irapan siya at pumasok sa sasakyan. He closed the door before he went inside the driver’s seat. I immediately fastened my seatbelt habang panay pa rin ang buntong hininga. I can’t believe that I’m actually in his car after that damn wedding he’s offering to my father. Sa tingin niya ba makukumbinsi niya pa ako? I barely know him!
And last night… did he… did he do that dahil alam niyang ako ang magiging finacee niya?!
It made sense to me now! Akmang kokomprontahin ko siya nang maagaw ng pansin ko ang pigura ni Chancellor na kalalabas lang ng restaurant. He seems like he’s looking for someone, at sigurado akong ako iyon!
“Chancellor–!” I was cut off when Chester honked so loudly that even made his brother jump in shock!
“Pahara-hara,” Chester whispered before continuing to drive at nilampasan na si Chancellor!
“Why did you do that?!” I angrily shouted at him, dahil muntik niya nang banggain ang kapatid!
“Do what?”
“You know what I mean! Ibaba mo na nga ako! Chancellor is already here. I’m sure he’s looking for me. Sa kanya na lang ako sasabay–!”
“And you really think I’d allow that?” he asked in a low and cold tone. “We’re getting married in no time, Darling. So if you think that way, then think again.”
I glared at him. Dahil sa sinabi niya, parang muling nanumbalik ang init ng ulo ko. I badly want to confront him earlier, pero Dad kept interrupting me! Now, I have my chance to do so.
“Let’s get things straight, shall we? I’m not getting married to you,” deretsahang sambit ko sa kanya dahil wala naman talaga akong planong pakasalan siya!
“Like your father would allow that after I gave him my proposal,” he said in a mocking tone.
My lips parted in annoyance. Galit ko siyang hinarap dahil sigurado akong kung ano man ang inoffer niya, napakalaking opportunity noon dahil kinaya ni Daddy na bitawan ang mga Rodriguez!
“What did you offer my father?”
“Nothing much,” he said. “But it sure seems precious for him to… marry me off to his beloved daughter.”
I rolled my eyes. Does it? I don’t think so. I don’t even think I’m that precious to him.
“Don’t be too fond of yourself. He’s easily carried away by such things,” I said. “Surely, if somebody offered better, he’ll take me off of this–!”
“Kaya nga magpapakasal na tayo–!”
“What the hell’s with the rush, golden boy?!” I asked in annoyance. “It sure seems that no one from your brothers is after your damn throne! And what could you possibly gain from marrying me? If you think I’ll be inheriting something from that man, then think again,” panggagaya ko sa paraan niya ng pagsasalita.
I just met him once pero sa sobrang galit ko, parang kayang kaya kong ibuhos ang lahat nang iyon sa kanya. He’s just as crazy as my father!
“All I want is you, Paris Felicity. All I want is you…” he whispered.
His words made me shiver. Hindi ko alam kung bakit pero ang paraan ng pagkakasabi niya noon… nagdulot kaagad ng kakaibang kaba sa akin. It’s like he’s completely owning me or something. It’s like he’s declaring me as his property.
“Kaya kung iniisip mong magiging kagaya ako ng iba mong engagements na matatakasan mo lang, then quit thinking, because I own you already.” He stopped the car. “Last night, remember?”
When he smirked and looked at me with those naughty eyes, I gritted my teeth in anger at hindi ko na napigilan ang sarili na sampalin siya. How dare he use that excuse in my face when he has tricked me!
“How dare you mention and be proud of it when you clearly know that I don’t intend to give myself to you!” I shouted angrily. “You clearly know that I was seeking your brother! You knew last night that I was seeking for Chancellor because I am… in love with him–!”
“How could I know–?!” he said but stopped himself immediately. “Chancellor, huh? So you’d rather be his mistress, then?”
My brows furrowed at it. What mistress is he talking about?
“He’s that good at making women fall, huh?” He smirked. “Flash news, Darling, he’s wooing someone else, so quit it,” he said angrily.
Parang tinambol ang puso ko dahil sa gulat sa nalaman. Chancellor is… wooing someone else? How could that possibly be? How could he possibly love someone else at the same time that he can make me feel that loved?!
Paanong…
“Not believing me? Then why don’t you go and ask him yourself? I’m pretty sure that his answer won’t be the same as I did last night,” he said.
My teeth gritted in anger habang nanlilisik ang matang nakatingin ako sa kanya. I hate it. Dahil sa sinabi niya, pakiramdam ko’y nawalan ako ng uuwian. Pakiramdam ko’y nawalan ako ng masasandalan at ng dahilan para umalis at lumaban.
I felt like I lost my home. Like I have nowhere to go anymore, Dahil ang pahinga at tahanan ko…
“And I wouldn’t let him too, of course,” he said and held my chin. “Because you’re mine, Paris. And starting last night, I will be your Chancellor.”
With a swift move, he leaned toward me for a passionate kiss.
“I know what you’ve been through, Darling. Marry me in two weeks, and I will take you away from your possessive father. I will give you the things that you know you deserve.”
I moaned softly when his kiss went deeper. I couldn’t have a damn time to process anything dahil sa patuloy niyang paghalik sa akin. Chester cupped my cheeks and pulled me closer to deepen the kiss. At kung hindi pa kami parahong hinihingal, hindi niya pa ako lulubayan.Fuck… w-what was that?When I opened my eyes, I met his pitch-black pair of eyes. I can see how the lights reflected on it, and it looked stunning. But unlike others, his eyes were blank. Almost like it does not hold any emotion at all. And it bothered me seeing that way.“Still looking for Chancellor?” he asked in a seductive tone as he smirked. He then licked his lips, which made me roll my eyes.“Umalis ka nga riyan,” I said and pushed him back to his damn personal space. “Halik ka nang halik, hindi naman tayo close,” I whispered as he laughed and continued driving. This bastard.“Where should I drop you off?” he asked.Honestly, I don’t know. Right now, I have nowhere to go. And I’m definitely not going home. Ayaw
Wala na akong sinabi nang ihatid niya ako kagabi sa bahay. Gladly, it was already midnight kaya wala nang gising pa para pagalitan ako sa ginawa kong pagwa-walk out.But true to his words, Chester arranged a breakfast meeting for our family. Nagsisisi tuloy ako na nag-inom ako kagabi. Kaya kahit gaano kasakit ang ulo ko, wala akong magawa.Fuck. He was with me last night. Dapat ginawa man lang niyang dinner ang meeting na ito.“So, you’re really accepting the marriage, huh?” Fiona asked habang kaming dalawa pa lang ang nasa loob ng van.I lifted my gaze and stopped putting on my lipstick. I really hate her. Sa bawat pagkakataon, wala akong ibang gustong gawin kung ang sabunutan siya. We barely even talk, and when she strikes a conversation, palaging para mang insulto.“Paano mo naman nalaman agad? News slaps bitches that fast, huh?” I laughed and closed my compact mirror. Like what I expected, her teeth gritted at namula ang kanyang mukha. Na parang kulang na lang ay may lumabas na u
“How can I know? Hindi ka naman nagkukwento.”“You don’t have to know. All you have to do is stare at me… and remember that I am Chancellor. Alright? I am the only Chancellor, Paris. I am Chancellor.”When I opened my eyes, I immediately gasped for air. Para akong tumakbo nang napakahaba dahil sa matinding tibok ng puso ko. What the fuck happened? Where the hell am I?!“Paris… Paris, are you okay?” Chester went inside the room and immediately attended to me.He pat my back as he called someone to attend to me pero hindi ko iyon kailangan ngayon. All I need is a damn space and time to think.Anong nangyari? Why was that so hard to swallow? At bakit may parang nagpapaulit ulit na panaginip sa akin. I couldn’t really picture it. All I can recall is that I had this conversation with someone. Was it Chancellor?Maybe. Paulit ulit niyang sinasabing siya si Chancellor. But I… I couldn’t recall why. I couldn’t recall when I had this conversation with him.After the nurse checked me, pumasok
I couldn’t get a hold of our conversation. Somehow, ang pag-alis ni Claire noong sumunod na araw ay nagpaisip sa akin. I don’t know, maybe it was just because of her reactions, and knowing that Chester is also in Singapore. Isa pa… she’s a designer as well. But it might be just a coincidence, right? After all, Claire never mentioned a boyfriend. At hindi ako sigurado kung kilala niya ba si Chester. Even though it’s possible, Claire would tell us if it’s true, right?There’s no reason for her to hide.As for Chester… there’s also no reason for him to contact me, but I felt stupid waiting for his message. How many days has it been? Three? That asshole. He said he’ll message me from time to time. Fuck, and why am I waiting?! Why am I waiting for it?“This one looks pretty on me. I’ll have it.” Napaangat ako ng tingin nang marinig ang nakakairitang boses ni Fiona. When I looked at her, my brows furrowed in annoyance. It was a sweetheart top kind of tube. It’s fitted and long, covered i
Para akong masasamid sa sariling laway dahil sa sinabi niya. While I was too damn tensed, he looked so fucking calm, amused of my reaction!How can he like me? I mean…“I’m in love with your brother…” I reminded him, yet he only laughed at me.“No you’re not,” he said with confidence. “I can prove it.” My brows furrowed at his sudden movement. He put down the sandwich and leaned toward me in a swift move. Almost telling me that he’s ready to kiss in a public place!“Anong g-ginagawa mo?” Nauutal-utal pang sabi ko at bahagya siyang tinulak pero hindi naman nagpatinag ang loko.“Nakatingin ang kabit mo,” he said in a husky tone while he was too close to me. I know he’s pertaining to Chancellor, yet I don’t know what to do. The way he looked at me put me in such a dilemma. In a dilemma that I… think I actually know how to respond.When I locked my eyes on him, it didn’t make me want to look at where he was gesturing. Instead, my eyes dropped to his lips. It was red and plump, it was ver
I can feel my throat getting dry at his remarks. Hindi ko alam pero ang mga simple niyang salita ay may kakaibang dulot sa akin. I could feel my heart pounding so loud that I could hear nothing but it. It's beating so hard that it feels like it's coming out of my ribcage.I've never felt such emotions. Kailanman, hindi ko pa naranasan ang ganitong klaseng sensasyon. Funny how he’s the only one who can make me feel that way. He’s the only one that could stir my mind and make me question my own emotions. Do I… like him?“Paris, Chester!” Napatalon ako sa gulat nang marinig ang tawag ni Daddy. Because of his call, nagising ako at nawala sa mga iniisip. Naputol din ang titigan namin ni Chester at ang mga kalokohang gumugulo sa akin. “Why don’t you socialize up there? May mga naghihintay pa naman sa inyong mga bisita,” Dad said.I cleared my throat and immediately nodded. I think it’s better for me to socialize a bit before I lose my mind and sanity at our conversation. Chester is stirri
“Mag-ingat kayo sa pag-uwi, ah? Lumalalim na rin ang gabi at siguradong pagod na pagod na kayo pareho. Ingat kayo,” Nanang said as she closed the car door for me.Nginitian ko siya at saka marahang tumango kahit aminado akong humupa man ang pag-aalala ay hindi pa rin iyon lubusang nawala.“Kayo po ang mag-ingat, ah? Tatawag ako palagi at bibisita,” asik ko. Hindi ko alam kung naexcite ba siya roon. Sa palagay ko ay hindi dahil nag-aalala lang siyang ngumiti sa akin. “Mauuna na po kami. Maraming salamat sa pagpapaunlak,” Chester said after he started the car's engine. Nilingon ko siya at nakita ang mabait na ngiting iginawad kay Nanang. Though he always looked dangerous and cunning, he smiled genuinely.“S-Salamat din. Oh, siya, sige na.”Wala na akong nagawa nang paandarin ni Chester ang sasakyan paalis ng bahay ni Nanang. Actually, I felt a bit relaxed knowing that she arrived safe and unharmed. That's all that I wanted.“Feeling relaxed now?” Chester asked as he continued driving.
Fuck. Damn it, shit!I groaned so much when I felt like something was pounding my head so badly. Nanunuyo ang lalamunan at parang anumang oras ay masusuka. God, I badly need some water or I might pass out kahit kagigising ko lang!I held my throbbing head, trying to figure out if the laugh I heard was from my damn imagination. “That’s what you get for drinking so much. Here, drink some.”With my eyes half-open, I tried to pull myself up para lang mailapat ang labi ko sa basong lumapit sa akin. Drinking the cold water felt like heaven! Gosh, kailan ba ang huling beses na uminom ako ng tubig at bakit ganito?“Wake up, sleepy head. I can almost see those perfect and round sights up from here. Care to hide them properly, please?”My brows furrowed when he started talking gibberish. Perfect and round–what?!Mabilis kong iminulat ang mata ko nang marealize ko kung anong sinabi ni Chester. And I almost cursed when I saw my chest almost popping out of the damn silk robe!“Damn it.” I quickly
Three days. It has been three days since we got back from Tagaytay. Biglaan kasing nag-aya si Chester noong gabing iyon na umuwi na kami kaya wala na rin akong nagawa. At mula noong gabing iyon, hindi na kami nag-uusap.Well, we had dry conversations, but that’s about it. He’s dry when he talks to me. Kahit pa pilitin niyang magpanggap na walang problema, sana aware din siya na alam kong may problema.Pero kahit na…Hindi ko magawang kulitin siya tungkol doon. I sighed. Hay, hindi ko alam kung anong gagawin ko.“The Lorente’s are back in business,” Dad said out of nowhere habang nagbbrowse siya ng balita sa kanyang Ipad. “Do you know them?” he asked me.I pursed my lips and slowly nodded. Lorente. Apilyedo ngayon ng Mommy ni Chester.So they already settled things? She really got what she wanted.Kung ganoon, ano pang problema? Bakit ganoon si Chester?“You’re silent,” puna ni Dad. “Are you sure ayaw mong sumama kina Faureen sa Okada? You’d be bored here.”Nilaro ko ng tinidor ang s
“Love,” I called him nang makarating kami sa bahay. Kanina pa siyang tahimik at walang kibo sa biyahe dahil sa nangyari. He look tensed, frustrated, angry in fact, dahil sa nangyari kanina. Hindi ko na tuloy naintindi ang maraming bulaklak sa likod ng pickup niya.Instead, I tried to follow him inside the bedroom kung saan alam kong didiretso siya.“Is that any way to greet your mother?” the woman asked.My lips parted. I was about to look at Chester gamit ang matang mapagtanong, nang bigla niya akong hilahin papunta sa kanyang likuran. And that alone answered my questions. She really is his motherPero bakit siya nandito?After all that Chester said kanina, hindi ko alam kung anong mararamdaman ko. Hindi ko rin alam kung anong dapat kong gawin dahil sa paraan pa lang ng paghawak niya sa akin ay ramdam ko na kung gaano niya kaayaw sa presensya ng kaniyang ina.Damn, why is she here? I mean, I don’t mean anything bad, pero gusto ko sanang mag-relax kaming mag-asawa ngayon. My husband’s
“What’s wrong?” maagap kong tanong nang makitang i-decline niya ang call. “May problema na naman ba?”I parted my lips and wanted to ask more, pero kaagad niya naman akong pinigilan sa pamamagitan ng isang matamis na ngiti. “It’s just work. Sigurado ako roon. Huwag na lang nating sagutin–!”“Chester,” mahinang tawag ko dahil hindi ko talaga gusto ang nararamdaman. I know, I may just be being too paranoid, but can you blame me?I have to ask it.“You’re not hiding something from me again, are you?” I asked. It’s not that I don’t trust him pero… I don’t know… it’s just my gut.Kung may problema naman kasi ang company ay surely, naroon ang kaniyang ama at mga kapatid. I.. I don’t know, iba lang talaga ang pakiramdam ko. I feel like I’ve known him too much, and I know the way he acts when he’s hiding something.And I’m not mad… I’m just worried that maybe… he’s doing this again to protect me from something. Ayaw ko ng ganoon. Ayaw ko na poproblemahin niya lahat nang siya lang.He has me.
“Kanina mo pa akong hindi kinakausap,” he stated as a matter of factly nang maibaba ang mga gamit namin sa couch ng kanyang bahay. Yet again, we’re here at Tagaytay to stay for a couple of days, at umpisa pa lang ay hindi na ako agad nag-eenjoy!“Inaantok lang,” sagot ko at agad tinanggal ang jacket. Akma kong kukunin ang maleta ko at aakyat na papunta sa kwarto. Gusto kong magshower at umidlip muna bago siya kausapin. Pakiramdam ko wala na rin akong ganang kumain dahil sa pagod at sama ng loob. Maybe when I wake up in the middle of the night due to some sort of miracle, just maybe I will talk to him.Pero sino bang niloko ko? Hindi ko ‘yata matatakasan ang isang ‘to. “Hey,” kaagad niyang hinawakan ang maleta ko at pagod na tumayo mula sa couch. I glared at him at hinila pabalik ang maleta ko pero hindi niya naman iyon binitawan.“Bitaw. Inaantok na ko, Chester.” Pero sa halip na sumunod, tumayo lang siya at hinarap ako. Ako tuloy itong nanlilisik ang matang nakatingala sa kanya!“Wh
I was taken aback by the words he uttered. Like what I said, I understood why he did those back then. Pero ngayong humihingi siya ng tawad sa akin, hindi ko alam ang isasagot.“Dad…”He smiled weakly and tried to look at me. “I know what I did back then was unforgivable, but I was just protecting you, and…”“Dad, Dad…” kaagad ko siyang pinutol. I held his hand and smiled at him. I know that I hated him so much back then. I was stupid. I was reckless and damn stupid. Ngayon, kahit hindi ko pa rin maintindihan kung bakit niya pinakasalan si Tita Faureen, I don’t care anymore.He’s all that I have. He’s the only parent I have.And this grudge has been here too long already. Pagod na pagod na akong magalit.“I understand…” pagpapatuloy ko ngunit suno-sunod siyang umiling sa akin.“No, I didn’t give you a proper explanation back then,” aniya. “Your Tita Faureen, she and I have been good friends even before I met your mother. When your mom left, I… I didn’t know what to do. I wanted you to
What…Everything fell silent after he uttered those words. Pakiramdam ko, pinagsakluban ako ng langit at lupa at hindi ko alam kung anong paniniwalaan.I felt numb. I-I couldn’t even think properly or say something properly. Gusto kong tumakbo… gusto kong magwala… gusto kong….Oh God, what is this?“Chancellor pushed her causing her death. M-Magkasama kami noon at naglalaro nang makita niya ang Mommy mo. Back then, we… we really hated your Mom because we know what’s up between her and dad,” pagpapatuloy ni Chester sa mga bagay na hindi niya nasabi sa akin noon.“She approached us, and it was really an accident. My brother didn’t mean it… we were…” parang dinudurog ang puso ko sa bawat salitang binibigkas niya. His voice was hoarse and breaking. Parang paulit-ulit siyang sinasaksak sa bawat salitang binibitawan, and it breaks my heart hearing him that way. “... we were just children…”Nag-angat ako ng tingin sa kaniya at halos madurog ako nang makita siyang umiiyak. He was doing his b
Masama ang loob ko at walang imik hanggang makabalik kami sa resthouse nila Chester. Maging siya tuloy ay tahimik at hindi ako kinikibo kaya mas lalo lang akong naiinis.Well, I’m not totally mad at him. Naiinis ako sa nalaman ko! And the fact that they’re still friends made me dislike the idea even more. Dumagdag pang parang hindi niya napapansing masama ang loob ko.Eh ‘di do’n siya kay Claire!Wait, no. Ugh!“What’s wrong? Are you mad at me?” tanong niya nang hilahin ako para maupo sa lap niya sa couch dahil tataas na sana ako sa kuwarto.I rolled my eyes. “No,” I simply answered and was about to leave him pero siyempre, hindi niya ako hinayaan. Si Chester ‘yan, eh!“Sinungaling,” mahina at mapanuyang asik niya bago ako ginawaran ng halik sa pisngi. “Tell me, Love. What’s bothering you? Kakaunti lang ang napamili mo dahil kanina ka pang ganiyan.”I rolled my eyes. “Oo nga at kanina ka pa rin walang pake,” asik ko.He groaned as he buried his face on my neck. “I’ve been trying to ca
I saw my whole world fall apart right before my eyes when he uttered those words. How… how is that possible?“What are you saying? T-That can’t be… my father would’ve killed you–!”“He almost did. Remember?” he asked with a ghost of a smile, cutting me off and making me remember that he was right.Galit na galit sa kanya si Daddy noon, and I could vividly remember the night when he was almost killed by my Dad. Hindi ko magawang maintindihan noon ang aking ama, pero ngayong narinig ko ang mga salitang ‘yon mula kay Chester, parang naninikip ang dibdib ko.“Are you sure you want to talk about it already? Paris you seem unwell. I–!”“No,” I said. “Keep talking. But please… nagmamakaawa ako sa’yo. Do not lie this time.”My words were straight and blank. But his eyes tell me that to him, they were like bullets fired into his chest for a reason that I could not name.But after a few blinks, nawala iyon at matamis siyang ngumiti sa akin. “I promise.”Chester and I have been great the next fe
I couldn’t recall how much I cried for a few days because of that. Hindi ko alam kung anong nangyayari, or what triggered them back, but the memories kept flowing like a river that could not be stopped. And along that, I could feel surges of emotion that I could not name. Halo-halo ang nararamdaman ko, and I don’t know if I could even contain all of them. I don’t even know how many days it has been. I was only brought meals inside my room and was taken care of. Minsan binibisita ako nina Daddy at Tita Faureen sa kwarto, but I don’t have the energy to talk to them. When I look at my father, all I can do is cry. Kaya nang lumabas ako sa kwarto, they were all surprised.“Paris? How are you feeling? I should’ve just brought you some food for–!” Napatigil si Tita Faureen sa pagsalubong sa akin nang mapansin niya kung ano ang nakakuha ng atensyon ko pagbaba ko ng hagdan. My lips parted at the sight of tons of flowers in the living room. Some are withered, and some are being saved by Tita